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PostPosted: Tue May 24, 2011 11:41 pm


Tired of this hate in my chest
sick of the pain i possess
afraid of who i am
anxious of what I'm becoming

So a month and a half ago i was diagnosed with borderline personality...
It's been bugging me a lot along with just the random breakdowns
feeling so miserable,wanting to cry my eyes out not being able to...

I have to go to a graduation party even though i know i'll be left out and just feel alone. I just graduated highschool......though i never felt like i went my 4 years were basically hell.

I'm honestly afraid of my thoughts sometimes,i think i'm a freak and i just hate myself. People tell me i'm great and super nice...why then do i hate myself? I think i messed up.... -sighs- if anyone cares to talk i promise to not bite anyone's head off....i just need to talk to someone....
PostPosted: Wed May 25, 2011 9:05 am


Hello. I do not know what it is like to have borderline personality nor can I really think what it must feel like. However...I don't know. I'd like you to know that I did sit here and listen and would be glad to listen in the future. I'm not really good at comforting people or expressing my feelings.

The high school thing though? I do get that one. Getting out of high school was one bright spot in my life :3

Edit: I think, more than anything that people say "you're so great and super nice" because they can't think of anything else to say. And people hate being helpless and not knowing how to "fix" things. At least, that's how it's always felt to me when I get these responses and can't quite reconcile them with what I'm currently thinking in my head.

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PostPosted: Wed May 25, 2011 12:07 pm


Supinelu
Hello. I do not know what it is like to have borderline personality nor can I really think what it must feel like. However...I don't know. I'd like you to know that I did sit here and listen and would be glad to listen in the future. I'm not really good at comforting people or expressing my feelings.

The high school thing though? I do get that one. Getting out of high school was one bright spot in my life :3

Edit: I think, more than anything that people say "you're so great and super nice" because they can't think of anything else to say. And people hate being helpless and not knowing how to "fix" things. At least, that's how it's always felt to me when I get these responses and can't quite reconcile them with what I'm currently thinking in my head.


Even if you think you are not good at comforting,i myself,knowing that you are kind enough to read and say you'd be willing to listen...well that is comforting in itself.
As far as the personality thing i'm not even sure what it is....my psychiatrist confused me when explaining it....
Also i agree with the edit part. It seems that sometimes saying something nice even if not true or maybe hard for the person to believe, is better then just keeping quiet..
PostPosted: Thu May 26, 2011 12:57 am


I find myself not liking to say people have a disorder like that. my mother was diagnosed with the same thing, but honestly all she is is a young mother that had a kid at 17 and got her life ******** up.

You are so young that you have all the time in the world to find yourself and grow up to ******** other people's lives up. (That was a joke, ha ha. I was merely trying to say that you have time to live and grow, and you shouldn't think about high school or what everyone is saying about you.)

What you should try doing is not analyzing everything you are doing. I apparently have all kinds of disorders, I chalk it up to being realistic, jaded, and pretty individualistic. I still make friends, create my own path, and lead a very fulfilling life. It's not hard to do.

What holds people back is when they sit down and analyze what's happening around the, what people have said, what they will say, and what their friends and family are saying about them. not to mention when you sit and will think about the jobs and work you've done, the schooling you've gone through. And when you start thinking about not being able to go anywhere in life. Don't think like that though, that's what I'm trying to get at.

That silver lining? Yup, that's real. Know what it's called? Thinking for yourself and understanding that EVERYTHING is opinion. It's other people's opinion that you have a personality disorder. In all honesty they are just freaks for not being able to have a versatile personality.

I hope this has at least given you a little insight to how the rest of us feel smile

I give you thumbs up, because you are probably a smart enough cookie to really go far. The key is to know that you are an individual, and you actually have a lot of freedom to do what you will with your life. Labels really will get in the way. I promise you.

Keep your head up kiddo. <3

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PostPosted: Fri May 27, 2011 10:08 pm


Dressia
I find myself not liking to say people have a disorder like that. my mother was diagnosed with the same thing, but honestly all she is is a young mother that had a kid at 17 and got her life ******** up.

You are so young that you have all the time in the world to find yourself and grow up to ******** other people's lives up. (That was a joke, ha ha. I was merely trying to say that you have time to live and grow, and you shouldn't think about high school or what everyone is saying about you.)

What you should try doing is not analyzing everything you are doing. I apparently have all kinds of disorders, I chalk it up to being realistic, jaded, and pretty individualistic. I still make friends, create my own path, and lead a very fulfilling life. It's not hard to do.

What holds people back is when they sit down and analyze what's happening around the, what people have said, what they will say, and what their friends and family are saying about them. not to mention when you sit and will think about the jobs and work you've done, the schooling you've gone through. And when you start thinking about not being able to go anywhere in life. Don't think like that though, that's what I'm trying to get at.

That silver lining? Yup, that's real. Know what it's called? Thinking for yourself and understanding that EVERYTHING is opinion. It's other people's opinion that you have a personality disorder. In all honesty they are just freaks for not being able to have a versatile personality.

I hope this has at least given you a little insight to how the rest of us feel smile

I give you thumbs up, because you are probably a smart enough cookie to really go far. The key is to know that you are an individual, and you actually have a lot of freedom to do what you will with your life. Labels really will get in the way. I promise you.

Keep your head up kiddo. <3


thank you for the kind and insightful words. I'm doing better now just had one of those nights.....or mornings confused
but yea thank you ^^
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