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 Posted: Tue Jan 30, 2007 6:07 am
The venting page. This is the main reason I got myself an online blog. I hate talking to people and telling them my issues, and to be honest, sometimes I still do. Blogs help me. This threas is to release some steam.
Do not start arguements here.
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Posted: Tue Jan 30, 2007 6:11 am
I live with two other people. I love them dearly; they are like a family to me outside of my family. The problem I have is that I am bossing them around. My new year’s resolution was to stop being so bossy, and I failed. I mean, they let me because they want the order. But I hate it. And I only do it because I know things will not get done. Chores, for example, yes a good example. If I am not on top of them, the place will be a mess and I will not be the only one doing all of the cleaning. So, I remind them. It’s find until the chore day goes on by and they still have not done it. Sigh! How am I supposed to fix my bossy problem if they do not become assertive with their things?
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Posted: Tue Jan 30, 2007 8:04 am
ok let me get this straight - you share an apartment with roomates? or with a lover. or a relative.
this makes a BIG difference.
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Posted: Tue Jan 30, 2007 8:15 am
willow_r_ ok let me get this straight - you share an apartment with roomates? or with a lover. or a relative. this makes a BIG difference.
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Posted: Tue Jan 30, 2007 8:16 am
Why this? Why now? I just don’t understand. I try to help someone out, try to open new things and it only slams hard against my face. I hate being stuck in the middle. It’s not fair for me. Yea, well I guess I am just too weak of a person. Not as strong as I thought or hoped I could be. This is going to change things, I know it will.
Things got blown out of proportion. Even before it was a real issue, I did try to stop it. I spoke to him. I told him to let it go, to ignore it, to just assume that it’s playfulness and nothing more. He read it negatively, so he attacked back. That did not help at all.
Again, I spoke to him. This time I used the whole “well you don’t know who he is” approach. You know, what if dhoffryn was a 12-year old girl….or worse….a 40-year-old fat guy sweating on his t-shirt with Doritos on the side. It’s an interesting thought. I have done it before. I used to pretend I was someone else in order to avoid people from getting to know me. Darn it I played an exotic dancer with a young boy once! (that was my favorite one). Needless to day, the discussion continued.
I noticed it kept going. I don’t need this stress, and I don’t want to hear about the complaints at home. Since he would not ignore it, I did. It made him think I was not being affectionate or whatever. I was just tired. It’s all tedious to me.
I think it’s better when he’s not online. It’s like I become his princess. Snuggles, cute faces, happy thoughts, talking is ACUTALLY easier, lol. Online is just messy. But still.
This whole thing grinds my gears and I just want to bury it all. I doubt it will, though. I doubt that things will be like before. I like it hear, and I fear that I will become a stranger due to the incident between him and dhoffryn.
Just some venting folks, nothing more to see. Move along.
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Posted: Wed Jan 31, 2007 2:45 am
malagabuddy You know, what if dhoffryn was a 12-year old girl….or worse….a 40-year-old fat guy sweating on his t-shirt with Doritos on the side. Well, I sure am glad I read this thread... *wipes the sweat and Dorito crumbs off his shirt* Sorry again for all the.. aggravation, malaga.
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Posted: Wed Jan 31, 2007 3:55 am
It is all in the past now. I just had to write something before it bottled up and killed me. I do that from time to time.
Anyway, another thing that pisses me off is this constant back ache. the truth? I have been having back problems for months. I just keep saying that it will go away on it's own. Well, the back problems are getting worse. How annoying. I finally went to the doctor's office last week, but nothing. She thinks it's either nerves or arthritis. Sure. Whatever. X-rays were also taken. The medication she has given me has done jack sh*t.
You know what this means? I have to go back to the doctor's office. I am stubborn as a mule when it comes to doctors. I hate going there. I try to avoid it as much as I can. But this back issue is becoming a problem now. It is constant and slowly expanding. My mom thinks it's my kidneys. It hurts when I sit, when I stand, when I lay down. It's being a pain.
PAIN SUCKS!
