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 Posted: Tue Feb 21, 2012 9:26 pm
 She had been foolish. Why had she ever taken Arden's advice? His advice never worked before...why would it now? All it had done was gotten her in more trouble. In her heart of hearts, she'd known that Banzai was the one for her. But everything had come to mess that up. Right on the verge of bliss, of finding love--she'd found out he had kids. Heck, he'd found out he had kids. It'd been a surprise for both of them. She'd needed just a little bit to process--that was fair right? She wanted to stay with him, just sort it out. Bedford had told her that she should just go back, not ruin a good thing. Arden, on the other hand...Arden had told her to make sure it's what she wanted--to live a little. And that's how this had all come about...The worst mistake of her life. Because what she had done, Banzai would not forgive her for--not when the evidence would be looking him in the face in a few months. This would be different than what he had done. He had kids before her, but unless she was very much mistaken then she was pregnant with another stallions foals.
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Posted: Tue Feb 21, 2012 10:14 pm
How long had Acacia been gone now? Days? Weeks? Months? Years? Okay, perhaps he was exaggerating a little there. However long the mare had actually been gone, the stallion did not know. The only thing that he was sure of, was that she had been gone for what felt like an eternity to him. Could he continue on like this? He knew that he had agreed to give the mare some space and time to adjust to the news they had both received. The news that he had kids had been just as much of a shock to Banzai as it was to Acacia. However, he knew that the foals were his responsibility and not hers.
Where was she now? The stallion pondered over that thought for a moment. Had she decided to leave him for good? Was she planning on coming back to him? Had she come home while he had been out on one of his trips? No, he was sure that if she had come home, she would have waited for him, and he had never left for more than a few days at a time. He supposed it was possible that Acacia wasn't coming home, that the thought of children had been too much for her. Perhaps it was time for the stallion to get used to the fact? Perhaps he should move on?
No! He shouldn't think like that. Couldn't think like that. She still needed time. It was a big adjustment for the both of them. He would continue to wait and she would be home any day now. If she wasn't, he would look for her. Banzai loved her too much, and he simply would not allow her to leave him without a fighting chance.
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Posted: Tue Feb 21, 2012 10:30 pm
Acacia was lost deep in thought when she came up to him. Her heart gave a throb when she saw him and she felt her hooves flying beneath her as she moved towards him, "BANZAI!"
Her heart felt like it was going to jolt out of her chest as she came up to him. But she stopped just short, not sure how he'd take to seeing her again after the weeks without her. She felt as if he could already sense all the things she'd done wrong.
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Posted: Tue Feb 21, 2012 10:37 pm
Banzai was so lost within his own thoughts that he almost didn't even hear Acacia. Actually, he had simply thought that perhaps he had imagined her voice for a few moments. After all, it had been some time since he had seen her. Yet, turning around, he could see her even, and smell her. Had he gone insane? Had the loss of Acacia finally gotten to him? Perhaps this was what it was like to be crazy, to lose your mind. Well, at least if he was mad he'd have some company. As the mare stopped a little before him, something clicked in his mind. This WAS the real Acacia. No figment of his imagination or any spirit that he had dreamed up.
Before she could say another word, before the stallion could think another thought, before he could even realize that there might be something slightly different about the mare, he found himself galloping to her. In moments, Banzai was beside her, nuzzling her, reassuring himself that she was indeed real. Wondering how he had managed to survive without her all this time if she managed to make him this crazy. "You came back." He barely whispered it, as if he still didn't believe the words himself.
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Posted: Tue Feb 21, 2012 10:59 pm
She could feel the tears streaming down her face, as she pressed her face to his. This was where she was meant to be, right here with him. And she had had a fling--a weak moment that she had to tell him about. She had tested to see if she loved him and only him--stupidly. She wouldn't regret what she was sure she was carrying--but she regretted that this would heart Banzai--that she might lose him forever.
