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 Posted: Tue Aug 12, 2014 4:21 pm
Hey there guildies. I don't mind if you post your comments here. It won't bother me at all. smile
▌You push me back I push you back Harder, harder You scream at me I scream at you Louder, l-l-l-l-louder
▌I'm dangerous, I'm warning you But you're not afraid of me And I can't convince you You don't know me
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Posted: Tue Aug 12, 2014 5:29 pm
I was going to try and wait to rant/tell you a bit about my problems, but it seems they're getting out of hand and I just want to punch something. Let's start with this past Sunday. Warning...strong language used. Read at your own risk.
On Sunday, I woke up at six in the morning to get ready to go give plasma. You get paid to give plasma, and I knew we needed the money for gas in my car and to get my tire on it fixed since I'm driving on a spare right now. So, my fiance asked his dad and step-mom if we could go with them, and we did. My best friend was supposed to get up and go with us, but her happy butt didn't get up, and I wasn't going to wake her because she's twenty-one years old and can get up on her own. Anyway, it was a good thing I didn't wake her because my fiance's friend went with us, and there wouldn't have been room in the truck. Anyway, we did the plasma thing, got home, I had to rest because I was tired. So, onto Monday...
On Monday, my fiance and I decided we would go out, just me and him. So, we did. We went to drop off the weedeater we borrowed to my mom's friend and went to my brother's house to drop off his lawn mower gas can. Then we went to Walmart to walk around. We bought some cat litter, because we needed better litter than just the cheap stuff, and I got me some more face cream to help with acne. Then we went to Big Lots to look for stuff. Then we went out to the mall. We were going to go to the boardwalk, kind of like a much bigger outdoor mall type place, but it was about to storm. So we walked around the mall, had some fun, then went to eat at Popeyes. Then went to Brookshire's for some stuff and then home. We got home, and my best friend looked mad. She rolled her f*cking eyes at me and said she was fine. Like, b*tch I know better. I can sense your aura, and it's saying you're mad. Anyway, onto today...
Today, my best friend went out with another friend of ours. I was cool with it, until she thought something was wrong. I told her I was truly fine, since I just woke up about twenty minutes prior and wasn't finished with my first cup of coffee, I had that look like "don't talk to me yet"...then she thought I was mad and asked "are you sure you're okay? I can ask Sabrina (the other friend) if you can come with us." I was like "no I'm fine." but in my head I was cussing her out. Like "b*tch I know you know that I hate being thrown in as an afterthought." type thing. Anyway, she came home, and told me all she did.
Now, her and Sabrina are both on that stupid IMVU site, and she told me she wouldn't download the stupid thingy, but she f*cking did it anyway! That lying little b*tch. As soon as my fiance gets done with his match of League, all of us are getting off our electronics for an hour to read a book or to have that heart to f*cking heart because I'm pissed the f*ck off so bad right now that I want to literally punch a wall.
That's the end of this part of the rant. I'll let y'all know how the heart to heart goes later after it happens.
▌You push me back I push you back Harder, harder You scream at me I scream at you Louder, l-l-l-l-louder
▌I'm dangerous, I'm warning you But you're not afraid of me And I can't convince you You don't know me
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Posted: Tue Aug 12, 2014 7:17 pm
So, the heart to heart went better than I expected. She was a bit annoyed because I had to reestablish some rules, but she doesn't seem to follow them anymore. So I think when we do our one hour a day reading, I'm going to just shut the internet off. That way she has no choice but to read. And if she gets on her phone, I'll take that too. If she doesn't like it, she can leave. Anyway, she was made that l had it posted on the "ask before taking" rule that "alcohol is off limits". I only posted it on there because she doesn't seem to listen.
For those wondering, we have rules in our little apartment. They go as follows...one soda a day. Ask before taking. Must get off of all electronics and read for at least one hour a day. And must do one job application online everyday. I know they seem out there, but when you have someone that's just a mooch living with you, it's needed.
I'm also tempted to tell her she's not allowed to have my sodas anymore since she just sits around and mooches anyway. I might just tell her to pack her stuff and go move in with our friend, Sabrina, in her apartment when she gets it or to go back to her parents place. I'll even tell them why I kicked her out.
Anyway, I'm going to get off to go watch a movie...probably V/H/S 2 because the first one was great. Lol. I'll update again when something interesting happens. Remember you can comment on my stuff if ya want. Tell me if I'm wrong or whatever. Give me some input.
▌You push me back I push you back Harder, harder You scream at me I scream at you Louder, l-l-l-l-louder
▌I'm dangerous, I'm warning you But you're not afraid of me And I can't convince you You don't know me
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Posted: Wed Aug 13, 2014 7:21 am
Do not go to this board. The person is pretty much bragging that someone traded them 100b gold...and they're trying to "figure out" who it is...they say it's a mule, but won't give the name for it. Then they called me a "b*tch a$$ n*gga" for mentioning that...I'm going to report them because that's really rude and uncalled for.
In other news, my fiance is being a lazy little thing. He says he's waiting until noon to go mow his friend's yard. Why wait until it's hot as heck out there? Seriously...ugh...I hope this day gets better.
