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Name: Sarcel Cincil
Sarcel is from Sarcelle, which is teal in french (Despite not being teal...). Cincilla is croation for Chinchillla.
Blood colour: ████ (#0b2d64)
Gender: Female
Symbol: Shoe with a wing on it
Personality: Sarcel is the polar opposite of what a blue blood should be. She's shy, insecure, and highly anti-social.
The thought of talking or confrontation simply terrifies her. She can't stand the thought of interaction, mostly because she's incredibly fickle and scared of judgement. While she is of a higher caste then most, she still finds herself at the judgement of others, all blood colour cast aside.
She's shy and quiet and is horribly scared of authority in particular, but in short just about anything, including herself sometimes!
On the flipside, she has a vague, watered down bi-polar attribute, in a way. Being shy, quiet and meek, most push her around! Makes sense right? Well, sometimes all that anger, all that resentment; it builds and she snaps. Changes on a dime and just literally freaks the hell out. They set off particularly awful chains of events most of the time, as she often feels bad about her outbursts but has no idea how to apologize, fix, or do anything about the situation. The guilt eats her up inside, and she's left stressed and confused. She just sort of sweeps the mess under the bed, so to speak.
It's a bit odd to explain, as with bipolar comes highs and lows, but she tends to experience more lows then highs. Going on that, her lows don't really even tend to be that angry; just more of a breakdown scenario where she looses it emotionally rather then physically (not to say some physical things don't occasionally result from it). Mostly she gets over it. The kind of get over that's like burning yourself, and deciding it's okay if the wounds fester; it'll fix itself, maybe. If not then oh well.
Oh terms with her highs; they're far and few in between. It's another thing she can't really handle, and when they do happen they're mostly short lived, but can be characterized by sort bursts of euphoric happiness, small smiles and general glee.
Then she remembers that such things are silly ugh stop that Sarce what are you doing.
Strengths:
+Her speed! She runs. A lot. Runs from everything. Runs everywhere. The girl doesn't walk, doesn't trot, she sprints, and by god she's gotten good at it.
Most of her running ability was sort of natural. Running was always a thing she enjoyed, since it made her feel like she could escape and get away from all the things that troubled her. Bad day? Take a run. Feel the wind in your hair; it's a relaxing to her. A placebo of sorts for her daily stresses.
But as she gets older, her stress grows and she took to her runs more often. She just runs because now it feels natural to her as opposed to walking.
Another catalyst that aided in this was also the fact she realized running is probably her biggest forte. Struggling constantly to find what she was good at; her delight when she found her speed outmatched any other she came across! And when she found out her speed could get her out of so many tight situations, well, she took to the whole idea a lot more. It's simply a passion that turned into some miniature obsession, her anti-drug, in a way.
++Her ...lack of confidence? while it isn't normally a strength, her lack of confidence helps her avoid stressful situations most of the time! Wouldn't want her to freak out or anything, right? (Chinchilla's are highly prone to stress, I'll have you know.)
Needless to say, going in hand and hand with her running issues, her shyness and lack of confidence forced her to be more say, observant of certain situations. She's very 'street' smart, for lack of a better analogy, (Although lacking in the book smarts a little except for when it comes to FINE LITERATURE).
All in all the fact helps her avoid danger often times! Even though is cripples her in other ways, not getting hurt is a good thing right?
+++She's sneaky! All that running and anti-social nature has taught her how to sneak past problematic situations, and she's damn good at it. Walking lightly on her feet, she can be very quiet while she skulks around, which does come in handy a lot for her.
Sort of tying in with the above. Avoiding danger is Sarce's top priority! All her sneaking in the shadows taught her foot steps to be light, her voice to be soft and breathing to be hardly audible. Along with her speed, she's a natural borne stealth runner!
Flaws:
-Her emotions. Seriously. Her emotions leave her confused and irratated on a daily baises, and she has no idea how to handle them most of the time, and often times relies on other's to deal with them for her, which really doesn't help since she doesn't know how to deal with other people either.
Her turn-on-a-dime anger is a big problem, and she often screws up what little relationships she has because of it. Because of such an issue, she avoids company all together! See how everything makes full circle? She's fairly harmless, even despite her higher blood caste, but still finds herself self conscious of the things she could be potentially capable of. Avoiding people really only hurts her in the long run though; a crippling stigma and a few lonely sweeps does a number on ones psyche.
Which in turn leads to a huge mess of bottled up emotions and a huge blockade of fear holding it all back! Sometimes bits will come out in random, psychological bursts of anger or sadness or happiness, although rarely the latter.
In short, we are left with a huge puddle of Sarce mess.
--Her ...lack of confidence! She has no spine. She runs and she struggles, that's about it in a day in the live of Sarcel.
Maybe one of her bigger flaws. This enables other's to take huge advantage of her. Push her around. Mess with her head. Force her into their doings. All it takes is a little threat, and she'll either do as or run. As far away. As she can.
Alternatively, her lack of confidence leads to a struggling anti-social network she's bore herself into in the pits of her mind. This in turn ties in with her emotional difficulties, and severely impares her somewhat codependent nature. Sarce has a lot of issues like that. Problems that clash with each other, just one huge mess!
Also the fact that she, in the right situation (i.e. forced into socializing) is highly susceptible to mundane things like criticism and insults. Hence comes the co-dependence thing! She wishes she could have someone protect her and take care of everything for her...
---She's ...codependent almost. It's a horrible thing, and highly hypocritical in a way. She isolates herself, but then has no idea how to do anything herself! She had a bad habit of 'making "friends" ' just for her own gain before leaving them in the dust. (she doesn't have very many "friends" if you could tell), although such is a practice she really doesn't do very much later on. She relies heavily on other's in certain ways, but being so socially crippled...
IN SHORT SARCE IS JUST A CONTRADICTION.
Weapon: Double-barrel Sawed-off shotgun type deal
Appearance: Basically, she has short black hair (although her bangs have blue highlights) as well as a pair of lowered horns. Her attire consists of a simple black T-Shirt with a chinchilla as well as a lighter gray pair of jeans, and some darkblue/black checkerboard shoes.
Home: Smack dab in the middle of the city. She hates it, being surrounded by crowds and people! But what if she lived alone and ohgod-- something happened and there was no one around!
Lusus: Her lusus is a Chinchilla! Chinchillamomma is roughly the size of a small dog (So she's a tad larger then a normal chin'), but still proves to be highly demanding! She's OCD with keeping things clean, although the house is constantly covered in a layer of dust (Since well, chinchilla's need dust baths!), so she spends most of her time dusting everything with her tail and making sure Sarce is well, clean rather then anything else! Which leads to some self negligence on Sarce's part since she really doesn't understand how to take care of herself either...
Yeah chinchilla's!
Power: Nope~
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