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 Posted: Tue May 28, 2013 6:39 pm
After Tuck had left, Nevada had done everything to remove his scent and evidence of him in her room. It was like burying the shame of what she did and still being okay with it. What they shared was well...something she wasn't even sure herself.
There had been attraction, and a connection she sincerely wanted in on. She wanted to feel close to someone who would understand her problem. And when he offered reassurance and comfort, she leeched onto it.
And she enjoyed it. Sex was something she was very picky about. She hadn't even urged Roland to have it with her. Tuck was the first person on the Island she even allowed to get so far.
God....
She rubbed her face and let her head drop into them. She had to bury the feelings away and return to everything like it was normal. Like she hadn't slept with another man while currently bound to another.
Like she hadn't for one desperate moment, lost herself because she found a sliver of feeling like she had with Alaska...siphoned from Tuck.
It was such a mess.
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Posted: Tue May 28, 2013 6:49 pm
Roland had stopped just long enough to shower after his spar, he was moving along through the halls towards Nevada's room. She hadn't been in his, hadn't been there last night, had she been busy with work?
Knocking on the door he stretched out one last time after the spar feeling somewhat okay with his day.
"Hey Nevada you in there? You never came by last night. I got some extra work done so I have most of today off."
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Posted: Tue May 28, 2013 7:09 pm
The knock on the door was a surprise, the mist getting up to open it for whoever-
Roland.
She mentally hissed at Leroy and took a moment. Just one moment to change her face into one he would know.
Swinging the door open, she gave him a lazy smile...but made no motion to reach for him just yet.
"Sorry about that handsome, I was filling out some paperwork and went to visit Alaska. It was too late after to come bother you." She moved to let him in and hoped to god that he didn't smell Tuck.
NOT HELPING LEROY.
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Posted: Tue May 28, 2013 7:12 pm
Roland slid through the door without missing a beat, he was happy for once, he had gotten through a spar without getting his butt kicked, or a near loss of limb.
"You know I don't mind you showing up late and curling up in bed." He didn't move past her, no he moved towards her moving to wrap his arms around her. "It's good then, you filled out paper work, I finished a few reports, we can both have the day off then."
He didn't notice anything off just quiet yet, though Nevada felt oddly warm for once. Like she had been rather busy but for what he couldn't yet say.
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Posted: Tue May 28, 2013 7:21 pm
Roland looked happy, which Nevada was trying hard not to feel the shame and guilt creep in from her betraying him. It was just one night...she repeated to herself that it was just one night. Just one night. He didn't have to know.
"Oh well...." She bit her lip, already sounding off from her usual self but...recovered quickly. "I'm not a fan of paperwork, so it is good I got...it done." Yes because rolling around the sheets was really getting paperwork done.
Leroy was snickering in the back of her head. her weapon clearly amused that his hunters was knee deep in trouble...of her accord of course. Humans were always such complex creatures.
"A day off?" She smiled at him, "What would you like to do?"
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Posted: Tue May 28, 2013 7:29 pm
The way she bit her lip, it was like when they where talking on the steps, that small sign of hesitation and confusion. Her voice faltered to make matters even worse leaving him wondering what exactly was wrong.
"Well, yeah a day off, I figured if you still had vacation time we could go out somewhere, I've never been outside of the US but... Nevada..." He frowned a bit, "Is something... wrong? You seem worried, is it Alaska?"
Is it me?
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Posted: Tue May 28, 2013 7:42 pm
Nevada blinked.
"Something wrong?" Uhm, no nothing was wrong. I just slept with someone from moon, while we're still dating...before I even slept with you. Oh and added to that, I'm trying to keep it a secret because if you found out, you'd probably leave me and I am too selfish to let you go. Kind of like how I want to have my cake and eat it too.
"No, nothing wrong. Just a bit tired." She gave him another smile, attempting to distract him by hooking her arm through his. "A vacation off the island sounds amazing..." She had never been and if she went, she could distract him and herself then she could live with the choice she made.
"Where'd you want to go handsome? I've never been out of the states. No going to southern Nevada, or Northern." Oh god, Tuck just popped up in her head, causing her face to flush. "How does Italy sound?"
