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 Posted: Fri Feb 24, 2012 5:22 pm
So, I went to the orthodontist to get my teeth straightened after my accident. Needed that done asap. I find out something is wrong with my jaw when, well, there really wasn't. So, orthodontist attempts 'fixing' it, and after my braces are off, gives me what I now find out to be a fake retainer.
Because of this dumb a**, my jaw is now so ******** up, and the joint is so damaged, that it cracks every time I open it, and locked and spasmed on me when I was at the dentist today. I couldn't open my mouth. Maybe like, a centimetre at most? So my dentist got me a real retainer now, and I now have to apply extreme heat and then ice over and over a few times a day, plus take pain killers to keep it relaxed. So on top of everything I already have this weekend, I have to deal with this too. Wasn't his job to FIX what ever was wrong with my jaw if something was wrong with it in the first place? It says he's certified. Is he not supposed to know what the ******** he's doing? The guy even left cement on my teeth. Like come on.
Taylor... Is not happy. ( Yes, I just spoke in third person. )
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Posted: Wed Feb 29, 2012 10:07 pm
I hate scholarship applications. I hate those who create servers that cannot handle the processes that they are designed for. F*** everything.
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SilentShadowDreamer Vice Captain
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Posted: Sat Mar 17, 2012 3:23 pm
Last night was bad. Not as bad as it could've been, but bad. Big parties with lots of alcohol and strangers make Silent a sad panda.
Protip: When going to a party where alcohol will be involved, make sure you have at least a vague idea of who's going to be there. If you cannot know, go with a group of people you know and do not leave them no matter what.
If you see your ex at said party? STOP DRINKING. Seriously, just stop. Switch to water and stay there. Do not continue drinking, you will just end up making a fool of yourself.
Also, never drink three-quarters of a bottle of fifty percent vodka over the course of three hours. It's just never a good idea.
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Posted: Mon Mar 26, 2012 4:05 am
Huh. Funny how supposed "best friends" can totally ******** you over. I suppose I'm being the teensiest bit melodramatic, but ********, I do what I want. I'm sensitive as all hell, so shush.
So I've got this "friend," who'll be referred to Derpette from here on out, because shut it. Anyway, we've gotten really close over the last two years: we graduated from the same high school, come from the same high school dormitory, graduated the same year, and both went on to flight school at the same place. First semester was tough, but after driving forty-five minutes twice in the span of three hours, twice a week, for a whole semester kinda brings people together. We're at the point now where we crash at each others' places, watch the same shows and get together for dinner on those days, tell each other extremely personal info, and rely on each other. I struggle with being her friend sometimes, because one, she's a spoiled brat and acts like a ******** five year old most days. Plus she's not as emotional and sentimental as I am, so when I feel like we're supposed to be closer, she doesn't care. Still, we have our moments and sometimes it shows, like when we sit and talk story for hours in my car at some random parking lot, even late at night.
On Friday, I saw her at the hangar before my flight and we were hanging with our mutual instructor, and she revealed she'd gone to see 21 Jump Street, which we both said we'd wanted to see, and sorta/kinda made plans to see them together. I immediately joked that the next day of hanging out was off and whatevs, and we kinda laughed, but I was hurt. Derpette always goes out and does things and activities that I would have loved to do with her (without inviting me and totally talks about it a lot afterward), and I've gotten used the feeling, because hey, we can't do everything together. Still, it hurt, because this happens so often, and I had looked forward to seeing the movie with her (she even did this with Redtails, knowing I wanted to see it with her due to its content).
So I didn't talk to her until today. On Monday we had planned to go to see The Hunger Games tonight (Sunday) with a mutual friend, and it was late, so Derpette was kinda sketch about going, but she said she would. I was relieved because our mutual friend (Derpina) was bringing a friend of hers that I didn't know, so I wanted someone to talk to if Derpina focused on her friend. I was relieved that Derpette was going, and was kinda relying on her to show.
At seven, two and a half hours before the movie started, I just knew in my ******** gut that Derpette would flake on me. I texted her, asking if she was coming, and she said no, she got home later than expected. Sorry. I can't say I was surprised, obviously, but I was disappointed. A little angry, but more disappointed. But whatever. I'd deal with it. Still, that was the last time I ever made plans to go to the movies with her.
