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If you would have told me at the age of 13 that I would one day be engaged to be married I would have laughed at you. At the age of 15 I would have thought it impossible. At the age of 17 I would have laughed at you and told you I didn't need any man. When I was 19 I would have said College is too important to me right now to be concerned with love... though I always secretly wanted one of those sweep you off your feet, head over heels, can't breathe without them, can't be without them kinds of love.

I thought I had it, despite being treatedly poorly again and again with each passing boyfriend and girlfriend. I hadn't spoken to my boyfriend of the time for about a month due to his life issues, when I borrowed a game I never intended to play from a friend....

And then I was bored. So I got on this free online server to play this game, only I couldn't figure out the patch to download to have the game run right. I recruited the help of a player who had previously tried to sell the game back to the gaming store, he had nothing better to do.

We became friends. My initial impression of him was that he was a playboy. He often spoke of his girlfriends, and yes I do mean plural. His intial impression of me was that I was a slut, because I spoke freely on sexual subjects. And then a funny thing happened...

I couldn't stop thinking about him, my breath caught when I talked to him, I felt so happy my heart felt like it would burst. So I asked for his picture... and he was cute and even better yet, he thought I was beautiful and felt the same way. We met face to face just after my 20th birthday in March, and he moved in with me that May.

A serious of accidents and misconceptions, and now I don't know what I would do without him in my life.
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Discussion: Are you in love? Have you been in love? Do you think you're the marrying type? How did you fall in love and how long have you been together?

Well, I had decided I didn't need to date for a while. My ex was... well, let's just say I lost faith in men for a while. And although I'm bi, the small town I live in isn't really condusive to that lifestyle, so I opted just to fly solo. I was on a Pagan website, just perusing, and in the forum someone had posted a question about a random God or Goddess. They were searching for one in particular. Now, it was later in the evening, and I had nothing else to do. I looked to see if the person was on their AIM, and they were. I didn't know if it was male or female, but I figured, "Hey. I've got a huge book on various cultures gods and goddesses.. why not help out?"

So I IMd the person and found a very shy guy who really appreciated my help. He was sweet, but barely spoke. When he did talk, he talked of his girlfriend, who he seemed to adore. It was cute. We talked more and more and became good friends. Problem was, he was still with his girlfriend and was extremely devoted. But that was fine. I could like him all I wanted and just keep my mouth shushed. After we'd known each other a couple months, he asked for my picture. It had never even occurred to me to give it to him before, mostly because I hate my pictures up until recently. But he asked, so I agreed and found one that I actually did like pretty well. He was quiet for a very long time, and I was anticipating what usually happened, which was the person disappears never to be seen again. -rolls eyes- But when he should've been hightailing it out of there, he told me I was the most beautiful woman he'd ever seen.

That was shocking. He wouldn't show me his because he said he was fat and ugly and embarrassed. I tried to tell him odds were that was all bullshit, and I didn't care either way. I was just curious. I finally got it out of him, and he wasn't any of those things. He was very attractive, and I told him as much. Shocked the hell out of him. Even his own girlfriend didn't compliment him very much. And come to find out, she was actually really horrible to him. If something at home was upsetting him, she wouldn't let him cry. She'd tell him she couldn't take her stress and his, and that she took priority, so he was supposed to be a good man and suck it up.

So... what else could I do? I became the one he confided in. He was technically with her, but emotionally bonded to me. I knew more about him than she did. And finally one day he ignored her threats of suicide if he left and broke up with her. That alone was enough for me; I just wanted him to get away from her. Then a month later, he asked me out. Two months after that I drove the nine hours to his house and he spent two weeks living with me. June 30th was our year anniversary, although we've known each other a lot longer than that. He just returned home from being with me another two weeks a couple months ago, and probably with my college schedule, my next available visit will be Christmas break.

The reason he doesn't live with me now? He's underage. He's sixteen, so since his mother prefers him live with her, he does. And that right there is a whole other rant I won't go into right now, but suffice to say, his "home" is a tiny house filled with nine people who most of the time go hungry at night because only one person in that house works. But he's better off there than with me, when I've got a job, go to school, have my own place to live in, etc. -shrugs- Whatever. I never said his mom was stable.

I'm sorry Ryo! Ah but you can and probably will find love again when you're not even interested in finding it. I bet you'd make a great husband and you just don't know it! surprised

Are you in love? and Have you been in love? Yes.

