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 Posted: Sun May 18, 2008 10:21 am
She's been through a rehab program before, was sober for three years. I would assume that once she stops drinking she'll be going back to AA meetings.
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Posted: Mon May 19, 2008 3:06 am
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Posted: Mon May 19, 2008 6:45 pm
Marty Nozz is an awesome artist.
OMGAWESOMEWTFBBQ!!!!!!!!!!1111!!!!111 4laugh 4laugh 4laugh 4laugh
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Posted: Mon May 19, 2008 8:43 pm
Pics or it didn't happen.
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Posted: Mon May 19, 2008 11:48 pm
Sorry, but i kind of need to vent. I've been kind of depressed late, the kind that keeps you up at night because you just keep thinking about it. I heard once, if you write idown your thoughts, to help keep in perspectives. after write it down in a note book, this it pretty much what i found.
I feel like my life is going no where. My social life is about that of hermit. Ever since high school, i pretty much lost all of my friend. One is in Iraq, other in Mississippi, one i bearly get to see once a month(live way out of the way, like a 45 min drive), and the rest is MIA. So i pretty much have no friends off line. My social life is pretty much in the crapper, scine my job robs me of most of my time, working 2pm-10:30pm tuesday through saturday.
A job i really hate, cleaning up wast in a hospital with old ladies. not really a job for a 20 year old. I want to quit my job and get something else, but the job market really sucks. pluse i need the sick hour i have built up for this jaw surgery i need to get latter this year. Pluse it has job security, seeing as not many want this kind of job.
I don't know what i want to do with my life, as far as a career. So far just takeing classes at a community college. with no idea what my major will be. I want to write, but that hasn't gone anywhere so far, also i have nothing to fall back on in case writing never works out.
My mom has been a mess lately. ever since this woman (yes my mom's a lesbian, realized it after the divorce with my dad) she was going out with for 2 year, who left saying she is "unhappy". My siblings and i never liked this b***h, but she made our mom happy so we said nothing. we had to bend over back for the woman, to make this woman happy, putting up with her cats that destroyed every thing the could get a hold of, had to go vegaterian, and her other BS. So she leave because she is "unhappy". so now my mom is really depressed, because she is over 50 and gay so she thinks she is never going to get meet some one. So my mom is messed up because she been taking antidepressents aids and either drinking or smokeing pot a lot more.
Then on top of every thing, i feel like i'm never going to get a girl friend at the rate my social life is moving. Plus i just can't just go up and speak to cute girls face to face in public areas.
I know my life is not nearly as bad as some people's life, i could have no job and living in a ghetto, disabled in some way, or anything like that. but i just don't know how to set my life on a better track. There are time i wish time would just stop moving for a while so i could think.
to anyone who is reading this, don't worry, i'm not going to off myself. i detest suicide in all it's forms. I just don't know what to do anymore.
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Posted: Tue May 20, 2008 12:31 am
Don't overwhelm yourself, take things one problem at a time, starting with the most serious ones.
Start looking around the newspaper and websites to see if there's any jobs that spark your interest out there. Keep the one you've got until you can find something better.
As for writing, I wouldn't expect it to have really "gone anywhere" yet, as you're still young. However, I do seem to remember you winning a writing contest at your LCS, so unless I'm mistaken that's a good start. Keep thinking about what kind of writing you want to do whether it's novels, journalism, comics, screenplays, whatever. Write every day. Write what you know, what moves you. Read. Read fiction, and non fiction too. Any subject that interests you, that you might want to use in your writing, research it.
Once you know what applications you want to use your writing for, you can start looking into what training and experience you're going to need to get into it.
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Posted: Tue May 20, 2008 3:37 am
Yeah, right now you starting out and getting established in your life. I'd hang on to the job until you get that jaw surgery but definitely start putting some feelers out. I've worked a lot of jobs, and I've worked a lot that I really didn't like. Do i love what I do now? Not really, but I work with good people and I have the freedom to pursue other things like martial arts and cartooning. It took me years to get to this point though.
And as for your mom, I'm with you. My mom left me dad because she was sure the grass was greener on the other side of the fence. Now my Dad is re-married to wonderful woman and I've spent years watching my mother throw away good relationships and pursue bad ones. She knows she made a big mistake. We can't do anything about it. All we can do is love them and show up for Sunday night dinner. Just be glad to b***h that left is gone. She sounds horrible.
Finally, the thing I've learned about social lives and girls. Don't try. I had horrible luck until I quit trying. Most of the friends I have and most of girls I've dated came to me while I was busy doing something else.
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Posted: Tue May 20, 2008 3:39 am
Technologist Tony Stark Pics or it didn't happen. It didn't. All completely imaginary. Thanks Linda. Glad it made it there alright.
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Posted: Tue May 20, 2008 7:36 am
Thank guys, it always helps when i get an out side opionon.
