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 Posted: Tue Jan 13, 2009 2:25 am
Raven Erin Ryan 
He hugged her sister back, rubbing her back. He cant cry anymore, he was too numb, too envious, too angry; so much he really wants too die. If not for Cris he could have run away, forget about being a Ryan and lived a new life. A new life away from this hurting memories, away from Alostor who keeps stealing her twin away, away from everything but he cant. Cris is the better part of him and he dont trust Alostor now. Maybe in the past he did but he has a mind now. And he doesn't act anything less than a god-father to anyone. Cris is not making smart actions and choices here, thats what's making him angry. What's with sitting on your god-father's lap. 'hell you're a big girl now, you cant do that anymore' he thought to himself, 'he's still a stranger in a sense' he continued rage filling him in again, keeping his grip of his twin's flat body.
He tried remembering the rain and the serenity it gives him. He wished he could stay under the rain forever. He sighed, and carried her sister still on his hug over the couch. He sat down still hugging her sister. "I want you only here" he whispered and hugged her tighter. 'here and noone else' he thought to himself. "I love you Cris, and Anya loves you too. I will talk to her, dont be scared." he assured her. He pulled away gently and wiped strands of hair away, he smiled while he fought back tears. "And btw, your flat" he said in a teasing voice trying to lift both of their spirit. He was pertaining to her being almost anorexic. He kissed her forehead, "If there's anything I want to stay the same, its us" he said to her or to himself as well. He hugged her again, alot of things going on his mind. He thought of Anya, maybe its good to talk to her about what he cant tell anyone even Cris about Alostor.
[[Yeah, its raven. x] lol. its okay..Im just used to writing alot. ^^ you're doing great dear.]]
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Posted: Tue Jan 13, 2009 3:53 pm
Anya Elizabeth O'hara [Thank you! biggrin You're pretty good yourself! Is your passion writing?]
Anya drove home, it started to rain. Her next door neighbor was Irish as well; Ilene Cruon, and was supposedly her caretaker if anything went wrong with her parents, like now. . . But, her parents chose poorly, and only picked out of the fact she was Irish. As she drove past Ilene's house, Anya sneered. Ilene was a superstitious witch. Anya cleared Ilene's lawn of leaves earlier in the Fall, and Ilene opened her door and yelled for Anya to get off her grass. Like they did in the movies. Ilene was old and bitter, owned a demon of a cat, and lost her husband to war in northern Ireland. Her husband's death was the only thing Anya took pity on. She found upsetting Ilene was like a game.
As she drove up to her driveway, Anya shut off the engine and got out, getting the grocery bags from the back of the car. She slung her school bag around her shoulder, shutting the door with her foot.
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Posted: Tue Jan 13, 2009 4:26 pm
CristinaCherryRyan  Miss me when I'm gone...”I want to go home.” she said quietly to herself. She hadn’t realized that she was actually talking out loud. She rubbed her face against her brother‘s chest. She knew he would probably get mad at her for wrecking his shirt but that was ok with her. She was already numb and cold. She didn’t care about anything else.
“What do you mean?” she said not looking up at him. She couldn’t understand what he ment about wanting her there. She was to tired and to numb to think. She shook her head. “No she hates me. How can you not? I didn’t even try to stop her.” she said wearily. “How can you not hate me?” she said as more tears fell from her eyes.
As he started to try to make her feel a little better she tried to smile. A small laugh and made its way thru her lips. “Nothing will ever change between us.” she said kissing his cheek lightly. If there was one thing that she wished could never change, that would be the way her and her brother were always so close. She was never alone and she always knew that somebody still loved her no matter what kind of crap she pulled. Then I'll return the favor!
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Posted: Wed Jan 14, 2009 4:15 am
Raven Erin Ryan
He looked down at her as she rubbed her face over his blue shirt. He put a hand over her head and kissed the top of her head. "This is home. I guess, we can never go back and we can do is face what's here" he said. It was a shock for him to be able to think amidst all the pain, rage and all mixed emotions he have inside.
'There! She's asking you coward tell her whats wrong..' he thought silently to himself. He looked away, he doesnt know if he should say it or not. 'I want you here on my lap and not Alostor. I dont trust him..completely' he thought to himself. He cleared his throat and sighed, "Nothing" he said with that same ice-cold voice he had awhile ago. He couldn't tell her, Alostor is his favorite person now and he hates it. He tried to smile but tears fell down instead. He wiped it immediately and laughed. "Its nothing" he said and pulled her in a hug. He cant stop crying but he can make her stop looking.
