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I combined slim fast and trimspa into a suicide diet last month and I feel kinda odd >.> I dunno, I can tell I have lost a litle bit of weight because some of my pants fit slightly more comfortable, but I keep getting these sort of panic attacks if I envision myself skinny. On the plus side, every night when i eat dinner, it is the most glorious meal I have ever had. I spend the entire day drinking bland diet shakes and fantasizing about what my dinner will be. My real concern though is that I notice myself growing more emotionally attached to eating than usual, I get majorly happy around 5 oclock when I start cooking, but I still feel somwhat afraid to lose the weight. Although neither of which otuweigh my desire to be in better shape. I am so confused >.>

Its scary to lose weight, I'm on a kinda diet/exercise plan right now, more to get more healthy than anything else but as I've been fat since I was little I'm so used to it now. I'm kinda that I'm scared if I lose weight then my life isn't going to get any better - I've always partly blamed my weight for all my problems, from being turned down for a job to my turbulent love life.

But you sound like you have waaaaaay more willpower than me, I couldn't cope on only a few shakes a day and a proper dinner. Just be careful, you shouldn't deny yourself too much, especially if its making you unhappy!

I haven't been eating much lately. I've just been caught up in other things and it's been keeping me away from my emotional eating habit... so my diet obviously has changed a bit. Today was horrible. I was craving food so badly and I kept eating through out the day. It was mostly sugary foods too, which isn't good for me.

I must admit, you're brave for being able to put Slim Fast into your body. That stuff is sickening to me. I guess I kind of like the strawberry kind, though... but the rest is liquified poo. x_x

stare

Mmmm, sounds heavenly (except for the peppers, I'm allergic)

I'm not so good as you - for a while I was doing that, but with the powdered shake crap, and that stuff was just so nasty I gave up. So I'm stuck at this weight and not budging. xp

my parents think bitching at me when I eat is a good tatiac. The ******** jerks