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Roxanne tried to take the duct tape off her mouth.She didnt looked scared or anything.Once she couldnt get it off,she looked at Lillith with folded arms and tapped her foot impatiently.She tried once more and the tape finally came off."Thank you.You can't expect me to scream after you threaten my family." Roxanne's calmness around Lillith.Jesus this girl was going to be evil,you could just tell.She suddenly got really weak kneed.She didnt mean too,the words just slipped out."God you feel good..." As soon as the words escaped,she raised her eyebrow realizing how lesbian-ish that sounded.She pointed at Lillith."You get what i mean." Before she agreed to talking with Lillith she eyed her skeptically.She drew an invisible line between them with her foot."I don't hurt you,you don't hurt me" she was bluffing.Maybe Lillith couldnt tell that she was a bit weaker? Why did everything have to happen to Roxanne when she was alone?!?! Roxanne let out a heavy sigh.Why her? Why did the demon have to talk to her? "Why do you need to talk to me?" she asked,suddenly very skeptical with how calm she was.Like greeting an old friend.From the moment they were just staring at each other in that motel room,she knew that there was something a bit strange between them.They didnt say anything,their eyes just went white.As if they had a silent conversation.
Bianca had a small smile on her face."Sometimes i really do hate when she's right without even knowing.Our Indian Burial ground reference? It's like in voodoo films when you build something on the Indian Burial ground or you take something from a grave or you just defile a grave and the spirit comes out and takes revenge on you and anyone who has done it wrong." The movies,why are the always so helpful to these girls.Bianca put her hands into her pockets.She realized that Roxanne wasnt with them,she only assumed that her sister was blowing off some steam.Bianca sighed."I know we're not like Roxanne and Dean...hell,we barely talk but if you've got anything on your mind,you could tell me" she just wanted to help him in anyway.She felt bad about the lack of relationship that they had.Roxanne and Dean seemed so close yet Bianca and Sam barely said anything to each other and when they did it was either teasing or argueing.There was never a truly decent conversation when they were alone."Believe it or not,i'm a very good listener."Maybe she could help him? Bianca tied her hair into a bun,her poor curls just itching to be released all over the place."I don't want you to feel like i hate you.I like you,you're decent and you seem to care.Plus you make me sister go all-" Bianca began batting her eyelashes and giggling a ton,she couldnt put into words what he does to Roxanne but he makes her a completely different person."-and that's a good sign." she stopped talking,going back to looking around with him.

Roxanne listened carefully at what Lillith was saying,never removing her gaze from the demon.It was strange,it was like a stare down for her.She didnt like what Lillith was telling her at all besides the part that she wasnt going to kill Bianca,that was a true relief.When Lillith flashed away,Roxanne slumped to the ground,bringing her knees into her chest and just staring into the distance at nothing in particular.Why did she have to choose? Sam and the apocalypse or Dean and stopping the apocalypse.She didnt want it to happen but she couldnt just tell Dean that she's with Cas on this one,that he'd have to stop the apocalypse.She wouldnt be sure how he'd react to that.She felt a heaviness in her heart now,she felt hopeless.She couldnt just sit back and watch the apocalypse happen.Yet,something was making her want it to happen.It would be the lives of everyone in the world.She sighed,putting her face into her hands and shaking her head.What was wrong with her!? Lucifer's the king of hell,he'd be nothing like his brother.Yet,there was a pint of hope that maybe if he actually does rise,she could get something out of him.
Bianca was completely with Sam until he got to the hellhounds.She had just gotten over those nightmares."If you're worried then it's something,Sam." She sighed,why did she open healr mouth? She didnt really know what to say to him but she kept trying."I think everyone's been having those hellhound dreams from time to time.As for your visions,you're talking to me,here.I don't know anything about that stuff but your dreams could be visions." she sighed,thinking about his dreams.Poor kid."Maybe your Jessica dreams don't mean anything? You're probably just missing her.Now,the dead bodies-" she tapped her chin."the apocalypse? You're the one with the evil destiny,maybe you kill a ton?" she realized how detatched she sounds.She seemed calm."I know i'm not helpful...i'm trying.I'm just a downer,i'm probably making it worse for you.Just....don't let your dreams control you alright? You've got enough to deal with while you're awake,you shouldnt have to deal with stuff while you're sleeping too." Bianca noticed how long her sister was gone,she was probably fine.Bianca didnt feel anything so she didnt worry."Got any more problems you'd like to share?" she wanted to lighten up the mood so she nudged him with her elbow."Like the ring?" she sang."I wouldnt tell her.I was bluffing,you know.But i like dropping hints just to see your reactions.She's oblivious".

