Claws tapped on the keyboard as Zuriel stared at the computer screen. Indecision was clawing at his insides. Should he even be here sitting in front of the screen looking at different mixer sites. No one had believed in him even from a young age. They didn't understand his wired tense energy. They didn't understand his medium abilities and they generally looked down at him for the mutations he sported. However he had this hole in his chest. There was something missing. He wasn't sure that he would be a good father. He was often insecure about himself and he didn't stand up for himself as much as he should. However he had a stable job. He would love them with everything he had. He wanted to prove to everyone and maybe even himself that he could have a family.
It was more than a rash decision. He had been thinking about imbuing for weeks now. Working on seeing if his finances could take it, figuring out if he could be a parent. He had also pondered possibly just single imbuing verses actually going out to a mixer since everyone that even slightly agreed with his decision said it would be better. However this was a chance to push himself, to change and fix that hole that was in his chest.
Besides with the sudden death of his parents it was hitting home how quickly you could lose your support. He still had Ara yes, but if he died like them he didn't want to just hoist his kid on his twin. He wanted them to have another parent that would want to be there for them hopefully.
