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 Posted: Mon Apr 19, 2010 6:13 pm
"Huh?" Rosuto's ears perked up at the sound of the unfamiliar name. "My name isn't Rosu-chan." That suffix was supposed to be those considered cute, and that couldn't be him. There was no way that he could be cute. Why did Tanya call him that, anyway? It wasn't that he didn't mind, but it bothered him a little that it seemed he was given the wrong kind of name. Maybe Tanya had the wrong suffix in her head when thinking of the nickname or something? Or maybe it was something that she believed was right. Either way, it didn't change the fact that she had called him 'Rosu-chan'.
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Posted: Thu May 06, 2010 8:02 pm
Tanya pouted, "You don't like Rosu-chan? I thought it was cute....it suits you, you know." Her pout more prominent as she sat there staring at him. Kyo chuckled and poked her side to try and cheer her up, but it only caused her to bat his hand away insted.
Shadow looked to Hatomi and Hatomi smiled as he chuckled softly, "Tanya does that alot. Thus the reason why alot of people call he 'H-san' and Shadow is called Shade-sama. Kyo has an entirely different name and she calls him 'Kitty-Shoma'." He chuckled and Kyo cringed at the name and Tanya chuckled as she poked the side of his head and he swatted at her hand but failed to hit it directly.
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Posted: Thu May 06, 2010 8:37 pm
"It's not that I don't like the name," Rosuto said rather quickly. "I actually like the name. I just don't think I deserve it..." He looked downwards, feeling once more guilty. Was he not in a group that used to hate him and torture him? Now, they were being nice to him after just an attempted suicide. Unintentionally, he had made them change by scaring them... mostly Hatomi. He never meant to inflict a terrible blow on his senpai. It was never meant to happen.
Shaking his head, Rosuto tried to forget about the incident and focus on what was going on right now. He should be happy that he survived because of Hatomi. If he hadn't, then he wouldn't be enjoying life again. He was no longer hurt or abandoned, that was the important thing.
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Posted: Fri Jun 11, 2010 5:19 pm
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Posted: Fri Jun 11, 2010 5:49 pm
Hatomi looked over at him his face saddening, "Rosuto.....I'm sorry about the things we'd done in the past, but you do deserve better. If I had realized that sooner you wouldn't of...." He cut himself off and looked away. He was still beating himself up about what had happened to Rosuto. Tanya pursed her lips, by biting the lower lip as she placed a gentle hand on Hatom's arm. Before turning back to Rosuto.
"You know what hun. I give everyone I treat as a friend a nickname, an dyour our friend now. We regret what had happened and if we had, had the guts to tell Hatomi what had been happening to those other students, then none of this would have ever happened, We're sorry and we're trying to make it up too you," She sighed, "Even if it may take for ever to do so we will make it up to you someday. So for now we are giving you our time and our friendship to try and make things better. No one will pick on you anymore as long as we're around ok?"
Shadow and Kyo nodded, still worried about the way Hatomi was acting. Their once stronge willed friend had been reduced to what he is now. All because he had been unwilling to realize his feelings up until Rosuto resorted to trying to kill himself to escape the pain that the one he loved was causing him every day he went to school.
((sorry It took so long, was brain dead till I got an idea XD))
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Posted: Fri Jun 11, 2010 6:54 pm
(Okay. No problem.)
"Do you really mean that? Or are you just sorry for me?" Rosuto asked, still very unsure. "It's not very likely for bullies to become friends right after an attempted suicide." It wasn't that he didn't like the way the gang was treating him now, but it didn't seem right that they suddenly go all friendly just because he tried to kill himself. There were situations like that.
Rosuto really did want to believe that they had changed, especially Hatomi, but he was just scared to accept it. He was just scared that this could be a trick. Sometimes things were just too good to be true, and this was one of them. Everything he once had was too good to be true, and that's how it all turned out just because he was in love with a boy. It wasn't his fault that he happened to be a homosexual. It was just the way he was and the world, for two years, hadn't accepted it.
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Posted: Fri Jun 11, 2010 11:49 pm
Hatomi had the sudden urge to hit himself so hard for doing what he had done to Rosuto for so long. So insted he got up from the table and walked away. Not once looking back as he went around the corner out of sight before he punched a wall a couple of times until he had gotten everything out of his system. Looking at his hand he sighed, He had split open his hand from hitting the brick wall tomany times. He probably deserved worse for the things he'd done to the one he love without realizing he had loved him.
-Meanwhile-
Tanya looked after Hatomi worried about what he was going to do, "I can tell you one thing Rosuto, not once since knowing Hatomi has he ever looked at anyone the way he does to you without his noticing he was doing it. We've been with him long enough to notice when he likes someone more then he lets on and I've never seen him hurt like that. Every time it's mention it's like he's died a little and wishes he could have changed all of that back then and realized that he truely felt that way for you. So Yes I mean it. Don't you remember what I told you earlier," She pointed to herself, "I found out I was a lesbian remember.....but I didn't hurt the one I loved.....Hatomi had, and I regret letting him do so to you." Shadow and Kyo nodded, but were staring at where Hatomi had vanished too.
