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 Posted: Wed Mar 22, 2006 6:59 am
Israel paced down the hall to stop at Sora's door, but then would turn to start to walk away. She wasn't sure what she was doing any more. Things had gotten far too complicated for her, and she hated complicated. Turning again at the stairs, she marched right up to Sora's door and knocked resolutely on it. She hoped he would be there. She wasn't sure how much longer she would be able to be strong about this. Taking a deep breath, she let it out all at once and started to turn away to leave.
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Posted: Sat Apr 29, 2006 8:19 pm
But Israel didn't get a chance to leave before the door opened. Sora came into view and smiled softly, "Issy?" he asked, scatching at his stomach from under his shirt. "What a pleasent surprise. Come inside?" He stepped out of the doorway to let her in.
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Posted: Sat Apr 29, 2006 8:30 pm
When she heard the door open, she stopped and looked at Sora. She hesitated a moment, glancing down the hall to her only escape, then licked her lips nervously and moved inside. She waited until he closed the door and slowly turned to look at him.
"Sora... can we talk?" she asked softly, worry in her eyes. She wasn't exactly sure what she was going to say. But she felt like something needed to be said after her confrontation with Xel.
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Posted: Sat Apr 29, 2006 8:36 pm
Oooh, the can we talk question. Sora shutt he door when she came in and gave a nod. "of course Issy. What do you want to talk about?" He asked, moving ahead of her to go sit down on his couch. A movie was paused on the television.
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Posted: Sat Apr 29, 2006 8:47 pm
She wanted to sit on his lap and have him cradle her against him, but that had definitely not gotten her anywhere with Xel. Slowly she slipped her hands into the back pockets of her jeans and remained standing, thinking of what she wanted to ask.
"Sorakai... I consider you to be my best friend here, and you make me so incredibly happy all the time. But... this whole Xel thing is really starting to wear me out. I thought I could be like you and just have fun with the people around me. But I can't. I get too involved. Xel asked me to not come up here and talk to you about any of this, and I wasn't going to... but in the end someone is going to get hurt, and I'd rather it not be you," she said, her voice starting to shake. She took another deep breath and willed herself to not be so nervous.
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Posted: Sat Apr 29, 2006 8:54 pm
Sorakai listened to her words, a frown forming on his face. What was he to say to that? Sighing a bit, gentle hands grasped Israel and guided her to sit where she wanted to be, right in Sora's lap. His arms snaked around her as he held her, "I feel like it's all my fault." he started, gently nuzzling her hair. "Because I cannot commit to just one person. It's not in your nature to be like me, I don't feel the shame that most people must feel. Sex is sex no matter who it's with." He paused, letting out a long sigh. "I don't want you making yourself unhappy..."
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Posted: Sat Apr 29, 2006 9:10 pm
Israel quickly wrapped her arms around Sora's neck and buried her face into his neck and shoulder at his last words. She couldn't bring herself to look him in the eye. Her resolve had been shakey from the beginning, now it was starting to crumble completely. Slowly she lifted her head up from it's resting place to look into his blue eyes.
"Sora... You're my first boyfriend, first kiss, maybe even my first love. I want you to be the first person I sleep with..." she hesitated, swallowing hard before continuing, "And... after... I don't want to be your girlfriend any more." That was way harder than I thought, she thought to herself as she studied his eyes to catch his reaction.
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Posted: Sat Apr 29, 2006 9:18 pm
"I'm honored to be your firsts... But if that is truely how you want it then I will not have sex with you. I would feel like I had used you if I did only to have us break up after." He spoke as he stared into her eyes, leaning over to kiss her lightly. He had a feeling this wouldn't have lasted with her and a cold turn came to his stomach.
Sighing he shifted to get more comfortable and held her. "Issy... You'll find the right person to have sex with, but under the circumstances... I don't think I am that one." Brushing a bit of hair out of her face he smiled lightly. "Let's just relax... I just want to hold you if it's the last time I can."
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Posted: Sat Apr 29, 2006 9:29 pm
Israel started to relax and melt into his arms, but then her temper suddenly flaired. She pulled herself out of his arms and rose to her feet to look down at him.
"Damn it Sora! All my life I've had someone telling me what I can or cannot have or what I do or do not want! I'm not a child, and I know damn well what I want. I've wanted you from the moment we met and not just for sex or anything like that. But I realize I can't have you and I'm sure as hell not going to force you into a committment you don't want. So you can give me this one thing," she demanded. God damn Xel, his temper was starting to rub off on her, she thought.
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Posted: Sat Apr 29, 2006 9:34 pm
The sudden change in her temper sent him into shock. He sat up right as he stared at Israel, blue eyes blinking wide. There was a moment and then a careless shrug. "Fine. You can honestly look me in the eyes and tell me that you want to have sex with me? If you can I'll make it right, your first time should be special. I'm not just going to screw you into the couch because you're yelling at me."
Standing a bit he grabbed Issy gently by the shoulders and ushered her towards the door. "Come back in an hour if you really do want this. Either way I still want to be your friend Issy..." He said as he gave her a small peck on her cheek.
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Posted: Sat Apr 29, 2006 9:50 pm
Israel blinked as he ushered her to the door. When he pulled away from kissing her cheek, her eyes softened and her temper cooled. Her eyes narrowed a bit playfully.
"You had better be Sorakai," she pretended to threaten, then she got up on her tip toes and kissed his lips lightly. She then turned around and walked out of the door.
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An hour later, Israel was back at Sora's door. This time, she had forced her nerves away to make herself more sure of what she was doing. This is what she wanted. No amount of arguing from anyone else was going to change her mind. Swallowing hard, she reached up and knocked on his door for the second time that day.
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Posted: Sat Apr 29, 2006 9:54 pm
From the knock alone the door creeked open on it's own. Soft music played inside the room as the lights were dimmed and candles lit. The air was filled with the scent of roses, a lone rose laid upon the floor with a red ribbon and white card attached. Upon the card was Israel's name and when read stated:
Follow the petals.
And if one took notice quick enough, a trail of rose petals of multiple colors lead towards the bedroom. Sorakai was still yet to be seen.
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Posted: Sat Apr 29, 2006 10:10 pm
As the door started to open, Israel glanced over her shoulder to open it completely. Smiling, she looked around Sora's room and a small blush colored her cheeks. She noticed the single stem rose immediately and picked it up to read what the card said. Shutting the door behind her, she started to do as it had instructed, the butterflies in her stomach reawakening no matter how hard she tried to be brave. At the door to the bedroom she hesitated, then smiled and reached out to open it.
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Posted: Sat Apr 29, 2006 10:31 pm
The music seemed to get louder as she approached the bedroom door, and as it opened it almost flowed right through her. It was a gentle tune, nothing like the hard rock and roll Sorakai usually listened to. Ok so maybe he had sex music was that so wrong?
Sorakai was now see, lighting a few last candles on the bedside table. He glanced over when he heard the door open and blicked. But a warm smile spread across his lips and he put down his lighter.
There was no words as he went over to her, taking the rose from her fingers to toss it aside. It wasn't needed anymore. The room was dark save for candle light, the sheets looking clean and sleek. Silk most likely, or a cheap immatation, only Sorakai knew!
His arms gently wrapped around Israel's waist, their foreheads pressed together as he lightly swayed the two of them to the music. "You're sure?" he asked lightly, hovering his lips just above hers.
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Posted: Sat Apr 29, 2006 10:39 pm
Israel kept her eyes on Sora. He hadn't been kidding about wanting to make it special. As he wrapped his arms around her, she placed her hands lightly on his shoulders. At his simple question she only nodded at first, then licked her lips and said, "Yes."
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