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I am a dj, I made some mixes on the bitches like slap sam more of dat


but any way mixtaping has been a b***h, hard as hell, but ILL get used to it

I wanna have another kid, I dunno why, they are so fun and awesome.

Catholic funerals, I've decided, are weird.

My great aunt won't stop talking to my mom now. She's real sad now. sad

What happened to joooo?



I had the. weirdest. ********. dream. ever. Last night. Oh my GOD. Ugh. I'm so confused. Ok. Enough Psychobabble. Here's my dream.


I'm at bandcamp with all my band friends, Brenden, Steven, Paul (steven's older brother who graduated last year... I liked him last year, and I liked steven for a little while this year... Also, usually I'll always have a soft spot for guys I like, or used to like. Keep this in mind. On another note I don't have a soft spot for Mathew. That b*****d.) and a bunch of other friends I don't really bother with. We're playing some batshit realistic video game that's just HORRIFYING. It seemed pretty real. You played as this kid who let monsters out of the tv or something. It doesn't sound scary explaining it, but UGHHHHHH! Anyways. We later went to band class, and paul kept eying me from across the room. Here, I drew a diagram. razz Just a note, the room was ACTUALLY orange in my dream. My dreams are dumb and complicated.



After class, he was kinda blowing kisses at me (It sounds kinda nerdy but it looked pretty sexy from my POV. He was getting closer every time, until he was right in front of me. So I leaned up and kissed him. I. Leaned up and kissed my friend Paul. It was a pretty awesome kiss. This is like one of those dreams where everything feels real, too, like you can feel pain if say your cat jumps on you. I just remember walking out with paul, steven was nowhere in sight (I doubt this has any significance, but still.) The rest of the dream was pretty hazy, until we left band camp. Nothing special, EXCEPT that paul gave me these lion king type poster things and I put them in my backpack. I went home and went to bed.


This is where it gets complicated. Keep note I'm still talking about the dream. Not real life.


I woke up, and said to myself "that was a really weird dream..." and I somehow thought that that ENTIRE band camp thing was a ******** dream. So, I got up, took a shower, got dressed and stuff (like every morning.. It was as though I was awake too, because I took a shower and everything.) and went and grabbed my backpack. I opened it up, and there were the Lion King posters. I thought to myself "What, the ********." So I went to school, went to classes and junk, then at lunch I asked steven if we went on a band trip, he said yes. I asked if the band room was orange with the risers all around the room, and he said yes. I was about to ask if, by any chance rolleyes I saw paul (trying to sound casual and innocent, even though he was in the room when I kissed him) but then Travis walked into the lunchroom and was like "hey Cassie" and kinda put his arm around me, then he yelled "Hey Hanz, come meet my girlfriend" and I was like neutral "Oh? who's your girlfriend?" and he's like "uh, you peaches." and I said "really?" and he said Yeah, and I said "for reals?" and he's like "yeah." ( rofl I'm dumb in my dreams) Then he walked off, Maybe I should've followed him. I was sitting with Amber and Steven, and amber said "So how'd it happen?" Then I woke up.

End of dream.




WHAT THE CHRIST?! What's going on in my brain. I do not know. What really gets my goat though is how I KISSED PAUL. Jesus. Usually I'm an introvert with s**t like that. I'm so shy. When I did it though I was like "Hmm, I wonder what he thinks that I just did that. I hope he wasn't just ******** around when he was blowing kisses at me." Blah. Then TRAVIS being my boyfriend without me knowing? I didn't object because I think I may have subconsciously liked him last year. But I didn't bother doing anything because I knew he had a girlfriend (amanda.. She's such a b***h, he stopped being friends with me for a while because of her. She told him she didn't want him being friends with any other girls he doesn't know. gonk And now she's going out with Paul. She got her lip peirced, and it totally doesn't look good on her. It's just nasty. She reminds me of a troll.) and I stopped liking Paul last year because he had a girlfriend. Some other girl. She was also kinda yucky and she works at walmart as a cashier.