Roxanne looked at Dean,she looked completely afraid.So long for hiding things."Nothing" she lied.When her eyes met his,she broke.Her eyes began tearing up but she fought the tears,she had to.Roxanne sniffled a bit,bringing her legs further into her chest,just wanting to shrink away from the world."Not now,okay? I'll tell you later." she didnt sound like herself,she sounded depressed.Her voice deep and lifeless."W-We've got to focus on the case" a few tears managed to come out but she quickly wiped them away.She knew that there was a red area nearher mouth so she just pinched her face a bit in several places,making it look like she was red from the cold.Even if she told him that,she still sat there.She wasnt even looking at him anymore,more like through him.She was completely out of it.
Bianca smiled."Don't you think we've all changed? I opened a can of b***h on my sister while we were in the library,Sam.She's not too different." Bianca sighed."Well,let's pretend you're a normal couple and you do normal couple things.Why not just talk to her? Bring up hwo you think she's changed.Maybe she'll actually talk to you". That slight bit of bitterness in her voice was back.She realized it."Sorry....i'm a bit....I don't like sharing" that's how she said it.Plain out and direct."She's been mine for so long.Never anyone else's....atleast not entirely.And then there's you." she wouldnt go into the romantics,he knew what he was to Roxanne."Anyway,before i get full on depressive,maybe it's you who's changed.Don't think that i'm turning on you,i'm not,you've changed also." she smiled slightly."I think change is good most of the time,keeps people on their toes.No one would like each other if they stayed the same all the time.Changing just allows you to know people better,see every side of them.Even their bad".

Roxanne grabbed a pillow and smothered her face into it,letting out the loud scream she had been dieing to release.Roxanne sat on the bed and looked at Dean,her shoulders slumped and she had that hopeless feeling again."Lillith" she said,she wanted to pace herself so she wouldnt babble a whole ton."S-she poofed up and just started talking to me.She put duct tape over my mouth to shut me up" she realized how silly that sounds,a powerful demon using duct tape to silence a witch.Really? In what world is that even logical? "She lied about killing Bianca" she wanted to start this off with something that would probably make Dean feel happy before she smacked him with the ending apocalypse deal."My sister gets to live" she tried to sound excited but it all came out flat and depressing.Roxanne shuddered a bit,trying to find her words."She said she's giving me a chance here....that i can choose which story with lead.I've got to choose between you and Sam." Very Vague,Roxanne,very vague."Sam's supposed to bring on the apocalypse,he's Lucifer's vessel and all that stuff but...I've been hpeing that Alistair and Cas were lying...that all of this apocalypse stuff isnt on your shoulders but it is.You're supposed to stop it,Dean.She wants me to choose with letting it happen wtih Sam or stopping it with you." she put her face in her hands,her voice was cracking.She was trying not to cry again."And what's really killing me right now is that...she just appeared and i wasnt afraid or anything.She's telling me all this apocalypse stuff and there was just a moment for me when i seriously considered letting it happen.It's not you and Sam from me,it's the angels and the demons." she felt horrible but she couldnt keep that part locked inside."I'm scared,Dean.Why would i think that? It's the lives of every freaking person in the world and i'm ready to let them all die.Why couldnt it just be other people to have to deal with this stuff,why is it us?" As if Dean had all the answers.Roxanne was freely crying by now.Dean was the only person she'd really break infront of.
Bianca sighed 'investigating',right.More like trying to do work while worrying about Roxanne."You saw it too,right? That she was crying?"

