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 Posted: Thu Mar 01, 2007 5:51 pm
Ill look for the Krishnamurti book. My friend is pestering me to read Siddhartha (yes ive actually never read it), but the idea of a religious Indian book written by a white man bothers me.
I just saw a Dada exhibit in S.F not that long ago...it was actually rather impressive. If you ever do go to New York you need to go to the Frcik the Met and the cloisters...they are some of the most amazing museums Ive ever been to.
The last time I was violent...probably like 30 seconds ago...ok Ill think about this seriously...hmmmm. Physical violence? I whacked my friend Edward today pretty hard...but hes Tongan and so big its scary...it was playful but violence should never be used, even in a playful way.
My friends. One of my best friends lives in seattle, has a severe eating disorder, and has nothing in common with me. Another of my best friends is a church girl (btw I am not christian and I know nothing about christianity) I have nothing in common with her either...My 2 closest friends go out. They love the same music as me and Ive had a bit of a physical relationship with both of them. Theyre both incredibly nice, play various instruments, and love my insanity. I cant understand why such wonderful people would ever want to be friends with me, but I love them both very much. Theyre also my concert buddies...Ive probably only gone to a max of 3 concerts without them. My friend Elizabeth makes my clothes and feeds my ego. My amigo Emiliano keeps me down to earth. They are spirtual connections trustworthy to the hilt- though I rarely bother talking about matters that require trust. I never thought a group of 3 could work so well. I love being alone more than anything- but Im glad I have some good friends.
So now its your turn to answer my question. and...cats or dogs? and The most life changing experience youve had.
I need to go finish making chili verde enchilada sauce now.
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Posted: Thu Mar 01, 2007 8:27 pm
By the way, the violence question was a reference to Dark Side Of The Moon. The random speaking that goes under the mix is questions they asked to various people at the studio (supposedly Paul McCartney is on there, but everyone knows he was dead by then). That was one of the questions.
Dogs. Cats are too much like people. Full of pretentions and bullshit. Dogs are straightforward and adorable. I have three dauchunds, D-Bo, Ollie-bear, and Wee-wee (or Douglas, Oliver, and Princess Gwendeline, they are just as funny either way).
Like I said my best friend lives in Washington. The funny thing is that the only time we met was for 3 weeks at a thing up in North Carolina, but we stayed in touch and became best friends, even though we almost never see eachother, and it's been like 4 years like that. She's very bohiemian, artistic and has a very dynamic personality. Also she is very personally religious, but doesn't empose it on anyone else. Another of my really good friends lives in Atlanta, and I met him at the same thing in North Carolina. He is basically a guitar god, and although we only talk probably once every two months or so, when we do, it's the most spiritual stuff ever, or metaphysical stuff. We both believe that Jimi Hendrix was like the musical incarnation of the Buddha, based on verious quotes and life philosophies. Then I actually have a friend that lives in town (for once) who spends all day at home playing World Of Warcraft. We watch a lot of movies together, and he's just a very interesting guy. We have talked for like days before, litterally. Like start talking at about 8 at night and go to bed at around 4 or 5. Not days, but that is a long talk. He is a lot more concrete in his beliefs and trys to "save" other people from themselves, which is refreshing, in a world where so few do what they believe in. Then there are my soon-to-be bandmates, Sam, a dude who is nice enough, although in my paranoia (perhaps) he comes off as insensere sometimes, do to the fact that he never seems to give negative critasism, and he has god aweful taste in music for the most part. Rachel, who is one of the coolest kids I have ever had the pleasure of meeting, huge Tool fan, huge Radiohead fan, big fan of Incubus, into a lot of good punk, alternative and indie stuff. Also good taste in movies, art, and quite philisophical, even if she likes math as it pertanes to philosophy (I personally believe that math doesn't actually work, so we make up rules to justify its flaws. Same with science. Bascially everything humans do in supposed "objectivity" is flawed to me. Only by accepting our subjective nature can we do anything meaningful aka art). She's also a good photographer and makes cool collages, and plays a mean guitar for having such little hands. Probably one of the coolest people I've ever met. Besides Saul Williams and this dude name Grisha that taught the class where I read the Krishnamurti book and watched Waking Life. That is a story for another day, or another question. Then there is Davis, our drummer, fairly athletic, reasonably mainstream as people go (atleast on the surface. He doesn't show his true colors all the time... actually quiet a deep guy), but with a pretty good life philosophy. We don't have a terrible lot in common, except mutial love for a great many bands and Edward Norton (The Illusionist is amazing. Fight Club and American History X are beyond that. He's the only actor in 2 of my top 10 movies, 3 if I'm feeling particularly kind to the Illusionist.)