I wonder how steven felt during the entire dream? would he approve of me practically making out with his brother (allegedly, since I thought it was all a dream) , pretty much blacking out (cuz I thought it was a dream), then suddenly dating travis? Sigh.



What a ******** weird dream. What could it mean? I'm sure it must mean something. I'm so confused and angsty. I wish I was so outgoing in real life. sad

Wooot, go Washuu! I was gonna go more into detail about that kiss, but y'know, dream. That's good for you though, It actually reminds me of my friend Nicole. Well I guess she's not really my friend anymore. Anyway, her living room attaches to her kitchen, and her dad's a pastor. She has a whole bunch of older guy friends, and she's always dating and crap (well not always... She only started in like august. One day she ruined ALL her morals almost simultaneously. huurr..) I think she was like touching or something in her living room and her dad came home and the guy had to leave sneakily.. Lol.

Haha, so true. I know a bunch of megans too.

I know 3 jessicas, all with brownish hair.










I got House of Leaves yesterday, it's supposed to be a really scary book. I'm about 1/8th through it, and that's saying a lot because it's a little smaller than a phonebook. It's pretty creepy so far, this house is bigger on the inside than it is on the outside, and it's got a bunch of extremely weird crawl spaces and hallways. For example, there's this door in their living room that has a window on either side, and the guy (his name's navidson.) who owns the house took a camera, jumped through the left window, walked to the other one, and climbed through the window. The outside of the house was completely normal. When he came back in he opened the door, and there was a dark narrow hallway stretching at least 35 feet (I think that's what the book said... Also I believe it was painted black.) He wants to go in, bu his wife won't let him. It's a pretty complicated book so stay with me. This part is written by this man named Zampano, who recently died. This man named johnny is investigating all these notes and a book he wrote whatnot that were in his apartment. Johnny writes foot notes every once in a while, and translates things if they're in another language. In the footnotes before this one part, he read in the book zampano wrote that Navidson's wife told him that the water heater broke. Then Johnny's water heater broke. Then, he was at work (He's an apprentice at a tattoo joint) everything suddenly went dark and he felt that something behind him in the darkest, quietest place, was going to get him. He narrates his feelings, saying not to let your eyes wander from the words you're reading now, just to focus on the book and think about the darkest quietest place around you, it could be behind you or in front of you, anywhere. And to take deep breaths and think of how fast it'll get you. It's so scary so far. I almost peed a little.


A lot of it's pretty obscure though, it's quite complicated and boring at parts. It gets extremely weird around the middle/end though. Check this out. It gets a lot weirder than that one scan, I just didn't feel like looking. As you can see, I'm not bullshitting. That's two pages, one after the other. There's another page that the only words on the page are "Don't Be Scared." and they're upside down and aligned in the middle. Then on the next page it says "Don't be." and it's upside down on the bottom. There's diagonal print, print in a circle, even backwards print you have to read with a ******** mirror in this book.

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v235/im_not_a_man/HOL.jpg


Anyway, check out the book, I suggest getting it after Spring Break so that you're not like me and just read over the break. xd gonk

I have 3 siblings so I know how you feel.


My friend Charles told me he likes me the other day. : Kinda. Shwell, last year he liked me but I didn't know, and I liked him, then stopped because usually I give up hope on guys. Lol.. He graduated last year, and we just talk on msn now. I actually started liking him again over msn, but that shortly dimished because he liked my STEPSISTER Holly at the time. Wtf. He sometimes comes and hangs out at teh school once in a while when he's not working. Then he started going out with this girl Chantilly, who didn't seem right for him at all in my opinion and he completely dropped the holly thing.. Anyway, we were talking the other day and his girlfriend dumped him cuz she doesn't want to be in a relationship At the moment. So we were talking aboot junk and stuff, ahah and he said that he still kinda likes me from last year, and I called him a foo' cuz he didn't ask me out last year. Charles is a confusing child. Apparently he never liked holly, it just made him feel important. neutral