I have nothing left to give
I have found the perfect end
You were made to make it hurt
Disappear into the dirt
Carry me to heaven's arms
Light the way and let me go
Take the time to take my breath
I will end where I began

And I will find the enemy within
'Cause I can feel it crawl beneath my skin


Logan awoke from another nightmare. His breath heaving, his eyes casting about, looking for the giant terror that haunted him. He went to wipe his brow but nothing happened. His glance slowly lead down to his missing limb. He stared. It was funny. The nights he had his most violent, wicked dreams were the nights he could still feel it. Fate was a cruel mistress.

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Dead star shine
Light up the sky
I'm all out of breath
My walls are closing in
Days go by
Give me a sign
Come back to the end
The shepherd of the damned
I can feel you falling away


Opal listened to Logan scream. It seemed that his demons were fighting him again. When she first brought him home from the palace hospital, she had been warned that he may suffer from after effects of the attack. What she didnt know was that it had changed his entire being. She no longer saw Logan. At least not the one she once knew. The palace had taken her best friend. Her brother. The love and shining star of her life and twisted him I to something unrecognizable.

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Dear Agony
Just let go of me
Suffer slowly
Is this the way it's got to be?
Dear Agony


Logan growled at his own miserable thoughts and threw the covers back with his good hands. He struggled to rise. He had ingested copious amounts of alcohol earlier in the evening in Hope's that the dreams wouldn't haunt him tonight. But just like always, fate thwarted him again. The same creature. The same irreparable moment etched in his brain. The same agonizing dream every night. It was a wonder he could function at all. He made his way, albeit a little tipsy turvy, over to his bedside table where the bottles from the last few nights had sat. Picking one up, he attempted a swig and grimaced at the burn as it hit his tongue.

Life sucked.

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No longer the lost
No longer the same
And I can see you starting to break
I'll keep you alive
If you show me the way
Forever, and ever
The scars will remain
I'm falling apart
Leave me here forever in the dark


Opal winced as he began to scramble thru the bottles in his room. She hear the clink clank noises sweep thru the house. She knew better than to disturb him, night terror or not. Nothing consoled him until he woke up and even then, he still wanted no form of comfort. The last time she had tried, he almost broke her wrist. Shaking off the memories, she sighed and snuggled down deeper in her own bed. She wished he would see reason. See a doctor for these things. No matter how many time she brought it up, he refused her coldly. 'What's the point?' Or 'Can't fix broken, Opal. Can only patch it up and pray.' Was what she most often heard from the blue toned fish in the other room.
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Suddenly
The lights go out
Let forever
Drag me down
I will fight for one last breath
I will fight until the end

And I will find the enemy within
'Cause I can feel it crawl beneath my skin

Dear Agony
Just let go of me
Suffer slowly
Is this the way it's got to be?
Don't bury me
Faceless enemy
I'm so sorry
Is this the way it's gotta be?
Dear Agony


Logan's mind wandered back to the night that remained hidden from him during waking hours. The dreams apparently felt the need to dissipate swiftly upon on his awakening, because already his nightmares were fading. It left him cold and and angry. It wasn't fair. Why would mind betray him like this? His mind became a ghost whenever he woke but his demons were well alive in his slumber. Staggering for another bottle, he growled when he realized he had run out. Alcohol was his only escape at the moment. And it seemed he'd drunk his last drop for the night.

He was slowly sinking into the feeling that he could never escape. A slow decent into a phantasmal existence. After the guards had questioned him, and he had returned home, it seemed as tho he had been forgotten. A small blip easily overlooked. He hadn't been inquired after by anybody except Snorri and even that had slowly teetered off. It was as if he had almost given his life for nothing.

Suddenly screaming, he threw his hands out and in one swoop, threw everything off the table and onto the floor. His life meant nothing.

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Daylight dies
Blackout the sky
Does anyone care?
Is anybody there?
Take this life
Empty inside
I'm already dead
I'll rise to fall again

I can feel you falling away

No longer the lost
No longer the same
And I can see you starting to break
I'll keep you alive
If you show me the way
Forever, and ever
The scars will remain
I'm falling apart
Leave me here forever in the dark


She wrapped her pillow around her head with shaking hands as the sound of glass hitting the floor resounded thru put their small coral hut. This wasn't her friend. She prayed every night for the return of her Logan. And she prayed that whatever this version was, would die. She couldn't cope. She had begun to feel grateful for her new responsibilities and that irked her to some extent because Logan was family. You shouldn't wanna get rid of family.

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Leave me alone
God let me go
I'm blue and cold
Black sky will burn
Love pull me down
Hate lift me up
Just turn around
There's nothing left

Somewhere far beyond this world
I feel nothing anymore


Logan slowly sunk to the bottom of the floor and made to wrap both his arms around his fin. Even that was denied him, but it seemed as tho his thoughts where else. Closing his eyes, he let his head sink back against his coral hut wall. He just wanted it to stop. Why didnt it ever stop?

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God help me, I've come undone
Out of the light of the sun
God help me, I've come undone
Out of the light of the sun
I can feel you falling away
No longer the lost
No longer the same
And I can see you starting to break
I'll keep you alive
If you show me the way
Forever, and ever
The scars will remain


She listened as the other room grew quiet. She was thankful. Sometimes it seemed as tho Logan never slept anymore. He played it off for her, but she knew the truth. She heard his nightly follys. Eyes toward the waterline, she prayed softly for him.
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Dear Agony
Just let go of me
Suffer slowly
Is this the way it's got to be?
Don't bury me
Faceless enemy
I'm so sorry
Is this the way it's gotta be?
Dear Agony


I feel nothing anymore


He prayed for freedom from the misery he his life had become but night after night freedom escaped him. Tears rolled down his cheeks and he fought the empty part of his soul that had taken a root so deep that it physically hurt. He just wanted it to go away. All of it. The ache in his chest. The spectral dreams. His very existence hurt right now. And he was so tired. The kind of exhaustion that came when your soul was war torn and shattered.

He felt the first twists of slumber as it wrapped itself around like a raccoon and he almost laughed. Fate a cruel, sadistic mistress. He couldn't fight the ethereal pulls of rest. So, off he went to the nightmares. Head tilted to the side, he nodded once, twice, before finally succumbing to sleep.

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Give me a sign
There's something buried in the words
Give me a sign
Your tears are adding to the flood
Just give me a sign
There's something buried in the words
Give me a sign
Your tears are adding to the flood
Just give me a sign
There's something buried in the words
Give me a sign
Your tears are adding to the flood
Forever, and ever
The scars will remain


Opal cast her eyes out the window and slowly slipped back into a dreamless sleep. Thought of monsters and prayers dancing throught her dreams that night.

((Was listening to some old music and these two songs seemed to fit. ))