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Um, I guess I'll be the first to post here then! No one really has to respond to this; I'm just going to type it out. sweatdrop

I'm so sick and tired of solving other people's problems. I must admit, I enjoy doing it, but when you have the same damn girl telling you how her boyfriend's ex-girlfriend wants to kill her, then she breaks up with him because he doesn't put anything into the relationship, then is mad at herself for having a dream she enjoyed where the two of them got married and she still likes him, it get's so freaking annoying! She was my first friend in middle school once I had moved, but she's being a huge pain with her problems! Okay, her family sucks! Her brother is so insane I was so close to killing him myself, her mom yells and cusses at her so much without pausing to think aobut her feelings, her dad does the same thing, her grandmother is criticizing everything they do. The only person who isn't insane at her house would have to be her one-year-old sister! She apologizes about dragging me into her problems, then turns around and dumps more on me! She makes things up so she can have something to talk about, and whenever she wants to do something with a friend, I'm always on call. It's fine, but it gets to be exhausting. I've never been with any of my other friends because I'm usually with her.
Then she starts complaining about how ugly she is, how her life sucks, how she wants to kill herself, how everyone hates her, how I'l go on to be popular and she'll be forgotten by me. It's so irritating when I've heard her talk to me about this latter issue seven times over the phone and three times in person. I would leave her alone and give us some space, but then I'd just upset her because "I'm the only real friend she has here." That and I've been officially labeled as the leader of the group with insightful advice and is always there to help. I don't know if I can admit to that, but I won't be able to if I'm stuck solving her problems during our first year at highschool.


Okay, my rant is done and I feel better.

Thanks for the response! But I'm not her only friend, and I am also the councelor of the group. I get what you're saying, though. what I've told her to do is try to solve her own problems. If there are some serious ones she needs help with, she can call me. And I thought I would feel better after the last rant, but I need to go again; I called her today...

Alright, so she tells me she's friends with her ex-boyfriend now. Hurray! Then she goes on again about how some guy we both know (He's the large, unattractive guy who's obsessed with the law because his dad's a police officer and was calling my friend four times a day.) now has a girlfriend. For him, that's saying a lot. So she says that me, her and another one of our friends are the only people she knows who are still single. I even made her take a quiz that was titled 'Do you Really want a Boyfriend?' I realize it was probably a useless thing to do, but I wanted her to think if she really did want a boyfriend. I myself argue with myself over that fact (it's strange; I start slapping myself...). But I don't go to all my friends and tell them "Oh, poor me, poor me. Nobody but me is single. Even the lame people hate boyfriends/girlfriends." I've told her before that she doesn't need a boy to feel good about herself. It's all a matter of having someone there to love, to turn to when things aren't going so well. If she doesn't have a boyfriend, then she tells me how ugly, worthless, and hopeless she is and how she'll never get married. And if she does have a boyfriend, I spend an entire fourty minutes hearing about how she's never felt this way before, that she's seriously in love, that he's so nice, that his ex-girlfriend his making her life a living hell.

Now that that rant is out of the way, I have another.

I have attempted to slit my wrists on only one issue, but that's because I was failing at everything at the time. The things I learned from that experience are that one it's not worth it, and two scissors don't work. I have tried so hard to change myself before, two years ago, but then I received a strange idea that people were now liking me because I was crazy in front of them, as well as smart. I didn't fake being stupid, although I have run into a few desks on accident, and I was overall nice to them. Just because I wasn't surrounded by a bunch of preppy girls, laughing and talking, people used to run up to me and call me emo. I had one stupid guy scream down the hall "Watch out! That girl's a murderer!" while I was at my locker. I know he was just immature, but I don't always smile. Not everything in life is happy. But recently, I've been happy. I've been writing, I've been playing video games, and my poetry is no longer dark. For now at least. the friend from the other rant is telling me how I'm too happy. Okay, that's fine. It's okay that she told me I'm getting on her nerves. I'll tone it down for her. But I'm so sick of everyone thinking I'm going to kill myself just because I'm at school for the right reason: to learn and get a job doing what I like. And I know that once I can go through a school confidently about who I am, people can stop being mean to me. That's why I never wanted to meet new people or go outside: because so many of hte people I meet think I'm a weirdo. I listen to video game music, not rap! I draw pictures of couples kissing, not porno ones! I wear jeans and a T-shirt every day, not some skin-bearing shirt or a skirt! I write poetry and stories in my spare time, not talk on the phone or IM someone or go to the mall for no reason! All the people I know have such freedom to do pointless but fun things. I want the same freedom, but if it's pointless, my parents won't let me. They won't even let me get my ears peirced a second time because it has no point.

