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 Posted: Sun Jan 08, 2006 2:33 am
Kiyoshi slipped off of the bed easily since he was no longer clinging to Majeh and landed on the floor with an 'oomph'. "Ow... Majeh, what's wrong?" he asked, worried that the other was panicking again. And was always because of him... "are you alright?" he asked somewhat strained. Why was he always causing Majeh so much pain lately? He was starting to think that he did nothing good for Majeh, only bad... and perhaps... he shouldn't even be around Majeh.
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Posted: Sun Jan 08, 2006 2:38 am
"Y-y-y-ou...!" He said, pointing a shaky hand at Kiyoshi's face. "Y-your him! That g-g-guy I knew!!" He stared at him looking slightly terriefied, tears streaming down his cheeks.
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Posted: Sun Jan 08, 2006 2:43 am
He now wore a similar terrified expression as Majeh's though started to grip his head in pain, it was one thing to remember that night, all that fighting. But to learn something he had not remembered, refused to even acknowledge had happened was the worst of all. He had completely wiped clean all anthros from his mind until a few years after the Red Moon when he ran into one on the street and relearned about them.
"Stop it" was all he said, all he could say, he didn't want to remember. He had forgotten those eyes, those hands, that voice, everything. And he wasn't about to remember what he had done to said eyes, hands, voice... not now. "Stop it" he repeated quietly, shaking on the floor.
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Posted: Sun Jan 08, 2006 2:48 am
Majeh started to choke, crying harder, this was starting to hurt his own mind. holding his own head he brought his knees up and rested his forhead on them, staring at his legs. He was hurting Kiyoshi, he could see it and he didn't want to.
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Posted: Sun Jan 08, 2006 3:02 am
Kiyoshi grew quiet before standing and walking over to Majeh and wrapping his arms around him, not caring about what just happened. His mind had gone rather numb at this point and it had this tiny-itsy-bitsy instinct: hold Majeh. Wierdest instinct known to mankind, but he had it. And right now he just silently held Majeh, ears pinned back as his head throbbed, but he no longer shown signs of pain on his face. One could say he silently snapped.
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Posted: Sun Jan 08, 2006 3:12 am
Majeh continued to cry, though seemed soothed to be in Kiyoshi's arms again. He loosed his little protective cirlcle and held onto Kiyo's arms, sobbing quietly as he rocked himself slightly.
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Posted: Sun Jan 08, 2006 3:17 am
He could feel the very vessels in his head pouding, this had to be the worst one he'd ever had, and it possitively numbed him. But on the outside he just looked calm, he held Majeh, trying to hold the other as close as he'd let him. Though he wished this had never happened, he'd never seen Majeh relive his past in his sleep, Lexis try and remind him of his past, and those children... he wished they could just go back to that happiness they had for those few moments after they became mates. But that was long gone, replaced with the wretched reality that even now he refused to face.
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Posted: Sun Jan 08, 2006 3:26 am
After a little While Majeh pulled away, and tugged Kiyoshi onto the bed to lay down with him. He himself felt ill, and dizzy.. and god he just wanted to sleep in Kiyoshi arms, like they've done for a while now. It might not be the same as it was.. but he'll comprimise. He wasn't about to let go Of Kiyoshi yet.
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Posted: Sun Jan 08, 2006 3:31 am
Kiyoshi held Majeh close, he still didn't speak, in fact his eyes had closed by now as they were practically useless. Time passed, and after a long time (yup, a hidden time skip) Kiyoshi suddenly spoke. As if this entire time he had been thinking if he was to ask one question, what would that question be? "Majeh... do you still love me?" he asked queitly, his voice being used again... it didn't sound like him to his own ears. Nothing was him right now... it was like he was being dragged away by his own past, his own past didn't let him live and that's why he had forgotten about it and now that it was back... let's just say the will to breathe was small.
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Posted: Sun Jan 08, 2006 3:34 am
Majeh looked up at Kiyoshi, and nodded lightly, putting his head back on Kiyoshi's chest. "in fact I love you more..." He said weakly, tightening his grip on the wolf.
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Posted: Sun Jan 08, 2006 3:36 am
Silence once again... it was like trying to deliver a piece of mail by horseback from New York to Hong Kong... the horse drowned along the way and once it got there the letter had to be translated into chinese. "Wh-Why?" he asked, he should hate him, if he did all these things that he remembered, that Majeh said... he should hate him.
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Posted: Sun Jan 08, 2006 3:39 am
"Because.. your still here... even after all that time... You may have forgotten me.. but you're still here now... I though you never came back because of me... and even now that you know.. you're still here..." He explained quietly, sniffling.
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Posted: Sun Jan 08, 2006 3:44 am
"Majeh I cant.... dont want to... remember things clearly. But I think that I left not because of you... but because of what happened that night" he said. Majeh seemed to think he never came back because of him, but the truth was Kiyoshi had ran out of town that night and never came back until many years later when he had supressed every memory of the place. And since he'd never stepped foot into the asylum as a teen this building never brought back those memorys... only the people inside did.
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Posted: Sun Jan 08, 2006 4:01 am
Majeh nodded, remembering that last night he saw Kiyo way back when very well. But gave Kiyoshi the peace of not telling him what happed as it seemedto hurt him. He brought a hand up and put it on Kiyoshi's face, stroking his cheek gently. "it's..it's okay.. you don't have to remember..just... have you forgotten Joey..?" He asked curiously, watching him with the same curiousity. "I don't want you to try and remember him if you don't know who he is..."
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Posted: Sun Jan 08, 2006 4:08 am
Blinking Kiyoshi's face finally showed emotion: confusion. "Who's Joey, Majeh?" he asked. He didn't remember Joey, Kurenai, anyone from Pawz. He'd even almost completely forgotten the one man who spiralled his life into a mix of hell and heaven all those years ago: Razor. Though his curiosity wasn't as as great as his wish to not remember, so he let it be. Though now he was worried more than ever about his past, if Majeh had been there... how many more were? Who out there knew him?
Just asking these questions to himself made his head hurt, so he settled with just laying there again, not wondering.
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