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Home from the hospital.

It should make him happy to be home, to be around his own things, in a place that didn't smell like bleach and didn't feel like death and illness. His home wasn't anywhere near sterile like the hospital had been... And yet Kor wasn't happy. He knew this wasn't going to be easy, he knew this road. He knew it like the back of his hand because he'd been down this path so many times before. In all honestly he needed to find an NA meeting and get himself back on the program. Logically he knew that, and yet illogically all he wanted to do was hide from the world and let himself be forgotten.

Laine was here. She claimed she'd stay by him the whole time because they were fiance's and they loved each other, and yet in his mind there was the faintest glimmer of skepticism. Nothing was forever, even if he wanted it to be.

Right now he was in his bed, curled up in a tight ball with a pillow between his legs, hugging it to his chest. He smelled like the hospital still because he'd refused a bath. It wasn't time for the tub. There was a specific process he had for this. It was quiet. He didn't know where Laine was. Maybe shopping? He didn't have much food in the house, not that would be easy on his stomach. The thought of food made him want to vomit anyway. So with a low sigh, Kor let himself slowly drift off.

He'd woken up at the first jiggle of the doorknob and he let out a mental sigh. She didn't come directly to check on him, which was something, and Kor just shifted, uncurling himself slightly; his muscles felt like they were locking up from being like this, his back was sore and tender as he moved. It wasn't fun. Maybe he needed to move more? Whatever, the pain was better than what else he'd felt. It was a need, a nagging in his head to just go find more, get another needle, start over. He could get rid of this feeling so easily...

And then the weight on the bed shifted and Kor stiffened up, opening his green eyes to stare at the wall he was facing.

"You don't have to be here."

He softened a little. Who wouldn't? The man slowly relaxed and let his body stretch out to it's full length, wincing as he did before turning over to watch her, swallowing thickly. She.. did love him. She was here, she didn't get out while she had the chance. Instead Laine had shopped for food and come home. And this was her home. He shivered after a moment and just hugged himself, pulling his blanket tighter around him as he watched her face.

"Love you, too..."

Soft foods were good. He liked soft foods. It meant mac and cheese, mashed potatoes, oatmeal. At least she knew he was a vegetarian. He wouldn't have to worry about that folly. Swallowing, he just moved a bit closer and tugged her against him, resting his chin on her head. Honestly Kor hated feeling like this and was seriously jonesing for something to ease his pain. He was okay now. He just had moments of shivers and outright anger.

"...I don't feel good," he whispered softly, swallowing.

Maybe that point of the detox was creeping up on him, the point he slept in the bathtub. It was early, but he didn't even know how bad his OD was because he hadn't asked. He didn't want to know. With a sigh, Kor rolled away, making a face at the weird sensation of bed against his lips with no metal to protect them. Ugh. That'd be a b***h later, putting those in.

With a grumbling noise, the half naked man shuffled his way to the bathroom and just flopped in the tub, putting the blanket over him. The tub was cold, naturally, and he whined until he rolled enough to wrap the blanket around him and then sighed. Tubs were weird.

Irritable was putting it mildly. Kor was down right hostile at times, not even looking at her, sometimes thumping his head against the tub. Most of the time, though he would just rock back and forth and shiver like it was snowing on the inside. He couldn't help it. Moods, flashes of hot and cold... it came with the territory.

Every now and then he would slip to sleep, just relaxing and curling up in the bathtub. It was odd seeing a man of his length curl into a tiny ball, but there you have it.