On a complete aside, Tom Morello totally ripped his solo for Settle For Nothing from something he wrote for Lock Up (Where The Sky Meets The Street). I mean, just a part of it, but I was like "What the ********? That's familiar. Back to the question.
I have a friend that lives in New Zeland who has one of the coolest life philosophies of anyone I've met. Just the way he looks at life is really cool. Probably becuase he was basically like the most popular kid in highschool, and then he sort of got fed up with how fake everything was. We actually became really good friends sort of randomly, becuase I was told that he liked Incubus a lot so I went up to him at a party and was like "I hear you like Incubus. I want to meet you." and he thought that was just so cool of me. He is the guy that has Brandon's arm tatoo. He is probably the only person that I would totally trust to completely share creative control with in a project of the arts, which is why at some point we want to do some sort of musical/film concept deal, or I want to write a score for him or he direct a music video for me. Then there is this girl Sarah, who is really cool, good taste in music, mostly lighter, more easy going stuff (her favorite band is Animal Collective), but she is one of the most sincerely nice people I've ever met. She is really self concious and it's just adorable. She also use to be really popular and then sort of turned into a folksy sort of music lover. She's one of the few people that I would concider truely beautiful.
Basically I have a whole lot of friends, but that's some of them. Actually I spend a lot of my time alone though. I feel compelled to add one more person though. My friend Caroline. We alway talk about how we have really kinky sex. I have so much fun with her. Even if we always start talking about something dirty.
Most life changing experiance. That philosophy class, taught by Grisha, where I started reading the Krishnamurti book and saw Waking Life. All that and it was at sort of a pivitol point in my life "where a boy becomes a man" and all that. Just kidding. I guess it was a pivitol point though. Basically the whole thing changed the way I looked at... everything. That was the same time that I bought Battle Of Los Angeles and starting getting very much into music. Basically, I started becoming the person I am now, from someone who I suppose was less of what I am now than what I am now. Awesome.
Honestly I don't care about your cat/dog preference. But I'll ask anyway, and also what is your most life changing experiance. I'm going to buy a Frusciante album, but which should I buy? What is your most valued posession (or list of if you can't decide) Would you rather be blind of deaf?
Also, just becuase a guy is white doesn't mean that he can't have an enlightened view on eastern religion. Honestly, I've never even heard of "Siddartha" the book. I don't really... read. At all. Well, very rarely.
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Posted: Thu Mar 01, 2007 9:43 pm
Well Im going to have to tell you sometime so it might as well be now...I dont like Pink Floyd- at all. And Dark Side of the Moon...yeah....no.
I love cats. Dogs are too needy. Human affection is fine...but dogs...no. Plus Ive always been tiny and dogs are so big... and Ive always been able to communicate with cats. Frusciante always said that dogs drive him crazy with their barking- that they make it impossible to hear music. And he's right...insane...but right. Cats are pretentious? I swear my cat is literaly retarded. I renamed him Badass a few days ago because hes so retarded he does badass things.
My most life changing experience. I cant really think of one. Maybe highschool because thats when I started speaking out and becoming my own person. Ive defended a lot of people, stood up against authority, and done some crazy things...that all came from that primal change.
I was just thinking of something interesting...I was getting letters from men in prison asking for books and there were a few that were so amazing. One guy said that his sister had been murdered by a serial killer...another said he was in for life but he wasnt bitter, he had started writing poetry. The best was entirely in Spanish. The most beautiful handwriting Ive ever seen.
Frusciante:
Shadows Collide With People = most acclaimed, very odd
To Record Only Water For Ten Days = maybe the best for me.
Niandra LaDes & Usually Just a Tshirt = his first album. It is hardcore weird...but very good. I think youd like it.
Curtains = theres something almost mainstream about it, but its VERY good. Great singles.
Most valued possesion. My music and my books. I dont like the idea of possesions, of material goods that are hoarded...pero me encanta mi musica y mis libros.
Blind or deaf. Thats too hard. I cant imagine life without music, and I cant imagine life without colors and light and art. I just dont know. I guess deaf, because you can still function and get around, and read. Theres also more of a chance of regaining your hearing then your sight. When you cant see...you can no longer get around on your own or do things for yourself.
Same questions for you and who do you think youre going to vote for in the next election...oh! and what is Alabama like?
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Posted: Sun Mar 04, 2007 12:08 pm
BTW if you can find the movie Zabriskie Point you should see it. Totally changed my life.
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Posted: Sun Mar 04, 2007 4:53 pm
You are the first person I've ever met who has good music taste and doesn't like Pink Floyd. But all the same... we can't be friends anymore.