He thought of Anya, he cleared his throat and started speaking in a deep serious voice. "we cant hate you, i can never hate you because you're a better half of me" he said and paused "And for Anya, she's your bestfriend she cant hate you, she loves you and I think we're on the same boat, we're worried" he said softly.
[[Anya, writing is fun. I dont know I want to write my own story someday]]
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Posted: Wed Jan 14, 2009 7:39 am
CristinaCherryRyan Miss me when I'm gone... “This will never be home.” she said coldly. She already hated this place. She wanted to go to school get that over with and head back to her REAL home. She hated it. This was the last place that her parents had been. This was the place that her parents were headed. Their presents was still there somehow. She sighed.
“Ray you know I can tell when your lying.” she said placing her head back on her brother‘s chest. She hugged her brother back and sighed. She didn’t like being so far away from him. Even though she was in his arms she felt so distant. She felt more tears come but this time she tried to hid them.
Cristina flinched. She felt like a cold chill had worked its way down her back. She still felt cold. No matter what her brother could say to try to make her feel even a little better she still couldn’t believe him. She needed someone to hate her. She laughed, today, when she found out that her parents were dead? That was so… odd. “why are you worried? Is it cause of what happened this morning?” she said referring to the laugh. She hated being ‘herself‘ at times like this. When she found out that her grandpa died she was laughing coming in the door, and crying on her way out. IT seemed like Cristina was a roller coaster and there was no way off the ride.
[[Omg! raven she loves writing! She is really good... GREAT! at it too! and i think you should its alot of funn! right anya? wink
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Posted: Wed Jan 14, 2009 8:20 am
Raven Erin Ryan
He hugged her tightly, buried his head over her soft blonde hair. He took a gulped and cleared his throat "I just want you here with me, and noone else.." he said softly saying the last part like a whisper. How could he tell her he's jealous of Ally and he thinks Ally's taking her away. She loves Ally soo much, it hurts him. 'Conceited' he thought to himself.
He fought back tears and hugged her tighter. The whole day is full or crying, hating and dying. He fought the urge to tell her, he kept his eyes close over her shoulder. "I love you cher" he said softly, tears falling again. He didn't sob to hid his crying, he manage to breathe normally. He rarely address her Cher, its only when he's really really serious. "Stay with me Cherry" he said and smiled.
[[OH CRIS! maybe after college and after i become super rich and my life and dreams were all fulfilled and Im free to use my own time, I will. ^^]]
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Posted: Wed Jan 14, 2009 5:37 pm
CristinaCherryRyan Miss me when I'm gone... Cristina kissed his head lightly. “But we are here. Its just you and me.” she said softly trying to understand what the hidden meaning was. Cristina felt so slow. The numbness and the coldness she felt was getting to her. She felt light headed, but she wanted to know what he was talking about.
“But I know you love me… You’re my brother.” she said still awfully confused. “Ray I‘m not going to leave you. Don’t worry, if you leave ill be right behind you. If I leave ill take you with me. This way we wouldn’t be separated.” she said hugging him even tighter.
[[hehe! don’t worry that wont be long! Lmao! (u forgot about anya)Then I'll return the favor!
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Posted: Thu Jan 15, 2009 12:03 am
♔ [ Sorry I haven't been posting much. Finals next week. . . O.O Pray and wish me luck please!!! crying ]
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Posted: Thu Jan 15, 2009 4:41 am
Raven Erin Ryan
He hugged her tight and he knows he was confusing her so much. He cleared his throat and pulled away, looking through her eyes. He dont know how to say it, he doesn't know she would react but the numbing pain is shouting all over his being he needs to get it over with and the only way is to tell her what he sees.
He kissed her head lightly and sighed. "I dont know how you'll react and I dont know if you'll hate me because of this." he said for his intro. He fought back tears, possibilities of her getting real mad at him. "I dont like you close to Alostor." he said plainly closing his eyes "it doesnt look good that you sits on his lap, for heaven sake Cris you're not a kid anymore. I know, I know he's our god-father but he doesn't act like one" he said now looking straight to her eyes. "He's taking you away from me, from Anya. We dont seem to exist when you're together. You dont need me" he said tears falling, his heart falling apart. "But we're trying, Anya and I are trying to understand you love him the most. And he's making you happy something I think I cant make you feel. So even if it hurts to see you around him. Im doing my best to accept it" he said wiping his tears away.