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Posted: Mon Jun 14, 2010 4:46 pm
Rosuto was a little surprised, but not very. He had been told so many times that Hatomi was very guilty about what happened, of course he knew, but he kept denying it. It was as if he didn't want to believe that a single act of trying to die actually changed everything. It wasn't the right way to change things, but he hadn't had the chance to make amends any other way. It looks like he was going to have to deal with the mistake he almost made, but he really wished he could have done something else so that it wouldn't hurt Hatomi so much.
Though he tried so hard to tell himself that everything was okay now, Rosuto could only think over and over again 'I wish I had never done that.' He regretted everything that had happened in his life. He regretted ever telling Hatomi that he loved him; he regretted ever going back to school; and he regretted trying to kill himself. But it was too late. All of those things had happened and Rosuto couldn't do anything about it. He wished as much as Hatomi did that he could change the past. If anyone was to be punished for causing such pain, it was probably himself. He deserved all those beatings just because he had hurt everyone around him on that day he confessed. His parents, who had once thought of him as their pride and joy, banished him because of his mistake; his friends and family left him because he had loved someone of the same gender; and the one he hurt most was Hatomi, his best friend. All the damage had been caused only because Rosuto was a homosexual.
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Posted: Mon Jun 14, 2010 7:22 pm
Hatomi didn't go back, knowing full well he would worry Tanya and the others, then again if he didn't go back he'd worry them even more. Sighing he took the lesser of the two and walked back with his nuckles still bleeding. They hadn't noticed he had come back, shadow and Kyo were talkint to one another and Tanya's girl friend had stopped by to say a few things while it looked like Rosuto was beating himself up about everything. It wasn't his fault and Hatomi knew it. If he had been a little bit more rational about the situation long ago then he wouldn't have lost his best friend. Hatomi had admitted something had seemed off about Rosuto's dissappearance that year and he wasn't sure as to what it was until now. Having the one you cared about the most not at your side, hurt. He had made it worse by doing the things he'd done to Rosuto and drove him to try and commit suicide. If it wasn't for the fact that he kept making mistakes then none of this would have happened. He should have been a little understanding to his friend and sensative to his feelings, but no he had turned it into something vile when it wasn't.
When Tanya finally noticed his she smiled at him, "Welcome back Hato.....Oh My God What Did You Do To Your Hand!?" Kyo and Shadow shut up and looked down at Hatomi's hand as he hid it behind his back, but didn't say anything about it. Tanya jumoed the table and grabbed his arm roughly. "Damn it Hatomi it may get infected if you don't get it checked out,"She growled.
"Not like it matters.....I deserve worse," HE yanked his arm away and sighed, "fine...I'm going to the Nurse's Office." He said as he turned on his heels with said injured hand lay slack at his side, the blood from his knuckles slidding down his fingers and dripping off his finger tips.
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Posted: Tue Jun 15, 2010 9:46 pm
((God I feel so bored here lately. I'm brain dead and no ones on often -Sniffles- I feel lonely here lately nya...))
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Posted: Tue Jun 15, 2010 10:35 pm
(Sorry. I was just trying to think of a reply.)
Rosuto snapped out of his thoughts when he saw Hatomi's bleeding hand. His first reaction would be to gasp, but he could only sit there and stay silent while Tanya mentioned the hand. It seemed that Hatomi had once again punished himself in some way, and now Rosuto's mood worsened. This wouldn't have happened if he hadn't tried to kill himself, since Hatomi wouldn't have guilty feelings and thus wound his hand. Even an ordinary day would remind him of the beginning of this trail of regret.
He wanted to follow Hatomi, who was heading to the Nurse's Office, but it seemed that his body refused to move. He could only watch as his senpai left, and it really bothered him. He was supposed to be Hatomi's friend, so shouldn't he be with him when he needed him? The answer was a yes, but even so Rosuto couldn't move.
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Posted: Wed Jun 16, 2010 10:55 am
"Damn it," Kyo cursed under his breath making Tanya and Shadow jump.
"What?" they both chorused making the other smile and they chorused many times, "Jynx, double Jynx, Tripple Jynx." Shadow won in the end always seeming to be the slippery one of the bunch.
"I'm tired of him doing that....when will he realize he's not alone anymore and there are people that care about no matter how much of an a** his parents are to him," He growled, "I understand that he regrets what he's done to Rosuto-Chan, but damn it....there has never been anything that has come good from wallowing in the past. He should push forward and look for a better tomarrow rather then being this depressed heap of lard."