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Posted: Tue May 28, 2013 7:44 pm
"Well yeah, you're kind of... off? You sound surprised? Or upset I'm not sure." Her arm wrapped around his own but something still wasn't adding up. The mention of her name state suddenly caused her to flush horribly.
"Italy sounds nice, but Nevada, seriously... if somethings wrong you can tell me okay? That's why I'm here for you."
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Posted: Tue May 28, 2013 7:53 pm
"Off?" Nevada was doing her best to not be off Roland, stop being so inquisitive into why she was off. it wasn't like she was trying to hide shame and guilt.
"There's nothing I need to tell you hun, i'm not worried-" Yeah she was, "About anything in particular right now. Just a bit tired from paperwork and chatting with Alaska and stuff." Her tone seemed to say that if he kept pressing, it might be upsetting. As in she would start getting mad because she was trying to keep a goddamn secret.
"Italy..." She urged him back to that, "Rome, Italy. Its a city of romance I think..." Come on Roland. Focus. On not Nevada.
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Posted: Tue May 28, 2013 7:59 pm
"Yeah... off. Just... on edge?" She was biting her lip, she seemed upset that he was simply worried about her, none of it really added up. Still he tried not to press it. He let her speak and didn't say anything else instead he moved closer hugging her with one arm.
"Rome, yeah, that could be nice..." A single hand moved to brush her long hair aside something he often did without a thought.
That's when he noticed it.
It was a small mark, red and bold on her smooth skin. His breath caught in his throat fingers gently brushing past it before he let her go. Why would that be there? They hadn't seen each other in a day, he hadn't kissed her there like that he would have but, he hadn't.
"Nevada...."
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Posted: Tue May 28, 2013 8:07 pm
"I didn't realize i'm off..." She hissed as she felt herself being cornered by him. Like he was stifling her with her own shame and guilt over something she had wanted to enjoy and keep simple. "Rome sounds amazing..."
And then he was looking at her weirdly and she didn't understand why.
"Yes?" It wasn't like she knew where or if Tuck left kiss marks on her, and him suddenly letting her go made her a bit worried. "Rome is not good?"
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Posted: Tue May 28, 2013 8:12 pm
Her sudden hissing wasn't helping, he barely heard a word she said as he took a few steps back falling onto her bed staring at her as his mind raced. Where had she been last night? What had happened? Why?
"Nevada.... Nevada where were you last night..."
Why.
"Please... please don't lie to me." His voice cracked.
Why?
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Posted: Tue May 28, 2013 8:17 pm
Panic.
It was the first thing she felt rip into her being. It was sick, sweet and filled her bloodstream. It rammed into nerves and had her frozen.
'What...What do you mean?" She started to talk but the words felt heavy, "I told you, I was doing paperwork and visiting Alaska...."
Why was Roland acting like this? What tipped him off to what she was doing. Was she being tested?
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Posted: Tue May 28, 2013 8:21 pm
His fingers moved slowly brushing over his neck, the same spot where the mark was on her own. His whole body shaking reeling and stomach turning over.
"Nevada, who was it.... why? What did I do? Why?"
Roland's whole body was shaking now, he wanted to run, scream, yell even. All of it however was kept at bay by the sinking terror in his stomach.
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Posted: Tue May 28, 2013 8:37 pm
She mirrored his action, touching the spot on her neck like he did and...dread. There was a slight difference of skin, a small rise in it. She moved to her desk, pulling out one of the compact mirrors she had and pointed it at the skin.
A hickey.
There was a visible mark of what she and Tuck had done. So she couldn't hide all of the evidence, she dropped the mirror and whipped around to look at him.
"I..." She couldn't sell Tuck out, she couldn't do anything to hurt the other man because she was selfish. And Roland was looking at her for answers and she couldn't.
"You...You didn't do anything wrong Roland..." She wanted to ease him, to go over and tell him that he hadn't done anything wrong. Her hand reached over to touch him but she knew, he wouldn't want that. So she dropped it.
"It was a moon hunter. I met him a week ago...he was charming and friendly and he...he had a twin. So he knew what I was going through. I just wanted to feel whole again, and I thought I could by being with him. Because he was a twin to someone and he understood..."
"You didn't do anything....you didn't..." She urged him to look at her.
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