It really wasn't that much of a secret that Tambre loved kids. She still made frequent visits to the Orphanage even though she hadn't adopted a child since Lorek. Still, she had three young children at home and she loved each of them so much. They were all great at different things, and Tambre was already proud of the people they were becoming. However, she still felt like her life was incomplete. She knew some people might call her crazy, but she couldn't help that longing for yet another child to call her own. Would her children hate her for that? She already knew that Lorek was having a hard time adjusting and she couldn't help but feel terrible for putting so much pressure on the young boy. Did that make her a terrible parent?
She had always done everything she could to make sure her children had a good life, a better one than she had ever had growing up, but sometimes she wondered if that was enough. Should she do more, give more? She ended up shaking her head at the thought, she knew people who were much worse parents than she was, as sad as she was to even think that much less say it. She knew she was a good mother and she loved each one of her children more than she knew her parents ever loved her, they were her whole world and would always be.
So was it selfish of her to want to bring yet another kid into the world? A part of her thought it was, and that she shouldn't do it. But she couldn't help but want another kid, and she didn't want to feel guilty about that. She had more love to give and wanting another child to fill that wasn't a terrible thing, was it?
She let out a breath that she hadn't even known was locked in her lungs. She would talk to her kids about this, it would effect their lives too. She could already imagine what most of them would say, she knew Kiessi would encourage her, the younger ones might not understand, but Lorek... what would he say? No, she shouldn't be thinking about it that way, she knew Lorek would be happy, even if he was a little apprehensive about it. He was such a good kid and he had already taken so well to his younger siblings, she could even tell he was happy about having other people to play with. Banshee had even already asked her when she was going to have a younger sibling, which had almost made her choke at the time, but the little girl was definitely cute when she asked, even if she hadn't understood what all of that had meant exactly.
Tambre felt a sense of excitement and anxiety well up through her. Was she really going to do this? She was about to throw caution to the wind and have another child. The whole thing made her nervous, but also happy.
