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Posted: Sat Jan 28, 2012 1:27 pm
Dark Bunny Lord Yeah cause someones holding up the rp >_> D: Sorry, I was at a party all yesterday. I'm making it now lol.
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Posted: Sat Jan 28, 2012 1:28 pm
NNnnoooo! I haven't even been tested yet!
...for Captaincy.
Not a venereal disease...
I'm going to stop talking now.
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Posted: Sat Jan 28, 2012 1:29 pm
Asuma Haruka Dark Bunny Lord Yeah cause someones holding up the rp >_> D: Sorry, I was at a party all yesterday. I'm making it now lol.Tsk tsk, putting real life before an online roleplay, you need to sort out your priorities sir lol
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Posted: Sat Jan 28, 2012 1:54 pm
>.>
Hey now, I had quite a good time. XD
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Posted: Sat Jan 28, 2012 3:20 pm
*sulks*
I'm tired of life being s**t...
It's like there are things in life that give me hope then it just gets left at that... just hoping.
Trying to get my life together and it's like no matter how hard I try, how deeply I meditate, who I talk too, everything keeps collapsing in on me.
As you all know I'm unemployed, and while I desperately search for some sort of work I have requested the state for "financial assistance." It's nothing more than something to tide me over to spring where I know then I'll find something for sure.
However work in Michigan during winter months sucks... we're a tourist state and nothing more. So when the snow falls that's it, if you're not working by then, you probably wont have anything.
After being laid off due to family issues/differences I was left without a job. Now I'm sitting here feeling stripped of everything that a person needs to feel like... well a person.
An adult grown man shouldn't be graduated from college, without a job, and depending on his Fiancee's mother to keep him fed and housed.
This is pitiful.
I want a life, I want a job...
I want to feel like every other American adult and earn my place in this world, not sit around and collect pity money for the poor.
All this combined my ONLY get away has been this Guild. Though parts of it can be stressful I truly enjoy it more than I get worked up over it, though lately that'd be understandably easy to not see it.
I don't mean to freak out about the little things, and I know it's far from healthy to put so much of one's life into a hobby such as RPing / Writing / Drawing but I have nothing else guys. To be very painfully obvious the only time I can manage any sort of energy or happiness is when I'm here... writing, or drawing something for Elzee or sleeping next to my Fiancee.
Even when I'm hanging out playing D&D with friends and family I am not having fun anymore. I see so much drama in peoples lives that seems... at least to me so silly and utterly pointless. There are those in my life that fret over the smallest of things, and hold the must redundant grudges (mad at someone else for the very stupid things THEY do). I watch my in-laws give in to every whim they're 2 year old child cries about, for petes sake, it's alright to let them holler, because chances are they're just looking for attention, and everyone can see it but them. She has both of her parents wrapped tightly around her finger.
And I know this last little rant is the furthest form the truth and for some reason I cannot identify what the real issue is, but I feel ignored, by like... everyone. I mean I know I'm not, I can see it, but it's just a haunting feeling that hangs over me like a little gray cloud. I guess to put it more plainly, I feel like a face in the crowd, no matter how loud I shout there are others always shouting louder.
*sighs*
Life is rough for everyone, but damn... can't it give just a little here and there?
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Posted: Sat Jan 28, 2012 3:35 pm
I feel your pain, I have a masters and 4 certificates as well as a decent job history and the best I can land currently is barely above minimum wage. Best of all it's in southern California, where rent for even a shitty apartment in the ghetto is 4-5x minimum wage not including utilities. I mean, I'm glad I have something but honestly I'd be earning more money not working and collecting unemployment than I am while working (which says something about how the system is set up). The only reason I don't quit is because I know how bad that gap in employment can look when trying to land something better XP
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Posted: Sat Jan 28, 2012 6:39 pm
Yeah Stock, life seriously blows. haha, I have been having a lot of life issues myself.
I was told in novemeber I had melanoma which is currently okay, but I work a full time job in order to pay my bills, and this still isn't enough. Lol, I struggle for things, so I have to choose between internet and spending money.
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Posted: Sat Jan 28, 2012 10:56 pm
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Posted: Sun Jan 29, 2012 9:00 pm
I know, I'm able to slack off more, enjoy more of my life by having no job and collecting unemployment, (or I would anyways). It's pathetic really.
However a friend of mine may have helped me land a slightly above minimum wage job and hours anywhere between 8am to 5pm which is perfect. I love having a life, and those work hours are extremely perfect for me. However it's only a part-time job and again, it's a job that has nothing to do with Graphic Design but hopefully I'll perhaps be able to persuade this fellah later on down the road to design him some stuff for advertising.
One thing that always remains in life, is that the second you actually give up, you begin to suffocate and sink quickly beneath the surface.
When I was rushed to the ER for having an asthma attack on top of Pneumonia and an accidental medication overdose I as just that. Having my life literally saved from suffocation / heart attack things didn't look so bleak after-all.
*sighs*
I just wish that all of us didn't have to go through so much s**t just to gain so little in life. It sucks even more when I see other people seemingly have it so easy.
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Posted: Sun Jan 29, 2012 9:58 pm
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Posted: Mon Jan 30, 2012 1:58 am
RPing Elzee has been extremely therapeutic for me lately, even though her most recent RP is far from happy and extremely depressing.
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Posted: Mon Jan 30, 2012 2:41 am
Hey, I'd like some peeps to play games with, add me if ya want! I love to talk and just ditz around playing whatever!
XBOX 360 - STOCKFISCH PS3 - STOCKFlSCH (the i is actually a lower-case L)
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Posted: Mon Jan 30, 2012 9:35 am
I was under the understanding that the Arrancar party was for Arrancar. WHY are their shinigami there?
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Posted: Mon Jan 30, 2012 9:36 am
Split Personality I was under the understanding that the Arrancar party was for Arrancar. WHY are their shinigami there? Because we kidnapped them to light a fire.
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Posted: Mon Jan 30, 2012 9:38 am
To do what? I thought it was a meeting of Arrancar to discuss stuff... not start problems. emotion_facepalm I ain't throwing my Arrancar in there... to have captains come save their people and kill her.
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