First off: Hello Everyone! I'm sure none of you even remember who I am. It's only been about a month, but I've never made much of a splash. Some of you might disagree, but that's your opinion, not mine.
But now to the 'heart' of the matter. It hasn't been fun for me the past few months. I'll spare you the details, but suffice to say that this stuff was one of the furthest things from my mind. But that's not any surprise right? I've said multiple times all of this felt like work, and I have been intending on a break for a long time. So I started dropping matches, and after a while I stopped getting booked. But that wasn't the problem. I needed the break. The problem was that, when I finally wanted to make a return, things got difficult. When I wanted to get on, something else came up. And all the while, I'm thinking of things to do once I come back. And now I'm not even sure how long it's going to be before I can make a return. And honestly, I feel shitty about it. Thinking back, there are things I know I should apologize for, like bailing on Fox just as the X-Cup was starting up, or bailing on Tim as soon as he made me crew. And if either of you guys read this, I really am sorry. It was kind of a d**k move, and I'll try and make it up sometime.
But then there's the stuff I'm not sure about. Like Nuke and WWE:E. Time and again I've said I was going to join up. Not saying I would actually do anything important, but it's always been a problem for my to get started there. I joke about it a lot, but it's always on my mind when I talk with Nuke. Then there's guys like Landry and Chrono. I've done the best I can to work up a repertoire with both of them, and it annoys me so much that I can't actually live up to the compliments both have given me over time. Again, this is probably just my problem and I'm the only one bothered by this, but hey, as long as I'm getting all of this out.......
Now I'm sure this sounds like a lot of self-depreciation from an outside perspective. Even as I go over it in my head it sounds like a bunch of stuff no one cares about. I'm sure this probably injured opinions of me in someone's mind, but I'm not worried about that right now. I just wanted to get this stuff off of my chest while I still have access to a computer.
With all of that said, I'll leave off with this: I'm not sure when, whether it be weeks or months, but I will be back. I've got too many things left undone to drop out completely.
-Brody William Robinson
'TechnicalPacifist'
But now to the 'heart' of the matter. It hasn't been fun for me the past few months. I'll spare you the details, but suffice to say that this stuff was one of the furthest things from my mind. But that's not any surprise right? I've said multiple times all of this felt like work, and I have been intending on a break for a long time. So I started dropping matches, and after a while I stopped getting booked. But that wasn't the problem. I needed the break. The problem was that, when I finally wanted to make a return, things got difficult. When I wanted to get on, something else came up. And all the while, I'm thinking of things to do once I come back. And now I'm not even sure how long it's going to be before I can make a return. And honestly, I feel shitty about it. Thinking back, there are things I know I should apologize for, like bailing on Fox just as the X-Cup was starting up, or bailing on Tim as soon as he made me crew. And if either of you guys read this, I really am sorry. It was kind of a d**k move, and I'll try and make it up sometime.
But then there's the stuff I'm not sure about. Like Nuke and WWE:E. Time and again I've said I was going to join up. Not saying I would actually do anything important, but it's always been a problem for my to get started there. I joke about it a lot, but it's always on my mind when I talk with Nuke. Then there's guys like Landry and Chrono. I've done the best I can to work up a repertoire with both of them, and it annoys me so much that I can't actually live up to the compliments both have given me over time. Again, this is probably just my problem and I'm the only one bothered by this, but hey, as long as I'm getting all of this out.......
Now I'm sure this sounds like a lot of self-depreciation from an outside perspective. Even as I go over it in my head it sounds like a bunch of stuff no one cares about. I'm sure this probably injured opinions of me in someone's mind, but I'm not worried about that right now. I just wanted to get this stuff off of my chest while I still have access to a computer.
With all of that said, I'll leave off with this: I'm not sure when, whether it be weeks or months, but I will be back. I've got too many things left undone to drop out completely.
-Brody William Robinson
'TechnicalPacifist'
