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Well I was a bit curious, what do these dreams mean? I cant ask my family because theyre all too busy with their own problems and arent that good at interpreting anyway, except my mother...and well she's my mother. So I was hoping for some suggestions.

Dream #1: Leeches

About a month ago I had a strange dream. I had come down the stairs and then I was in my kitchen and there were these giant leeches all over everything, the floor, the table, the counters, everywhere. I had a broom in my hand and was sweeping them towards the door when I stopped and looked at the screen door. There was a giant leech on it and I glared at it and said, "What are you doing here?! We had an agreement!!" I don't recall what the leech lord said, but I ended up sweeping all of the leeches into the backyard where they burrowed themselves into the ground below the green grass. I woke up then.

Dream #2: Violence(?)

This one starts out with me in the bed (oddly enough) I'm surrounded by figures in the dark, but there's enough light for me to make them out as they come closer. One is a black salivating beast-man thing with great teeth. The second is red, but I cant remember anything else about him, and then the third was shrouded in shadow so I don't know. The first one grabbed me and in my dream I screamed and woke up.

Dream #3: Reoccurring randomness
The reoccurrring dreams usually consist of me looking for papers, of missing deadlines, of having creditors calling me day and night. Im usually looking for something or trying to remember what someone said to me. Its usually some document Im missing or have to fill out and the deadlines passed.

Then there's the one about being raped...I hate that one.

reoccuring dreams (as you can see on the dream moods site) generally has to do with something that you have not overcome yet that you need to. Its basically your mind telling you that you need to deal with an issue of some sort, and since you have put it off (or just haven't realized what the issue is), your mind is reminding you of it.

No problem.

The fear of being raped is not a false fear. Rape is not a fun thing, no matter what kind of rape it is. And it is not just the fear of at the time either. If it happens, the fear sticks with you. I am not outright afraid of rape, I am afraid of my emotions. The effects that it had on me. The effects that haven't really made themselves obvious. At times, I find myself to be very afraid of men, including my fiance, and the prospect of sex. And that alone hurts because I love my fiance very much, but I can't really explain to him the fear. He understands, but not as much as he'd like to, I know. I was lucky that in my case I was not abused or physically hurt. I was used and emotionally hurt. I actually 'recovered' within a week or two. But the feeling will always be with me...like a dark shadow. And most of the time I can keep it on the shelf in the closet to leave me alone.

Your fear is not bad. Your fear should actually be able to protect you. Did you know that most of the college girls who are raped said that it would never happen to them? of course some of them were raped while at a party with alcohol, and many times it was from someone they knew, or were even friends with (my case). But that doesn't mean you have to be afraid of your male (or female) friends. That just means that you should find information about it. Keep yourself and your friends safe at parties and other outings. I'm sure you've heard to saftey procedures before. never put your drink down, walk in the lights when walking, go to a party with at LEAST one other person (*especially* if it is someplace new), walk with at LEAST one other person, when walking going to your vehicle at night, if there is a car (particularily a van or SUV) parked next to the drivers side, go ahead and hop into the passenger side, before getting to your car, kind of check underneath for any shadows, while you are unlocking your car, check the backseat to make sure noone has hopped in...etc.

Also, you might check around to see if there are any Rape Agression Defense courses around. If you are at a college, and they offer the course, it should be free. They community may also have one...if not, go to your local police department and see if they have anyone trained in Defense and see if they wouldn't mind doing a course of say 5 weeks or so (generally two days a week for 5 weeks is good). Its always a good thing to make sure that you are safe no matter what.

Rape doesn't HAVE to be scary, just know how to keep yourself safe. heart

I think you need to find a different counselor...one who doesn't suggest such things. I mean, it is entirely possible, but a counselor should NEVER suggest it because that is where many begin to have false memories about abusive parents or other relatives, then the parent/relatives get in serious trouble because either the client or the counselor decides to prosecute...then later with other examinations of the client and of the accused, they find out nothing ever happened, the family is torn apart and the counselor generally just says 'oops'..in a few cases the counselor loses their licensing (which is a good thing). Its horrible that some counselors automatically feel that there was some sort of abuse. That isn't always the case. Sometimes its the media alone that gets to us. I mean, the media makes rape look REALLY REALLY bad (not saying that is not..but I think the media goes above and beyond at times). Plus, when you are by yourself, your imagination can get the better of you. its not always abuse.

Like I said, you should go see a different counselor...one who might actually be able to help, not judge. The point of a counselor is to help the client find ways to cope by helping them to learn to dig within themselves. That really is the best way.

It is a possibility that you may have been raped and killed in a past life and this is why you are so afraid of it. It is interesting to note that some people who have irrational fears, or undetermined sicknesses (like asthma), generally have died because of the reason. The asthma thing generally has to do with being suffocated in some way, fire, suicide, hanging, etc, in a past life. It really is interesting.