Roxanne shook her head at Dean.His determination made her hopeful but she just couldnt anymore."Dean,i'm not choosing Sam,i'm choosing Lucifer.If i go with the apocalypse then Sam won't be Sam anymore.Lillith said that Lucifer would make sure that there's no more Sam.It would be Lucifer". She sniffled a bit."Dean,what if you're lying to yourself?" she held onto her head,trying not to go crazy.She couldnt loose it."I believe them,Dean.I've got all of you lying to me,telling me that i'm not going to be evil but i know i am.I know i've got it in me.I've had it in me for a while.It's been taking all of my strength to not give in." Roxanne sighed,she had enough.She didnt want to talk about it anymore but there was still one thing left."They're going to want to know...I don't want them to be burdened with this too". There were times when Roxanne would think about being evil and realized how Bianca didnt seem to have a part in anything,it made her wonder how she'd be evil? Would she kill her sister? "Let's just hope that taking matters into our own hands is a good thing.."
Bianca shook her head."He probably won't....and she won't tell me either.We're the little kids that get left in the dark". Well,she felt like that sometimes."But it's something big....Roxanne doesnt cry.She just deals with stuff." How else could Bianca say it? Her sister was the soldier that never blows composer.It didnt matter what she was dealing with,she wouldnt cry cuz people would know something was wrong.She thought about if it was Sam but she wouldnt bring that up,she was just trying to find normal reasons for her sister to be crying.Bianca wanted to lighten things up again."You two could get married,you know.Before the world ends,just not engaged" they were on their way to a courthouse,duh.No one ever thought of just signing the papers in a court house and if things go well in the future,just doing the traditional wedding thing when there's enough time for that."If you can wait,i mean.Don't really want to rush things" She felt that the ring was the only means of light conversation.She did feel something,though.The heaviness,the same one Roxanne felt after speaking to Lillith.

Roxanne just bit her lip and closed her eyes,taking it from Dean.When she opened her eyes,she saw the tear but for once...she didnt try to console him.She just sat there,staring at her feet before getting up."I'm sorry you went to hell for wanting to take care of your brother,i'm sorry all of this s**t is thrown at you." she wasnt going to say anything about Sam.She had nothing to say.He told her what he thought.The way he used Castiel against her....it made her angry."And don't you dare use Castiel against me.You've got an angel,big whoop.Keep your bloody angel." she wanted to be angry at him,she couldnt,but she was going to try."Tell me that i don't love my boyfriend! Just rip at me,Dean! I'm sorry the world's so ******** up and i can't do anything to erase what's happened to you!" Roxanne held onto her head and began pacing.She lost it.She did love Sam! How dare he tell her that she didnt! She walked right up to Dean and slapped him across the face."And don't you ever tell me who i love and don't love.I love Sam!" She was strong enough to slap him but immediatley regretted it."I-I can't do this" she whispered.Now she looked like she was going to start crying again.She lost her sanity.She didnt have Bianca to be her rope and bring her back.That's why the girls were always so close.Even when they didnt seem like it,they had a silent agreement.It wasnt just Bianca keeping Roxane's secret,it was Bianca keeping Roxanne alive.Roxanne just shuddered."Please,Dean....just leave me alone". she walked right past him and left the hotel room to god knows where.She just wanted to be alone,she didnt want to deal with anything.She wanted her sister but she didnt want to do this to Bianca,she just couldnt.
Bianca pulled her legs into her chest."Sam,she loves you too more than anyone she's ever met.Hell,i'd say even more than me.I give her no reason to have confidence.Whenever she does magic i look at her a certain way....it's my fault.Being so afraid that i feel like i'm pushing her." Bianca sighed."She just doesnt want to hurt us.She tells me personal stuff....she'd probably text me a paragraph in the middle of the night and when i turn on my phone in the morning,i'd read.She's never felt good enough for anything.Something good happens to her,she just expects that a ton of bad will happen as penance.She's depressed.Not because of all this hunting stuff...she's always been.The amount of times i've seen her at the edge.I always thought it was because she found out about her parents but...when i think about when we were younger,she'd always laugh and then seem so sad.Like she saw a dog get run over" Bianca shouldnt have said that,Roxanne didnt like Bianca talking about her personal issues.The girl had issues in the normal way,the way most people had."Well,you've just got to ride this out,Sammy.I've got a feeling the apocalypse is going to happen.Sadly,i'm ready for it.People dropping dead like flies,us running from Lucifer.All of that stuff". and the Bianca just stopped talking,her words hanging in the air.She felt like she was going to cry."Somethings wrong..." she whispered but it was audiable to Sam.

