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Posted: Sun Sep 10, 2017 10:45 am
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Posted: Sun Sep 10, 2017 11:11 am
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Ah, yep, bedroom was better. "Upstairs sounds good to me." As he spoke he gave Zev's shoulder a gentle squeeze, his other hand moving to trace soft little circles over his cheek. "And that's fine. We can always do it tomorrow or the day after, or any day we're here in fact, he can wait. Handling firearms is probably not the best thing to do when you're not feeling well, anyway." And feeling so out of it he forgot where he was or who he was talking to, and expected to be hit for something. He hadn't even moved to fight back, he'd just sat there waiting for it and trying to shield himself. Why? Why did his past have to be so awful, full of such awful people who'd done such terrible things to him -- made him expect them, made him just sit and take whatever they threw at him? The knowledge made his heart ache, made it hurt.
His embrace grew a little more protective and his voice dropped down to a soft, quiet murmur as he said, "I've got you." Whether he said it to reassure Zevran or himself was another matter entirely, one he wasn't sure of.
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BlackFireKitsune Vice Captain
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Posted: Sun Sep 10, 2017 11:19 am
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Posted: Sun Sep 10, 2017 12:09 pm
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Oh, did it? A soft, fond smile curved Abel's lips that crinkled his eyes at the corners, and he kept rubbing gentle circles over his boyfriend's cheek. His own heartbeat had calmed considerably, and the hand over his heart prompted warm, fuzzy feelings to bloom in his chest. Hopefully Zev felt at least a little better now, but he had no doubt he'd feel infinitely better once they went up to the bedroom where they could sit and talk in peace and privacy. Or cuddle. Probably just cuddle, now he thought about it. Zev looked like he could use it. "I love you," he murmured softly before pressing a kiss to Zevran's hair again.
Joanna continued to sweep up the broken glass as quietly as she could.
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Early afternoon the next day, Abel headed downstairs to grab a couple drinks for him and Zevran to ejoy upstairs. His mom was busy tending to some laundry down in the basement while his dad was out tending to the ranch with Taavi and Aaron -- or so he'd thought, until he stepped into the kitchen and saw his dad there getting a drink for himself too. It was particularly warm out that day though, so he could understand the desire for a cool drink. He'd come in to get some for Aaron and Taavi too, he'd said, and Abel was content to chat idly for a few moments... until his dad broached the subject of his boyfriend.
"So Zevran seems... nice," Daniel said a bit awkwardly over his drink.
Abel smiled over his, warm and fond. "He's great." If that was all it was, then that was probably--
"So uh," his dad went on, "how long were you planning to... you know. Uh.."
"Planning to...?" Oh boy. Of course they couldn't have a nice conversation about this.
Daniel gestured vaguely with his free hand as he floundered for a good way to phrase the question. "To date, I guess. I mean he seems nice and all, don't get me wrong," he hastened to add, "it's just he's not really... well," he gestured again, floundering for the second time, but Abel cut him off with a frown, his lips set in a thin line.
"He's not really what?"
"It's just," he floundered a bit more before sighing, "he's just not your type Abel. You've always loved women before."
Aaand there it was.
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BlackFireKitsune Vice Captain
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Posted: Sun Sep 10, 2017 1:05 pm
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Posted: Sun Sep 10, 2017 11:07 pm
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Of course. Of course they couldn't have just a nice friendly conversation. Of course his dad had to be a stubborn traditionalist or whatever it was. Of course he did. How did he even... guh. He couldn't even joke about Zev being persuasive. Knowing his dad, he'd probably take it seriously. "I know, Dad, but people change. I've changed. I've changed a lot over the past few years, and the type of people I'm interested was one of the things that changed. Or maybe it never changed at all, maybe I always was but never really realized it until I met Zevran, I don't know," he added, gesturing vaguely and exasperatedly with one hand. Why did his Dad have to be like this? "That's not really important though, what matters is that I love him."
"Well sure, but if you found a nice girl--"
"Why would I want to when I already--"
"Maybe you just haven't met the right girl yet, I know how upset you were after Molly but--"
"Dad I just said--"
"I'm sure it's just a phase--"
"A phase?" Abel set his glass back down on the counter a little harder than he'd intended, and a bit of liquid sloshed up over the side and ran over his fingers.