Yes, I'm done for now. Sorry for my ranting....

I get what you mean completely! As far as "bling" and "grill", I agree they are stupid. You aren't old fashioned at all. I am not racisit or anything like that, but it does seem like today's everyday world is being run by many black people. Slang is everywhere, rap is the only thing people listen to (it may be the only reason I don't go to my high-school reunion), and there's all sorts of unnecessary crap that has been brought into our world. All sorts of things have changed. There are more video games where the point is to shoot the good guys, steal cars *cough cough*GRAND THEFT AUTO GAMES*cough cough* and kill each other. I used to rate game plots on how easy it was to lose track of it and how everything related to the plot. In things like that, I can't. It's like we're trying to force society to become thugs, enjoy movies where everyone gets shot, and the like. That's why I'm trying to become an author; I won't have to be a part of that whole mess.

ah a nice long read, but I am done now ^_^, anywho, lets see where to start where to start... hmmmm

How about going straight down! Okay sounds like a plan.

Eh, well I am glad that you and your parents are starting to get off on better terms, especially since you'll be there only for a few more years, or perhaps more (everyone is different) but anyways sometimes parents do throw favorites among their children, best thing to do, even if your sis is annoying is to still give her recognition, this way, even if you do continue to get the praise and everything, at least she'll feel some from you and it won't turn her into a bad sport about it. You can't control other peoples actions, only yours.

Congrats on the hockey mask ^_^ lol I find putting a hoodie over and adding bunny ears make you look like a wabbit lol

Ouch jaw.. pain, wow, you put through a lot with it, esh, how did it break? I'd say I'd recommend ice cream, but then I realized, wait that would hurt your teeth, and that's the last thing you need XD

Anyways, patronizing is a way of showing that the person cares about you, they just have a bad way of showing it XD, all you have to do is just say "if I pass out in the shower, at least I'll have some cold water to wake me up" or something, just humor her... and make her see how ridiculous it seems.

Catholic school eh? Well sounds like fun, as long as you have a head on your shoulders and know what you want to do, you can do it. School can't really deny you out of learning without due process, I mean private schools sure, but just keep trying, and don't give up on trying to get in. If they don't accept you, then perhaps go back to the highschool one, but hopefully it doesn't resort to that, it sounds like you'll have more fun at the catholic school where you can train to your profession, and a nice profession at that.

Hmmm lets see, covered majority of it oh yes, diet coke, lol just start drinking water, it has no calories, no sugar, no nothing and it won't deteriorate your mouth or stomach, and you'll shed pounds like nothing else. Even if it doesn't taste that good it has to taste better than diet coke right? (Not a big fan of diet coke XD)

As for your friend being engaged and everything. I hope she doesen't jump the gun on her life getting married soon, but here's the thing. People always say "Long distant relationships won't work out," and other stuff like that. That's just too much negativity there. See the thing is, as long as both people truly care about each other, and that's enough just to know there is love there, it doesn't even matter if one is on earth, and the other is a million miles away from here, off in some distant galaxy, love can still exist. So as long as they care about each other, it shouldn't really matter if they never seen each other or not. Of course, it is a matter if they truly love each other.

The whole getting handed thing, yeah that does sound rather annoying, and well I guess the best thing to do is just to treat her like the friend she is, understand her problem, and tell her when she needs to suck it up and stuff.

So now about the whole guy relationship thing. You seem to have your fair share of run in with guys, well I'll just say this, I think you should take some time off from them, from all of them. Just spend some quality time with yourself. Get to know you and what you like, and start caring about yourself. you're a good person, and you just have to see it, and once you realize that the person who will love you forever is you, then it won't matter if a guy doesn't like you or not, it is just a matter of you wanting to like them in that way or not.

Eh hopefully none of what I said would be taken the wrong way, Just figured I'd give my two cents worth, however much they are worth XD lol.