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Posted: Wed Jan 31, 2007 8:56 am
the back thing is likely stress causing depression which can manifest into physical pain. the worst thing you can be doing is taking any sort of medication until you figure out exactly what the source of your stress is.
let me tell you something. if you are fighting in real life over an internet thing - you need to take drastic measures.
i actually broke up with my exfiancee and father of my son and one of the main causes was the internet. sounds stupid right?
yeah, it does when i hear it, but it was a huge ******** problem. we tried taking out the internet, and we were actually fairly peaceful that month (there were other factors). the internet can cause a huge issue - and if it does...there are obviously underlying problems at hand. and honey - an engagement does not mean a marriage is mandatory, you know? fix it. now. don't wait. i ended up having to leave the ******** country over my issues. and dude, from what i am reading - your man sounds just like mine did.
oh - and kick out whoever else youre living with. having my best friend living with me and my exhusband = divorce. yeah, lol, i had a ******** up life. and woman, you sound like you're walking my path, so uh... get your s**t in gear.
you love him? wanna be with him forever? fix what needs to be fixing. sit down with him. TALK. no distractions, no fights, no recriminations.
if he cannot see your side - you cannot have a happy life with him. if you cannot see his side without compromising yourself, you cannot have a happy life with him. love is not all you need to make s**t work. and if it's TOO much of an effort, then just get the ******** out and move the ******** on with your life. you have only this life to live, you know, and what if it's snuffed out? what if s**t happens in 10 years and you find out you're going to die. is this how you want to spend your time?
i think the internet may be an issue for you guys. perhaps you should get rid of it for a few weeks, see what happens.
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Posted: Wed Jan 31, 2007 9:57 am
I thank you for your words. I sometimes rant when I vent. It’s a thing. Anyway, lavender and I have had good days. I think it’s that I am trying to break him of habits that his own parents planted in him.
But I listen. Now I do. Before Lavender, I dated this guy for seven years. My friends and family hated him and I kept insisting that he was the one for me. He then dumped me because he was afraid to commit. He then called me afterwards to tell me that’s not why I broke up with him. Seven years down the tube. For a while I wondered if I was with Lavender for fear of being alone because that can happen, especially leaving someone who was ¼ of my life.
When we talk, it’s hard, but we listen. I just wish it would stick for the both of us. He’s hot tempered, short fused, and I am completely stubborn to the point where you would want to slap me. It’s one of those things you don’t see in yourself until the moment it happened has past. Not a good mix at all. Lately, I have been thinking things more and more. I feel…happy but still not completely content. With Lavender, I have been the happiest I could ever be with my ex. But does that make him the one? I dunno.
I gotta stop being a worry bug.
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Posted: Wed Jan 31, 2007 11:38 am
I have a bad shoulder, that only surfaces on weekends when I sleep late.
Maybe cause it has pressure on it for longer. I really need to change how i sleep, I heard sleeping on your left side is bad for your heart.
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Posted: Wed Jan 31, 2007 8:29 pm
I wouldn't know, I sleep on my right side. 4laugh
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Posted: Fri Feb 02, 2007 10:00 am
The weather man said a chance of AM flurries for today. Okay, not a big deal for me. Almost everyone around me took that to mean it was like a blizzard or something. I do not see how or why people would do that. I mean, people were calling the Superintendent's office to find out if school will be cancelled.
I am sorry, but a chance of "flurries", not even snow, cannot convert into five feet of snow. I have co-workers thinking the same thing. I am sitting there thinking, where do these people get their resources. So, just to be on the safe side, I go to an online weather report. Says the same thing the weather man said. This just annoys me. Why? I really don't know. This morning, I woke up, looked out the window, only saw dry concrete and dead grass. I smiled.
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Posted: Fri Feb 02, 2007 12:45 pm
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Posted: Sat Feb 03, 2007 9:12 am
I don't understand why my friends fight - I mean, yes, one of the is getting super annoying when she's complaining her ex boyfriend won't talk to her, but my other two friends are practically pretending to be friends with her. They can't stand her anymore.
How the heck are you going to be friends when your relationship is like this between one another?
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Posted: Tue Feb 06, 2007 9:55 am
No, sweetie I am not. I work at the school department, though. Since I do not work in a school, I still have to go to work. Teachers get a snow day and I have to drive slowly to my job.
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