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Wow. Byne.....You know, your family life sounds incredibly similar to what mine used to be. I sympathize, I really do. But you have to do something about it. I can tell that you still have at least a bit of love for you mother in your heart. That's a good thing. Try to keep it that way. What you should do, and I'm just making a suggestion here, is to tell her how you truly feel. I mean everything. Don't hold back. Maybe then she'll understand the bullshit she puts you through, and why it's wrong. Regardless of if that works or not, after that, you should get the hell out of there. Doesn't matter where, just get far away from her, a place that would put her in a state of inconvenience if she tried to visit you; therefore, she would most likely leave you alone.

This is the best course of action I can think of to help you...Sometimes I wish I could've thought about it a lot sooner in my life. But anyway....

If you don't get away from her, she'll just continue to patronize, insult, and just generally degrade you in every way she knows how. It will keep eating at you for a long time, until eventually, it drives you past the breaking point, and you will lose your general happiness, your love of life, and your will to survive; granted you haven't already. (Yes, there is a difference between love of life and will to survive.) And you will change. Throughout time, you'll seem to be a completely different person. Or, if you're lucky, you won't, I guess. Depends on what she does to you, I suppose. And you will hate her for the rest of your life.

Trust me, you don't want to go down that path. I already have, for you and everyone else who has had to deal with the same kind of bullshit that I endured. And I DON'T want to see anyone else turn out like this. You're better than that, man. If you need anyone to listen to you, I'm always here, but just know that I won't support you doing anything that would prove to be unhealthy for you, physically, emotionally, mentally, etc...


"And 'why is he talking about this?' Cause it might not have happened to you, but it might have happened to the two or three people standing around you, that got some ******** family life that's gonna come back to haunt them when they hit about the age of twenty-five. And then you gotta find your way, trying to climb your way out of what you THOUGHT was your life, but looks more in your head like a ******** car wreck that no one told you about........
There's a lot of parents who've done ******** up their kids through their whole lives, and they're about forty, they're 'bout fifty, and they think it's cool! ******** that s**t!"
~ W. Axl Rose

Sorry if I offended anyone with the cussing. I tried to tone it down. But some things just need to be said.

Nah, I'd rather not, thanks.

Don't get the wrong idea. I'm not trying to be an a**, or act like I'm better than anyone or anything like that by not sharing my problems. My view is actually quite the opposite. I'm just saying...

I don't remember exactly which thread it was in, but somewhere in this guild, I made a comment about how I would not use this particular thread unless I was trying to give advice or help someone; that I wouldn't throw all of my issues onto y'all. I dunno, it's just the way I am.

If I ever truly, desperately need someone to talk to, I guess I'll change my mind. I just don't want to be a burden to anyone.

It would hurt us more to think that you kept all your troubles to yourself simply because you feared our opinion of you ^^.

Gosh I'm such a hypocrite Oo... Yeah I'm like you on this subject, Banshee ^^;

Yay, another installment of my life...woo...

so, my family has a curse. No, nothing like changing into an animal/woman on the full moon or something like that(though, it would be cool...the animal part, not me becoming a woman...) We figured out that, if we don't make our own drama, drama will find us...I'm no exception.

So, I've been single for over a year now(even then, it lasted three weeks, and is the only relationship I've ever had) and am still looking around for available guys that actually...you know...dig me. But, I did meet a guy, and he's like the straight version of me. It's just so fricking perfect...

...cept he's my friend's boyfriend. Not only is he her first, but it surprised me that she even got a boyfriend, what with how she hates men(not a lesbian, just isn't fond of men)...so, it's definitely awkward, cause she's jealous of me, even though I actually don't do anything with him except hang out with him and play video games...hell, I do that with her!...yeah, drama drama drama... dramallama

Neither am I, seeing as how I've never had a boyfriend. I'm not fit to give advice on girlfriends either, considering all my exes...ehe....Yeah, let's just leave it at that, shall we?

Upadate!...is it an update? I guess...kinda...in a way...

So, the guy, who did like me, doesn't like me anymore. Which is fine, cause I was over him for a small while...but now, I have a date this friday...with two guys. At the same time, no less. They're a couple, and apparently they both like me...it's complecated, kinda...but considering I now have two guys that want me, I guess Life stopped being bitchy and decided I deserved something good in my life instead of it either being okay for me...or bad...but, whatever...

So, I'm excited about Friday...and Saturday...and Sunday...not so much Sunday, cause that's when they're taking me home...

I feel like such a pimp ^-^

Go, Aldrick

Just remember to ask yourself something when you're... busy:

Are you the player? Or are you the played?

THANK YOU SORY XDDD. 'Was waiting for someone to say it n_n.

................... My god do I sound thirteen Oo?