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 Posted: Sun Dec 11, 2005 8:29 pm
Lock_Shock_Barrel *Takes a long deep breath.* Ok, I'm going to start from the begininging. It started when I was about five, I would go over to my "best friend"'s house, he was sixteen years old. We would play video games...well he would play video games, I would sit on his lap and watch him play. It was during the summer--I know this because I was wearing my swim-suit--he started to rub my leg, then slip his hand into my swim-suit bottom--I wore them to often, that is part of the reason I blame myself. Well, I didn't like it, I told him to stop, he told me that was what friend do though, that I must not really want to be his friend. I felt so bad, I ended up letting him do it. It continued until he had had sex with me everyway but vaginally...he even...pee'd on me...which humilates me to no possible end...He was the worst of my molesters, he was the one who effected me the most. The second was closer to my age, it was when I was eight-ish, he used the same technique of making me feel bad if I didn't. But he didn't humiliate me the way the first one did, he too was a friend of mine. The third and fourth one were brothers, they were actually the brothers of my best friend at the time. They would hold me down, kiss me and rub themselves up against me, I was eleven at the time they were I think sixteen and twenty-one. I got fast during the time I would stay there from running from them. Blanca (that was my friends name) had eight brothers and sisters, the three older ones would watch and laugh while I was chased, even her mother would laugh. I tried to tell my mom but she said they were only playing. I also went through a lot of verbal sexual harrassment daily during the seventh grade by a boy and during the eight grade by another boy. I would cringe under the touch of any male, I was meek and scared, ******** terrified of males period. I would isolate myself from anyone and everyone because I didn't trust a soul. That's just wrong the way you were molested. Sure there are some people who would do stuff like that, but there others who wouldn't molest people. There will be people, males included, who you'll eventually trust if you wanna get through in certian times life.
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Posted: Mon Dec 12, 2005 3:50 am
I'm having some rather sever male trusting issues right now...my current boyfriend has cheated on me before...I tend to shy away from males. There are only a few guys that I don't. Only two that live around me, and one is gay. The other I feel a good deal more comfortable around, it isn't likeI've known him forever, he just...has that kind of personality that I feel more comfortable with.
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Posted: Mon Dec 12, 2005 3:58 pm
I'm really sorry Lock Shock *hugs*. I know this may sound a bit awkward but whats the diffrence between rape and molestation? if anyone does not feel comfortable or offended of what I said I'm really sorry I will try to delete the post as soon as possible
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Posted: Mon Dec 12, 2005 4:35 pm
I've just...always called it molestation because...for the longest time I never saw it as rape because it wasn't vaginal...it just sort of stuck.
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Posted: Wed Dec 14, 2005 1:29 pm
This is probably going to sound stupid but I need advice...
Okay well my dad is 47 years old and I am 13. In fourth grade someone in sixth grade that lived in the same trailor park I did tried to rape me. Since then Dana (dad) has been smaking my butt, between my legs and sometimes making vulgar comments or grabbing my breast.
Well I told a very very close friend, Alex, and he told me to tell any and everyone. He was really really angry and told me to talk to this one girl, Rebecca. Well I did and she called CPS. A lady named Mrs. Hunt came over and talked to me in my bedroom then again a month or two later in her office. I lied and said that it was all probably by mistake (although it happened very very often) and I was an idiot. I said that so she'd leave us alone; I'm scared of CPS. A letter came today saying that it was all over. I'm really happy. But Dana has started 'messing' with me again. I know he's not just trying to mess around because he does it a whole lot, I mean like it used to be multiple times a day. I CAN NOT say anything because he will not let me back in the house if anyone finds out that I started this. He thinks someone else did but he don't know that I told someone about what goes on. I have nowhere to go since I have no friends and I can't talk to a teacher because I can't go to school. I'm a very sick person (medicaly) and when he grabs me or puts his hands where they shouldn't be it's scary and my condition worsens. My friend said I'll always have a place to go if things get to bad. But I live in North Carolina and he's in California. He's tried his best to help me and give me advice and give me other options besides getting ahold of CPS but he can't help anymore. Nothings working..Anyone have any advice?