Roxanne had ran.She just ran,not caring where she was going,she just wanted to get away.When she finally stopped running,she found herself in a mess of trees.Bianca would laugh at this,Roxanne always found her way to trees when she had something on her mind.Roxanne didnt even have to strength to climb one,she just sat at the base of the tree.She wanted to shrink away from the world.Soon she heard a whooshing sound."Leave me alone Cas" she said,but it wasnt Cas.The voice was different."I would ask you what's wrong but i already know". Roxanne blew her hair out her face."You've been M.I.A and suddenly appear when i'm stressed? Smoothe,Gabe,you're certainly my guardian angel." Gabriel,otherwise known to the group as the trickster,folded his arms and smiled.He just waited for Roxanne to talk."You shouldnt be here.You don't want to be found." "But little Roxy is upset" he said with a slight pout,sitting next to her.Roxanne shook her head."I'm pissed and borderline suicidal,if it wouldnt kill my sister...i could do it.I've always been able to do it" "No you havent,every time you've tried,she'd just bring you back.Don't listen to Dean,you love Sam." Roxanne scoffed."I know that.I just...I don't know.I want to be left alone,that's why i'm out here." Gabriel sighed,standing up."Alright but if you really want to be alone,you know how to call me" and then he was gone.Just like that.He left a chocolate bar in his wake since he was pretending to be a trickster,plus the guy had a sweet tooth.She took the chocolate bar and munched on it,replaying his words.If she wanted out,he could get her out.He always got her out.
"I want to but i can't.My post pshycotic sister is on the loose after an arguement and i can't find any part of me that wants to yell at you" Bianca sighed."If you feel stressed about her bullshit,ever imagine how i feel? Dealing with her my entire life? But i wouldnt let her go,Dean.She's mental.Seriously,that isnt even a joke or an insult towards her,she's got issues as in normal human issues that causes suicides." Something that most people would like other people to know for future references but people find out about it too late."And she doesnt dwell on the past.She worries about the future.Always.She's out there somewhere and you're heading over to Cassie's.This is all just lovely". Bianca took out her phone and called Roxanne,no answer.Of course.

Roxanne just hugged Sam.Dean probably told him,told him that she didnt love him.She just wanted to hug him.She finally let go and leaned back against the tree."I just ran....stopped to buy some candy-" she lied"-i didnt even have to strength to climb." She found it strange that it was so easy for him to find her,did he really know her thought well? The thought made a small smile play on her lips before she looked at the half of the chocolate bar that was left.She showed it to him."Want some?" she looked like a little girl,her hair tied in a ponytail as she just sat there,chewing on chocolate innocently."I'd give you my jacket but it would be too small." She was pretending like nothing was wrong.Like she didnt have tear stains on her face.She sighed,she couldnt pretend for long."I want to tell you everything,Sam.I'm just not sure how you're going to take it.I don't want you to be burdened with it." Well,there's no going back now.He'd want to know.
Bianca sighed."I'm not judging you Dean!" What he said Roxanne said had taken her back a bit.Roxanne...choosing Lucifer? "Maybe she had her reasons for saying that.Maybe you're just taking it the wrong way." Bianca understood what her sister meant but Dean probably didnt if he was so mad about it.Bianca couldnt even explain for Roxanne because it would just seem like she's cleaning up after her sister."But you let her go,Dean." she didnt want to argue,no wonder Roxanne remained neutral whenever Bianca and Sam got into it,one false word and it could be civil war in a relationship.She couldnt stand innocents dying.She hated it but her sister was her first priority right now."I just hope Sam finds her."