Lately i'v been super stressed out, my family life is changing soo much. My fathers an alcohollic and freaked out on my last chirstmas, witch i have to say was pretty much the scareyest thing ever, and still haunts me when i just lay in bed even. And he won't stop drinking for anybody, not even me.. his only daughter. everybody in my family has tryed but he just won't listen, and he lied to my mom about getting help.

aswell.. Hes been cheating on my mom for a veryyy long time. my mom new about something that had happened awhile ago, and they were dealing with it and trying to get over it. and ever scince i was in abolut grade 5 i had thought my dad was haveing an affair. Then one day, i looked on his computer and found chat logs with him and another girl named Amanda. This girl acually works with my father. So i showed them to my mom, then she talked to my dad blah blah blah

and now, me and my mom are moving.. well in early september is when were acually moving i think. But we have like No money at all.. and my dads pretty much a dirt bag about all this, and won't give my mom like anyy money, and he thinks she wastes all the money he does give her.

I'v never moved.. ever. This room is where my crib was when i was born. And i'm just soo nervous and scaerd to move, and all of this is just stressing me out sooo much. Plus i'm worryed about the amount of stress i'm putting on my bf with all this, cuz he knows how scared and all i am and have been scince b4 chirstmas. aswell i cut.. witch makes him worry alot. another thing is that sometimes i will get urges to drink, wicth is something that i CAN"T do.. i'v only been drunk once, and i regret it very very much. and even tho i hate it soo much i still will sometimes get the urge for it. as well with drugs. so i know my bf worrys so i worry about him for worrying about me>.<

another thing is i'v had an addiction with tylenol i know it sounds stupid but its true.. and its not cool i nearly OD one night. and my bf was sooo worried about me when i told him that.. and he like won't let me take tylenol at all pretty much.

sorry for such a long post.. i just really don't no what to do.. i'm so stressed and trying super hard not to cut.. so if anybody has any advice on anything please help me out thank you all heart