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Um, my mom is totally over protective and over controling and sometimes abusive emotional and at a time physically. She called me names, made me feel stupid and hit me a lot though she denies ever doing that. confused It got worse when i started dating. She called all my gf's sluts and the worse names ever.

The lady im with now is the greatest. I feel nothing but love from her which helps me through the day. My mom hates her a lot, i understand shes online and i cant take her out on dates, but my mom should know that i feel confortable about it. Every day she keeps telling me that its not going to work and that wasting my life and what have you. Shows me pictures of other ladys too. I hate that. My gf had some hard time dealing with her illness now gone. heart

But my mom didn't understand why she was hurtful while she was fighting it. I tried talking to her, telling her to stop telling me how to treat her. She calls me felth and worse tells me she wishes she never had kids to begin with. I talked to the college campus cause the way my mom treats me started to accceft my school. I told her to stop cause she was depressing. She said to grow up, deal with it or move out. And makes me feel useless. I help out with the home and what not when im not online or drawing on my pc but still my mom and dad still tell me i dont do anything that i dont appreaciated what they done for me and make me feel bad sometimes make me hate myself.

But my gf does the excate opposite. She makes me feel loved. while from my parents i just feel like crap while their home. the only chance i feel happy is when im alone or talking to my love or my friends. soon as they get home. they start it up again. its to the point i dont care what happens. i just want to be happy and in pieace. instead i feel like im in hell. i also feel my mom makes choices for me. and that makes me mad. after 5 months of being with my better haft. she told me to break it off with my gf or she'll do it for me saying i been i with her long enough. i got in a big fight with her. told my mom to F off basically cause im tried of her telling me how to love someone or who to be with.

they treaten to break up with each other and then blaim me for it. saying its my gf's fult. im like WTF. I brought her in my life because i love her, who care if my mom and dad dont like her, i love the lady. my dad thinks im going sciziod and nuts over how i feel about my gf. Im so sick of it and whats worse they dont care at all how i feel.

i cant leave cause i got no where to go yet. i feel like im being force to stay there cause i feel i have to have permissiont to do anything. im 24 years old for gods shake. i just want them to stop treating me like that. i asked her and dad to see a counciler, they told me NO. T.T They wont fix this saying to fix it would mean getting ride of the net. How will that help. It'll just make me hate them. And make me missurable, they said we dont care.

Oh sorry. fixed it. as for moving out, i cant. its like im forced to stay there, i got no way to take care of myself right now and im in college. PLUS, i have a loving gf that needs me right now. I dont have time to worry about myself.

my gf had breast cancer. bless that sweet lady's heart. shes a real sweetie. heart she knows about my mom and that she knows my mom doesn't like her. our relasionship is solid. i told her everything my mom did to me. today just proved i can trust my mom to save my own life. she finds my tonto i bought and takes it. then she lies dead in my face about what happened to my brother saying she didn't know what happened to him. now shes told me a lot that i wish she just kept her mouth shut about it. bringing up my sister, telling me shes not related to me. how the hell can that be.

i drove to school crying again. she said my sis is minupalating me against my mom and ruining my mom and me relasionship, ha, what relasionship we had just went out the window. i said we got none. we didn't have one the day you started on me about my current gf. my mom is selfesh and uncarring. she had surgury and thought hey, why not make my son feel like dirt cause i feel like dirt. im better off with out them around im much happier. im fact i never been happier with them not telling me to get off the pc, take a shawer, brush my teeth, go to bed. im 24 years old for gods shake. i should be aloud to do what i want. crying