I don't like big dogs either. We have little dogs. And Wee-wee used to be retarded, but she's getting better. But cats to me are like goldfish. You have them around but they don't really do anything... I don't know. I don't have cats so I can't say. Either way, I'm not having pets. Maybe a snake. Just cause snakes are hot.
I'm afraid of standing up to authority. I'm all "yes suh mista boss man suh!" when it comes to that sort of thing.
I agree with you about possessions. I would be fine if my whole room burned down with everything in it, even releaved (although it might take a while). Although I would like to keep my instruments, atleast my classical guitar. I mean, music is nice, but that's not really something that you can lose. I mean, you can lose records, cds, computers, and all that, but once you've experianced the music and internalized it, it's there, and besides that, there will always be place to go hear it... I mean, how can you "own" music? How can you even own an idea? Things we create are like children, we can shape them to some extent, but we don't own them, and they often go in directions unforseen to us. And we definately don't need to live vicariously through our creations. As for books, you know me. I don't read. But honestly sometimes I feel tied down by all of my junk. I have cool clothes, nice posters, numerous CDs, all manner of nick-nacks and all that, but I don't really have any of that, and maintaining the illusion of ownership seems negative. Cause really, we can't own anything, we can try to dominate stuff, but everything we have can be taken away. That's why it kinda disgusts me that United States was founded on the ideas of "freedom, equality [of potential for political power], and property." People are so obsessed with materialism, it's just kinda gross. I'm trying to do better about not defining my supposed possessions as part of me, but in this consumer culture, that can be very difficult, especially with all these outside sources to blame for my shortcommings.
I use to say deaf, but now I'm going with blind. You're being pretty harsh on blind people I'd say. The problem with being deaf is that it is so hard to communicate, truely communicate with anyone. I mean you can write, or sign (only to people who know it) or read lips, but you can't express that unqualifable part of communication that comes from the way you talk. Seeing the movie Babel made me realise that. Also, being blind would allow you to see the world in a different way, where being deaf would only make the world more void. Blind people can still read in brail, also.
Voting is a purely symbolic act. One vote does not make any difference. People have told me, "Well if you don't vote, then you can't complain when you don't like what the government does" or "It's your civic duty." It's total bullshit. The first one is so ******** pretentious, someone else thinking that they can tell me what I can and cannot complain about, and besides that, I have no faith in the electoral process anyway. It's always the same unimportant bullshit, the same symbolic gestures, the same political power struggle fighting some illusionary war between democrates and republicans when they are the exact same ******** thing. I don't agree with any of the politicians. I don't agree with the idea that someone can tell someone else how to run their life. I mean, if a government exists at all, it seems like they should do something to help those in need, but the poor get poorer and the rich get richer... I don't give anyone the right to "represent" me, so voting is a symbolic act that I would loath to endorse. And I never asked to be an American, I never pledged my self to something as arbitrary as a country (except for the "pledge of allegiance, and once I realised what that actually ment, I stopped saying it... It's creepy as ******** to think that they make kids say it their whole lives... I mean, that really desturbs me) . Patriotism is total bullshit. It makes me mad - it's just like racism only people think it is okay! We are better because we are from here, you are worse because you are from there. Why can't we work to make everyone better? Why can't we be like, hey we're all humanity, let's stop fighting and do some good. But no, we have to find arbitrary degrees of seperation, make this an us vs them like everything else. It makes me sick. I like Germany, becasue there, if you are really patriotic, people get worried about you. They know what it means to back their government without thinking about it. The whole idea of politicas just gets me really mad. I think that everyone is missing the point... of everything.
What is Alabama like? Well, for one we don't wear shoes. Actually, my mom and dad are cousins. Dogs walk people. We wear socks on our hands and gloves on our feet. The lawn mows us.