"--but I'm sure if you just--"
"Dad, no, stop. Time-out," he lifted both hands to gesture in a vague T-shape, and relief flooded through him when his father actually stopped talking for a moment to listen. With his voice a bit calmer he asked, "So all you want's for me to find a nice girl to settle down with, yeah? You don't want me dating him because he's a guy, right?"
"Yes, that's right," Daniel said with a brief nod, sounding just a tad relieved his son seemed to have understood.
"I thought so," Abel noted aloud with a brief nod of his head. Then he waved his hand in the air as if to dismiss the thought, "That's what you want for me, but that's not what I want, Dad. Try try to understand. Please?"
"I know it is, but I just," he floundered again, groping for the right words to use before going on, "I'm just worried you'll realize later that you've made a mistake or something--"
"A mistake?" Abel stared over at his dad, eyebrows raised. Had he heard that right?
"Ah, no, that's not what I meant," the word he found was obviously not the correct word, "I just--"
No, no, that was quite enough. "The only mistake I've made," he practically spat, his voice, his posture, his expression tense and furious as his volume started to rise, "was thinking you wouldn't be such a stubborn a** about this. I don't know what I was thinking."
The abrupt change in tone ruffled his father a bit, who responded with his own frustrated demeanor, "Now wait just one minute--"
Quiet, neat but muffled footsteps ascended the stairs from behind the closed door in the hallway, not too far from where Zevran stood. Neither man in the kitchen seemed to notice those, either.
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BlackFireKitsune Vice Captain
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Posted: Mon Sep 11, 2017 11:38 am
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Posted: Mon Sep 11, 2017 3:49 pm
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When Joanna appeared at the top of the stairs, her own face was hardened and her lips pressed into a thin line, her expression positively frigid, extremely unlike the warm, welcoming, encouraging person she normally was. Zevran's gesture more than his presence gave her pause - she'd opened her mouth to say something but closed it instead - and after she gave him a gentle pat to his shoulder. At least her touch was still the usual gentle one she gave; it contrasted sharply with her appearance at the moment.
In the kitchen Daniel and Abel's argument continued. "--that's disrespectful--"
"I don't want to hear a damn thing about being disrespectful, Dad--"
"Daniel." Joanna's voice sliced through the argument with the ease of a finely sharpened knife cutting through nearly anything, not from her volume or anything but because of her tone of voice. Hard, tense, carefully controlled, and commanding; it left no room for question or doubt about who had just usurped control of the conversation.
Both men went silent for a moment, but Daniel didn't seem to quite grasp the situation and went on, "Joanna! Did you hear what he said? He--"
"I heard everything you both said," she informed him smoothly, her practically fierce tones never wavering, "and I'm surprised he didn't say it sooner. I think you left something in the barn, dear," unlike how it usually sounded leaving her lips, the word was positively frigid, "you'd better go out and get it."
Daniel paused. A moment later he hazarded a guess, finally seeming to pick up on the change in the atmosphere, "Ah... I don't think I left anything out there...?"
"You left plenty out there," Joanna replied heatedly, fury lacing her tones now since it was clear it was needed. "Your hospitality, your respect for others, love for your son, your sense of decency and so much more than that -- you ought to be ashamed of yourself Daniel, goodness knows I am. Go on, go out to the barn this instant; I don't want to see you back in this house until you've come to your senses, and not a minute sooner."
"But I--"
"No, out!"
Daniel floundered a little, gesturing with his occupied hand, "But what about--"
"Oh give me that," Joanna huffed, deftly relieving him of the glass in his hand before he could even think to argue over it, then jabbed her finger towards the door. "Out!"
Daniel floundered for words for a moment before he gave in and hastily departed, while his wife glared at the door with a force that could've set fire to it.
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BlackFireKitsune Vice Captain
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Posted: Mon Sep 11, 2017 4:12 pm
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Posted: Mon Sep 11, 2017 5:00 pm
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After his father left, Abel stood there with his hands flexing into fists repeatedly. That was... that was.... something. He didn't really know what it was, just that it left him feeling angry and upset, and it hurt. Did his own feelings matter so little to his father?