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Posted: Tue May 20, 2008 9:02 am
About girls: what I've heard from a few folks is to just focus on yourself, quit trying (like Jaeger said), and you'll get noticed. Try to work on what you like, what your strengths are, etc. In the end, you'll have more self-confidence.
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Zauriel of the Eagle Host
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Posted: Tue May 20, 2008 9:42 am
It's not so much, that i'm trying to hook up with some one. It's like ive said in another thread. I got no gut to just talk to a girl, weither we go out or not. I would soly settel for just meeting over coffee in the afternoon. I can't even do that.
and since i was a socal outcast in high school, I pretty much can help up blend in and not get noticed, it's only natural for me.
And i not like i just can't talk to girl, I just need something to talk about.
Like, i had no problem in my math class talking to three girls, only because we where in a study group to go over our work. It just one on one with some one i don't know.
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Posted: Tue May 20, 2008 5:41 pm
I'll let you in on a bit of a secret, Simon. I wasn't always the rock star you see in front of you today. I was a pretty ******** awkward guy for pretty much all of my teen years with few worthwhile friends. It took a while, it took meeting the right people and having the right attitude, but eventually I built myself into something I can look at in the mirror most mornings and feel pretty good about.
As for girls, listen to everything that Selina says when the topic comes up. She's pretty much just as classy a dame in real life as her mule is, so if you listen to her opinion, you'll be well on your way to knowing how to deal with a fairly classy dame. This is a good thing.
Now here's the real secret. The one that if anyone else finds out about, I'll have to send the Thunderbolts after you. Bear in mind this isn't how I met girls (except for my ex-fiancee, but that's a story for another time), but the one thing that has impressed the women in my life the most over the years is quite simply my writing. I never planned it that way, I can assure you that, but I'm also not the kind of guy to look a gift horse in the mouth.
The thing about writing, or at least my writing, is that it's genuine. It's completely you and it's coming from that deep down creative place. So if someone connects with you over your writing, well that's just ******** fantastic on a few levels. So, it all really ties back into what I said above about writing. You find your voice in that, and you'll find that your path in a lot of other things becomes much clearer.
Finally, what Jaeg said about not looking is so true it hurts. That girl will find you Simon, and when she does, it'll probably because of something you hadn't even considered.
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Posted: Wed May 21, 2008 9:22 am
thank man. I'm trying to write as much as possible now, the only problem i'm faced with is trying to stay focues on one subject so i can finish it, rather then trying to work on 4 things at once.
I also picked up Scott McCloud's Making Comics. it's strang how there where something i already knew, knew sort-of(like was using them but didn't realize i was), and then stuff i didn't know.
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Posted: Wed May 21, 2008 8:49 pm
Hey folks, just thought I'd do a little update of what I've been doing since I've been on and off and on and off of Gaia in the past few...months. Can't say a whole damn lot has been screwing around with my life that prevents me from being on as regularly as I would like, but the simple fact is sometimes it's a matter if I want to be social or if I want to try and get some work done while I have the chance before heading to bed/work/out for fun. Being social doesn't tend to work out, unfortunately, and it doesn't help matters that I've been writing this stupid story for over a year and it's barely even close to being completed.
And what's worse, I already have a sequel in mind, though if God is merciful or just feeling like giving a gal a break, He'd keep it from being so damn long as the first one.
Which brings me to a creative crisis that has only popped up within the last week. Lately I've been more in a mood to write (the whole damn year really) than I have been for drawing, and I can't help but feel that maybe I wasn't so sure the career path I've chosen isn't quite right for me anymore. I mean, I've wanted to try and be a comic artist for the past decade, and even decided to settle for doing children's illustrations if necessary, but then people keep saying I could try and be an author as well, but the thing is I don't have much faith in my ability to do any of those things really. Hell I'm starting to think that maybe I'll just be stuck going from retail job to retail job instead.
Gah. Confusing to say the least.
I found out earlier this morning that one of my store managers died from a heart attack in hsi sleep last night. The thing is I realize it's a tragedy, and I feel for his family, but I can't really grieve for the guy because I didn't really know the guy, and the truth of the matter is the guy got on my nerves too many times in the first place. It turns out I'm not the who feels that way, as everyone isn't entirely sure how to feel either.
Though on a lighter note, the cat who we thought had gone missing after two weeks (in which we naturally assumed he had gone to the big Batcave in the sky), came home today. Turns out Batman was simply kidnapped by the Joker, and managed to finally escape. Man, I was so damn happy to see him too.
Suffice to say, very humdrum, really.
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Posted: Thu May 22, 2008 4:29 am
GRETA! scream heart
Yeah, I was in the exact same boat with my writing and art. I tried pulling away from art in favor of writing, because honestly, I love telling stories. I found myself really missing the art and kicking myself for letting it lapse.
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