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 Posted: Sun Jan 08, 2012 5:30 pm
 Essentially the guild's version of the thread from the LD. For basic discussion about any & all disorders.
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Posted: Sun Jan 08, 2012 5:38 pm
Today was fairly decent. Slept a lot longer than I intended to. I was up until nearly 7am, tossing and turning. I guess my insomnia is deciding to make an appearance. I hope it doesn't last because I hate not being able to sleep.
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Posted: Sun Jan 08, 2012 6:26 pm
Ahh I'm sorry you gotta deal with insomnia. Not being able to sleep is extremely frustrating. I hope you can sleep well tonight... :/
I slept surprisingly well last night, but I woke up sometimes thinking I could cuddle closer to my girlfriend and realized she wasn't there anymore. xd Today my anxiety has been a little annoying, just feels hard to breathe. And I feel really awkward around my parents still.
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Posted: Sun Jan 08, 2012 6:47 pm
Thank you. I hope so too. I hate sleeping all day, makes me feel so lazy and unproductive. Awh, I'm sorry about you missing your girlfriend. I hate having to sleep alone when ,my man works late. It sucks waking up and seeing his side empty.
That awkward tension is the worst. I was hoping for your sake that they would have at least eased up and would have been willing to talk it out with you. It can only be said that that can't be helping you anxiety at all. Maybe within the next few days, they'll just get over it.
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Posted: Mon Jan 09, 2012 6:35 pm
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Posted: Mon Jan 09, 2012 7:03 pm
The Sound and the Fury by William Faulkner makes my anxiety increase. It's weird. The second chapter has lots of anxious thoughts and memories, and the anxiety comes across really well, I guess. It's annoying and fascinating at the same time.
I've been surprisingly calm this past week though. Haven't even wanted to self-harm for over a week now. That's a first. Seriously.
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Posted: Mon Jan 09, 2012 7:37 pm
Well I guess that's good. Kinda. Better than awkward silences
Oh my gosh. That is so ridiculous about her parents. What the heck ever happened to just letting people live their dang lives? If you two are happy together and it's not hurting anyone, what is the problem?
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Posted: Mon Jan 09, 2012 7:50 pm
I don't think I've ever read that but it sounds familiar. o.o It's good you're doing well lately. ^^ Really good! Yeah, seriously. I'm worried about her and hope everything turns out.. at least somewhat okay. Sigh x.x She lied to them and said she met me at school, so now they want her to transfer to a different college. They also wanna throw away her religious stuff because they blame the fact she's a pagan, lol.. but she has her siblings supporting her so that's good. Parents. ><
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Posted: Thu Jan 12, 2012 3:33 pm
At least she has some people who are willing to support her choices. Still, her parents are going quite overboard with all that mess, in my opinion. Although, I was kind of in that same situation back years ago when I lived with some friends of the family. They were very strict Southern Baptists and when they found a note that this girl had written me, they forbade me from ever speaking to her. It really hurt because they made me so ashamed of myself, like I was wrong for being in love with her. I really resented them after that. It really impacted my self-esteem for awhile there. I hope she is able to look past all their bias- talk and remain herself.
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Posted: Thu Jan 12, 2012 3:37 pm
I haven't read any of his work but I have heard amazing reviews about him. I may have to look into it in the future.
That is really great to hear. I hope you're able to keep your anxiety down and continue not self-injuring.
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Posted: Thu Jan 12, 2012 3:43 pm
Pink Peppercorn I haven't read any of his work but I have heard amazing reviews about him. I may have to look into it in the future.
That is really great to hear. I hope you're able to keep your anxiety down and continue not self-injuring. Actually, I don't like the book, lol. I think I'll have two weeks without tomorrow. I've been wanting to lately, but not very strongly. Not to mention that my English teacher loves taking photos of the class, and I'm very camera shy, and she wants our senior photos on a board in the room. I don't want to bring one in, but I also don't want to tell her that I don't want to. It really makes my anxiety rise. I would rather give a presentation than show off a photo of myself.
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Posted: Thu Jan 12, 2012 3:47 pm
Ah well, everyone has their own specific taste.
That's a pretty big accomplishment. How have you been coping with the desire?
I had a teacher like that too and it drove me crazy. She was always taking candid photos while we'd be studying or something. I always got in trouble for propping up my book and hiding behind it. What can I say, I don't like being in pictures.
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Posted: Thu Jan 12, 2012 3:52 pm
Pink Peppercorn Ah well, everyone has their own specific taste.
That's a pretty big accomplishment. How have you been coping with the desire?
I had a teacher like that too and it drove me crazy. She was always taking candid photos while we'd be studying or something. I always got in trouble for propping up my book and hiding behind it. What can I say, I don't like being in pictures. I started in June 2010. About a week after I started therapy, ironically. 18 days is my record. I rarely put forth a strong effort to stop. She's going to take a photo with me in the center next Friday, as it's the day before my birthday. I really would like to avoid that.
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Posted: Thu Jan 12, 2012 4:03 pm
Well regardless of how you've been avoiding it, it's still pretty big.
Shudder. That would seriously be a nightmare come true for me. Is there literally no way to explain to her that you would really rather not do it or is she making it essentially mandatory?
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Posted: Thu Jan 12, 2012 4:09 pm
Pink Peppercorn Well regardless of how you've been avoiding it, it's still pretty big.
Shudder. That would seriously be a nightmare come true for me. Is there literally no way to explain to her that you would really rather not do it or is she making it essentially mandatory? Next time I cut I'll be at the point where I think "Oh man, this is gonna hurt, ow." Happens after not doing it for a while. It becomes something desirable but unwanted at the same time. Mandatory. She loves photos. Plus, the class will try to pressure me into it. As for bringing in a photo, I'll just ignore it and hope it goes away.
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