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 Posted: Wed Jul 04, 2007 9:57 pm
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As you all know, I have social anxiety. Something I've had to deal with since grade six.
And on Canada Day long weekend, my dad called me worthless because I didn't go to school.
I was like, "... Okay, whatever."
And when I was at my boyfriends house yesterday, he called me useless. It was part of a joke, but it really hurt, none the less. Especially after what my own father called me.
And just know one of my boyfriends friend's just called me a worthless whore, and my boyfriend just yelled at me for making a tiny little mistake.
Have you ever had that heavy feeling on your chest and that icky feeling in your stomach when you feel the whole world is out to get you, PPS? I've tried to get better with my anxiety problem, but right now it feels like I've gotten nowhere.
This is the only place I could think of to come to where I wouldn't get pestered by people on my friends list, or worse my boyfriend or his friend who has a Gaia.
So, any helpful words or advice on how to feel better?
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Posted: Wed Jul 04, 2007 10:31 pm
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Maiku-Kazoo says:
ur so bitchy im going then, bye!
And you'll sing to me. You'll sing to me gently... says:
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Tell me.
Is it wrong to have a strong urge to kill him violently? Like with a plastic bag? ._.
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Posted: Thu Jul 05, 2007 3:00 am
-Big snuggleh hug- You are not worthless nor useless.
It does hurt badly when people even so much as poke fun about something we're already insecure about. It can be hard to put on that false smile and laugh along. I usually dont manage it and just start brooding.
I wish I had better advice. All a matter of having that magical mystical yet so friggin elusive self confidence.
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Posted: Thu Jul 05, 2007 9:26 am
Life is not about how many breaths you take.....
My dad calls me worthless of sometimes. :B That's when he's really angry.
Dump your boyfriend, he doesn't seem nice. mad
Just try to ignore it. Or talk to somebody about it?
.........it's about how many life's moments that take your breath away.
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Posted: Thu Jul 05, 2007 10:01 am
Rivei -Big snuggleh hug- You are not worthless nor useless.
It does hurt badly when people even so much as poke fun about something we're already insecure about. It can be hard to put on that false smile and laugh along. I usually dont manage it and just start brooding.
I wish I had better advice. All a matter of having that magical mystical yet so friggin elusive self confidence. ♥
*snuggle huggle* Sometimes I wish I could believe that. ._.
I get what you mean. When someone says something bad about me, it will overcome every good thing said about me, and that's all I'll think of myself as.
Thank you, none the less. <3
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Posted: Thu Jul 05, 2007 10:04 am
` F . I . R . Life is not about how many breaths you take.....
My dad calls me worthless of sometimes. :B That's when he's really angry.
Dump your boyfriend, he doesn't seem nice. mad
Just try to ignore it. Or talk to somebody about it?
.........it's about how many life's moments that take your breath away. ♥
I have a feeling my dad sincierely meant it. He doesn't think I'm going to be able to go back to school.
He can be a dickface sometimes, that's for sure. ._. Even though he called me useless as a joke, it still hurt.
I try to, but when someone with social anxiety gets made fun of or called a name, they'll panic and go crazy. And I won't be seeing my psychiatrist for a long while. One of the reasons I came here.
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Posted: Thu Jul 05, 2007 12:11 pm
 I'd break my boyfriend's nose if he ever said that to me.
I try not to put up with bullshit as much as I can.
My sister and my mom tend to call me names a lot. And I think all of us have gone through problems with your parents bringing you down.
It's like mandatory for your parents to break your spirit every once in a while.
You just have to explain to everyone, it's not your fault you have a disorder. It's not like you asked to be that way.
I can just say is think positively. Because it can get better if you do. If you think negatively, it'll just get worst.
And as the boyfriend thing goes. He doesn't seem to be making anything better. Get rid of him if he's not going to understand.
As much as it might hurt, you need someone that can understand your issue, because like I said, it's not your fault. I've never seen a heart that I couldn't break.
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