Basically, from what I can tell, a lot of people are ignorate about a lot of things, just like everywhere else. Having met kids from around the country, I'm not sure if they are that different. Maybe they run a bit more "concervative" around here. Maybe the church is sort of a major social club around here. Maybe people tawk sorta fuhny. The adults here scare me. The obsession with sports, especially football scares me, but I'm sure that exists to some extent other places. I can't really give an accurate account, becuase the only other place I've lived is North Carolina, and that was when I was 5. But my mom says that comming to Alabama is like going back 20 years in time. I call it a cultural blackhole, but as my friend pointed out, it's a cultural whitehole. Stuff comes through Birmingham, but not as often. Everything big hits Atlanta almost every year, but they only come to Birmingham every couple of tours. When it comes to less well known acts, they almost never come here. Except apparently there is a club in Birmingham that gets some really cool underground acts... I haven't been there yet. There are only basically two or three music venues that I know of, one is screamo garbage in the basement of a church, one is alright indie acts in a church, and one is local and some more underground guys from around the southeast. That is the only one I have been to for a while, mainly becuase my friends band plays there. There are some actually halfway descent clubs (for Alabama standards) but they are 19 and up usually, and they only are there because this is a college town. When it comes to art, they occationally have competitions in the upstairs of a local theatre, which my mom is in sometimes. There are two theatres that show some independant stuff occationally, and sometimes they get some jazz and blues bands. That's pretty rare, at least when it comes to me hearing about it. My school is predominately black, but there are almost no black people in any of the advanced classes. The private schools are almost all white. A lot of people get drunk all the time, but I assume that is the way it is everywhere. There are a lot of kids who hate the way it is here. There are also a lot of decent people that aren't trying to escape. I don't really know what else to say about it right now. Besides that the arts aren't really publically funded, and people don't take them seriously. Not like football.
Why do men from prison write you letters? What is it like in the places you've lived? What do you think of your so-called peers? What do you think about elections and the government and all that?
My band officially has written one song. It's pretty good. I have to write lyrics for it, but I don't remember how it goes.
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Posted: Sun Mar 04, 2007 4:54 pm
diomedesofcrete BTW if you can find the movie Zabriskie Point you should see it. Totally changed my life. Didn't Pink Floyd do part of the soundtrack? I think they did.
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Posted: Sun Mar 04, 2007 7:00 pm
Ive been on gaia a lot this weekend in an effort to avoid any form of work. Im starting to regret it now that Im making a list of things to do. ******** Pink Floyd did some of the soundtrack- with Jerry Garcia and 1 Rolling Stones song (off of Beggars Banquet). Zabriskie Point...a great movie...but an even better landmark (Its in Death Valley aka the place I love most in the world). I always said if I had a son Id name him Zabriskie...which freaks people out. ******** them.
I love snakes. I have no idea why. A few years ago I was hiking in the mountains and I almost stepped on a gigantic rattle snake. I ended up serenading him with George Harrison songs and naming him Woody ( After Ronnie Wood and Woody Woodmansey).
Ive got a few friends in North Carolina. I met them while I was in New York last year. So I officialy think NC is awesome.
Prison letters. Theres something in Berkeley called Prison Literature Project. Basically guys in high security prisons and the like write in letters asking for books to read. Some write simple letters. Most ask for art books and Spanish dictionaries. You find the books they want and write back if you choose. Its odd...but interesting.
My primary home is the Bay Area (Oakland, Berkeley, San Francisco). Its your typical major-cirty urbania. People come from all over the world and speak many languages. Every band passes though SF, but its impossible to go to every show you want to. We have BART which is a blessing. Its basically the subway and makes it so much easier to get around SF. Theres a pretty cool jazz scene- one of my friends is this bass prodigy who travels around playing Jazz gigs around the bay.
I live in a place where you worry about friends getting deported, where students show off their guns with wild abandon, and most people are athiests. Ive only ever gone to public school, and all my schools have been predominantly Black, Hispanic, and Asian. People are very liberal and artsy. It actually gets a bit boring. I live in the home of the Black Panthers, the As, and Haight st. That basically sums it up. I also live in New York for a month or 2 each year...I hate it. I grew up going between Los Angeles and the Bay. Right now I feel like its time to get back to LA. Im sick of it here. Im the only person I know that wants to leave. Im not sure whos crazy anymore.
I hate my peers. I have no respect for their opinion, their social groups, or the things they do. I hate the way they follow trends, be it fashion or myspace, or political views. My "peers" will latch on to teachers political opinios either to suck up or because its easier than thinking. I hate their vapid nature, how they actually DONT WANT to think for themselves. Ive always felt a bit alone here, for the most part because I cant pretend to fit in. As Ive said before, Im not rejected simply because Im not ugly. My best friends live in the city next to mine. I see them a few times a month and talk on the phone to them everyday. Its how I survive the people I have to see on a daily basis. Why are people so ******** fake?
Political matters. Voting is extremely important to me. Im obsessive about freedom and democracy. My life is devoted to fighting Rage style for justice and freedom. There is nothing more corrupt then government, religion, and buisness - basically society. I try to see through corruption. I try to influence people, get them to stop thinking they way "theyre supposed to." I dont think about true anarchist- communist- socialist revolution much. I think people would have to be incredibly different for true revolution to take place. I think things will change...but not during my lifetime. Honestly right now I hate the state governments of the south east, for the most part becuase of their Mexican deportation bullshit. Its sick.
