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 Posted: Sun Jun 19, 2005 4:45 pm
Discuss your stories
MINE
Okay yes, I was at the beach with my friend and she dared me to go flirt with this guy... and I did... and we ended up kissing but...
I think from the time I was 10 to the time I was 14, pretty much all of puberty all I wanted was to be normal. I didn't know about homosexuality or anything and so I lived like a normal girl. I had a boyfriend when I was 10 and I dressed like a prep and... looking back on how I used to be I'm pretty disgusted with myself back then. I always thought girls were prettier than my mom did and I always felt emotionally closer to women even though most of my friends were guys. When I was thirteen or fourteen, my role play friend told me she was a lesbian and she was the first gay person I knew. It was about that time that I began to wonder about my orientation. By the time I was 15 I was still clinging to being partially normal and so I tried to come out to my mom who INSTANTLY wrote it off as a phase. It was at that time I developed a massive crush on my friend who was a lesbian as well but after I told her she started to hate me. Well, I'm now I'm approaching 17 and I'm positive I'm a lesbian. In fact, I've been in a relationship for 6 months now with the girl I'm positive is my soulmate, it's been a long distance relationship (see, she was the first lesbian I ever knew) and we kissed yesterday for the first time and it was just...wow... the two times I kissed guys was never ever that good!
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Posted: Sun Jun 19, 2005 6:20 pm
When I was younger I was like you were too. I hung out with the popular girls in elementary school and the biggest insult there was being called a homo. None of us really knew what it meant, so we thought it was a horrible thing. But when I got to junior high, I went to an alternative school that was incredibly accepting of all lifestyles, and I became a member of the GSA. Soon I began questioning my sexuality, and I realized I was bisexual.
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Posted: Sun Jun 19, 2005 9:18 pm
My story is similar as well. I followed the croud, had "crushes" in 4th grade, two boyfriends in 7th and 8th grade, then another in 10th grade (who I cheated on with Molly, but, I'll get to that >> wink . Every time somebody mentioned or hinted at homosexuality, I shyed away. It's like I was an in-the-closet homophobe xD In 6th grade, once I was bugging this girl by poking her or something and she's like "Don't do that or I'll do what I have the urge to do!" and I kept doing it then get kissed me on the cheek. I was like O_O and totally shyed away from her.
Anyway, on to the interresting part. A year and a half ago I had a boyfriend. He was a nice boy, we kissed during the movies (I thought he was awful sloppy), and meh. It was dumb. At that time I got close with Molly, as friends. There was just something about her that drew me to her. She spent the night one night and I spilled my soul to her while she was kind of drugged up on nyquill, then another night she spilled her heart to me, and one night we started touching each others' arms and wrists (all of this happened on saturday spend the nights xD). The next week I spent the night at her house and we kind of just...started cuddling. Her face got closer to mine gradually and then she kissed me. To make a long story short: I cried, we kissed, we hugged, we loved. I was confused as hell. I'd been supressing that part of me my whole life and so it became a battle in my mind. There was never any doubt about my love for Molly, but I wanted to believe that she was an exception. I'm sane now and know I only like girls. It was a long process and full of...mental pain. But I'm happy now heart
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Posted: Mon Jun 20, 2005 12:56 am
well ok I've been this way all my life. I grew up around only boys. My brouther and my cousin. Yet I hated men. My dad beat my mom so it was understandable. In kindagarden, I used to play house with a black girl. I was the dad and we kissed.. Then I moved away from where I was born and my mother used to get these magazines with little paper dolls in them. Well I'd make the two girls kiss all the time. I had a friend in 4th grade and he has muscle problems and he'd hold his hands weird. My step dad called him a queer all the time and it always make me cry because I thought homosexuality was wrong. In 7th grade I met my friend Val and she influenced me greatly in my religious ideas. It was easy because my parents had stopped taking me to church, so I begame atheis for a while. Then about a year and 8 months ago me and my two friends (Val and Mel) hung out for halloween. Val had dressed up like a pirate and had masscara on.. I was stunned and when she left for a halloween party her other friends were throwing, I admitted to Mel that I was bisexual and that I was in love with Val.... Since then I've made a bi bar here on gaia and met this wonderful girl that I now have a long distance relationship with and have now started hating the thought of being with a man all together.
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Posted: Mon Jun 20, 2005 7:39 am
For me i dunno really sweatdrop I mean there were thoughts about other boys when i was younger and stuff, but i always kindof just neatly filed them away and didnt pay any attention to them, until one day about 1.5-2 years ago it just kinda reared its head and bit me on my a** and i realized i was gay xp
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Posted: Mon Jun 20, 2005 11:15 am
AkureiKnight In kindagarden, I used to play house with a black girl. I was the dad and we kissed.. . I was always the dad too xD I'm not a fan of men either (well, obviously, lol). Most of 'em just scare me. Rape and all of that. *shudders* Vash - Anything triggor it?
