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 Posted: Sat Oct 01, 2005 10:09 pm
Name's Bryan Crawford.
I'm 21 years old and I live in LAs Vegas, NV. I'm not bipolar...which makes it kinda inapprorpiate to be here...but whatever.
I'm here for h3rsh3y, my true love. heart
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Posted: Sat Oct 08, 2005 10:40 am
So, I found out a while ago that I'm not actually bipolar. The ********? I don't believe my psych. But whatever.
Implode.With.Me is sexy.
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Posted: Sat Oct 08, 2005 11:03 am
X[phucket]X So, I found out a while ago that I'm not actually bipolar. The ********? I don't believe my psych. But whatever. Implode.With.Me is sexy.
And uh... hoyeah @_@
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Posted: Sat Oct 08, 2005 9:56 pm
h3rsh3y X[phucket]X So, I found out a while ago that I'm not actually bipolar. The ********? I don't believe my psych. But whatever. Implode.With.Me is sexy.
And uh... hoyeah @_@Yeah, I'm just that cool. ^.^
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Posted: Fri Oct 14, 2005 6:54 am
Hay all
My name is Jezy
I am 18
I have benn bipolar for about 4 years
As of 5 mounthes ago I am no longer taking pills and life is hard as heck
I am in college a I think I am passing all my classes ^_^
I draw to make myself feel better when I hate the world
And I guess I am doing good because I am still alive <3
And, um yea... I thinks that is about it
Hope to talk to you all soon heart
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Posted: Sun Oct 16, 2005 6:41 pm
Tears of Ash Hay all My name is Jezy I am 18 I have benn bipolar for about 4 years As of 5 mounthes ago I am no longer taking pills and life is hard as heck I am in college a I think I am passing all my classes ^_^ I draw to make myself feel better when I hate the world And I guess I am doing good because I am still alive <3 And, um yea... I thinks that is about it Hope to talk to you all soon heart Welcome to the guild.
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Posted: Sun Oct 16, 2005 7:06 pm
Okay, so I've been on here for quite some time now... finally decided to post here. Mmmk. My name is Kati, from Ontario Canada... I'm 15. [to be 16 in March] I'm currently in grade 10, at a public highschool. I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder when I was 12 by my school's board psychiatrist. I had many tests done. I don't take medications for it, I don't believe drugs really help with it. I've found other ways to deal with everything. My family is very patient with it. I think that's all there is to know, really. 
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Posted: Sun Dec 04, 2005 7:38 pm
Hey all! I'm Katherine, 19...I wasn't officially diagnosed with bipolar until less than a year ago. Type II...don't get extreme mania, but I get VERY deep depressive stages. I'm also a rapid-cycler, and have wild mood swings so many times a day, it's unreal. The symptoms started showing up when I was 13.
I'm a Sophomore in college. I like to draw and write. I'm a religion major, Japanese minor. I've always been one of those students people hate...straight As and whatnot, and believe me...that's hard as all heck when you don't take meds and your mood fluctuates madly. Guess I'm good at forcing myself to do things I'd rather not.
I'm an ex-self-mutilator, and two-time surviver of attempted suicide.
As of now, it's been a full month without wild mood swings! Without medicine, too...since my psychiatrist CONVENIENTLY decided not to tell me the side-effects of my Effexor, and it nearly landed me in a hospital *sweatdrop* *mental breakdown* So, I'm excited about that.
I want to be able to offer support to others, and have some people reassure me every now and again, since all those around me are the type that say "Just snap out of it!" *laughs* *is getting way used to it*
Well, I'd love to help out as much as I can! If need be, I can do any artwork if any is needed. I can also make banners. ^^
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Posted: Mon Jan 23, 2006 6:47 pm
Yeah, I'm not sure if I am bi-polar, but I'm sure I am [my friend pointed it out when I told him a dream i had, he said I had bi-polar probably] And also, I can relate to lots of the symptoms. I live in northboro MA with my mother [I'm 14] and go to my fathers, In Berlin...I have 3 ferrets, 3 cats, a tarantula, and gonna get a dog soon. Used to have 2 other ferrets[they died crying ], 2 snakes, chinchilla, squirrel, and lots of fisheys. I want to also get a bearded dragon, iguana, sheep, rats, and an african grey [parrot]. Umm...I don't know.........COCONUTS!!!
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Posted: Wed Feb 08, 2006 7:22 am
Hello smile
I am female in real life, 22, third (or is it forth) year of Junior College. Finally getting my act in gear and graduating this semester and heading to the craziness that will be REAL COLLEGE. BP has caused me to fail/drop classes, and has overall killed my confidence in being able to do well in school.
I am Mixed Type (Or, officially "Bipolar Disorder Not Otherwise Specified") because I hallucinate and have extreme moods. I also have mixed episodes (depression with insomnia and rapid thoughts, etc) which are hands down the worst thing ever.