Romantic Rights- Death from above 1979 just came on my mix...such a good song. The Dalia Lama is speaking at this venue I go to concerts all the time...Id go see him...but its so expensive.
I need to hear your band once you have something recorded...and are you getting a Frusciante record?
What do you think of your peers? If you could meet anyone in the world, at this exact second,who would it be ? what is your perfect outfit? Sorry if Ive asked any of that before.
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Posted: Sun Mar 04, 2007 8:39 pm
When you mentioned snakes I was like "What the ********?" but then I realised that I had also mentioned them.
North Carolina is a beautiful place to live. My mom was really sad to movie, even if we did live in a haunted house.
I don't think change will ever come. I think things will be terrible until the end of humanity. But that is not actually a bad thing. Without the world being so ******** terrible, there would be nothing to compare the beauty that is art to, their would be no conflict to create that beauty... Without the world being ******** up, people like you and I wouldn't exist. People that have become something, that have grown despite barriers. Without the world being as ******** up as it is, nothing would have meaning (althought arguably, nothing has meaning either way). The fact that the world being as ******** up as it is makes it more perfect almost makes me believe in some sort of a god. I certainly never would have realised that making everything nice and pleasant would mean that nothing was nice, pleasant or even existant. Without an opposite, things cannot exist... almost... or something. I mean, if everything is meaningful, than nothing is... Only by drawing the line somewhere does something become something...
I might be going to Seattle (I'm probably not) so I'm not spending any money until I know for sure. But I'm probably getting NL&UJAT and maybe Shadows too whenever I do order stuff. Plus Buckethead released a 13 album set called INSEARCHOFTHE (each letter is an album) so I atleast want to get a letter or two of that.
My peers are terrible. Girls care about all sort of meaningless bullshit. Guys care about sex and sports. And cars. And meaningless bullshit. Everyone uses everyone else. Everyone is fake to each other. Everyone cares about tradition. Do things the way they have been done in the past. All their bullshit who is going out with who, what celebrity did what, did you catch blah blah blah last night? Why don't we just ******** forget our own lives and escape to someone else who is interesting. And they are all going to be rich and famous and significant and find true love and have kids. ******** kids. And probably raise them the same messed up way they were raised. Living vicariously through them, becuase in fact they weren't rich, famous, significant, and never found love, so maybe if their kids are, they won't have existed for nothing. Becuase they can't imagine a world that doesn't revolve around them. They have to exist for ever.
I guess I would want to meet Zack, and ask him what we are going to do with the world. I mean, I was thinking of a philosophical or spiritual leader, and I can't think of any, I can't think of any great social leaders or anything. Everyone who did anything is dead. I mean, Zack and Saul Williams are the closest I can come to any sort of social or spiritual thinker right now, and I've already sort of met Saul. Or maybe I would meet Buckethead and try to become his diciple. Honestly, I don't put much stock in famous people anymore, and meeting a random person is something I could do anyway. I would just have to go downtown or something. But Zack seems like he might have something cool to say, and I wouldn't mind hearing what he thinks about things.
I'm not sure if it's my "favorite outfit" but one I wear very frequently now is this green oversizes fake suade button up shirt (open) with this orange Obey shirt, silver jeans (they don't really look silver, but that's what they claim to be), my nice hat, hoop earings, my gypsy beads, and my mirror necklace. I also like wearing my poofy pirate shirts in gerneral. Just with jeans or whatever. Also another nice one is this cordoroy pasley purple buttonup with my purple pants, pink shoes and this really cool scarf that I steal from my mom. I wear that to local concerts a lot. I think I wore it at Incubus too. I'll send you some pictures at some point.
Same questions. What sort of things do you do in your free time. Like try to describe a typical day or something (I know with you crazy Californians, there is probably no such thing as a typical day, but with us Alabamians, things can be very simple sometimes).
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Posted: Sun Mar 04, 2007 9:24 pm
My friend just asked me whats one off the oddest things that has happened to me in the past couple months...and I realized...holy ********- I somehow ended up in the front row of a killers concert...and truth be told I have NO idea how I got there. Im going to spend the next week trying to remember how I ended up there...because last thing I remember was dancing with a friend and a few memebers of a band in the middle of the street in SF. So whats the oddest thing youve done in the past few months?
I love Seattle. I only get to go there a few weeks a year...but its amazing. Try to go. Its a bigger deal then a N and an O record.
If I could meet anyone at this exact second...it would be my friend Elizabeth...I dont feel like dealing with famous people now.