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Posted: Wed Dec 14, 2005 5:33 pm
WolfMaidenTwilight This is probably going to sound stupid but I need advice... Okay well my dad is 47 years old and I am 13. In fourth grade someone in sixth grade that lived in the same trailor park I did tried to rape me. Since then Dana (dad) has been smaking my butt, between my legs and sometimes making vulgar comments or grabbing my breast. Well I told a very very close friend, Alex, and he told me to tell any and everyone. He was really really angry and told me to talk to this one girl, Rebecca. Well I did and she called CPS. A lady named Mrs. Hunt came over and talked to me in my bedroom then again a month or two later in her office. I lied and said that it was all probably by mistake (although it happened very very often) and I was an idiot. I said that so she'd leave us alone; I'm scared of CPS. A letter came today saying that it was all over. I'm really happy. But Dana has started 'messing' with me again. I know he's not just trying to mess around because he does it a whole lot, I mean like it used to be multiple times a day. I CAN NOT say anything because he will not let me back in the house if anyone finds out that I started this. He thinks someone else did but he don't know that I told someone about what goes on. I have nowhere to go since I have no friends and I can't talk to a teacher because I can't go to school. I'm a very sick person (medicaly) and when he grabs me or puts his hands where they shouldn't be it's scary and my condition worsens. My friend said I'll always have a place to go if things get to bad. But I live in North Carolina and he's in California. He's tried his best to help me and give me advice and give me other options besides getting ahold of CPS but he can't help anymore. Nothings working..Anyone have any advice? Well you can try to tell him to stop or threaten him that you'll call the cops....never mind bad advice. Is it your friend's dad or your dad? sorry its because I read the entire thing and it kinda didn't make a little sense....anyways you can try to go to your friend's house (the one that said go to her house if things worsens) she might be able to help you out
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Posted: Wed Dec 14, 2005 5:34 pm
Lock_Shock_Barrel I've just...always called it molestation because...for the longest time I never saw it as rape because it wasn't vaginal...it just sort of stuck. I was thinking about the same thing...
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Posted: Fri Dec 16, 2005 12:48 am
You might have to call CPS, or the police if you want it to stop. Look at it this way - if you don't tell anyone, things aren't going to get any better. Your dad is going to continue to molest you, grope you, whatever you want to call it. And unless you tell someone who can help you, like a teacher, police officer, CPS member, etc, it's probably not going to just stop. Do you really want to live with someone who is showing no respect or privacy for his own daughter, whom he's not supposed to molest and sexually abuse? How do you know his behaviour won't get worse, and he won't rape you, or do something like that?
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Posted: Fri Dec 16, 2005 8:09 am
StreetchIck123 WolfMaidenTwilight This is probably going to sound stupid but I need advice... Okay well my dad is 47 years old and I am 13. In fourth grade someone in sixth grade that lived in the same trailor park I did tried to rape me. Since then Dana (dad) has been smaking my butt, between my legs and sometimes making vulgar comments or grabbing my breast. Well I told a very very close friend, Alex, and he told me to tell any and everyone. He was really really angry and told me to talk to this one girl, Rebecca. Well I did and she called CPS. A lady named Mrs. Hunt came over and talked to me in my bedroom then again a month or two later in her office. I lied and said that it was all probably by mistake (although it happened very very often) and I was an idiot. I said that so she'd leave us alone; I'm scared of CPS. A letter came today saying that it was all over. I'm really happy. But Dana has started 'messing' with me again. I know he's not just trying to mess around because he does it a whole lot, I mean like it used to be multiple times a day. I CAN NOT say anything because he will not let me back in the house if anyone finds out that I started this. He thinks someone else did but he don't know that I told someone about what goes on. I have nowhere to go since I have no friends and I can't talk to a teacher because I can't go to school. I'm a very sick person (medicaly) and when he grabs me or puts his hands where they shouldn't be it's scary and my condition worsens. My friend said I'll always have a place to go if things get to bad. But I live in North Carolina and he's in California. He's tried his best to help me and give me advice and give me other options besides getting ahold of CPS but he can't help anymore. Nothings working..Anyone have any advice? Well you can try to tell him to stop or threaten him that you'll call the cops....never mind bad advice. Is it your friend's dad or your dad? sorry its because I read the entire thing and it kinda didn't make a little sense....anyways you can try to go to your friend's house (the one that said go to her house if things worsens) she might be able to help you out Sorry, at the time my second round of meds were kicking in, that's why it didn't make sense. It's my dad. And I can't go to his house nor Rebecca's; Alex lives in California and she lives in Michigan and I live in North Carolina. I have no way to get anywhere and if I did I could'nt because my family has no money to spare, we are in serious debt. It does stop for a while; Usualy when my mom is home and I stay in my room all day. I have thought about trying to run off to California but thats impossible and stupid. I'm just trying to find an alternative to calling someone; Mrs. Hunt (the social worker) gave me her home phone number and the one to her office. When Mama and I were talking with her Mama said I shoulda told her and that he was probably just playing around. She said she'd talk to him and it'd stop. It hasnt and its starting to look like I will have to call someone but aren't there any alternatives or something? Sorry if I am still not making any sense.