I am a SOBER BIPOLAR because Lithium kills my creativity. I am a film major, and it's more "artsy" to be Bipolar, and everyone loves quoting people like Virginia Woolf and saying "I wish I had BP so I could have her genius!"
Pardon my French, but ******** that. It's an equal trade. Unstable moods that just won't leave you be, insomnia when you need sleep and depression when you need energy...
I am Ultra-ultra-ultra Rapid Cycling. This is not an officially accepted term in the BP world but I have had up to 4 Manic periods in a 24 hour span. Currently, because it's winter, I'm manic by day, depressive by night, and haven't slept in 7 days.
My doctor's are talking about medicating me for a stress induced bladder condition. Uhg sad It's a sad day in my life.
My screen name is Judas Gabriel. I call myself that because BP turns me into a very dark person some times, and a very good person others. I have elements of both.
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Posted: Mon Mar 06, 2006 1:05 pm
Hello everyone. I'm Brianna, but I go as Jack. Whatever you want to call me is up to you. 3nodding I live in New York. I'm 14, and I'm a freshman. I was officially diagnosed with bipolar when I was 13, but I've been bipolar for a long time. I'm also diagnosed with severe depression. I've been like that since I was 9. I'm supposed to be taking meds right now.. but I don't feel like it. I have rapid mood swings, so please excuse me for my random moods and what-not. sad
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Posted: Wed Apr 12, 2006 1:01 pm
Hello, I'm Kev...
I turned 26 the other week, I live in Stratford-on-Avon, Warwickshire, England with my Parents, my Little baby brother (Who'll turn 25 in a few months, cute lil' guy!) two dogs, (Buster and Bently) a cat (Rossi) and a Budgie (Capain Mork)
Time for a short (ish) bio, huh?
I was first diagnosed with depression when I was 16, According to my councellors, it is entirely resonable that I was severely depressed from as early as the age of seven. At the time I was going through college. The condition persisted through my college course, and through my first years at Uni, when a series of unfortunate events (To coin a phrase) lead to everything going all pair shaped. I suffered a nervous breakdown. I had what is colourfully refered to as a psychotic episode, and pretty much withdrew from normal life for a year.
My diagnosis was switched from common-old garden variety depression to Manic-Depression.. and then to Bi-Polar with the advance of the PC bregade. With new, wffeftive medication and councelling, I began to put my life back together, but I still have a few lingering problems.. My memory is permanantly damaged, for example. I took up a job in a local corner shop, and have since progressed to the wonderful worlds of Supermarkets...
In that time, my family bacame a case study for the case that depression is a genetic trait... It emerged that the entire paternal side of my family has suffered from depression, in one form or another. My Father, Grandfather, and every aunt and uncle on Dad's side.. every last one of them: Depressed. I think we're listed as 'Family B' in a reaserch paper somewhere in the University of Warwick!
This year, I am hoping to once again resume my higher education asperations... With any luck I'll begin Teacher Training in September.
In the mean time, I'm around...
Thanks for reading!
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Posted: Wed Apr 12, 2006 1:27 pm
Hi. I'm Heather, and I'm 18. I was diagnosed bipolar at 14, after a number of hospital visits in a short period of time. (Short term, obviously, or else they would have been smart enough to keepme there longer).
I've gone through numerous treatments in the past four years, including spending the first two bogged down with a bunch of meds. I am currently not taking any medication, because it stops me from being able to do many things I enjoy doing. My family isn't so understanding of my decisions, and can't stand me or being around me. They never have been supportive in my life anyway, so I guess it doesn't bother me as much as it should.
I try to ignore the fact that I have it... but with trouble sometimes. I'm scared to ask for help, and I hate being happy because I'm not familiar with it. I experience depersonalisation frequently, as well as derealisation.
And um.. I don't have anyone to talk to, especially about this, so that's why I'm here.
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Posted: Mon May 22, 2006 4:59 pm
my name is jessica-renee but im changing it to Renee'aleas because it sounds more like me. Ive been diagnosed since age 9 and right now im 15. Drawing is my thing. It expresses my rapid emotions. Im manic depressive. And sometimes when Im depressed it seems like the whole world slows down and I get light headed. then someones waking me up and i dont know what happened.....I usually draw or read. Its hard for me to pick up friends being as Im semi anti social. And doubly hard now that im bisexual as well as bipolar so now its even harder lol! especially with all the disapproval!
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Posted: Sun Jun 11, 2006 12:39 am
I'll just copy and paste what I wrote on the Bipolar thread in the ED: Psych forum, with some additions.