My favorite outfit of late is my tight white jeans (skinny jeans) with the biker belt I found on the side of the road...with my Tool shirt (or cowboy-courtier shirt) With my red velvet jacket and bat shoes. No Jewelry...except maybe a cameo.
In my free time I...Listen to music...play my instruments...waste time...read...street crusade...write...put together posters made of tons of pictures of rockers and blues players I like....I basically lay around doing nothing. Im not very interesting. Hmmmm a typical day. Get up early...put on the clothes I think will freak my peers out the most. Go to classes. Listen to music while working on my Ceramic project. On somedays Ill hook up with my friend Isaiah...then take a walk with my friend Chrissy. Go to the library and pray for a ride...after that Ill either BART into SF for a concert or my amigas casa in a nearby city. If not then Ill go home and procrastinate by listening to MORE music. At 9:00 I might do some work. There isnt a true typical day...but I do that a lot..
Will the universe ever stop expanding, and why? Whats your typical day?
Youll have to send me pictures.
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Posted: Tue Mar 06, 2007 9:24 pm
Once I have a day where I feel good about my hair, and happen to have someone around to take them (or I figure out how to work my nice new camera...) I will send you pictures.
Um... I sometimes wish that "going to a concert" was even a monthly thing. But ultimately I guess I'm okay with it now. Ever sinse Incubus, I really don't care about concerts in the same way that I use to. At all.
And I don't think I'm going to Seattle, simply becuase a great deal of bullshit has been happening here, and it's just too messy. Plus we can't afford tickets right now, especially this close to when I would be leaving.
The Tool version of No Quarter. Amazing... Comparing it to Zeppelin's I like Tools better.
... I'm tired. I'll finish this tommorow.
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Posted: Wed Mar 07, 2007 6:59 pm
Tool is amazing. Try A Perfect Circle if you havent yet...
I hope everythings ok with you right now
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Posted: Wed Mar 07, 2007 9:10 pm
I mean, I like Perfect Circle, but it's more like "What if Maynard was in a sort of normal alternative band" as far as I've heard from Mer De Noms. I haven't given it a real solid listen yet though.
And things are fine with me, for the most part, although your concern is appriciated. Just other peole in my family. Actually, I would have finished that last night except my friend called me in the middle of it and by the time I got off the phone it was like... late.
I learned "Where I And You Begin" on bass. It's one of my favorite songs ever. I haven't listened to Radiohead as much as I used to. And I didn't realize that House Of The Holy was such a good album... Rain Song, No Quarter, Dancing Days (that song is just so infectiously catchy, it is one of the few songs that consistantly makes me smile), and The Song Remains The Same... Anyway, questions.
I don't even know if the universe exists in the way we recognise it. See, I am of the opinion that everything created by man just expresses his underlieing beliefs, science and math are not exceptions. When people start thinking that they are objective, that's when problems start. So the universe could be infinate and we could be like "according to science that is impossible" and ignore it, or, desiring an existance that never ends, we could say "Of course it is infinate" even though it might not be. Honestly, I don't care. If the Big Cruch happens, and everything ceises to exist, it won't be negative, it will just be neutral. I mean, according to scientists, the extent to which the doplar effect of stars is increasing is slowing, which is to say, I believe, that the percent at which there speed is increasing is decreasing, which may or may not mean that things will stop expanding, or contracting or what. I'm to insignifacant in the grand scale of the universe for any of this to really concer me. I'm not really curious about sciency things. Hopefully, I will never have to take a science class again... I mean, unless they outer reaches of the cosmos has space, their would be no reason for the outermost stars to decelerate, which would mean that either the universe, but perhaps not the things in it, will expand forever, or that this universe is not self contained and is part of something larger... Weird to think about. Also an infinate blackness in which what we call the universe exists and is expanding, although never to become large enough to be significant at all... Sort of like point on a coordinate plane. It represents something with no size at all, in an infinate field. The whole idea is giving me this major creative vib. Which is good, becuase I was getting drawer's block with this abstract piece I was working on.
