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sweatdrop .... So yeah I really don't know what to do... I love this dude alot and marriage is even in the picture.... But my love of girls and my desire to be with one is still there.... I finally realized and accpeted that is who I am... He says its okay that I love girls and guys... But I dnt ever want there being a slight possibility of me cheating on him with a girl... When i know I possibly will.... I don't even think he will ever process the fact of how much I really care for girls more than guys... Even though when we were just friends I told him

If you feel like you'd cheat on him it could mean that although you find men attractive, you have more of an emotional connection with women. I find some women attractive, but I could never end up with one. Maybe tell him you'd like to date a girl in order to make sure. Then, if you'd rather be with a woman, let him know that. Porn imo doesn't work, it only suppresses the urge. If it actually worked we wouldn't have so many ***** abducting little kids. I hate using that as an example, but it's true. I mean if porn worked I wouldn't need or want a boyfriend, but nothing can replace that connection you have with another person. It's not just about sex. Just sit him down and tell him that you know that if you don't explore this other half of your sexuality some how, you might end up hurting him later.