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 Posted: Fri Jul 13, 2012 2:41 pm
Once they were outside, Shun paused for a moment as things seem to flicker in his vision. Colors shifted for just a moment before settling back down. Frowning, he shook his head trying to get rid of that strange sensation.
"I'm sorry for what I said to you. I.. I don't know what came over me," he said quietly to start things off once it seemed they were more alone. It was also all he said. Quite frankly, he wasn't sure what else he could say right now. He knew he had hurt her, and that pained him to think about.
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Posted: Fri Jul 13, 2012 2:46 pm
The lycan had followed behind Shun in silence, the reaper leading her around along like a dog on a leash with how he held her wrist. She stared at the connection between the two of them for a long moment, even after they had come to a stop, trying to collect her thoughts on what had happened.
It was in her nature to be forgiving. Mitsu was loyal to a fault to her reaper and her entire being told her to tell him it was okay, that she understood, that she knew it wasn't him but the shards. Instead something else came out of her mouth, her voice a little flat as she spoke. "I...never thought you would ever say anything like that to me."
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Posted: Fri Jul 13, 2012 2:50 pm
Shun looked away at her reply. He didn't think he'd ever say anything like what he had there either. And he was at a loss of what to do now because of it. His pace slowed as he took this in. Did this mean she didn't forgive him, that she had replied with that instead?
"Neither did I.. quite frankly," he practically whispered.
He really didn't know how to fix this. This wasn't like the incident at Prom as this really came directly from him.
"I never wanted to hurt you.."
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Posted: Fri Jul 13, 2012 3:08 pm
Mitsu's heart ached as he looked away from her. She wanted to reach out and hug him but the emotional conflict she felt inside kept her from doing just that. Her vision reeled for a moment and a brief glimpse of...something struck her but she couldn't make sense of it. Conflict. That was the only word that came to mind as she pressed a hand to her head.
"I..I knew you weren't yourself but what you said...it still hurt." She wouldn't be able to just forget as much as she wanted to. "Do you ever....." Mitsu hesitated as she looked away herself, her attention focusing in on her sandals. "Do you ever feel that way? That you don't need anyone? That....I'm just a weakness?" Her voice cracked at the end but she swallowed back the emotion that was ready to bubble up and cause her to start crying.
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Posted: Fri Jul 13, 2012 3:12 pm
Shun's grip on her wrist tightened for a moment when he heard her voice crack like that. He couldn't really look at her right now.
"I worry that people might try to use you against me. But you are not a weakness. If anything, what happened back there only proves that I'm the weak one of the two of us."
His voice was low. Quieter than usual. Letting go of her arm now, he slowly slipped his hands into his pockets. There was still that need for something. A desire.
"But that was very much how I felt before coming to this school."
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Posted: Fri Jul 13, 2012 3:25 pm
Turning upward as Shun squeezed her wrist slightly, her crimson eyes regarded his face as he spoke. He still wouldn't look at her, it wasn't hard to see the shame he felt but there was still something off. Not quite right. Maybe she wasn't the one thinking clearly now...
As her hand dropped back at her side she refused to let her eyes fall from his face. Instead she brought her hand back up to place against his cheek to bring his attention back to her. "And how do you feel now?"
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Posted: Fri Jul 13, 2012 3:35 pm
There was a pause as he felt her hand at his face, gently turning him so that he was facing her once more. Finally, Shun's eye met hers again.
"I feel horrible for having hurt you. Clearly, I still have a ways to go in terms of strength," he whispered before his eye cast downward. The fight to grow stronger. It seemed to be more prevalent with him now. He needed more. But how was he going to get that? Then again, a small part of him was saying that wasn't quite it.
Regardless, there was just that nagging feeling.
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Posted: Fri Jul 13, 2012 5:25 pm
"Strength really isn't part of the equation I'm just worried....deep down you don't want me around." It was then that Mitsu gave in a little and took a step closer, her hand slipping from his cheek to rest against his chest.
Maybe she was wrong to think that way. Deep down there was something urging her toward the path of power. A deep seeded desire she didn't know she had.
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Posted: Fri Jul 13, 2012 7:06 pm
Shun's brow furrowed together and he slowly shook his head. His hands came back out of his pockets to lightly rest them at her waist.
"No, I don't want that at all," he said quietly. This much was certain of.
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Posted: Fri Jul 13, 2012 8:06 pm
That answer seemed to settle on Mitsu a bit better, her mind easing though only slightly. The odd tension she felt was still there, memories from a dream she had forgotten but what she had felt was still there. "I'm glad..." She said softly resting her forehead against his chest.
"I..I was worried...you wouldn't be the same again." Her hands then clung to his shirt, desperate to keep him close. She didn't want to lose him again. Not like that.
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Posted: Fri Jul 13, 2012 8:30 pm
Holding her close, Shun took in a deep breath, frowning lightly as he thought on that for a moment or so.
"Do you think.. I should change though?" he murmured, "I should have been stronger. I.. still feel like I need more strength right now."
He looked a little perturbed by this. There was always that feeling of wanting to improve before, but now it felt a little different.
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Posted: Fri Jul 13, 2012 9:15 pm
"Why would I want you to change?" Mitsu snuggled into his hold looking up at her reaper. "I like you the way you are now." It was the simple truth. If she wanted him to change then there was something wrong with their relationship.
"I just....I feel odd." She placed a hand to her head again as the world went gray, colors muting almost instantly for a few short moments. "Did I black out...in the locker room or something? I feel like I've forgotten something..." And it bothered her a little but she just couldn't recall.
"Maybe..." She reached into the pocket of her dress but the pictures she had obtained from Quin's locker were still there. So she hadn't left them behind. Then what was she forgetting?
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Posted: Fri Jul 13, 2012 9:39 pm
"If you say so.."
Looking to her, he blinked for the moment, then shook his head at her question.
"Not.. That I recall but.. I'm having a little trouble remembering a few things myself. Perhaps we are just tired from that experience," he said before letting out a sigh. Shun rested his head lightly against hers.
That strange feeling was kind of bothering him in a way though.
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Posted: Sat Jul 14, 2012 2:44 am
"Maybe..." Though Mitsu wasn't certain that was the case. She truly felt like there was something she should be remembering.
"Maybe we should head back to the dorms to rest if that's the case." Mitsu suggested. That's where she had wanted to head in the beginning when they had wound up back in the locker room. She had felt so disoriented and that coupled with anxiety, fear, and anger that had welled up out of proportion left her feeling fatigued.
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Posted: Sat Jul 14, 2012 10:40 am
Nodding quietly, Shun let out a breath and pulled away a bit so that they could continue walking towards the dorms. He wasn't sure if it was really them being worn out either. But, he did feel like he could use a good amount of rest right about now. Perhaps once he got up, he could see about the lockbox. And see if there was something he could do about acquiring more strength as well.
"Let's go."
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