I usually get up somewhere between 6:45 adn 7:20. I make myself some breakfrest, almost always just fruit and milk, and take a shower if it's been a while. Honestly sometimes it takes me like 10 minutes to decide what to wear. Right now I'm waking up to the soundtrack for Waking Life, but for a long time I was waking up to Kid A, which is a really good one (I got the idea from Vanilla Skies). Anyway, go to school, which I live like 5 minutes away from but it takes like 10 or 15 to get their because of really weird traffic in my neighborhood. It get's really conjested like right outside my house basically. There is jazz band first off, where I pretend that I am playing the song, but it's way too hard, so I just practice chords and scales and stuff. Then AP-Calculus, which is usually not too bad, AP Government, where me and the teacher listen to Tool and the like while everyone else is at lunch. Then Spanish which is the worst class ever. The teacher is a wicked wicked person... It's not the worst class ever, and we learn and stuff. But the teacher seems genuinely mean sometimes. I'd much rather be in art though. After school I usually hang around, talk to a couple of my teacher friends and my friends who don't have cars, and once most people have left I go home. Then I eat lunch, usually watch some sort of movie or concert on TV or occationally some show that's been recorded or something, usually for about 2 hours or so, sometimes longer if anyone else is home and I'm feeling non-recluse... Although I've been very good about not watching TV recently... And I haven't played videogames in ages... Both things that I've been working on not doing. Then I either take a nap or practice some guitar. Dinner somewhere in there, and then I get on the computer and listen to music, occationally do homework, although most of the time, if I have homework I just get up at 5 or 6 the next morning to do it. I usually go to bed between 10 and 12. Honestly, I'm not always sure where all the time goes. But yes, I basically do nothing. I rarely see anyone after school on weekdays, and only occatinally on weekends. Occationally there will be something going on like a local concert or something that I will go and see, but those are usually Friday or Saturday... On the weekends I basically see people, watch movies, or play guitar, listen to music, all that good stuff. I spend a lot of time researching bands online, usually via wikipedia... I think that is where all the time goes that I don't know where it goes.
Thinking about how I never do anything is somewhat depressing. But I'm actually feeling pretty good.... Even if I do have a truelly typical day and it's like everyday.
Rant about something that makes you really mad. Or something that you just find interesting or important.
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Posted: Sat Mar 10, 2007 5:22 pm
A rant? Thats just too easy right now. Ive got so many things to go off on. Right now Im so pissed off at this ICE/Migra bullshit with their crazy a** deportation of immigrants becuase theyre not used to them. ******** southeners. Sorry Alex...I know your a south-east kid so I wont go off on this subject...Ill think of something else.
Ok the Bay Area. Oakland CA. Where I live...home of the Black Panthers, Tupac, and the As. The murder rate here is out of hand. Weve ranked in the 8 most dangerous cities in the nation. Its ******** scary here. 148 murders in 06. 555 homicides in the past 5 years...and were not THAT big a city.The worst part is its all self genocide. Its almost completely blacks killing blacks...and what can we do? Some isnt even gang related..a lot is actually like "you stole my parking space so now I have to shoot you" and no Im not even kidding in the slightest. Were all so apathetic to it. Were used to it..we wake up in the morning and theres been another murder this week...w/e its been this way for years. For me its even worse- everyday I used to wake to reports that tons of people have been killed in my homeland( and occasionaly now I hear about it)...Im so used to things like that Ive come to barely notice. Except when its close. My friends boyfriend died last year...and another friend died in a drive-by. And one of my close friend is almost dead with anorexia...everyones just...leaving. Is there anything that can stop this violence? Can people honestly come to repect one another? Im not sure what I believe in anymore.
I just made up a pretty good bass-line. I need tp play it for Emiliano- my partner in the Enchilada Verde Experience.
Your turn to rant.
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Posted: Mon Mar 12, 2007 11:39 pm
Southerners are terrible. I have no regional loyalty. Which is a good place to start a rant, although I've already been here before but:
Patriotism! What the ********? What makes us better just becuase we are from this country? Damn it. There was something on TV about how America need to stay competative in the global market and how bad it is about China becoming the next superpower. Who cares? Why does America have to be the best just becuase we live hear? And people get so upset when you question their "This is the best country ever, why don't we just nuke everyone else?" My mom had students that didn't understand why we were at war with Iraq, because they seriously thought we should just nuke the whole Middle East. And why is it so okay to kill civilians? There was something on the history channel about how many people got killed in various bombings and it's just rediculous. What makes that not absolutly abhorent? And what is with this obsession with wealth? I mean, that is part of the whole war on immigrants thing, is that it will "cost money to take care of people." What the ******** is money for then? Why does tax money have to go to Americans? Why can't it go to those in need? I read this thing about how Canada got universal healthcare, and it was because this guy grew up poor and nearly died do to infection, but as part of this test-teaching program, he managed to get free treatment, and he didn't want the same thing to happen to anyone, so he basically spent his whole life working for it and eventually got universal healthcare for everyone? But