Do you think you're the marrying type? Yes. I want to be someone's wife and have a few babies. I think that that is a part of what I am supposed to be eventually....someone's helpmate and help them make their dreams a reality. 3nodding

How did you fall in love and how long have you been together? Well...it was nothing fancy...just long. He and I have been friends for a very long time....since middle school infact. We have always had chorus together but no other classes really. We didn't see each other very much during the first years of high school because I had to take a lot of honor's classes. In my final two years of high school I made time for chorus and began to have more classes with him even though he had a gf (who eventually became a good friend). Even when he and his gf broke I up helped get them back together. sweatdrop But as we left for college he and we started to like each other....a lot. We could out that we had a lot in common and got along very well....but I couldn't tell him how I felt without betraying my friend. But one night...Halloween night as we held hands walking through the haunted house in our costumes...I realized that my feelings were beyond friendship. As I felt his racing heart as we were scared out of our wits, I realized that it may even be love. Soon a friend and I went through the Bible and checked off all of the characteristics of love that I had felt and exhibited towards him.

Our second semester in college we had a mutual friend who I confided in about my crush. She had a fiance and really helped me at first...but when she broke up with him she began to develop feelings for my love. She lied to me and stopped helping me and only helped herself...soon I was pressured by some friends to ask him out...and I did. That was about the worst way to ask out someone... It sounded more like a business transaction than a proposal of love. I felt bad about it and he did turn me down....and a few months later they started going out.

We remained friends over the next few months and grew very close...but he and his gf eventually broke up. Almost at the same time, I got a bf...who was an FA pervert. It didn't last long. But that initiated our little dance again. "Are we going out? I dunno, I'm scared I'm going to hurt you again. I have feelings for you. I am scared of starting a new relationship. I am afraid of hurting our friendship. I am not sure this is love. I am a bad bf/gf. I have too many issues for someone else to deal with." You know...the usual fare and he then made it even harder by moving away to VA beach. We still contacted eachother often and would IM, call, or email nightly. We never managed to find other people to be with and kept gravitating toward one another. A couple of incidents last year in May and then the next time we met June on my birthday. They were total out pourings of the feelings that we had. The next month I basically said..."I love you. I want to be with you. We need to get over all of this past and do what we both feel...and that is love each other, openly and freely." All of the situations since going to college took 3 years. Our dating anniversary is the 18th of this month. whee I am a happy puppy!

Are you in love? Yes

Do you think you're the marrying type? Yes, been married for the past 11months.

How did you fall in love and how long have you been together? It's weird. We met in college. A friend of mine was chosing between him and two other guys. I never told her I had a crush on him untill she told me one of the other guys she was interested in started to like her more. Then I told her and her roomate that I liked him. I am the nervouse type around guys I like and I had never had a boyfriend before. I also wanted him to ask me to make sure that feelings would just be one sided. One day, after knowing him for four months, I built the guts to ask him to go talking with me and we spoke for hours on end and at the end he asked me out. I was so shocked eek . After that we were dating on and off for like 1.5 years. Plus 2 years of the relationship was long distance. Then, about 1.5 years ago we broke up for a really legit reason. We stopped talking to each other period for a while but then we became friends again and he eventually moved where I lived and we started dating again. Then, 3months later, we got married mrgreen . It's been over 4years since the day we started dating and I am still in love heart

-circles, highlights, underlines, dog ears, and marks in every other way imaginable-

That. Right there. Those words.

If a guy doesn't approach you, it isn't because you're ugly, or fat, or stupid, or anything like that. It's because you believe you're those things. Humans, just like animals, can sense things about what a person is thinking or feeling. Without realizing it, you send out vibes that say, "I have no self confidence. I hate myself. I'm miserable." even when you're trying to flirt and be appealing to others. Then, a prospective date senses that, again without realizing it, and runs. Because nothing about what I said denotes appeal. Sexiness.

You've got to learn to accept yourself as a beautiful, intelligent, sexy, talented young woman. When you do that, men will notice you're so confidant, without being conceited and bitchy, and will flock to you. Confidance is attractive, ask anyone. Regardless of whether you're the hottest woman on earth, if you believe you are, other people will, too. It isn't about how you look, it's about how you're perceived. Don't let the majority view denote what kind of person you are. You've got to love yourself. Not love everything, that'd be great, but not realistic. But in general, realize you're a woman worth loving.

Then you'll find that love.

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