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Posted: Mon Jun 20, 2005 1:36 pm
rurica AkureiKnight In kindagarden, I used to play house with a black girl. I was the dad and we kissed.. . I was always the dad too xD I'm not a fan of men either (well, obviously, lol). Most of 'em just scare me. Rape and all of that. *shudders* Vash - Anything triggor it? I was always the dad too. Still am razz About half my friends are guys. They're pretty cool if you find the right group... razz
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Posted: Mon Jun 20, 2005 1:45 pm
snake chic rurica AkureiKnight In kindagarden, I used to play house with a black girl. I was the dad and we kissed.. . I was always the dad too xD I'm not a fan of men either (well, obviously, lol). Most of 'em just scare me. Rape and all of that. *shudders* Vash - Anything triggor it? I was always the dad too. Still am razz About half my friends are guys. They're pretty cool if you find the right group... razz Yeah, I know there are some cool guys, but I'm rather afraid of ones I don't know. Especially middle aged men. Ew xP
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Posted: Mon Jun 20, 2005 3:20 pm
Hm. Well, I wasn't totally sober the first time I kissed a guy, so I kind of had my doubts.
But, the second time I kissed him we were both sober and alone, and that's when I kind of fell for him.
I still don't have everything figured out completely, but I'm sure I will eventually.
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Posted: Mon Jun 20, 2005 5:05 pm
phriedphishphan Hm. Well, I wasn't totally sober the first time I kissed a guy, so I kind of had my doubts. But, the second time I kissed him we were both sober and alone, and that's when I kind of fell for him. I still don't have everything figured out completely, but I'm sure I will eventually. I don't think anyone ever fully figures it out--or at least, quickly. I don't have it all figured out either razz
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Posted: Mon Jun 20, 2005 6:47 pm
rurica AkureiKnight In kindagarden, I used to play house with a black girl. I was the dad and we kissed.. . I was always the dad too xD I'm not a fan of men either (well, obviously, lol). Most of 'em just scare me. Rape and all of that. *shudders* Vash - Anything triggor it? Yah, and I guess I still fight to be the "buch" in a relationship. I feel that it's my duty to take care of and to romance my love. But in alot of other ways Im still also the female. But I guess everyone in a girl + girl relationship feels those differences of roles.
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Posted: Mon Jun 20, 2005 9:46 pm
AkureiKnight Yah, and I guess I still fight to be the "buch" in a relationship. I feel that it's my duty to take care of and to romance my love. But in alot of other ways Im still also the female. But I guess everyone in a girl + girl relationship feels those differences of roles. *nods* See, in my relationship, I would be the "lipstick lesbian" and my girl would be the "boy." She really hates those kinds of stereotypes, so we really don't reffer to them at all. It is confusing though because, sometimes she wants to lead the dance, sometimes I do, sometimes with both do, and sometimes neither of us. It takes a lot of confidence I think to sustain a homosexual relationship. Generally, you have to be pretty secure in yourself.
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Posted: Mon Jun 20, 2005 9:51 pm
BakaTulip Discuss your storiesMINE Okay yes, I was at the beach with my friend and she dared me to go flirt with this guy... and I did... and we ended up kissing but...I think from the time I was 10 to the time I was 14, pretty much all of puberty all I wanted was to be normal. I didn't know about homosexuality or anything and so I lived like a normal girl. I had a boyfriend when I was 10 and I dressed like a prep and... looking back on how I used to be I'm pretty disgusted with myself back then. I always thought girls were prettier than my mom did and I always felt emotionally closer to women even though most of my friends were guys. When I was thirteen or fourteen, my role play friend told me she was a lesbian and she was the first gay person I knew. It was about that time that I began to wonder about my orientation. By the time I was 15 I was still clinging to being partially normal and so I tried to come out to my mom who INSTANTLY wrote it off as a phase. It was at that time I developed a massive crush on my friend who was a lesbian as well but after I told her she started to hate me. Well, I'm now I'm approaching 17 and I'm positive I'm a lesbian. In fact, I've been in a relationship for 6 months now with the girl I'm positive is my soulmate, it's been a long distance relationship (see, she was the first lesbian I ever knew) and we kissed yesterday for the first time and it was just...wow... the two times I kissed guys was never ever that good! Awww. BakaTulip-Sama thats so sweet.
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Posted: Tue Jun 21, 2005 2:57 pm
I started questioning my sexuality in grade 8... when I started wondering what it would be like to kiss other girls.
Then, I just developed a huge crush on one of my friends (female)... But I still liked guys a whole lot, too... And, well, basically, after that, I just knew.
Not much of a story to tell on my part, really.
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Posted: Tue Jun 21, 2005 3:31 pm
rurica AkureiKnight Yah, and I guess I still fight to be the "buch" in a relationship. I feel that it's my duty to take care of and to romance my love. But in alot of other ways Im still also the female. But I guess everyone in a girl + girl relationship feels those differences of roles. *nods* See, in my relationship, I would be the "lipstick lesbian" and my girl would be the "boy." She really hates those kinds of stereotypes, so we really don't reffer to them at all. It is confusing though because, sometimes she wants to lead the dance, sometimes I do, sometimes with both do, and sometimes neither of us. It takes a lot of confidence I think to sustain a homosexual relationship. Generally, you have to be pretty secure in yourself. yah, Im learning that now sweatdrop This is my first relationship with a girl, my second relationship I've had ever. So.. yah I have my problems.
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