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 Posted: Mon Nov 20, 2006 3:44 pm
It's odd, there are days or moments I run up to strangers at school and hug them. Just out of the blue. I'm hyper that way. But when it comes to talking to my classmates or sometimes even friends in discussions, lessons, or simply answering a question in front of a lot of people, my heart immediately starts to panic. It races like I've run a very long distance without rest. The only thing I can relate it to is it feels very much like having an insulin reaction *I'm diabetic too*. Like my bloods gone and I'm shaking badly, and even after I quit my attempt at talking or if I finish making my statement, my body and legs especially are left feeling numb and wobbly. I feel like I want to cry or panic the instant I raise my hand to speak.
Critque or class projects/presentations end up the same way. Hell, I was simply talking to just my english teacher once about descrimination against native american friends I had witnessed the YEAR before *racial discrimination had been the topic of the days reading, and I'd already tried and failed due to this problem to speak to the entire class about my experience*, and I was suddenly hit with this shaking, watering eyes and twisting naustious stomache so bad I thought my knees would give and I'd fall over. It was JUST my teacher and I was fond of her, and the native descrimination was well over with as I'd had a nice talk with the girls after to make us all feel better. I just wanted to ask the teacher personally about it since it WAS the days topic and I was bored.
Today the class was talking about movies. MOVIES. And I went to put in my 2 cents on a certain film *"Cars" to be specific* and it happened. I just couldn't do it! Talking to them about a friggin movie made me feel like I was going to cry!
I've had this problem as long as I can remember and I don't get it o.O Being loud or chatty isn't always so hard for me >_> In fact as a general rule I'm VERY loud and chatty *though this is only when I'm with close friends*. So I don't understand why I'm having such a physical negative reaction to talking/performing in front of a group of people... I dunno maybe all normal people get it >_> I wouldn't know.. but it feels a lot worse then the jitters or butterflies in your stomache. It almost feels like I'm dying.
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Posted: Mon Nov 20, 2006 8:03 pm
um let me think maybe a bit of both, try seeing a doctor maybe?
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Posted: Tue Nov 21, 2006 6:28 pm
Pandagirl200 um let me think maybe a bit of both, try seeing a doctor maybe? both of what o.O?
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Posted: Tue Nov 21, 2006 7:28 pm
Could be many things. Sounds like some times when the spot light is on you, you are having panic attacks. They can be triggered by anything really. And when your hyper sounds like your being Manic. I am also diabetic. I can relate to how it feels, when i get very low, beyond the symptoms of being low because i let it go.. i get to the point where i can function, i don't remember things, nor even who i am. Its hard to explain how it feels to be low. But your on the same point, and i can relate to a panic attack feeling similar to being low sugar. Personally, i don't think anyone is born without problems anymore. I'm bi-polar and suffer from panic attacks. Among many other things as well. Explaining your feelings and actions to someone who is trained to understand symptoms and diagnose is something you should do. If you want to share experiences, you should PM me sometime.
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Posted: Fri Nov 24, 2006 4:44 pm
Schlechter Geist Could be many things. Sounds like some times when the spot light is on you, you are having panic attacks. They can be triggered by anything really. And when your hyper sounds like your being Manic. I am also diabetic. I can relate to how it feels, when i get very low, beyond the symptoms of being low because i let it go.. i get to the point where i can function, i don't remember things, nor even who i am. Its hard to explain how it feels to be low. But your on the same point, and i can relate to a panic attack feeling similar to being low sugar. Personally, i don't think anyone is born without problems anymore. I'm bi-polar and suffer from panic attacks. Among many other things as well. Explaining your feelings and actions to someone who is trained to understand symptoms and diagnose is something you should do. If you want to share experiences, you should PM me sometime. I tried a social worker once.. I really trusted her.... until she told me I "made her ill" I'm not too keen on repeating the mistake..... going to someone proffessional doesn't feel like a logical option. I tried telling a teacher once.. about issues at home, and she called childrens aid on me and made the situation desperately worse. My family still considers me a shame to our name for seeking professional help. And finally so many years later when I decide to trust someone once more, they tell me I made them ill. I'm not sure where to turn to now...
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