▌Let it go, let it go Can't hold it back anymore Let it go, let it go Turn my back and slam the door
▌And here I stand and here I'll stay Let it go, let it go The cold never bothered me anyway
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Posted: Wed Aug 13, 2014 11:29 am
Aw, you have to deal with so much. I think the roommate needs to go. If she has other friends who will take her in, maybe that's for the best. She got mad because you did stuff without her, but she wouldn't wake up.. how is that your fault? Then to do the same to you the next day is just spiteful. She doesn't seem very grateful to have a place to live.
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Posted: Wed Aug 13, 2014 11:32 am
Yeah. Things got worked out though. I just wanted to rant a bit about everything. I even told her I ranted on here about it because if I don't, then when I try to talk about it, my brain just goes completely insane.
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Posted: Wed Aug 13, 2014 6:48 pm
Hehe, yes. Rant and let all the crazy out, and then you can compose yourself to say what you really mean to their face. When we are mad we can say all kinds of stuff we don't mean. I told my mom a few months ago I wished she had died instead of my dad. I regret that so much. If I had taken it all out somewhere else I might not have blown up like that when she started acting crazy. Thing is we can't control how others act, but we can control how we react to it. And now I see that blowing up and being stressed are literally killing me. I found that out when I read the "Blue Zones" and made the thread about living forever. Stress and anger are worse on our bodies than you would ever think.
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Posted: Wed Aug 13, 2014 8:50 pm
Well, today was an up and down kind of day. I got a text from Mom at 8:30 in the morning telling me she didn't need to borrow my car because her pen pal friend was coming here to the house...so I was okay with that. Apparently, he showed up right after she texted me that. He stayed for a long time chatting with her. Then I got into a huge fight with Britny, my best friend. It was because she decided to go to Tumblr to rant about me...when I told her I hate her doing that. So, I brought it up to her and me and her just went off on each other about everything. All the pent up anger we had harbored for each other came out. Now, we're fine. Then I went with my fiance, Anthony, to his friend's house to help him mow the yard. Got back and was all cool and stuff. Now, I'm tired, but I'm trying to stay awake to text a friend who's got to work at Circle K (a gas station/convenience store) overnight. So, that's been my update for the day.
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Posted: Thu Aug 14, 2014 8:39 am
So, today has so far been kind of crazy. Yesterday, my mom sprang on me that she wants to open the yard sale back up this weekend, which gives me only today to organize. We have to wait for some stuff to be put out and organized until tomorrow because of where stuff needs to be placed. Anyway, I spent my whole morning doing that. I asked Britny, the friend living with us, if she could come help...then she f*cking decides to go with her f*cking mom for the day, even though she's going with her for the weekend. So, I talked to my mom, who makes the rules of the house, and mom said that it's time for Britny to leave. I'm not sure if it's mean or not considering that it doesn't seem like she's trying to get a job...she sits around on her stupid sites, granted I do it too, but I actually read books and I even try to get a job...it seems like she's mooching off of us, and has been since she got here in like February or March...I mean, I feel like this is the right thing to do, but she really won't talk to me anymore after that.
▌In a world like this where some back down I, I, know we're gonna make it In a time like this where love comes 'round I, I, know we're gonna take it
▌In a world like this where people fall apart In a time like this where nothing comes from the heart In a world like this, I've got you
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Posted: Thu Aug 14, 2014 7:59 pm
This post is probably going to be super long, so forgive me for that in advance. This is what's happened all day. I was helping my mom clean up for the yard sale she's going to start tomorrow. I asked my friend, Britny, to come help. She just goes "oh, well I was going to go with my mom." So, I was cool with it. Whatever, right? Then this stuff I'm about to tell you happened...and these are the LITERAL text messages between me and her.
Me: When are you coming back?
Britny: Idk. Do you need me back anytime soon?
Me: I guess whenever is fine.
Britny: Okay. Well I'm gonna visit my aunt angie with my mom and sister
Me: K.
~At about 7:30 pm~
Britny: On the way back. (a few minutes later) Well never mind. Going to minden hospital. Whitny broke her ankle.
Me: I thought you were on the way back? It doesn't take that long to get back there. Whitny will live without you there crying and being all "sorry" and sh*t.
Britny: I'm sorry but my family will always come first And if you don't like that then that's just too bad. Also the interstate was down to one lane that's why it took long.
Me: Okay. So, we're home and you're still not here. Ever coming back or what?
Britny: I told you where I was going.
Me: Yeah, but you're not gonna f*cking spend all night.
Britny: I can't spend all night at the hospital worried for my sister. I'm sorry that you have no sympathy for anyone but yourself right but this right here is bullsh*t. You are not my mother. You did not push me out of your f*cking v****a. If I want to stay with my family cause one got hurt then you can't stop me. I never care about you talking to your brother or even wanting to see him. Cause I don't care. You don't f*cking rule my life.