There he told her the truth to ease the confusion, he doesnt know how she'll hate him and his trying to plan things if she hates him. 'I'll go to Japan and accept the modeling work if she hates me. Anyway, Anya and Alostor is here.' he thought, slowly tears came streaming again. He sighed, he was too sad to suppress it. He hugged her tight, and whispered "Im sorry". His mind's still floating, he thought of Anya. I should give her a call soon. He sighed and closed his eyes
[[Crissy. no i didnt. ^^ Im contemplating on what to write for her. heart
Anya. Goodluck, we know you can do it. We'll all pray for you 3nodding ]]
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Posted: Thu Jan 15, 2009 5:49 pm
CristinaCherryRyan Miss me when I'm gone... Cristina looked back at her brother unblinkingly. She didn’t didn’t understand anything. He was never this serious. He had used her middle name. He was staring at her like there was something very wrong… which there was. She had been acting all wrong. She wanted to punish herself by making herself work herself to death. This way she could become skinnier and could be her punishment for not mourning over her parent’s death.
She wanted to throw her arms around her brother. There was no way on earth would she hate her brother. She could get mad at him but she couldn’t hate him at all. There was never a time in her life did she ever once hate her brother. She ddint say anything because she would’ve been interrupting and she wanted to hear what he had to say. She knew that if she talked he would stop talking.
Cristina nodded slowly. She hated growing up. There were plenty of things she couldn’t do now that she could’ve done when she was really young. She could sit anywhere she wanted to, she could eat whatever she pleased and she could do anything she wanted to too. But sadly she couldn’t turn back time, no matter how much she wanted too. She looked away as her brother looked at her. She felt like she was being told what to do just like her father when he found out that she had a boy friend a long time ago.
“What are you talking about?” she asked when she found her voice. “We don’t seem to exist when you’re together and he’s making you happey something I think I cant make you feel? What are you trying to accept? The fact that I still want another ’parent’ still in my life?” she said hurt. She could swear that the reason why she couldn’t see was because the tears were in the way.
Cristina looked away. She wasn’t sure what was going on in her life and in others lives but she was sure that it was because of her. She wanted to leave. If no one was living in her old home she would’ve just went over and bought the house back. She would go camp out there. Maybe by some mirical get sick and die from a strange illness that no one knew about! Yea that would work wouldn’t it! She could go back to her parents. Maybe they would be able to tell her what was going on.
[[yea good luck anya! I know youll doo great!!!!
Ohhh.... i knew that! haha.... sweatdrop ]]
[[holy shiz nicks. i wrote alot! oh and raven guess what! its almost weekend!!!!!.... for me! hahaha ur probably already there]]
Then I'll return the favor!
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Posted: Thu Jan 15, 2009 7:50 pm
Anya Elizabeth O'hara Anya finished her homework later in the day. It was chemistry, her worst subject, with some English reading. To top it off, she had herself some Secondary school Irish history reading. After feeding her dog, she grabbed a dough-nut and sat down to watch some RTÉ; the Irish broadcasting program she'd ordered.
"Another local Dublin resident had been recently attacked, but found with little injuries and is in the hospital, currently." The newscaster; in Dublin, announced. It wasn't the first, and won't be the last. Anya sighed. The City of Dublin contained uncountable problems. . . A couple minutes later, the RTÉ afternoon programs came on and Anya's dog Madi came up and sat on her lap. Anya looked over at the phone.
[Thanks so much guys! It means a lot!!! ^^ I feel really good, thank you!]
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Posted: Fri Jan 16, 2009 4:36 am
Raven Erin Ryan
He looked at her, now both of them crying. He looked outside the window where the rain is pouring, he sighed. "I know I'm being a stupid a*****e. I know you need another parent, you need Alostor." he said putting her sister down the couch. He stood up and looked at her, he tried to smile. He bent down to kiss her cheeks, "I understand baby, you need him. Im sorry for being an stupid." he whispered. He stood up straight facing her, and smiled. "C'mon lets rest for now. I'll bring you to your room" he asked. He knows she's mad at him. "Or maybe not. Im really sorry. I'll be in my room if you need me." he said almost like a whisper. He started pacing towards the stairs and sighed heavily. Before going up, "Cris, you can do whatever you want. Dont mind me..be happy" he said his voice trailing off. He run upstairs and locked himself in his bathroom. He cried, he cant believe how selfish he was. How he's hurting her. He cried and thought of..
