Hoshi no Katsura .... A Star's Moon
[This is the meeting between Hogni and Kydra. Too lazy to make a journal at the moment.]
Time passed so quickly; too quickly. Before Hogni could even so much as to blink, within moments the cute little new dustling inhabiting his household had fully grown into an adult. She wasn't the same anymore. Not just her physical appearance, but the way she carried herself was different, too. Her royal colored fur with soft hues of a sandy gold shimmered in the light. Even if anyone else refused to say so, every time she bathed in the light he seemed to notice the sparkles in her fur. He loved the way it shimmered, he loved her royal charisma, it was beautiful--flawless in every way. She was almost like a star to him. A shooting star that sped quickly across his sky, lighting up everything dull there every was and giving new beauty to it. Her flawless grace as she sped over his sky blinded his eyes, blinding everything around him. And as she disappeared into the hills, he could see nothing except the grace she left behind.
He was baffled at that fact. How could such a simple looking dustling cause such much destruction to his world? He was angry at himself for being caught so easily off guard, yet how could he blame himself? She was now the star of his world, the one who gave brilliance to his once dull world. As much as he hated to admit it, he needed her. Like an earth needed a moon as to a moon needing its star.
His mind instantly went blank as the royal one made her presence into the room. Soft, pale blue eyes gazed at her in awe. She did it again, dazzling him, memorizing him with no effort at all. And this time, she only walked into the room. His breath suffocated under her every breath, weighting heavily upon him. She should be the one with the wings. The one closest to the beings of heaven. He didn't deserve them. There was no way he could ever compete with her, ever win her.
Surely she didn't think of him the way he thought of her now? They were like siblings before...And surely she would wish to remain as that, nothing more, right?
If thoughts alone could kill, that one would've crushed him instantly. He could do nothing more but watch from afar. Whenever he was close to her, she would crush every word he had in mind, leaving him silent. It didn't help that her look alone intoxicated him. Her smell--her smell left him in a dream-like state. Without any effort at all, she easily seduced him into a dream.
Her light eyes gazed upon those familiar pale ones. She was fully grown now. An adult. With that note in mind, she was increasingly more interested in Hogni. His every movement was illusive to her. He was like a butterfly fluttering in the sky. Simply put, he was gorgeous.
But her stubborn personality would never allow her to admit that out loud. He was like a brother to her. From birth till now was the relationship they shared. Nothing more. No matter what she yearned for, she simply can't break the barrier separating the two of them from anything more than siblings. The fear of rejection was too strong.
Her amazing grace flew past him as she paced across the kitchen. Only once did she glance at him. For a fleeting second she could see the agony in his eyes. The pain, the longing, the need growing within him. And for that fleeting second, she could feel his pain. It was as if their pain merged into one. Though it was very much the same how the two felt towards each other. They both needed one another. They both longed for each other. And they both loved the other.
Hogni's soft eyes filled with agony gazed longingly at Kydra. Move. Legs, move! No matter how hard he wanted to move, his legs froze in place. Cold sweat suddenly covered him from head to toe. He felt as if he was burning up with a fever, yet only feeling the coolness of that sickness. She would within seconds disappear from his sight. Kydra would soon vanish.
The dustling opened his mouth, yet all that he could muster was a squawking noise of some sort. The noise was a grotesque one--at least when it rang throughout his ears it was. All moisture in his mouth was sucked away, leaving any words that wanted to escape a prisoner of his mind.
Don't be so weak...Go to her. Even if she denies you...
He swallowed the dryness as hard as he could manage. Within seconds wobbled steps propelled the male slowly but surely towards his star. Suppressing any inferiority-complex thoughts, Hogni almost whispered, "...Kydra?"
Her eyes almost immediately lit up as he approached her. Though, she did her best not to reveal any signs of weakness to him. She had to keep her royal presence charade up when he was near; she had to keep her guard up.
Kydra's steps slowed to a halt, her head tilting slowly to face the winged male. Her golden eyes stared at him with indifference, though on the inside she felt if she died this instant, she could die happy. The bushy, regal tail curled around her small frame, her head tilted up in the position it always was when she spoke towards him. It made her seem more stuck-up, though in reality it was because of the height difference between the two of them.
"Yes? What is it that you want, Hogni?" She asked in a soft voice.