Anyway, went to the movies, had fun, loved the movie, then I get home at midnight and log on to FB before heading to Gaia. I check Derpette's page and I'm quite startled to realize she went to see the HG today, earlier. And apparently she saw it ******** twice. And is now obsessed, even though she hasn't even read the ******** books.
At first, I was numb. All I could think was, Holy s**t. She went to see it. Twice. Once (at least) today. Even though I told her I was anxious about going to the movies with someone I had never even met. And she knew I was relying on her. And she knew how excited I was. It was all I could talk about. What the actual ********>
Even now, I'm still kinda numb. I mean, the anger's there, bubbling beneath the surface, but I still feel pretty detached from the whole situation. But I know, being the over-sentimental, over-emotional, over-sensitive stupid idiot I am, I am going to ******** stew over this for a long time. I don't often hold grudges, not big ones anyway, but now... I mean, what the actual ********? When you ******** MAKE PLANS with someone, DON'T ******** DO THE ACTIVITY PRIOR WITHOUT THE ORIGINAL PERSON. I mean, who the <********> does that? Really? Like, seriously? I thought we were friends, and on more than one occasion, we've admitted to being closer than we would have liked (we had this whole fake enmity thing going on, despite hanging out frequently and such). I thought I meant more to her than that. But obviously I was deluding myself as I often do, and someone screwed me over, as people often do.
I'm not sure if I'm taking this too personally, but I don't think I am. I just don't understand why she would make plans with me, flake, and then go ahead and do them even before she ******** flaked.
It just makes me feel extremely worthless as a friend, y'know?
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SilentShadowDreamer Vice Captain
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Posted: Tue Apr 03, 2012 9:46 pm
Rage. Rage. ABSOLUTE ******** RAGE. So hey, let's give y'all some background. This year I am a Sciences and Honours English major. Last year, though, I was in Arts. I took two Psychology courses with a professor, Dr. Niehaus, who was absolutely ******** awesome and who I adored. He was funny, he was cool, he made every class worth getting up for even if I had to be in class by 8:30 AM. He was also working here on a green card while he and his family applied for Canadian citizenship. Now, Immigration Canada won't let him and his family stay. Why? Because his four-year-old son has autism, and apparently that's too much of a strain on our ******** healthcare system. Even though that was diagnosed after they came here. Even though he and his wife both work here and pay taxes here. <******** you, politics. ******** you for forcing away one of the best professors I had in this school. ******** you for ruining the life a family was trying to build here because of an unexpected medical condition they would have had no problem taking care of themselves. Seriously. ******** you. You can go to hell and you can burn there forever. For the curious.Also for the curious.I realize that this lets everyone know the province in which I live and the school to which I go, but quite frankly I don't give a s**t - I'm one of many thousands of students and I don't live on campus, so good freaking luck finding me to any creepers out there, and this is a story that needs to be told, because it's SO MUCH ******** BULLSHIT. Congratulations, Virginia. Your gain is Victoria's loss, and we'll miss him dearly. Please treat him better than the Canadian government did.
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Posted: Tue Apr 03, 2012 10:05 pm
I wish I could console you guys so you could feel better, but then that'd be therapy for me right? /weak laugh
Anyway, I looked on my ipod and found an a cappella version of this song from a popular show. I was like 'oh my goodness need to find the instrumental version and mesh them together in Garage band!' so I did, thirty minutes tops. Then suddenly I remember my dumbass of a computer won't let me on youtube to upload stuff. I raged for a while then played some Harvest Moon.
Sorry I'm not as angry as you guys are today. I have my bad days but I had no idea this thread was even here! I, too am emotional and a pretty big sissy when it comes to certain stuff. But then I'm pretty horrible other days.