I mean, really, who the ******** are we compeating with? Why do we need so much stuff? I mean, I already know the answer, but why do the rich need to keep getting so much ******** money? I mean, it is because the kind of person that is that sort of ambicious entrepenuer is the same sort of selfish jackass that would want to be a billionaire. Ignorant people tell me, "Oh, a CEO gets payed a lot becuase he works hard." Playing golf? Even if a CEO actually managed a company, people don't seem to realise what hard work really is. The archetect for a building gets a lot of money. The foreman get's a lot of money. The people that build it don't. They are the ones doing work - litterally - and in danger and all that, but for some reason that isn't considered as hard work as, say, sitting in cubical filing forms all day. Honestly, most people are so focused on money it makes me sick. People feel so compelled to pay for stuff, and they will do anything for money. Whenever someone is like "Hey I'll give you $5 if you do such and such" I tell them "I'm not a whore." Then there is the obsession with resiprication. You do something for someone and then they are like, let me pay you, let me give you something, and that's the same whoredom deal. It's like they can't cope with a world where things are given freely. My favorite example of this is Christmas. If you get someone something, they HAVE to get you something. It's the rules. Otherwise you are admitting that they aren't important at all. Speaking of Christmas, I'm glad that people on both sides of the issue are dumb as hell. If you get offended by the religious conotation of Christmas, you need to get some new priorities. How about the fact that the government legislates morality based on their corupted view of what Christianity is about or how Christianity has become more of a social club than a spiritual journey anyway... Honestly that's the thing, Christianity is just a socail club, thus all the parties it throws, and the exclusive elitist membership. And then the Christians who say that people are taking the Christ out of Christmas... it just goes without saying. IT WAS NEVER IN THERE IN THE FIRST PLACE! They took a pagan festival and tried to use it to get ******** converts. Completely off topic (if there is one) but Jurassic 5 just came on and it made me smile. They make me very happy. Their very existance is just very uplifting? Why isn't there more stuff like that in the world? It reminds me of Ben Kenney. He seems like such a happy guy. It makes my heart sing.
I hate the modern conception of love. The whole concept seems to be leading to reinforcing the family structure and maintaining traditional values. And then there is the underlying hypocracy of the fact that despite this supposed "coupling" free love is the unspoken rule, with people having sex with eachother left and right (if what you see on TV is to be believed). People need to learn to ******** control themselves. Everyone is about feeling good right now, all the time. So they get drunk, do drugs, have sex, all without any regard for others. And these are the people that are going to grow up into the same selfish asses that are bascially everyone today. And love is always directly related to physicality. Everyone is so damn homophobic, you are gay if you touch a guy unless you are hitting them or playing sports (could just be where I live though). I mean, I don't give a damn if people think I'm gay (which apparently people did in middle school, but what the ******** ever) but there is this obsession with fitting everyone into some sort of label. It's like we all have such small minds that we can't rap our brains around something without a neat little label. Why can't we just take things at face value. I think I am just going to meditate tommorow. Or something. I kind of don't want to be alone, honestly, but it will be okay.
But yes. Everything involving "illegal immigrants" makes me want to throw up. Borders are ******** made up in the first place, and it is NAFTA's falt that Mexico is in the state is in now, along with the Americanisation of their government. It's like everyone wants to be like America but they don't realise that America is not a happy place. Honestly we don't have a ******** soul. We are empty, our social interactions robotic, and becuase we only care about ourselves, nothing has any real meaning. But we aren't starving, and we have a lot of money. Why does it make a ******** difference if so-called "illegals" are hear anyway? Honestly, the fact that we are a dieing hegemony has the power elites in a tizzy and they are trying to do all they can to stay on top. But I mean, how can people be like "Uh, I know this is pretty much life and death for you, but rules are rules. And I don't want to lose my cushy beaurocratic job either. And then the people that actively are like "Send em back!" They are just sick ********, like the people that are like "Why don't we just nuke em'." But in an appeal to cosmic justice, they live empty lives and will live and die alone in their own hateful little worlds.
Tell me about the Enchilada Verde Experiance. And whatever else you would like to add. Um, any particularly interesting or different music you've heard recently? I sort of ask that tentatively, because I don't have any way to buy it at this point and hearing about it will make me be like "Damn. I can't buy that." But I'm feeling bored with all the stuff I've been listening to. I think I've listened to too much and am burning out. It's the same way when I learn songs. I kinda don't like them as much once I know them. I learned the bassline for Cross Town Traffic. Noel Redding is awesome. Um. Anything particularly uplifting or inspiring? Tell me something personal.
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Posted: Mon Mar 12, 2007 11:51 pm
I would just like to add that I broke the 1st and 2nd string on my guitar and tuned it down an octave so I could play bass-guitar guitar on my guitar. It was so cool that I just had to tell someone. Plus you could put massive bends on the strings, it was just amazing. I really want to write a song that incorporates it.
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