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Well, it's about time I told you all. ^^;;;

On Monday night (January 1st), my parents informed my little brother and I that they were getting divorced.

It hit me hard; I wasn't expecting it. I mean, I knew they were working on their relationship a few months ago, but I didn't hear about it for a while. Apparently, they've known they would do it for about a month. They wanted tell us after the holidays, though. We were the first they told; even my grandparents don't know yet. That night, I called Moo Ell, Meru, and Padme (each separately), and I felt a bit better after those talks. I didn't tell any RL people until Wednesday, when school started back up again.

I have told most of my friends at school, and many of them have asked "Why?" and said "I didn't know anything was wrong". To tell the truth, I didn't either. I thought everything had been resolved and there was nothing to worry about. My parents never fight. I'm dead serious. All disagreements ended in one giving in within minutes, and they all carried a joking overtone. My parents couldn't fight. They still can't. But apparently, after 21 or 22 years of marriage, "the spark is gone". My mom is moving out by the end of the month into an apartment nearby. She'll stay in the area until my little brother and I graduate. It's not a "bad divorce", though. One of the first things they told my brother and I was that they were still best friends. As for custody, it'll be shared, 50-50. We'll spend alternating weeks with each parent, though that is flexible. My mom goes on business trips, and my dad goes hunting, and since they don't hate each other, we can go to the other house during things like that. Also, it doesn't mean we can't see the other parent that week. For example, I like doing Saturday morning Yoga at the YMCA with my mom, and I can still do that, even if I'm with my dad that week.

It won't be that bad. Well, that's what I keep telling myself. It's hard. I'm still in the denial/shock phase. I've cried only once, and that was on the night they told us; all four of us were crying. I was the first to stop, as I can't stand crying. It makes me feel so vulnerable. As those of you who have read my journal probably know, I can't stand feeling vulnerable. Vulnerability is, in a sense, failure. Failure is unacceptable; I have to succeed, regardless of the mental toll it may take on me. My brother cried the longest. It was the first time I'd ever seen my dad cry, and the fourth or fifth time I'd ever seen my mom do so. My brother has cried several times since then. I haven't. I've distracted myself with other aspects of the divorce, like what furniture will go where and how my mom's apartment is closer to the High School. It's like looking at an image in Photoshop with the emotional layer turned off. I don't think the full emotional wave will hit me until my mom moves out.

All in all, it shouldn't be too bad. I'll cope. It's just difficult... As soon as I feel like my life is stable, something like this happens. And, to top it all off, during a recent doctor's visit, I was told I was severely dehydrated. I felt nauseous on Tuesday night. The cause of that was likely the fact that the only liquids I drank that day were a glass of milk at brunch (I sleep in), and a glass of milk at dinner. I don't really get very thirsty. She told me to drink 2-3 liters of water per day. That's 4-6 water bottles. I'm proud to say that I was able to meet that minimum yesterday for the first time in years. Oh joy.

So, that's my life at the moment.
I apologize to everyone I shut out when they asked me what was wrong on MSN, but I wasn't ready to talk about it at that point. I'm ready now. <3

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Don't worry, it's not so bad. My parents are the same way.

I fail at comforting, but it seems that this isn't really that bad. Your parents don't hate each other, so after the separation it shouldn't be too bad after a while. I hope everything turns out okay, though. heart

It's clear they're still trying to make sure you have a normal childood. Be thankful for that.

... oh my. ._.
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gonk There's nothing I can really say but I'm glad your parents are still friendly so it's easier on you and your bro.

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D: <333333333 Poor Monkey.

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@Phoe: That's another reason why I'm pushing for weekly family things, so they remain on those good terms. ^^ heart Sorry about your parents. D: <3