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 Posted: Fri Aug 20, 2004 10:25 pm
Aylia satine_1704 Aylia satine_1704 Aylia sorry, I'm here. sweatdrop Just multitasking as usual. xd oooh ok ^^ merry meet! i'm horrible at multitasking 3nodding however im doing it right now too sweatdrop hehe my boyfriend just went to bed sweatdrop oh well he'll call me in the morning blaugh ahh cool ^^
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Posted: Fri Aug 20, 2004 10:28 pm
satine_1704 Aylia satine_1704 Aylia satine_1704 Aylia sorry, I'm here. sweatdrop Just multitasking as usual. xd oooh ok ^^ merry meet! i'm horrible at multitasking 3nodding however im doing it right now too sweatdrop hehe my boyfriend just went to bed sweatdrop oh well he'll call me in the morning blaugh ahh cool ^^
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Posted: Fri Aug 20, 2004 10:31 pm
Aylia satine_1704 Aylia satine_1704 Aylia satine_1704 Aylia sorry, I'm here. sweatdrop Just multitasking as usual. xd oooh ok ^^ merry meet! i'm horrible at multitasking 3nodding however im doing it right now too sweatdrop hehe my boyfriend just went to bed sweatdrop oh well he'll call me in the morning blaugh ahh cool ^^ aak i hate people who are prejudice against others because of their looks crying i was wandering around in teh chatterbox and came across a thread talking about people who are "fat" and stuff like that....
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Posted: Fri Aug 20, 2004 10:37 pm
satine_1704 Aylia satine_1704 Aylia satine_1704 Aylia satine_1704 Aylia sorry, I'm here. sweatdrop Just multitasking as usual. xd oooh ok ^^ merry meet! i'm horrible at multitasking 3nodding however im doing it right now too sweatdrop hehe my boyfriend just went to bed sweatdrop oh well he'll call me in the morning blaugh ahh cool ^^ aak i hate people who are prejudice against others because of their looks crying i was wandering around in teh chatterbox and came across a thread talking about people who are "fat" and stuff like that....
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Posted: Fri Aug 20, 2004 10:43 pm
Aylia i hate that too. stressed I'm fat and ugly, well, sorta..uh..I'm confusing myself. xd , but I've got a good personality and that's all that matters. 3nodding I've gone so insane, I can see a person's personality in their picture ((somethimes, it's complicated xd )) ((Oh yea, saying it's not always good cause the time zones are so messed up then sweatdrop xd )) see i am fat as well......i'd say im ugly but do to a promise i cant sweatdrop and i'm starting to look at things from a different point of view. we shouldnt look at ourselves by appearance, but instead we should look at ourselves by whats on the inside...in our hearts so to speak. to me...you are beautiful...you have a great personality ^^ appearance should not matter.....for it will be constantly changing through time.....
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Posted: Fri Aug 20, 2004 10:50 pm
satine_1704 Aylia i hate that too. stressed I'm fat and ugly, well, sorta..uh..I'm confusing myself. xd , but I've got a good personality and that's all that matters. 3nodding I've gone so insane, I can see a person's personality in their picture ((somethimes, it's complicated xd )) ((Oh yea, saying it's not always good cause the time zones are so messed up then sweatdrop xd )) see i am fat as well......i'd say im ugly but do to a promise i cant sweatdrop and i'm starting to look at things from a different point of view. we shouldnt look at ourselves by appearance, but instead we should look at ourselves by whats on the inside...in our hearts so to speak. to me...you are beautiful...you have a great personality ^^ appearance should not matter.....for it will be constantly changing through time.....
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Posted: Fri Aug 20, 2004 10:57 pm
Aylia satine_1704 Aylia i hate that too. stressed I'm fat and ugly, well, sorta..uh..I'm confusing myself. xd , but I've got a good personality and that's all that matters. 3nodding I've gone so insane, I can see a person's personality in their picture ((somethimes, it's complicated xd )) ((Oh yea, saying it's not always good cause the time zones are so messed up then sweatdrop xd )) see i am fat as well......i'd say im ugly but do to a promise i cant sweatdrop and i'm starting to look at things from a different point of view. we shouldnt look at ourselves by appearance, but instead we should look at ourselves by whats on the inside...in our hearts so to speak. to me...you are beautiful...you have a great personality ^^ appearance should not matter.....for it will be constantly changing through time..... hehe dont worry i ramble too xd yah i used to hate my looks and then it was like BOOM and suddenly i had this whole new look on life... its right around the time i started thinking more heavily about converting to wiccan.. i actually got myself involved with a completely different group in school as well.. (just graduated this year) before i used to hangout with those snotty stuck up girls who had nothing better to do than tease everyone else...it was a low self-esteem thing....then i started hanging out with people more like me....people who seen inner beauty rather than outer beauty....so i was MUCH happier then....and then i converted to wiccan this past samhain and i've been even happier ever since...it was amazing how much more relaxed and happier i was after converting!