He put his phone out and message Anya. "Hey dear, she needs you please come back. Im useless Anya, please she needs you. crying " he texted her and hit send. He looked around his toiletries and found his favorite blade. He sat on the floor and rolled his sleeves up. He buried his head over his knees and cried, he wants to die, he wants to go away and stop hurting the only family he have. He positioned the blade over his left wrist but stopped. At the verge of wanting to die, vanity strikes. 'It'll scar, it hurts.' he thought and bowed down and weep.
[[Yeah that was pretty long Cris. ^^
Anya, ^^ how was school. mines killing me. XD]]
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Posted: Fri Jan 16, 2009 1:00 pm
CristinaCherryRyan Miss me when I'm gone... Cristina shook her head. “I don’t need anybody.” she said coldly. She knew that that was a lie. She also knew that Raven knew that it was a lie. She could never be alone. She would go crazy if she was really alone. She had never been alone. She always had her brother there or her friends. Never had she been alone.
Cristina shook her head. She didn’t want to go to her room. There was nothing in her room. Her mom promised her that they would go shoping to get her things for her room. There was only a bed, and her clothes, and a mirror. Everything else was still in boxes, bags, or in the bathroom.
More tears fell from her face. She was alone now. She hated every second of it. She shook her head and wrapped her arms around herself. It wasn’t the same. She ran up the stairs to find her brother. She needed him and that’s what was perfectly clear to her. Her brother was the only sibling that was always there with her. She thought of the worst things that could possibly happen to him. All of them ended up either leaving her or dying. “RAY!” she screamed. She sat by a wall and hugged herself. She was alone and cold and numb.
[[hehe ^^! Omg omg its friday! yay!!!!
ur welcome anya!]]
Then I'll return the favor!
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Posted: Fri Jan 16, 2009 4:15 pm
Anya Elizabeth O'hara Anya was just about to pick up her book on Irish History again, when her phone started shaking besides her. She dropped her book; clumsily, and picked up her phone. Her dog jumped at the sound of the text book dropping, and ran off towards the kitchen, assuming the sound came in that direction. Anya read the text message on her phone out loud, "Hey dear, she needs you please come back. Im useless Anya, please she needs you. crying from. . . Raven? Cris?" Anya dropped the phone in thought. What the heck happened? Their god-father. . ?
Anya picked up the phone and wrote back - What happened? Is your god-father with you? She sent and placed the phone down, raising her legs onto the couch and hugging her knees to her chest. She decided to watch a movie. She got up, heading for her bookcase, and grabbing the D.V.D. for "Wind that Shakes the Barley," a fairly sad movie. It'd get her mind off of things, and she liked it.
[Raven - It's always nice talking to someone interested! School was okay. . . Some idiotic teachers preping the final, so me and two old friends goofed off and flirted a bit. My "crush" made the whole day better, and fixed my pen, lol! xD]
[Cristy - "Awwww, eekk!" ^^ Lol!]
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Posted: Sat Jan 17, 2009 4:19 am
Raven Erin Ryan
He dropped his blade down, slashing his left arm clumsily. He hissed, 'freak!' he cursed to himself, it wasn't bad at all but he hates physical pain, his body is his temple, a prefect beautiful shell. Its all he need to work and lived. He grab the towel hanging nearby and pushed it over his wound, he bleeds easily.
He ignored the pain and the blood flowing onto the towel. He opened his bathroom door and found Cris on sitting on the floor. He run to her and sat infront of her. "I know, silly question but what's wrong?" he asked softly, rubbing hie head over her arms since his hands are preoccupied. "Im here cherry, and Im not gonna leave you. Im sorry but not even to Ally. I will be the one to take care of you.." he said soothing her sister. He ignored the pain and pulled her into a hug. "C'mon, everythings gonna work out for us" he said patting her hair.
While he was comforting her sister, his phone vibrated and he need to check it out. 'Anya' he thought. He read the message and message back, he was really typing very slow. No its not Ally, he's busy at the moment. Will you come and see her. She needs you. and hit send. He put his phone back and kissed the top of Cris hair. He suddenly thought of something, it made him smile. "C'mon silly, I need to attend to this" he said showing her his little cut. He was making such a cute little childs face, its kinda funny. "After you can sleep with me, our room is too big for one person. You can sleep here whenever.." he said. They used to share only one room ever since as twins but as they grew up they needed more space.
[[Anya- yeah, i understand how certain people makes things better. This days im always tired of school and all but whenever my 'crush' would text me to see her, and she holds my hand.. its like o.o @_@
Cris-im getting better. ^^
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