Anyway, if it helps-since it's not even appropriate here I hope you guys have a better day, right? New days= new bridges to be built! C:
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Posted: Tue Apr 03, 2012 11:25 pm
SilentShadowDreamer Rage. Rage. ABSOLUTE ******** RAGE. So hey, let's give y'all some background. This year I am a Sciences and Honours English major. Last year, though, I was in Arts. I took two Psychology courses with a professor, Dr. Niehaus, who was absolutely ******** awesome and who I adored. He was funny, he was cool, he made every class worth getting up for even if I had to be in class by 8:30 AM. He was also working here on a green card while he and his family applied for Canadian citizenship. Now, Immigration Canada won't let him and his family stay. Why? Because his four-year-old son has autism, and apparently that's too much of a strain on our ******** healthcare system. Even though that was diagnosed after they came here. Even though he and his wife both work here and pay taxes here. <******** you, politics. ******** you for forcing away one of the best professors I had in this school. ******** you for ruining the life a family was trying to build here because of an unexpected medical condition they would have had no problem taking care of themselves. Seriously. ******** you. You can go to hell and you can burn there forever. For the curious.Also for the curious.I realize that this lets everyone know the province in which I live and the school to which I go, but quite frankly I don't give a s**t - I'm one of many thousands of students and I don't live on campus, so good freaking luck finding me to any creepers out there, and this is a story that needs to be told, because it's SO MUCH ******** BULLSHIT. Congratulations, Virginia. Your gain is Victoria's loss, and we'll miss him dearly. Please treat him better than the Canadian government did.
You... You're ******** kidding me, right?
This has to be some sort of misinformed April fools joke.
How on ******** earth can you label a four-year-old diagnosed with Autism a "burden to taxpayers?" Seriously. What kind of cold hearted, removed from reality b*****d would make such a ******** up ********>
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Posted: Tue Apr 03, 2012 11:36 pm
Unfortunately I am not kidding, and it's equally as enraging to me, trust me. On one hand, I know where it came from - Canada has free health care, so a lot of people move here specifically for that, and that's why the health scan is in place at all. However, if the parents are both working jobs and paying taxes, why the ******** should the family have to be kicked back home just because their son has autism? There is some hope for the world, though; the university, BC Health, and the province of BC are all backing the family on this. Though it's coming too late - he's taken a job in Virginia in case their reapplication doesn't go through, so either way they're leaving - it's caused freaking outrage that's gone all the way to Ottawa. This is going to make federal government take a really hard look at this whole application process, and hopefully it will save another family heartbreak later on. He's said that he hopes to come back to Canada with his family one day, which I hope was true and not just said to appease his (extremely, extremely upset) students. Because if they come back after a couple of years, I know the university will welcome him with open arms - and with luck, CIC will, too. In the meantime, I will just be sitting here full of quiet, impotent rage.
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SilentShadowDreamer Vice Captain
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Posted: Thu Apr 12, 2012 12:48 pm
So yesterday was... :/
I woke up and was very nauseous. This is a normal occurrence, but I had a test in class so I had to drag myself to class and I felt like puking the whole time.
I was walking to class and I saw this small sign saying, "WARNING: Graphic Photos Ahead." I was like what? And then I saw it (because it was impossible no to). In the middle of the student plaza were these 30ft (not exaggerating, they were measured) walls. I think there were six or so. On these walls were giant, blown-up, high-res images of dead babies and mangled fetuses. And across the walls was too much lettering to read. What I could pick out was accusations and guilt-laden bullshit.
Anti-abortion religious ********, basically. WHY CAN'T PEOPLE ACCEPT THAT A WOMAN CAN MAKE A CHOICE TO DO WHAT SHE WANTS WITH HER BODY AND SHE DOESN'T NEED TO BE FORCED TO FEEL GUILTY ABOUT IT? FOR ******** SAKE!
Also, who the ******** does that? Who takes fetuses and photographs them? Because you really aren't supposed to steal medical waste. Also, you have to be pretty depraved to pose and take high-res images of fetuses and dead babies. :/
UGH. I just ignored it. MY ROOMMATE ON THE OTHER HAND, bless her soul, walked in and heard their whole BS presentation (she told me about it, she said it was mostly illogical religious stuff with no scientific backing -- and this chick is Catholic) and put her name down on the pro-choice list. Which, may I add, they wrote PRO-ABORTION and ANTI-ABORTION. So slanted. Did you know you can be PRO-CHOICE and ANTI-ABORTION at the same time? It means you support the woman's right to CHOSE WHAT HAPPENS WITH HER BODY. NOVEL ******** CONCEPT.
