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I wrote this for someone before they decided to dump me.

What happened to you, do you even listen to me anymore, do you even care that when you ignore me im hurt, do you realize how ******** up my life is because im so confused about you and me because you use to say all these great things to cheer me up but now do you even realize im hurt, and am I your girlfriend or just your friend like I was back then, tell me the truth on that question, then I might understand that maybe im not good enough or maybe you just dont care because I live so far away and can get away with anything because im not, do you even notice the pain in my voice when you joke around how your gay! What do you take me as an idiot who cant think straight you treat me just like my own god damn dad sometimes, like a selfish arrogant piss of s**t and you treat me like a baby as if I dont know anything and thats how stupid I am, you treat me as if im just in your life to fill a void because no one else would go with, do you even care I still smoke because of the hell you put me through sometimes, do you even care that I die a little more each day when your are a ******** a** to me, like bitching me because of something I did youre your dreams, pressing me to do something right away AFTER I WAKE UP, yell at me because im slow at think after I wake up, not believe me when I have chores and other things to do, as if whatever im doing I have to drop everything and do your every command IM NOT A ******** SLAVE, im a person with her own mind her own thoughts and her own personalities so quit trying to control me, do you realize that as I write this my head is spinning around and off in different directions because im so confused, do you still really love me or are you just with me because I told you that I liked you because right now im confused and think I hate you for all the s**t I have done for, when I say I love you what do you say, you say ya sure, WHAT THE ******** IS UP WITH THAT, you used to tell me that you loved me more then anything and come up with a list of things you loved me more then, but now its as if you dont even give a ********, you used to make me laugh until stuff came out of my nose but now you just make me cry when we are of the phone, because every hateful thing you many mean to be a joke isnt to me because I cant tell the differences anymore between joking and not, because of what you have done to me because of those days we got into fights and then those days where you were joking, I would kill my self for you but you wouldnt for me would you, no thats what I think, no because you most likely think im some kind of whiney ******** up ugly whore, or because you just plan out hate me and are just going out with me that way you can make people jealous or something, I have other guys who tell me great things to cheer me up but all you know now is just how to pull me down back into the depths of my lifes hell, the hell that I created a long time ago, where I wouldnt care about anything in the world, where I would wish for my life to be taken away and pretty much emo and everyday when I talk to you im pulled back into this void I created for my self, why do you even do these things to me, what is it some kind of entertainment for you, well if you want entertainment go ******** up someone elses life not mine, its ******** up enough thank you and it doesnt need your help it has had help enough from other people in my life so it doesnt need your s**t too, I used to think you were the greatest thing that ever happened to me but now im just confused about you, so confused I cant even think straight any longer so confused that I cant sleep or eat so I guess what im trying to say is QUIT MESSING WITH MY HEART