Kyo fumed and to be quiet honest the other two agreed with him. Tanya sighed and sat down, "I've never known Hatomi to ever look towards the future...it's like he has evil demons hanging over him and never letting go. I some times find myself feeling sad for him. You should have seen the way his father treated him infront of the whole student body. On top of that depression he felt terrible for what he has been doing, not only to Rosuto, but to the others who he'd done similar things too that passed away because of the tourcher." She sighed softly and leaned into her girlfriends arms, who gently started to stroke her hair gently and she practically purred at it.
Shadow nodded, "As far as I can tell this has been going on for quiet some time now," He truned to Rosuto, "So don't you dare blame yourself Rosu-chan. He truely has deep feeling for you and doesn't know how to react or handle them and so far it looks like he's acting upon instinct since this whole thing went down hill."
-meanwhile-
Hatomi was in the nurse's office and she patched up his hand for him. The nurse was very pritty and had a very nice figure. Her long hair pulled back on the sideto give the small pony affect with her long thick hair also mixed with it. Her eyes were and emerald color and she had been called by the students miss kitty. Though her true name was Mrs. MaryAnn. She was sweet, but he hated going to her since she always called his parents when he got hurt. Right on cue his father walks into the room a furrious look on his face and Hatomi as always around his father looks at him blankly as if disintrested. He grabbed Hatomi's wrist and he resisted to flinch from the grasp.
"Damn it Hatomi what were you thinking?"
"Absolutely nothing you should worry your pesky little head with," He sighed and wretched his hand away from him and brushed past the elder man.
He was walking down the hall wiht him hot on his heels and yelling at him at the top of his lungs, and quiet litterally calling him some nasty things. Hatomi stayed silent through it all. Until the man grabbed his arm really hard, enough to bruse litterally.
"You are my problem and I will deal with it now," He growled.
"Why now? I live alone and I haven't been with you or mother through that time, so why care to bother with me if I'm such a problem?" He got hit hard in the jaw for that and Hatomi took it without retaliation.
"So help me if you get hurt one more time or I hear anything else that deals with you that I will conssider a problem then so help me god you won't be living alone or coming to this school for long," He seathed.
"Who's gonna make me? you? I could laugh," He said back with little to no emotion in it.
He tugged Hatomi close and he growled in his ear lowly, "Don't forget Hatomi. I was the one that forced you to leave and I can force you back. I am the only one who knows you better then everyone and that includes all of your dark secrets as well. So next time you ******** up remember this warning because I mean every word of it."
He let him go and stormed off. Hatomi just stood there for a long agonizing moment, some of the students and teachers that passed by looked at him in silence without asking if he was ok. He turned on his heels and went to the bandoned music room to be alone. Not wanting to be at the caffiteria anytime soon, though the next bell would ring in a little under twenty minutes. He sat at the old grand piano and started to play a tune that always seemed to calm the turmoil he felt deep inside him. Though he knew by now that everyone was going to hear of what happened like a wild fire. Kids were already talking about it as others from lunch ran into other people who had already heard making the topic spread through the lunch room.
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Posted: Thu Jun 17, 2010 1:26 pm
'What can I do?' Rosuto thought almost desperately. Suddenly, as if be instinct, he stood and walked in the direction that Hatomi left. Since he knew that his senpai was heading to the Nurse's Office, that was exactly where he planned to go. It wasn't a problem. Rosuto had been going to the office for two weeks straight, so he had known where it was by heart. What made him nervous, however, was that it was his first time going to that office without being beaten to the pulp.
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Posted: Thu Jun 17, 2010 1:54 pm
Hatomi sighed and he lifted his sleeve where his father had grabbed. Already blue bruises were starting to appear, though it was nothing compaired to back then. He rubbed his jaw and was positive he would have a nasty bruise there too. The nurse had seen the way his father had acted towards him and was determind not to let it happen again. Hatomi gave in and went back to her knowing full well if he didn't she would go looking for him. He got up and walked away from the piano. Shoving his unbandaged hand deep into his pocket as he walked down the hall back to the nurse's office. Once there she was standing there waiting for him at the door.
"Hatomi....why didn't you tell me?"
"Tch it's not like anyone would care anyways, besides.....It's no bodies problem but mine own," He looked away, his hurt hand in a fist at his side.
The nurse sighed, "Come now, we need to get that bruise checked out to make sure he didn't brake the skin."
Hatomi nodded and walked in and sat on the stool. She cleaned it up with anistethics and put a bandage over it to hide it. Due to Hatomi asking her to do it. He would just make an excuse to cover for his father. No matter how much he hated that man, he knew his father still had power over him even if it was unseen.
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Posted: Thu Jun 17, 2010 11:23 pm
((-purrs softly- Nya....I'm bored, but I'm also content if that is possible XD.))
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