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does it? and also is peer pressure that nasty feeling as though you could cry so hard you'd throw your instestains up? because i've hard that feeling for over a week now.

Peer pressure is when the people around you (otherwise known as your peers) put pressure on you to do something that you wouldn't want to otherwise. So maybe it could cause depression but that's not the definition of the word.

Then ask her to stop pressuring you because it might be making your depression worse. You can explain to her it's making you worry about little things, which you shouldn't have to worry about at this point in your life, and it's making you uncomfortable. If she cares for you, she'll stop.

Um... the last time I checked, having sex involves 2 people. Which means that in order for sex to happen, two people need to consent to it.
She CANNOT demand consent from you - she can not give consent on your behalf. So this "she still says we're going to" crap is not true, because all you have to say is "No, I don't want to have sex with you right now", and nothing will have to happen.

Then you need to learn to speak up, and learn how to talk to girls. Ask people for advice on how to talk to girls, you can talk to supportive people, etc.

I remember reading a book over this, the doctor says that depression is caused when someone is forced to choose between their true selves and the image everyone wants them to be. Well some n=might say the answere is obvious but the are points to every situation. If you were to choode self then you would be shunned by your peers, and be labeled as a loser. And its not just your a loser it is almost as if you infected with some sort of disease. But to be someone your not you are unhappy and you spend your life to please others, so when you build your self up like that when you get critisized you feel a major emotional hit. But its not the only factor that causes depression.

{{blunt.object]] lol you posted day before i turned 18.

anwyay yeah i'll let you knwo if i have any questions.




but i didnt fin d anyone to confide in, and its still bugs me , although less so now. which is a relief. But not other questiosn and problems have arisen. and stuff.

well i mean, i cant truely say she's pressuring me, as much as i am myself.

what i mean is. ugh....ok..im going to use a large metaphore ...so ..bare with me.


Say, my body and Brain are a battle field.*battle of the 1800's is something im obsessed about so its eaiser to relate to that time period* And my mind and my hormones are two diffrent armies. So they're shooting away at eachother. men dieing and stuff. but no ones winning. The body's men, who have jsut turned 18 years old. Are sayign they're ready to "********". The Mind's men, who have been told by many that they have the age of a 21 year old, seem to think otherwise. the two armies are clashign in the middle of my body right where your throat connects with your stomach.
Eruptions of all sorts are taking place. but with reinforcments to bothsides always coming to support their side, the battle is never ending.
As of now, the mind basicly has control because im not able to do anythign that has a sexual form to it at all. My mind refuses to take part in it. But, the body is tryign to gain the upper ground because its screaming that im ready to , once again, "********", and wants to start looking at womens bodies and stuff. Both of these feelings are causing my...litereally. excrusiating(really bad, i didnt remember hwo to spell it.) pain in my chest, which doesnt seem to die but just fades from time to time. but when it comes back, it hrust soooooo badly.




.......do you........understand that?.....cause i really can't explain it in anyother manner; its the closest i can come to telling whats going on inside me without my head exploding from overload.