In all reality, don't worry about any of it really, life has a way of sorting itself out. Just keep up your chin, keep aiming for the things you want, and sooner or later you'll get some good results. Just aim high, and live long, and enjoy yourself. ^_^

I DON'T have my share of run ins with guys. Part of the reason I can't react and didn't know how to react to Aaron. Only boyfriend I've ever had is Malcolm the guy a province away from me. Aaron is the only other guy to legitimately show an interest in me. Jason is a dream. He's PERFECT which is highly intimidating and incredibly crush worthy but also makes me understand I'd never actually be able to either start a relationship with him- or if I did by some miracle- I'd never be able to maintain one.

And yeah I try with my sister. It's so bloody hard. I mentioned it to my mom. She knows my dad plays it but everyone else knows my mom is the key one. Normally my little sister is my moms favourite. After I heal up she'll go back to being my moms favourite. Life will move on but I'm terrified my sister might develope something bad from living here with them. My mom has an incredible temper. My sister went to get cheese wiz off of the bottom shelf and it broke for some reason and my dads peice of pie fell off. Didn't get wrecked or anything because it was the bottom shelf after all and it was wrapped. But she freaked out at my sister. My dad stayed out of it and my sister cried for an hour.

I had to have upper and lower jaw surgery with my braces. Not fun but not too painful razz

Romeo that SUCKS. Sounds like my best friend though she lucked out this year. Your school offers aerobics??? Sweet. Now as for the girls... hmm. Don't know. Ignore them? If they say something turn it back at them in a manner that you know is sarcastic but that the teacher might not. Or did you alert your teacher? Apparently your Guidance doesn't care but if the teacher is alright you might be able to get his/her help in switching. Doesn't sound as if it's too far into the year. Maybe if you chose another class- even (and slightly preferably) with a heavy work load then you might be able to have a higher chance to switch if you played the: I need this class in order to get __ so I can apply here after I get out.


Edit: I GOT IN! Of course I didn't get the one class I wanted and have to see guidance about it but still....

Um... thanks you two.
I think it was just the rush of the first three days... getting the rush of those people again, walking around and talking about you. Old 'friends' that somehow just ditch me... for no aparent reason. What, because i didn't talk to them over summer break? Well, how can I when I don't have any contact information? Ugh.

They switched me, though. I don't exactly know HOW dropping the class is going to affect anything, but I don't think it's major...
although now I have no 6th period class for second semester. Which also needs to be worked on.

Ugh. Hopefully monday will be better. I think... I'm over it now. >XD
And in a better mood because I'm goign to try and get around the guild this weekend. Sleeping schedule is slowly changing, so I'm slowly trying to stay awake at night.

Problem? YES!!!

GRAAH!!

I have major anger issues when it comes to drivers on the road... I am a new driver, only a few months under my belt, but I am a good one. I can't stand it when people...

1.) They do not use their blinkers/turning signals, this doesn't happen often, but I get very angry and am very tempted to flip them the double 'bird', chase them down, drag them from their car, knock them unconscious, carry them into the forest, and rip their limbs off and leave them to die.

2.) They honk at me fo rgoing slow... WHEN I AM MATCHING THE SPEED LIMIT!!! That is what probably pisses me off the most, besides tailgating, I'll get to that here in a second, but when people get mad that I drive 20 mph in a 20 MPH ZONE!!! ZONE!!! ZONE!!! I mean come on, do they even know the price for speeding in a school zone? Very hefty...

3.) Tailgating, pretty much the same as number 2, except that I want to just slam on the breaks and let their puny tiny cars smash into my SUV, then jump out of my car, drag them from their car, knock them out with a single punch, drag them by their pubic hairs into the nearby forest, and stake them through the heart and hang them in the trees, let the birds pick them clean. Pisses me off... cause then I'd have to fix a dent in my SUV... bastards...

4.) Waiting to use your turn blinker until you are actually turning. WHAT!?! Yeah! At least have the courtesy to show me a few hundred yards back that you are turning, so I can go ahead and go instead of waiting for you and your dumb stupidness... Idiots...

5.) I dunno, I'll think of when when they happen and I remember how bad I hate them...

To be continued...