Her angelic voice stunned him in his tracks. All the things he wanted to say instantly vanished as they were replaced by her words. Any stream of consciousness disappeared into thin air. Nothing but emptiness remained. It would prove rude to let such a beautiful lady await an answer from him, yet his mind went blank. The best he could manage was stutters.
Then suddenly, as if by instinct, one thought jumped into his mind. She typically referred to him in some type of honorific. Either "brother, dear" or something along those lines. So what made it different this time? Maybe just a slip up...But what if it was something more? What if it was a sign?
He decided to pursue the matter, "This might sound a bit strange...But why didn't you use any honorifics when you addressed me just now?" Pale eyes gazed intently at her as curiosity built up within him.
Soft golden eyes gazed at him with indifference. Even though he caught her off guard, she would never submit. Her regal form remained unchanged. On the outside, she was acting normal as usual, though on the inside was a completely different story.
"No reason in particular. I just did not feel up to using honorifics today." She shrugged her shoulders.
How could she act so careless as to let him catch her off guard? The only way she'd ever submit was if he pursued her vanity. She would need his undivided undivided attention, his absolute devotion and his undying love. The femme didn't ask for anything in the physical sense, as she could read him pretty easily, but she wanted the proof glowing in his eyes. She wanted him to promise her without ever saying a word. Yet, she knew well enough nothing would start until she gave him a gentle nudge in the correct direction, though before she would act, he would first have to try himself.
A deep profound grief surfaced in the winged male's eyes. The usual soft, tenderness melted away into a pool of despair. He was hoping for something more...Yet she so bluntly proved him wrong. A soft sigh reflected the sadness within, but he could not so easily as to give up all hope. He would make her his, no matter how long it took.
The expression upon his face shot a bullet through her heart. She could almost feel the pain he felt deep within from his expression alone. Just watching him pained her, because she knew they both yearned for one another. But her pride as a female would not allow her to so easily give in. She simply cannot submit until he showed signs of his affection towards her; signs of his love towards her.
With an indifferent expression upon her face, she turned her back against him, flicked her tail just a little above the ground and paced her away from him. More than anything, she wanted to turn around and nuzzle the dying creature. She wanted to prove him wrong. But why was she so stubborn? Why wouldn't she just submit despite watching him wither in pain for the longest time now? This answer, she couldn't even answer herself...
Hogni watched as she turned against him with such indifference. He was sick of it, it was growing increasingly tiresome each day as he saw her. The male needed to tell her. Even if her answer was one he did not expect, at the very least his heart could move on.
With great speed, he extended his wings to block Kydra's way. He watched as her ever graceful step faltered. "Kydra..." He begged softly, "Please don't walk away from me." His usual velvet voice morphed into a pleaded cry. The heart of the beast pumped faster, almost to the point of bursting. He could feel his body temperature raising. All the blood rushed to his face, glazing his usual partly pale cheeks with a soft pink hue. If it wasn't for the pained expression on his face, he would almost appear child-like.
Silently, he waited.
Her usual grace faltered when his wings blocked her way. Was he finally making his move? Would he finally stake a claim on her as she wanted him to? She inhaled a deep breath before turning around to face yet another painful expression.
She, too, could no longer stand this pain.
Yet, she continued to play 'hard-to-get'.
"Is there something you need from me, Hogni?" She asked in a honey-like voice. This time, she purposely let the honorific slide. She would face him as a female would a man, not as siblings any longer.
He gulped as she faced him directly. Bright eyes faced his own soft, pale ones. He could already feel the hesitation surging up within him.
No, he could not hesitate now that he had her so close.
"Kydra...You have become the star of my life. 'Before you, Kydra, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars--points of light and reason.'" He hesitated for a moment, absorbing the shocked expression on her face. Without faltering, he continued, "'...And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything.' So please..." He pleaded once more, "Stay with me."
Her eyes immediately lit up like a lantern in twilight. As soon as he finished the first sentence, she already knew what was coming. She heard him practicing those lines against a mirror every morning, thinking she hasn't woken yet. At first, she thought he was a little queer by practicing against a self-reflected image, but slowly it sunk in--those words were for her. Though they weren't originally written for her, the thought still counted. She would return his feelings.
"I will be your star..." She paused while slowly walking towards him, "And you shall be my moon..."
[The little sonate is taken from a book called New Moon by Stephenie Meyer, I don't credit it as my own. I only used it for fun. <3]
