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Kim smiled at him "i understand, I guess Noah and Ly do have more in common then I first thought..." he said softly trailing off and looked away from him "as you know my mother and father raised me, however my father is nothing but some mega slut who walked out on me and left me to be raised with my mother who, as you can see, got me into god. But the place my mother and I were living was an old run down orphange and there were dead bodies scattered everywhere and bits taken out of them because they were being eaten by the other three homless people that were there and the place was falling aprt majorly and...well...the list goes on.

My mother used to run that orphange, she meet my father through it somehow and they fell in love...or so they told me and i was concived. However it was till i was 10, and was eves dropping, that my mother told a friend of hers that she was raped by my father and he took everything. My mothers money, clothes, jewlery...all her assests, we wernt rich but we got by like any normal family and yet he just took it all and so my mother and I were made to live in the one asset that he never took and that was the orphange.

But after a while we couldnt keep it running and so we gave up and just called i quits and watched the children there die and starve and it totally broke us apart. My mother had brought me up believing in god and yet in the end my mother didnt even believe in him enough and took the dagger she always had for protection and killed herself in front of me, telling me it was gods will to kill her herself because of the death she had brought to others...." Kim turned away and started crying as he remembered that sight.

"I saw my mother kill herself at the age of 16 and it wasnt just one stab it was multiple, she said that she had to do one stab for every child she had killed and if she died before that then so be it, that would be her final punishment. Some would turn their back on god after seeing and hearing that but in a way I still believe in him because I know he wouldnt of said that to her.

Did she go mad? Most probably, but in a way I just wanted answers and is why I havent turned my back on him...." he said as he tried to stop himself from crying yet to no avil. He swam towards the ladder and started to get out. It was best if he wasnt around here, not when he was like this, he didnt want to upset the angel especially after what happend last time.

Kim didnt know the angel, he wanted really nothing to do with him but maybe a friendship couldnt be all that bad especially if he knew Ly and Noah and what he spoke was the truth. He turned around and just clung to him and cried harder, he knew it was wrong of him to do so but right now he just wanted to be with someone. He hadnt been in anyones arms since before his mother died and had built himself up on trying to move away from the past yet remember it a little due to his belief in god and at that time he also became hard, beliving in noone but god and sort of forgotten what other feelings were to an extent.

One of them was the feeling of what it was like being held in someones arms. He was on his own in the world so he had to build himself up to forget that...or at least he thought he did. He just didnt care who it was right then but he just need to be held, something he had forgtten all about after his mother died.

Kimaris just held onto the angel, pleased to have at least someone there to hold him and even he admited to himself while he cried that this feeling was one that he wanted alot more of. He had been foolish to ignore this yet what could you do when you were stuck in an orphange and had noone or nowhere to go? He had never had anyone in his life but god since he was left and so he grew to forget this feeling.

He listened to the angel and it calmed him a little yet the pictures of his mother still were in his mind which just couldnt make him stop crying, sure he could forget about them but they would always be there in the back of his mind no matter what. Several minutes later he started to ease up and started to dry his eyes, it had been the first time he had cried since his mothers death and knew that it wasnt healthy to not cry over somthing like this but he didnt want to yet now hat he had he admited to himself that it felt good.

He reached up and kissed the angel on the cheek and just held him for a little while longer "thank you, I have fogotten what this feeling was like" he said in a whiper and sunconsiously held him for a bit longer before realising that it was wrong to keep holding onto him and pushed himself away and turned around and blushed. "im sorry, i shouldnt of held onto you for that length of time, it was wrong to take advantage of the situation, im sorry Sabin" he said as he looked at the ground with his back to him.

Kim turned around and dried his eyes and realising that perhaps he had been wrong about his first impression on the angel "thank you and please, I would like that" he said as he walked over to one of the seats muraki had installed in here as well and sat down upon it so the angel had some space, feet up on the rest of the seat and hugged his knees, resting his face upon them as he watched the angel.

Kim sat there smiling softly as he watched the angel, it was beautiful really and yet as much as he enjoyed it he still couldnt happen but wonder about his mother. He was paying attention to the dance and he liked it but still half of his attention was on his past.

Kim smiled wider, the glow was beautiful, the whole dance was yet for some reason it just wasnt cheering him up as much as it was. Mybe he shouldnt of asked for him to dance, it was cruel to watch him dance when his full attention wasnt on him. He will apologise to Sabin afterwards and promise to watch him again sometime, he just didnt want to be away from the angel right now, he was enjoying anothers company after being alone for so long that he just didnt want to leave.

Kim sat there watching, enjoying the show greatly yet, like before, his mind wasnt on it at all. A part of him now just wanted to go back to his room, he had that book to finish and...and...well what else could he do? he anted company for so long and now that he had it he was wanting to just run and hide. He had reason to this time though didnt he? I mean, his past was brought back up and he just wanted to be alone till he had gotten over it dispite knowing that it was better to be within someones company when feeling like he was, Sabin did only wish to help after all...he sighed and kept watching.