SO YEAH. I'm a bit pissed, as that was more than uncalled for. It isn't going to change anyone's minds, just give religious assholes and misogynists and ultra-right wingers more ammo for their bullshit cannon.
2012 has literally been the worst year for reproductive rights. :c
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Posted: Thu Apr 12, 2012 2:52 pm
@Anneh Well....
Well actually, i'm not going to argue, cuz I don't want to be a b***h.
For my rant, it was yesterday. the most boring day ever.
Well let's see.. The night before I went to sleep at like, then thirty, then I woke up at like, six.That's only.. what? Nine hours? Well. I usually sleep twelve to fourteen. Ohwell for that, but that's not that point.
See, the day before I had to dish out, a week's worth of homework, because I thought it was still Easter break. Now, i'm on independent study. I can't keep track of the days very well! Well, yeah I finished everything except History. Again Dx.
Well, my daddy drove me to school like the amazing person he is, then went to work to get drug and pee tested. Well, I had STAR testing (California testing thing) and it took me forever, because I only had one day to finish it. Well, I met a few people. Gage, Dustin, and Chrissandra. Though they smoke and stuff, they're pretty cool.
Well, START testing was the worst. Considering the thing I never actually guessed on was English, and most of my history.. well, Those subjects are easy for me, except sometimes history. But it was mainly 'Christopher Columbus, etc. So that was alright.
Now, Science and math.
Ohmygod.
Well, I guessed on most of the math, and Science. I actually DID some of the science I THINK so I did guess on all of the math. Well, screw it. I wanted to get the hell out of there....
Well, by the time I finished, it was... Ten fifty. So I hung out a little, waiting for the bus, WHEN my daddy shows up at the Carls JR. Love that place.
So I ate with him, and he said that he could come with me to the Career services center.
So I did.
Little did I know I had to wait FOUR hours for him.
I mean, the only time I went out of the car into the pouring rain was to go pee!
Cmon. It was raining. my bladder was crying.
Well, then we got home, the rest of the day was normal...
Now the last part of my ranting, is today. About two hours ago. My b***h-a** brother unplugged my keyboard, THEN he screwed up my internet! It took me a few minutes to fix it, but I was pissed. So it's official now. I hate. My brother.
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LovetoCauseMayhem Vice Captain
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Posted: Thu Apr 12, 2012 6:17 pm
@TheAnneh: I agree with you. Seriously.
And I hate when the pro-life people shove their opinions down other people's throats. Yes, I understand you don't want me to abort my baby. It's my life, not yours. Get the ******** over yourself.
There was actually this woman who spilled fake blood at the foot of this girl who came out of an abortion clinic and screamed "SEE THIS? THIS IS YOUR BABY'S BLOOD!" Sent the girl in ******** tears. I read about it online and I was ******** raging for days.
How is that right? I know you have your opinion, and I respect your right to have an opinion, but how is doing THAT legal or right or moral or ******** anything? How does THAT make anything better? You don't know the reason why she had to abort. You don't know the sort of life she's living or the father of that child - you don't know how he would treat them or her or the kid. What gives you the ******** right to judge ANYTHING?
I would rather have the child die before they can feel pain rather than give birth to them, be unable to support them, and loathe their very existence for ruining my existence and holding me back. I would rather have a child when I'm ready to have a child, not because my birth control didn't work and I screwed up.
Pro-lifers like that don't understand the kind of sorrow those girls have to go through. For those three weeks or month or whatever, they were mothers. They went through that abortion and that heartache because they weren't ready, and it was better for them and the child they weren't meant to have yet.
And then those people ******** go on about 'God doesn't want you to kill your child! Blahblahblahblah'- who are they to decide what God wants? Who's to say that he even ******** cares? We killed His son, and people have the audacity to think that He still loves us?
Nobody knows God. Nobody knows what He's thinking. They and we would like to, but they and we don't.
People need to ******** grow up and realize that humans are not all-knowing or all-powerful. And life and death just ******** happen.