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Posted: Fri Dec 16, 2005 1:34 pm
WolfMaidenTwilight StreetchIck123 WolfMaidenTwilight This is probably going to sound stupid but I need advice... Okay well my dad is 47 years old and I am 13. In fourth grade someone in sixth grade that lived in the same trailor park I did tried to rape me. Since then Dana (dad) has been smaking my butt, between my legs and sometimes making vulgar comments or grabbing my breast. Well I told a very very close friend, Alex, and he told me to tell any and everyone. He was really really angry and told me to talk to this one girl, Rebecca. Well I did and she called CPS. A lady named Mrs. Hunt came over and talked to me in my bedroom then again a month or two later in her office. I lied and said that it was all probably by mistake (although it happened very very often) and I was an idiot. I said that so she'd leave us alone; I'm scared of CPS. A letter came today saying that it was all over. I'm really happy. But Dana has started 'messing' with me again. I know he's not just trying to mess around because he does it a whole lot, I mean like it used to be multiple times a day. I CAN NOT say anything because he will not let me back in the house if anyone finds out that I started this. He thinks someone else did but he don't know that I told someone about what goes on. I have nowhere to go since I have no friends and I can't talk to a teacher because I can't go to school. I'm a very sick person (medicaly) and when he grabs me or puts his hands where they shouldn't be it's scary and my condition worsens. My friend said I'll always have a place to go if things get to bad. But I live in North Carolina and he's in California. He's tried his best to help me and give me advice and give me other options besides getting ahold of CPS but he can't help anymore. Nothings working..Anyone have any advice? Well you can try to tell him to stop or threaten him that you'll call the cops....never mind bad advice. Is it your friend's dad or your dad? sorry its because I read the entire thing and it kinda didn't make a little sense....anyways you can try to go to your friend's house (the one that said go to her house if things worsens) she might be able to help you out Sorry, at the time my second round of meds were kicking in, that's why it didn't make sense. It's my dad. And I can't go to his house nor Rebecca's; Alex lives in California and she lives in Michigan and I live in North Carolina. I have no way to get anywhere and if I did I could'nt because my family has no money to spare, we are in serious debt. It does stop for a while; Usualy when my mom is home and I stay in my room all day. I have thought about trying to run off to California but thats impossible and stupid. I'm just trying to find an alternative to calling someone; Mrs. Hunt (the social worker) gave me her home phone number and the one to her office. When Mama and I were talking with her Mama said I shoulda told her and that he was probably just playing around. She said she'd talk to him and it'd stop. It hasnt and its starting to look like I will have to call someone but aren't there any alternatives or something? Sorry if I am still not making any sense. 'ah..I see well do you have any other close friends? well like if you live in a neighborhood and your neighbor and you are really close friends with them. you can tell them and they might be able to help out.
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Posted: Mon Dec 19, 2005 7:51 am
If anyone here would like a place that might be able to help them I have a guild called Security Blanket where they can go if they'd like, if this isn't allowed I appologize.
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Posted: Mon Dec 19, 2005 7:51 am
Lock_Shock_Barrel If anyone here would like a place that might be able to help them I have a guild called Security Blanket where they can go if they'd like, if this isn't allowed I appologize. ...Stupid link not working thingy...
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Posted: Mon Dec 19, 2005 3:03 pm
Quote: 'ah..I see well do you have any other close friends? well like if you live in a neighborhood and your neighbor and you are really close friends with them. you can tell them and they might be able to help out. I don't live in a neighbor hood. I live in the middle of nowhere and my neighbors are never home. the parents work late so the kids have to stay somewhere else until the parents get home. As for friends. Don't have any; They left when I got sick, and by left I mean refuse to call or answer the phone when I call and help spread two rumors. But I live near my sister, she's twenty-two and is always trying to get me to stay over with her.
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Posted: Mon Dec 19, 2005 6:32 pm
WolfMaidenTwilight 'ah..I see well do you have any other close friends? well like if you live in a neighborhood and your neighbor and you are really close friends with them. you can tell them and they might be able to help out. Quote: I don't live in a neighbor hood. I live in the middle of nowhere and my neighbors are never home. the parents work late so the kids have to stay somewhere else until the parents get home. As for friends. Don't have any; They left when I got sick, and by left I mean refuse to call or answer the phone when I call and help spread two rumors. But I live near my sister, she's twenty-two and is always trying to get me to stay over with her. well try talking/calling your sister. she might help you out besides, listen to your sister and go to her home. you'll be safe there and tell her whats happening.
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Posted: Tue Dec 20, 2005 9:58 am
Ok in case you dont know my story it is on the first page of the thread. I have been doing so well lately but a couple weeks ago my husband spent the night at a friends in the country so he could stay and watch ther late football game. I had a fine day watched movies my mom took the baby so I could just have a me day and it was great but when I went to sleep I had a nightmare it felt so real and I couldnt escape it. I dont know why it happened it usually doesnt anymore I mean occassionally but if I thrash once my husband grabs me and wraps his arms around me and say "shhh shhh I'm here its ok your safe" and I relax. Do you guys think I am becoming to dependant on his support or do you think its just normal that I have a nightmare and it just got bad cuz he wasnt there.
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