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I always had symptoms of bipolar I think, looking back on my childhood, I got easily depressed [I have a long history of having pretty serious depression, sometimes I can't even move because I'm so depressed], had a lot of temper tantrums and was prone to "flying off the handle" and was very emotional and unable to control my emotions. All of these were lifelong problems. I was diagnosed with ADD at age 8, and the therapist I was seeing recently seemed to believe I still had ADD, although she hadn't ruled out bipolar as a coexisting problem. After talking to another psych, the one on campus (I have no insurance now) we've noticed from some of my behavior that I must be bipolar. I was put on antidepressants three years ago for panic attacks (my regular doc diagnosed me with depression/anxiety) but I was told when I started taking them to watch for manic symptoms, since the doc was skeptical I could have it.
Unfortunately he did not tell me that uncontrollable fits of rage are also mania, he just mentioned the classic signs of mania, which didn't fit my symptoms. I never really feel euphoric, just... really angry, to the point that I feel like I'm going insane. I scream, I hurt people, I feel like someone else is controlling me. I've never been psychotic, but it feels pretty close. This happened rather recently and it was terrible, my husband was tired of dealing with it because this wasn't the first time, and he almost left me until I made an effort to see someone (I was fed up because the anti-depressants, while they made the depression go away, weren't doing anything for my constant irritable mood, crazy mood swings and the episodes).
As for the self-injury, that was never involved and yes it usually occurs with borderline, but I recently cut myself a few times, mostly because I was suicidal and I wanted to slit my wrists but only ended up cutting myself on the arm near my wrist I guess because I felt I couldn't go through with it. I don't think that really falls into the normal category of SI because I didn't feel any release afterwards. I started doing this when my husband accidentally cut me with a knife when I tried to wrestle it out of his hand once, and he cut me on the hand above the wrist really deep. We had been fighting and when that happened it made me feel a lot better for some reason, so after that I cut myself a few times when I was coming down from an episode.
This psych I'm seeing wants me to be on lithium, I had to go in for bloodwork yesterday, so I'll probably start next week. [Edit: As of today I've been on 300 mg for about four days, I double the dosage next week and at the end of the week I go in for a Lithium level.] And then they have to poke me again a bunch of times which is going to suck because I have a phobia of giving blood, or invasive medical procedures, which is why I started taking psych drugs in the first place.
Sorry for a life story, it's just, relieving to find out you're bipolar, especially after everyone in your life led you to believe growing up that it was all your fault and you just had no self-control. My mom once said I was "emotionally retarded" and that's about right. I spent four years in special education at school [from 5th-8th grade, I wasn't officially removed from the program until I was a junior in high school] and surrounded by people who were making the problem worse by getting disappointed when my behavior never changed. Trying to change your behavior on your own when it's not really controllable just.... it made it worse. It made me feel guilty about it, I didn't know it was a mental illness, I just thought I was a bad person. I wanted to kill myself all throughout middle school. Honestly. I think I would have if I had been older at the time.
Too bad my family doesn't believe in mental illness... even though my mom took lithium in college, and we've had like who knows how many alcoholics on my mom's side, and my maternal cousin tried to kill herself right around the time she graduated from high school, etc. Yeah, my family's ******** up but nobody wants to admit that anybody's sick, and then they all hate me for taking crazy pills. ******** them all.
I feel really bad for my husband though... his mother is bipolar, his best friend is bipolar (he had to drive him to the hospital in 2000 when he tried to kill himself), so he just attracts manic-depressive people I guess.
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I seriously think my dad is bipolar most of the time, because it totally seems to make sense. Also, he had ZERO friends and has hardly any interests (other than working, he sleeps and watches tv, sometimes he plays Civ III on the computer).
As for what I do, well I'm a history major (I used to be an art major, and I still draw sometimes, just not as much as I used to, but I'd much rather be stable emotionally and mentally than be OMG creative, I would never go off of my meds once they worked for me, GOING OFF OF YOUR MEDS BECAUSE YOU FEEL LIKE THEY "STIFLE YOU" IS STUPIDSTUPID STUPID!!!). I should graduate in December if things go right. (I've been in college six years and currently I have three incompletes. Ugh.) I'm 23, I'm married and I live in this cramped efficiency apartment in downtown Nashville. I don't have a job because I got fired in January for being "rude" to a customer (she was a b***h, I didn't do anything, they just fired me because of my horrible customer service track record). I totally blame my loss of a job on Bipolar, but the psych I was seeing at the time didn't fill out the damn form on time so I wasn't able to get disability. I live on unemployment currently, my husband works at a bakery nearby and we are so broke I think we might go on food stamps. I get my health care from the clinic on campus and recently signed up at this program at the state health center for prescription coverage and doctor's visits on a sliding scale. I have to go in Monday with my husband (we had to beg his boss to let him off work because he works like 60 hours a week) to show them his pay stubs and my unemployment receipts so they can determine our income bracket.
Pictures:
Antony and I getting married
Seriously old picture of me that was probably taken four years ago
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