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S- Judgement and contempt towards classmates I hardly know
I- Therapy isn't working as well as I would like, I am still depressed
N- Please help me God deal with with the death of my Grandma. You know my coping skills are horrible, so please help me get through this without living in denial again.
G- Thank you for Olivia and Luke and Kevin and Brandt and Brittany and Jen and Mamatha... God, I doubt I would be on Earth right now had you not sent these messengers to me.

This is a cute format, I think I'll use this daily in my journal. ^^ Thank you for sharing!

Sin: I never make real peace with my brother. We have many issues.
Issues: A constant issue in my life is my parents divorce. I have never truly gotten over it as I was never able to see them together. It wasn't all fighting.
Needs: I need a place where I am not teased for who I am. My brother doesn't tease me like that, only the bullies at school.
Grateful: I am grateful for my wonderful parents.

Sin: One sin that has always been a problem for me is pride. I was a very prideful person before I found God, and to think I'd always humble. But that pride has actually returned disguised as faith. I've become almost too prideful in being Christian, thinking I am better than others because I've found God and they have not, and that's not right at all.

Issues: My whole life seems one big issue right now. Like most teenagers I'm just trying to figure out who I am, I feel like I found myself when I found God but I've lost myself again. I spent the last year- you know what I just realized. Tonight is the one year anniversary of the night I prayed for God' forgiveness. Two days before the first day of school. I spent the last year trying to figure out what God had in store for my life, and learning so much about myself and my faith and the world I can't remember who I was a year ago. I have my problems but I've grown so much. So I guess now marks the end of that year of transition form the sinner I was to stepping closer to the person of faith I can be. But during that year there were a lot of people, friends of mine, I neglected. I think God didn't want their influences having any effect on me while I was growing in faith. But now we're becoming closer again and I feel that I need to trust that God will give me the strength to jump in amongst the sinners and shine my light, without letting them drag me back into sin again. So I guess I'm just trying to find a balance between to too-prideful Christian and the sinner I once was, a balance that will allow me to help show these people I've known forever how God has changed me and use the love of Christ to bring them to faith as well.

Needs: I think what I really need right now is to get closer to God.

Gratitude: Oh, so, so much. I'm thankful for his love and his guidance, and the forgiveness he gave to me a year ago today. Thank God for how I've grown in faith. Thank God for my church, the online church Church of Fools that was there when a real church was not avaliable to me. Thank God for the health of my family. Thank God for this house, and this computer, and you guys, the Warriors for Christ. So many things so many people will never have. Thank God for the food on my plate, the clothes I have to wear, the school I am privliged enough to attend. And I know that the things my family is stressing over right now, money problems, whether we'll even be able to own this house for long, it doesn't matter at all. And I thank God for giving me that wisdom and for listening to my prayers to bring that wisdom to my family as well.

S: I still need to hold my tongue.

I: I am having issues with myself at this point. I am too distracted by the world and it takes away from my bible studies. I spend so much time in front of the comp. or the tele. that I either forget or just run out of time to read my bible.

N: I need prayer for my grandmother, that the Lord will keep his hands on her. I also need prayer for myself that I will have the strength to turn away from these temptations. That I will turn my full attention on God and not on the things of the world.

G: I am grateful for everything the Lord has done and will do. I'm grateful for his loving mercy, his forgivness, his grace, and his kindness. He really is great in so many ways.

I hope to limit my time on the comp to weekends only and limit my television time to only the news and weekends as well.

S: i find it hard (very, very hard) to respect my mother at some times... there are many an issue with us

I: my mom and sister arguing all the time, my mom refuseing to punish/to enforce punishment on my sister, my mother smokeing and drinking, and the list goes on, most of which atarting with my mother

N: my family needs money. i need a job, and to move as soon as i can (but thats not for a few years), my sister needs a good swift kick in the behind (spare the rod, spoil the child)

G: i'm very thankful to God for letting me grow up and mature the way i have considering the people i am around. he has made me able to cary huge ammounts of stress without becomeing over burdoned, and has made me able to help some friends of mine with whatever they may need

At COT, the old thread for this is gone.. so i'll do it here since she made one here too.. smile

S: Well.. nothing too major this week. but.. i'm sure there are things i could repent for... maybe slacking off a bit this past week with my morning devotionals. If i don't put prayer first, how can i expect things to go well with me?

I: I have been having issues with someone at work. This girl... she recently was granted manager privs even tho she isn't one. and she likes to nitpick with me... and singles me out a lot. But.. last week, i had this impulse in the spirit to hug her and forgive her and try to overcome her evil with good. did it.. and was hoping things would be different... and at first they weren't... but yesterday was my first shift with her in forever when she chose to pick on someone else. i was in part relieved... but in part sympathizing with the other guys she was picking on cuz i knew exactly what they were going thru and how much i hate it when she does it to me. but.. i really want to find a way to resolve the issues. cuz i used to like her.. and my contempt for her continues to grow regardless of forgiving her. when she does stuff like she does; the angst is reborn and grows... so. yeah. i want to overcome that.

N: My family needs prayer. our job situations are in a state of major flux. and, if josh is going to need a new job; we just want him to be able to find one. but.. if he's gonna stay; then we pray she isn't threatening to lay him off every other week. that's just very um... disturbing.

G: I just want to thank and praise the Lord because sunday night i labored in prayer in the midnight hours... and.. i lost a lot of sleep. and i woke hoping that the lost sleep would be for some good.. that there were some breakthroughs.. haven't seen the results of that lamenting session yet.. but i have faith it didn't go unnoticed by the Lord. ^_^ and.. I'm just praising him and giving him glory for the miracle i haven't apprehended yet.. but i believe it's there and we'll meet it when it's due season. i just praise him already. because i really believe it's there and he's doing a great and mighty work in our life. heart whee

Sin: Despite how young we may be, everyone's using sexual refrences and other types of profanity in their every day speech, and though I don't join in, I think I'm being too tolerant of this sort of thing >.<

Issues: My mom and I haven't really been getting along sweatdrop She's always going on about souls and reincarnation because her friend gave her all these books on the subject. Now she's convinced there's no such thing as hell or sin, and she's trying to get me to follow her beliefs. I see no reason to. She asks me how I can't have any doubts, and says that the bible doesn't make sense, but it does to me! I can't see how someone can trust the word of some guy who wrote a book! If I have doubts or questions, I bring them to God, I don't go to the New Age section of the local book store and find some book about some guy who claims to have had spoken with God. I've spoken with God, too! And I think God is giving me these bad feelings about those books for a reason.

Needs: I think what I need right now is fellowship. Away from my mom and her new age ideas and school and the lack of believers there. So that's why I'm here, because I have nowhere I can go physically to escape these things, I don't go to church, anywhere I go my mom has to take me. But the internet is some place I can go on my own, and get away from the stresses I face every day.

Gratitude: Oh, I have so much to thank the Lord for. My friends especially. Even the non-Christians. God is showing me how I can help them in faith, and letting me see the faults in the Christians I know, helping me learn more about these people I've always considered friends but never knew I didn't really know. He's given me the ability to open up and be more social, and less timid. Fewer times am I encountering situations where I absolutely dread walking into the room or doing the activity. He is making me stronger, and I really need that right now. For the courage and strength I've never ever possesed before, I am eternally grateful.