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 Posted: Thu Jul 07, 2005 5:58 pm
He looked at her and arched an eye brow looking at her he new something was up."Ok tel me the truth what is bother you and don't you dare try and lie about it."He said laughing a littloe at the ways he plays these little games. Inside his head somehing was bothering him to the whole child thing had not left his mind no matter how much he tried to get it out.He wondered if he was ready at all to even try to be a father and was worried about susie to would she be ready.
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Posted: Thu Jul 07, 2005 6:01 pm
Susie shook her head and kept on looking up at the stars in the night sky that had rissen. She hadnt really noticed if anything was wrong with her, but she knew. She, herself, was still a little nervious about everything that was going on. With the child and all, anyways.
Her eyes closed and she just took a deep breath. "Its nothing, really... " She for some reason didnt really want to talk about it, but knew that they would have to. Actually, maybe she did really want to talk about it with him. To get it out of her system. "Its just..." Her eyes quickly flashed over to him and then back up to the sky. "....You know..."
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Posted: Thu Jul 07, 2005 6:05 pm
He looked at her and sighed and looked down into the water and smiled."Ya i know, i know all to well i was hoping that time spent with my father would help but it did not. But the fact that has worried me are you even ready. Like i'm not trying to say you would make a bad mother just i know that i could do this if you can."He said he seemed kind of lost not knowing what to say.
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Posted: Thu Jul 07, 2005 6:16 pm
She sighed and closed her eyes. She clenched her teeth slightly and she fumbled with her hands in her lap under the water. Her stomach felt bad as though she was going to throw up, but she knew that it was just her nerves.
"I dont know Uwasa.. Im sorry." She closed her eyes tighter and clenched her fists. "But i just dont know... Im still scared and worried. I dont know why though.. And.. I dont know if thats normal.. And im just becoming a nervious wreck cause i just cant get these things out of my head..."
Susie had been having nightmares lately about things happening either while she was having the child, or afterwards. None of those dreams never left her and she hadnt gotten much sleep because of it.
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Posted: Thu Jul 07, 2005 6:19 pm
Uwasa moved over to her and put his hand on her shoulder trying to be reassuring."Like what what are these dreams. Don't worry you can tell me."His voice was soft and carring he seemed like he realy wanted to help.I hope she is ok like i don't want her hurting herself or something.He was mostly worried about her saying that she was loosing sleep.
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Posted: Thu Jul 07, 2005 6:24 pm
She shivered a little as he touched her shoulder. She didnt mean to, but she was so tensed up that she couldnt help it. "They just...." A small sigh escaped from her now pale lips and she looked over to him for a few moments and then down at the water.
"Ive been dreaming about like.. Me dieing while in birth... Or the child dieing..." She sighed and swallowed down hard. "Things like that.... I.. Just.. It haunts me... I cant sleep anymore.. I just cant ever rest now..."
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Posted: Thu Jul 07, 2005 6:28 pm
He sighed an dpulled her close to let her rest her head on his chest."It's ok i will never let anything happen to you." He said in a hushed voice and held her close."Look there is very little chance anything will go wrong. My poeple have some of the best doctors seeing as they have years apon year to practice."He said trying to make her feel better."But if it make syou feel better we canf orget about it i will find some other way there is bound to be a loop whole."He said hoping that will make it better.
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Posted: Thu Jul 07, 2005 6:35 pm
Susie went up to him and she did rest her head on his chest as she closed her eyes and held onto him tightly. She was shaking slightly, even though they were in very warm water and it wasnt cold at all. She was just nervious again. She shook often now. Seemed, to be normal to her these days.
"Its ok... I dont care. I want to help you out with this Uwasa." She said, determined. In her heart she couldnt not help him out cause then she would feel guilty and she always loved to help him out. She tried her hardest to be brave. "I dont think theres anything to get around this one."
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Posted: Thu Jul 07, 2005 6:39 pm
Uwasa became slightly angry and spoke harshly."Be damned the rules i'm tired of them doing this look."he pulled her up not roughly but gently."I do not want to have a child this way. I will gladley give it all up because when we have a child i want it to be out of love not to satisfy some damn prophacy. I love you susie and i always want you to know that."He said as he almed down and let go of her arms sighing."Sorry i just had to get that out of my system."He said breathing slowly.
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Posted: Thu Jul 07, 2005 6:48 pm
Susie flet herself get kinda jerked up and she was forced to look towards him. She gritted her teeth a little as she heard him talk. Her ears went down flat on her head and her tails behind her didnt move. She started to shake even more and a few tears ran from her closed eyelids.
When she was finally let go she held onto her towel tightly so that it stayed in place around her. She opened up her eyes slowly as they were watery and a few more tears ran down her cheek. Taking a few steps back she bowed her head down. "Im sorry Uwasa. I didnt mean it like that.. I.. I love you too... I was just saying that..."
She didnt even bother to finish her sentence as she went to whipe a few of the tears away from her face.
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Posted: Thu Jul 07, 2005 6:52 pm
He shoock his head and sighed."I'm sorry i did not mean to make you mad just i wanted to say that. I was not mad at you i was mad that i was so bound i miss freedom."He looked at her crying and quickly looked away."I'm sorry i did not mean to upset you i know it is hard i should not have burst out like that."He said feeling real bad for doing that.Why is this so hard at first we where happy now it seems more like a struggle.
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Posted: Thu Jul 07, 2005 6:59 pm
She nodded her head slowly and she looked towards him. "Its ok... I know.. I know its hard.." She crossed her arms and looked down again. "Im sorry... Its just stressful... And things happen and im just not used to them that much anymore. Ever since i came back here, i started to remember everything.. everything... Even the bad. And its been haunting me as well."
Susie sighed and shook her head sadly. "Uwasa... Things have just been a little hectic lately.. And im sorry for that.. I truly am... And i dont want to make things even more complicated for you."
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Posted: Thu Jul 07, 2005 7:02 pm
He looked at her and smiled."I'm sorry to hear that but remember all the good times. The times when we use to hang out by the tree the times when you would randomy fall asleep. See when ever the bad memeory's or feelings get me down i just remember the good times that i have had hear. I also try to remember no matter how bad it feels it will get better. also remember if you can feel bad that means you felt great at one time and will again."He said smiling at her then embraced her in a hug."Believe me i'm glad you came back no matter what."He said with a soft a carring voice.
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Posted: Thu Jul 07, 2005 7:04 pm
Susie hugged him tightly and smiled slightly. "Thanks Uwasa.. I know i have had great times here. And i will remember them.. I will..." She smirked to herself and closed her eyes as she held herself against Uwasa and held onto him tightly.
But, deep inside she knew that she could never forget those bad moments and memories. Although, she would try and do what Uwasa said for her to do.
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Posted: Thu Jul 07, 2005 7:08 pm
He let her go and smiled."I hope it helps because you will never forget the bad memory's but you can try to hold them at bay."He said as one last piece of advice."Anyway if your feeling better want to go do something or wanna stay here."He said smiling at her he was advoisly very caring right now.
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