Acacia pulled back from him slightly, trying to dry her eyes. "Of course, I came back. I'm meant to be here with you." Her eyes searched his. What right did she have to ask him to accept this when she had had to think about things? "I think...we need to talk."
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Posted: Wed Feb 22, 2012 12:07 am
Banzai pulled his head away from Acacia and looked into her eyes. What was she saying? First that she was supposed to be with him, but then that they needed to talk? But why would she say that? Wasn't that what mares said before they left you? Had she only come back to him to say goodbye? But why would she give him that little bit of hope? Was there something else on her mind? Perhaps she had found another stallion and decided to leave him? Or did she need more time? Banzai's thoughts were racing a mile a minute.
"What is it?" He finally asked, his throat feeling dry. It was as if there was some sort of black hole forming in the middle of his stomach. Was this it? Was this where it ended? Was he about to be consumed in grief? Barely able to continue on? The stallion waited nervously for Acacia's answer. Fearing the worse.
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Posted: Wed Feb 22, 2012 4:44 pm
Acacia took a deep breath. How was she supposed to begin this? If she never talked to Arden again it'd be too soon. Why did she listen to him? Ugh...But she had to focus. She had to tell him before she lost her courage.
"Banzai..." She searched his eyes again. "I've done something that I regret. I want you to fo-forgive me. But it's not fair to ask." Her heart thuds even more loudly in her chest. "I--" She wanted to be more delicate than this.
"I'm pregnant."
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Posted: Wed Feb 22, 2012 5:18 pm
Banzai felt his world crushing down on him. At first, the stallion let out a sigh of relief. Acacia wasn't leaving him. She was staying. But she was pregnant, and the foals would not be his. The stallion felt the black hole in his stomach open up again as the realization hit him. Acacia had cheated on him. How could he stay? Who was to say it wouldn't happen again? Would she leave him for this other stallion? Had she only come back to inform him of her pregnancy and that she would be leaving him? Perhaps she had wanted to break his heart. No. That wasn't Acacia. She would never intentionally hurt him. She was far too kind. He doubted that she had even meant for this to happen. After all, she had been confused and hurt too. It wasn't as if he himself were completely innocent. However, Banzai had never cheated on her. Could he continue to trust her?
Lost in thought, the stallion pulled himself back to the surface and forced his voice to work. "You're... you're what?" He started out slowly. "How could you?" He barely whispered and immediately regretted the words.
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Posted: Wed Feb 22, 2012 5:38 pm
Acacia felt a sob catch in her throat. "I'm...so sorry." She got it out before the sob came out. She hadn't meant it to happen, but how could she explain that to him?
She took a deep breath to try to explain as she tried to catch his eye. "I've ne-never cared for anyone but you. I went to think, and Arden told me I should make sure I loved you--make sure I was happy. Because I had no experience with loving anyone. Bedford told me to not take it for granted, to hold on to you."
She paused again, her eyes looking down to her hooves. "I don't know why but I listened to Arden. I wanted to make sure that there was no room for me to ever love anyone else...And well, I found out I didn't love him. It was one night. I regret what happened. I don't want to hu-hurt you. But...I don't regret these foals. I love them even if they're not yours. I'm...sorry."
It seemed so hallow, but it was true.
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Posted: Wed Feb 22, 2012 5:49 pm
At Acacia's words, Banzai could immediately feel his heart melting. He had known that she never meant to hurt him, yet the news had been so sudden, such a shock. Perhaps he shouldn't have been so quick to accuse her, yet there was something about any one else having Acacia that made him wild. She was his and no one else ought to be allowed to touch her. Banzai knew that thought was selfish, that Acacia had her own thoughts, her own feelings, and her own actions. Yet there was something about the mare that just drove all sanity from his mind.
"It's okay," He whispered to her as he buried his head into her neck affectionately. "I forgive you. I know what had happened with me was a shock." He paused a moment, thinking over his words carefully before he spoke again. "What of this stallion. He won't come looking for you will he?" Banzai's words were vicious. How dare this stallion take advantage of his Acacia? If he came back to take her again Banzai wasn't sure he could allow him to leave without a fight.