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Posted: Fri Aug 20, 2004 11:06 pm
satine_1704 hehe dont worry i ramble too xd yah i used to hate my looks and then it was like BOOM and suddenly i had this whole new look on life... its right around the time i started thinking more heavily about converting to wiccan.. i actually got myself involved with a completely different group in school as well.. (just graduated this year) before i used to hangout with those snotty stuck up girls who had nothing better to do than tease everyone else...it was a low self-esteem thing....then i started hanging out with people more like me....people who seen inner beauty rather than outer beauty....so i was MUCH happier then....and then i converted to wiccan this past samhain and i've been even happier ever since...it was amazing how much more relaxed and happier i was after converting!
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Posted: Fri Aug 20, 2004 11:13 pm
Aylia I've always hung out with the people that all you can say is "Other" about. xd I describe myself as "Me and that's the only way you can descibe it" Yea, it was the same with me. Before I found Wicca, i was totally unreligous and like completely like basically athiest ((or agonostic, which is the one that doesn't give a crap about religoun? xd )) even tho I called myself Christan and then suddenly I started reading about it and it was like BOOM! xd New look on life, started meditating, things have been going a lot better in general and suddenly, I found religoun. I beliefed like I hadden't for years, it was utterly amazing!!! eek It hit me like a ton of bricks one day, pretty funny. xd And now I've even found myself becoming more affectionate, and this is gonna sound really "goth" but before I like couldn't love or like have deep feelings cause my family just isn't affectionate ((I'll probably get into my mom later sweatdrop )) It wierd, cause now I tell people I love them, like friends and I hug ((even if goofin' around)) a lot more, and I'm in love with my boyfriend, it's crazy! xd ^-^ Hehe, Raving is fun. sweatdrop well after years of being teased and not really having any friends i just became a loner.....then i started hanging out with those brats....and then my other friends came alone...and same for years i just said iw as "lutheran" but its odd cause when my friends tried to talk about "god" and such i felt so uncomfortable and i didnt know why... i didnt like talking about it and i still dont really....it feels.....wierd.... it was like "oh yah.... god... stare " and then i found wicca and started reading more into it and i have an easy time talking about it...i feel really comfortable... the only problem is ..is i cant meditate or anything unless i am home alone.... i tried to tell my mom and i figured she'd me the more understanding of the two......and she basically told me "well you were baptised as lutheran so thats what you are..." i was so mad that night i ended up calling my friend crying over the phone..then to hear from my brother that my mom woujld go down to his room sobbing because of my decision..it hurt me more than you could believe... im close with my family and to know that i have hurt them because of my happiness ..because of what i believe.....it was horrible... then one day (this im not to proud of) i just flat out said "i lied mom...i'm not wiccan..i'll stay lutheran" cause i couldnt deal with it....however i was lying to her.. which is even worse.....im not sure what i feel more horrible about...making her hurt because of what i believed in.....or denying what i do believe in to them simply to spare them heartache..... one day i will tell them again....one day when i know its right... but that day wasnt the right day.... i have a feeling they know...but it doesnt matter... i am wiccan and proud.. its just the hurting them part that gets to me sweatdrop
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Posted: Sat Aug 21, 2004 3:35 pm
satine_1704 well after years of being teased and not really having any friends i just became a loner.....then i started hanging out with those brats....and then my other friends came alone...and same for years i just said iw as "lutheran" but its odd cause when my friends tried to talk about "god" and such i felt so uncomfortable and i didnt know why... i didnt like talking about it and i still dont really....it feels.....wierd.... it was like "oh yah.... god... stare " and then i found wicca and started reading more into it and i have an easy time talking about it...i feel really comfortable... the only problem is ..is i cant meditate or anything unless i am home alone.... i tried to tell my mom and i figured she'd me the more understanding of the two......and she basically told me "well you were baptised as lutheran so thats what you are..." i was so mad that night i ended up calling my friend crying over the phone..then to hear from my brother that my mom woujld go down to his room sobbing because of my decision..it hurt me more than you could believe... im close with my family and to know that i have hurt them because of my happiness ..because of what i believe.....it was horrible... then one day (this im not to proud of) i just flat out said "i lied mom...i'm not wiccan..i'll stay lutheran" cause i couldnt deal with it....however i was lying to her.. which is even worse.....im not sure what i feel more horrible about...making her hurt because of what i believed in.....or denying what i do believe in to them simply to spare them heartache..... one day i will tell them again....one day when i know its right... but that day wasnt the right day.... i have a feeling they know...but it doesnt matter... i am wiccan and proud.. its just the hurting them part that gets to me sweatdrop