((My fiance, Anthony, took the phone from me at this point, so this last part is him))
Anthony here. We're not trying to rule your life. We're trying to wake your a$$ up and make you smell the roses. You're actin like a kid who doesn't wanna grow up. Guess what. It's the real world. What we put you through is nothing compared to what you're gonna get when you're on your own. We've been too nice for too long. You need to get off your lazy a$$ and do something with your life instead of mooching off of someone. We're trying to get jobs, Whit has food stamps. I filed for unemployment. You sit around reading fan fic or on your social sites doing nothing but reblogging stuff that sucessful people are doing or saying. Where are you even going in life? what's your life goal? What career do you want? You don't even know do you? Yea we sit around playing games and sh*t too but at least we make a visible effort to wanting to make a life for ourselves. Hell i'm even debating going into the military to give me n whit a life and a start. What are you planning for your near/long future? Huh? You need to think about it. I doubt you even have an idea. If you think me n whit are bad by asking when you'll be home or why you're gonna "spend the night with your sister" when there's nothing you can do to help. You can't do anything to help even yourself til you learn to grow up and mature. We're trying to help you and wake you up but every time whit tries you cry or sob story or get pissed. Grow up. It's sad when a 19 year old is more mature than a near 22 year old Brit. And we've been trying to help. But honestly I'm done trying. We'll talk more in the morning when I've calmed down n can full think straight.
Britny: She has never really tried to talk to me. She'll just stand there like she did the day before. I have been applying to jobs. Whether you believe me or not is your problem. I'm sorry I care about my family. I'm so tired of y'all being down m back because of s**t that Y'ALL think I should do. No I don't know what I'm gonna do and yeah I know I should get It together. I'm sorry I'm not like y'all and I don't give a s**t if y'all care or not. I honestly think y'all don't care about me at all. I'm tired of Whitney acting like she can control me. Y'all say y'all aren't but you are. I will get my life together MY way. I don't need y'alls help with it.
Okay, so that's the last text...yes my in real life name is Whitney. That's beside the point. When she gets home tonight, I'm telling her to pack her sh*t and get. Sorry for the long post.
▌In a world like this where some back down I, I, know we're gonna make it In a time like this where love comes 'round I, I, know we're gonna take it
▌In a world like this where people fall apart In a time like this where nothing comes from the heart In a world like this, I've got you
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Posted: Sun Aug 17, 2014 9:40 am
I know it's been a bit since I posted, but here's a small update. The friend that caused those problems is moving out this week. She's going back to her parents I believe. She's not very happy with me, but we're still acting like things are okay. Anyway, I've been busy and tired a lot, so that's why I haven't been on. Thanks for reading. smile
▌Let it go, let it go Can't hold it back anymore Let it go, let it go Turn my back and slam the door
▌And here I stand and here I'll stay Let it go, let it go The cold never bothered me anyway
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Posted: Mon Aug 18, 2014 8:33 am
Ariella Sokol I know it's been a bit since I posted, but here's a small update. The friend that caused those problems is moving out this week. She's going back to her parents I believe. She's not very happy with me, but we're still acting like things are okay. Anyway, I've been busy and tired a lot, so that's why I haven't been on. Thanks for reading. smile ▌Let it go, let it go Can't hold it back anymore Let it go, let it go Turn my back and slam the door▌And here I stand and here I'll stay Let it go, let it go The cold never bothered me anywayOh that's such a great update. I hope things calm down in your household soon. All that stress can't be good for anybody sweatdrop
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Posted: Mon Aug 18, 2014 2:01 pm
Ah, I'm sorry I missed all this! I hardly get into this subforums.. BAD SPEN!
I'm glad she's moving out. Situations where you are trying so much harder than someone else never seem to work out.
She was acting like her family member was dying and they had a sprained ankle, lol. She seems to have so much care for her family, but she's not realizing you guys were her family too. Blood is just blood. The people who are there for you are family. You gave her a home and food, and tried to give her tough love and direction, you were her family. Well good riddance. She can go back to her "family". It'll probably start sinking in why she left in the first place.. but you shouldn't let her back if she tries.
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Posted: Tue Aug 19, 2014 3:34 pm
So, I haven't been on in a few days. Too much going on. Anyway, the friend is packing her stuff and leaving sometime this week...I can cut the tension between us with a knife though. It's crazy. She hates me, and I know it. But it doesn't bother me. I'm used to it honestly. A lot of people don't like me. Anyway, I'll let y'all know when she's gone...I'll come back happier when that day comes. I promise.
▌In a world like this where some back down I, I, know we're gonna make it In a time like this where love comes 'round I, I, know we're gonna take it
▌In a world like this where people fall apart In a time like this where nothing comes from the heart In a world like this, I've got you
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Posted: Wed Aug 20, 2014 7:33 am
Well, she's gone now...she's coming back later to pick up the rest of her stuff, but she's gone. *sighs* I slept well last night for the first time in weeks...still exhausted though. I'll try to catch up on sleep this weekend.
▌You push me back I push you back Harder, harder You scream at me I scream at you Louder, l-l-l-l-louder
▌I'm dangerous, I'm warning you But you're not afraid of me And I can't convince you You don't know me
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