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That is awful, Im so sorry. Its sort of awkward when you dont talk to someone in a while but you still have memories of him, he still impacted your life someway and so have you to him. We have 3 guys in my dojang, 2 blue belts and a yellow sripe that are either in Iraq or being shipped out this month. I was really close to one of the blue belts. Its just a crazy world we live in... maybe not such a mess if other events hadnt occured but I wont get into my personal opinions.

Its natural human nature to feel bad for someone who dies. Its always seems like the ones who are doing good for themselves are the ones with hte biggest problems of all. Me and my cousin were sort of like that. My cousin, she always the good one especially since my family is a bunch of misfits lolz. But she was the one who had the plans to graduate high school and go to college, she was dead by 15. I use to have lots of problems but Im still here.

I hope you get out of your hole but its important not to bury them. Making it beyond the hard times is the hardest part but it makes you who you are and gives you strength. Good luck!

im Really sorry to hear that but I hope he is in a better place now and the person who shot him was mental ill tell You that and have strengh i lost someone i like also and i cry in my sleep sometimes T-T...... R.I.P.

I have 3 friends who are all moving one is leaving for good another I am not sure about but she will most likely not come back to stay and one other who I am not real close to but I think she is just going to go to school and then come back. My step brother plans to go off to school and he really would like to go some place else so he may not be around much longer. Most of my really close friends have all moved away and no longer keep in contact or I don't get to see them much any more.

I asked one of my friends out and she said yes but because of some crap I do not fully understand it never happened. She hates it here and she is from Utah so she is thinking of going back for school and I really doubt shes planing to come back. I have done every thing to get this worked out so we can be together but she dose not seem as serious about it as I am and it doesn't look like she will ever give me a chance. She wont talk to me about things so I don't know exactly why she has blown me off and I have done every thing in my power to make her understand that I love her but she has said that it is basically not going to happen. Her parents as far as I know do not intend to ever move again so she may end up back here someday but I hope that I find someone sooner than that so I don't know. If I don't and she dose return to this crap hole and is not with someone then I will jump back into this and try to salvage things.

Seems like every one I love is leaving me. One of my friends told me thats just how things are friends move apart and some forget. I have never been able to let go though I am so connected to some friends that it seems like I lost a part of my self when they move and I am just never the same again. Two of these girls I love so it's really hard for me I never had many female friends it is strange for me to have two that I like. I have recently told them both how I feel and what not because I do not feel I can let it go unsaid so I have let go of some of my emotional baggage. One of them I know had no interest in me and I knew she already knew I liked her but I told her any way and we talked about it for a few hours. The other as I said is going through some stuff and I guess dose not feel I am important enough to stay with.

I lost an old friend first one I know of who has died. Some old friends may as well be dead to me because they never kept up with me and so I do not know how they are. These friends will most likely stay in contact with me for a long time but I know that it will fade and then end all together they will be to far for me to really see them again. The two I care about are not from here one has no family here so they have no reason to ever return it's not impossible to think they may but very unlikely.