And that those girls feel that pain for their unborn child much more deeply than those people ever could.
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Sorry. >.> TheAnneh kinda got me going. And I've needed to rant about something for days.
Let's not get into a huge thing about this, kay?
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Posted: Fri Apr 20, 2012 1:53 am
Ugh, some people are just so ******** rude.
I don't go to the forums for this exact reason; there are random wierdos out there that thing they own all of ******** Gaia. b***h!
All I did was make a thread, asking for people to post with a rant or issue they'd like to be heard by other Gaians on GR. Simple.
You either ******** make a post about something, or you press the ******** BACK button and go on with your pathetic day!
You DON'T tell someone they need to learn how to use the forums and post s**t in the right subforum. Sure, someone should say something, and I'm not very forum savvy at all- but you don't tell them to get their s**t out of the sub forum.
Instead, the second guy that posts does it in a nice way. "Hey, you know this should probably go in the blahblahblah subforum."
Oh, hey! Thanks! You're MUCH nicer than the a*****e that posted before you. Thank you so kindly for not being a total d**k.
And then the next guy.... oh... oh you.
I mean, obviously, the thread has closed, right? I was corrected and plainly will be reposting my thread in another forum, right? Right.
WRONG!
Then the next guy, has the temerity to say, "Oh, you know, you can't be taken seriously, because its people like you who want to just take people's life issues and humiliate them and use them to boost you're own ego."
Really? Really dude? You got all that from 'post your thoughts below'?!
"These are the kind of things bullies from some b rated movie would do."
Who. The. ********. Are. You?
How was I trolling? How did I intend to "exploit" someone's problems and "humiliate" them?
I asked a simple request: Post your s**t below and you'll hear it on the radio.
Don't want your s**t out in the open, well then don't post.
That ******** simple.
Its people like that that want me to just forget the internet.
I'm a bully? IM A BULLY?!!>?!?!?!
THat is the most incorrect statement anyone will EVER make about me. So stfu and stay out of my businuess, mind your own, and get a ******** life, because it really sounds like YOU need an ego boost, you ******** bully.
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Posted: Wed May 09, 2012 8:31 am
So they kicked my mom out of her place just a few moments ago. Her stupid boyfriend... he will not be allowed into my house, thats for damn sure. The cops only let her grab a few things, and I don't know if she was able to get enough for her AND my brother who is at school right now.
This sucks... I told her to just get her stuff and come here, but she kept insisting that that a*****e was going to fix it. Whatever- he's the scum of the earth to try to convince someone to ruin their life. Now she has nothing. And its not just that, but my innocent brother, who is about to graduate high school, he doesn't even know what's going on, these weren't his desicions and now he just lost everything he had.
And now, I have to figure out how to fit two people into my 500sqft apartment, and two cats. And feed them, because my mom still doesn't have a job. And she's not going to go to her family for help right now because everyone is still mourning my great grandmother.
I wake up to the most awesome things in the world, I swear. Everytime I wake up, its something else. Just when I think I'm gonna turn s**t around, something else even bigger than myself falls from othe sky to land on me. Its not fair. When do I get to just live a normal life? When? No matter which way I go or how I change or what I do, karma comes over like the b***h she is and balances anything good with something bad.
Why do I even bother waking up then? If I know everytime I do, I'm just hounded with more weight on my shoulders? What's the damn point anymore, really? There's only so much I can take, there really is.
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Posted: Thu May 10, 2012 12:14 pm
So my luck gets worse.
Turns out my moms boyfriend is a con artist.
His whole family has confronted my mother about him stealing from them. Hi brother, uncle, sisters, mother, and ex wife. They never got a chance to tell my mom because he never liked to take her to see his family.
What gets worse is that he was the one helping my grandma and mom with my great grandmothers accounts when she passed away and has all that information on his laptop. He has since gone AWOL.
At the bank right now to stop freeze my grandmothers accounts and then we have to do the same for my great grandmothers.
And THEN we have to come up with 3000 to get my mom and brothers stuff from storage.
And my brother has really bad anger issues so he put his hands on my mother yesterday.
This guy is dead to me.
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