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Posted: Sat Aug 21, 2004 4:59 pm
*sits in the window sill trying to mask the smell of gasoline on her hand*
Does anything know something can could stop me from smelling this rancid gas smell? It's giving me a headache. xd
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Posted: Sat Aug 21, 2004 7:14 pm
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Posted: Sat Aug 21, 2004 10:32 pm
Hehe, i'm back. blaugh Sorry, I was watching Excell. xd Or should I say "Quack Experimental Anime Excell Saga" ? Hahaha, twisted name. ^^
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Posted: Sun Aug 22, 2004 9:24 am
satine_1704 Aylia I've always hung out with the people that all you can say is "Other" about. xd I describe myself as "Me and that's the only way you can descibe it" Yea, it was the same with me. Before I found Wicca, i was totally unreligous and like completely like basically athiest ((or agonostic, which is the one that doesn't give a crap about religoun? xd )) even tho I called myself Christan and then suddenly I started reading about it and it was like BOOM! xd New look on life, started meditating, things have been going a lot better in general and suddenly, I found religoun. I beliefed like I hadden't for years, it was utterly amazing!!! eek It hit me like a ton of bricks one day, pretty funny. xd And now I've even found myself becoming more affectionate, and this is gonna sound really "goth" but before I like couldn't love or like have deep feelings cause my family just isn't affectionate ((I'll probably get into my mom later sweatdrop )) It wierd, cause now I tell people I love them, like friends and I hug ((even if goofin' around)) a lot more, and I'm in love with my boyfriend, it's crazy! xd ^-^ Hehe, Raving is fun. sweatdrop well after years of being teased and not really having any friends i just became a loner.....then i started hanging out with those brats....and then my other friends came alone...and same for years i just said iw as "lutheran" but its odd cause when my friends tried to talk about "god" and such i felt so uncomfortable and i didnt know why... i didnt like talking about it and i still dont really....it feels.....wierd.... it was like "oh yah.... god... stare " and then i found wicca and started reading more into it and i have an easy time talking about it...i feel really comfortable... the only problem is ..is i cant meditate or anything unless i am home alone.... i tried to tell my mom and i figured she'd me the more understanding of the two......and she basically told me "well you were baptised as lutheran so thats what you are..." i was so mad that night i ended up calling my friend crying over the phone..then to hear from my brother that my mom woujld go down to his room sobbing because of my decision..it hurt me more than you could believe... im close with my family and to know that i have hurt them because of my happiness ..because of what i believe.....it was horrible... then one day (this im not to proud of) i just flat out said "i lied mom...i'm not wiccan..i'll stay lutheran" cause i couldnt deal with it....however i was lying to her.. which is even worse.....im not sure what i feel more horrible about...making her hurt because of what i believed in.....or denying what i do believe in to them simply to spare them heartache..... one day i will tell them again....one day when i know its right... but that day wasnt the right day.... i have a feeling they know...but it doesnt matter... i am wiccan and proud.. its just the hurting them part that gets to me sweatdrop Some where in life we all might make kind make a choice in life that hurts our family some how. In my case I feel that a couple of things. One is that i was born with CP sweatdrop . Since I have CP my life has come a cross alot limits but i also found alot of ways around those limits. I just try to find a way to turn all the negative engery to positive. I just fallow a rule do unto others as you wish to be do to you,
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Posted: Sun Aug 22, 2004 11:18 am
Hello every one, I am back... Sorry I was not on last night...little brothers you know how it is. I don't know if you got my Gaia mail Aylia, my computer is acting up again, but I was trying to tell you sorry about not getting back on last night. My evil little brother stole the computer from me, and Tom did not come home from playing soccer till around 10ish so I just stayed home and watched anime: XD anyways I am really happy to meet all the new people and I would kiss you all if you were here for actually chatting and keeping the conversations going!!! Oh Aylia don't you love it?!?!?! I read through the posts from last night er whenever you guys last posted. I am sorry to here that peoples parents don't except them, I was lucky enough to be born in to a Wicca family, well more like my mom is Wiccan and the rest of the family can choose what ever religion makes them happiest. I don't know if there was one date that I was just like "I'm converting" more like I grew up with the values. I some how came across something about Wicca, read it, liked it. It gave a name to what my mom was already teaching us value wise, well and herbal. I think I first started to really study when I was like 12yrs old, then when I was 13 I did a private initiation (I can't ever remember the day, I know it was sometime during the summer, could have been on midsummer's night, or just on a full moon). Well I am 17 now, soon to be 18 yay!!! Yeah I was wondering how old the people are who just joined.... I know I ramble a lot, but I am always curious about people’s ages. Any keep that posting going!!!! *Kisses every one* hehe
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