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Posted: Wed Feb 22, 2012 6:00 pm
"Really?" She looked up at him with glistening eyes. He forgave her...How could she be so lucky? She knew it would get harder as she started really showing, as others asked questions...as, well time went on. She just had to hold on tightly, make this up to him--prove she'd never leave.
"I..." She took another deep breath. "He'll want to be around for the foals. He has a lovemate...I didn't know. I"m..." She sighed again, feeling the tears fall from her eyes again. "I'm so stupid. I didn't know...and he wants to be in their life and I think that's right. I think that's fair."
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Posted: Wed Feb 22, 2012 6:32 pm
Banzai wasn't particularly fond of another stallion being around Acacia. Sure he might be gay, but for at least one night he had decided that he wasn't. However, he knew it was probably for the best. It wasn't fair for him to keep this stallion away from the foals that were his. Even if Banzai wished that they were his instead. It also wouldn't be fair to deny the foals from seeing or knowing their father. "Does he know?" Banzai asked rather quietly. He might have to put up with this other stallion, but he certainly wasn't about to like it. Maybe they could keep contact minimal. Only really talk when they had to and what not.
"What about the foals?" Banzai asked Acacia. "Who will raise them?" As much as he wanted to throw a fit about the situation, as much as he still felt betrayed, he knew it wouldn't do them any good. What Acacia had done wasn't entirely her fault, and Banzai certainly couldn't blame her. If they could get through this, if they could survive this, then their relationship would be stronger than ever. No matter what, Banzai knew he would stay by Acacia's side.
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Posted: Wed Feb 22, 2012 6:59 pm
Acacia couldn't look up at Banzai. "He knows. He's not that far away...I'll keep them until they're old enough to be away from me. Then they'll go back and forth like Lyric and Zangar are. When they're old enough to decide they can chose and visit whichever."
She kept her eyes down, trying to stop the tears. This was going to be hard really hard but they could do it. "I'm scared Banzai...scared about having kids. About what's going to happen to them...about what's going to happen to us...Scared because I've lost all my family before and I can't bear it again. I...I'm ter-terrified."
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Posted: Mon Mar 19, 2012 9:06 pm
The stallion could hear the despair in his mate's voice. He wanted to hold her, lock her up tight where nothing could ever hurt her. Keep her someplace where she would always be safe, where the cruel world wouldn't be able to touch her. Yet it wasn't possible. Nothing in this world was left untouched, untainted. Everything suffered at some point, and yet, everything experienced joy as well. They only had to look for it. "It's okay," He told her softly as he nuzzled her. "I won't let anything happen to you or the foals, we will get through this you and I. It won't be easy, some days might be miserable, and others might be the best we ever have. I'll stick by you no matter what, you have nothing to fear. Maybe we could even start up our own herd?"
The thought had occurred to him before. Wouldn't it be nice to have some place where he could keep everything that he treasured most? Help keep them safe? Wasn't there safety in numbers? Perhaps it was time to start one. Even if it was only as small as just his family. "What do you think of that? Some place where we can raise our children in safety? Keep them safe and warm, never have to worry about them? We won't be able to keep an eye on them all the time, but with more heads, come more eyes to watch them." He continued on rather excitedly, hoping that she might agree with him.
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Posted: Tue Apr 24, 2012 9:56 pm
She looked up at him as she wiped her tears, "A herd?" The idea was...appealing in some ways. She wanted to have a family with him...but she wasn't sure she wanted to be around a judgmental herd right now. "I'd like that..." She began before pausing.
"I don't want them to think...I'm bad for this. It's wrong of me to worry when it means our safety. But right now, I'm scared of everything...I think it's the hormones." She nuzzled his chest lightly, "I'd do anything for you--with you. I'd like to have a little time with us alone though."
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