Zevran's words startled him out of his reverie and he turned to look at him with eyebrows raised in surprise. "Oh," he said for lack of anything better to say, and then when he'd struggled to find some more words one hand lifted to rub the back of his neck. "I didn't know you were there.." s**t. And it sounded like he'd heard everything. Wonderful. For lack of anything better to say - again - the taller blond sighed quietly and walked over to wrap his arms around his boyfriend -- his love, his sweetheart. Nothing and no one would ever change that.
Joanna stood in the middle of the kitchen and pinched the bridge of her nose for a moment or two, and when she lowered her hand her furious demeanor had evaporated, leaving her looking disappointed. "I'm sorry honey," she said with a sigh, setting Daniel's unfinished drink down on the counter. "I talked to him and I thought he'd be fine, but I guess not. I'll talk to him again after dinner."
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BlackFireKitsune Vice Captain
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Posted: Mon Sep 11, 2017 5:08 pm
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Posted: Mon Sep 11, 2017 5:39 pm
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Thankfully Zevran didn't mind the hug-- Why wouldn't he? He always loved to hug him, why wouldn't he want to now? The strangle little thought pestered him regardless as he hugged his boyfriend tight. He didn't really know what to say in response - he didn't really know what to say at all about anything actually - so for the moment he merely hummed a noncommittal, "Mmn." That wasn't that good though. Zevran was trying to make him feel better, he was sure, so he offered him a ghost of a smile. "I love you." It didn't feel right though. He didn't feel right.
His heart hurt, and not in the same way it always did whenever things connected to Zev's past came up.
"I'm sorry to you too dear," Joanna said, smiling sadly at Zevran. "I wanted you to have a nice, relaxing time here, but I don't know if you've really had that so far. Why don't you two go on upstairs? You probably want to talk about things now, I'm sure."
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BlackFireKitsune Vice Captain
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Posted: Mon Sep 11, 2017 5:47 pm
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Love undeserved, yet greedily grasped at and gratefully received.
...Did Abel feel the same sometimes? He had said he felt he didn't deserve him, but did he feel this? It was like the pain in his chest sometimes, hot and sharp. Loathing. But he didn't hate himself, why should he? What choice had he ever been given? It wasn't his fault.
But how much responsibility had he ever tried to take? How much did he taken even now? What about those two kids?
"Ah, don't say that." Zevran smiled warmly, by all appearances genuinely at Joanna even as his stomach churned. "Meeting you has been wonderful, and Alex too. Aaron is," he chuckled, "charmingly shy and awkward, I am sure we will get along soon. I expected to be disliked to be truthful, just not quite for the reason that Daniel has taken against me. I hope he will come around. For now though..." Zevran gave Abel's waist a squeeze and looked up at him, his smile softening to something gentle and rather private. "I would like to go upstairs with those drinks and relax, if you would too?"
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Posted: Mon Sep 11, 2017 6:03 pm
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"Oho, don't tell Aaron that," she teased with a small smile - still a bit strained, not quite as warm as usual - as she turned to pull two new glasses out of a cupboard so she could pour the drinks for them since Abel's first attempt at doing so had been completely derailed. "But really, I'm glad you've been enjoying some of your visit, at least. I'm sorry about Daniel though, he's... Well he means well, he's just... not always good at articulating it. But don't mind him, I'll talk to him. You two go on upstairs," she said gently, picking up both glasses once she'd finished and handing them to the pair of them.
Abel took his almost mechanically, but at Zevran's gesture and his mother's prompting, he leaned in and pressed a fond kiss to his boyfriend's temple. "Yeah, I think going upstairs is a good idea. Thanks Mom," he added, though she just smiled and patted him on the arm with her free hand.
"Of course dear. Go on now, off with you!" Unlike with Daniel, her shooing this time was entirely good-naturedly and done with a smile.
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BlackFireKitsune Vice Captain
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Posted: Mon Sep 11, 2017 6:10 pm
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