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Posted: Wed Dec 08, 2010 2:00 pm
Mirrors were so unforgiving, especially ones under fluorescent lighting.
Khalla was leaned a little over the bathroom sink, her face inches from the mirror as she inspected herself. There were dark rings under her eyes from the lack of sleep she'd been getting and, unless she was imagining it, she looked sickly pale from stress and anxiety. At least her dreads never failed to look exactly like they were supposed to - for once she was relieved to have a hair style that didn't require much primping when she woke up. It was too bad Khalla didn't bother with makeup, or she could have covered her sickly look up with a brand new face. Instead she'd simply have to suffer through the barrage of inquiries. Are you sick? or Is something wrong? had been asked of her a dozen times in the last few days and she was really getting tired of it. Of course something was wrong, those idiots.
She sighed and leaned back to stand up straight again, turning on the sink so she could splash a little warm water in her face with the hope it might somehow wash away the dreary air that poured out of her. She grabbed the hand towel and dabbed it over her skin, then finally just gave up and left the bathroom.
"I'm ready," she mumbled, even as she was flipping off the bathroom switch and shutting the door behind her. "Or as ready as I'm going to be, I guess." She had mostly stopped crying by this point, except during those rare moments when she was alone and despair thought she was an easy target. Rohan had been patient with her, even when she woke up in the middle night from bad dreams and couldn't fall back asleep to save her life. If the crying had gotten better, those were probably just getting worse. They both had hope that they would stop after the funeral tomorrow.
"So, the house, then dress shopping, and then we can run the rest of the errands?" She reached out to grab her winter coat, tugging it on and fastening it in place. Thankfully, they had her car at the apartment complex now - it was getting a little too cold for the bike, at least for her tastes. She turned to look into the living room then, simply expecting him to be where she'd left him, and held out the keys to her car without asking who was driving. Rohan had become boyfriend and caretaker all rolled into one at this point.
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Posted: Wed Dec 08, 2010 2:55 pm
Rohan had taken a seat on his sofa, trying desperately not to hover around the girl, seeing as how he was well aware of the fact people had been hovering around her for days and she hadn't appreciated it. In his attempt to pull his mind away from the girl, he had dragged his gaze away from the bathroom door and was, instead, focusing on the window as he mindlessly ran his hand over Uno's pelt. The cat had taken a seat on his lap and had curled up there rather effortlessly as they waited for Khalla to emerge.
The cat seemed to hear something he could not, however, for he suddenly raised his head and jumped off his lap, padding over to the bathroom door just as it opened. The girl did, in fact, look like utter hell in all honesty, but he was just simply too polite to tell her. That aside, he knew it wasn't something she could really help at the current moment; it wasn't like it bothered him anyhow, given the fact he himself, looked like hell 8 times out of 10. Had this been under different circumstances, he might have felt slightly amused that they seemed to have switched roles for the time being, but seeing as the circumstances were as they were, Rohan simply couldn't pull anything other than concern out of it.
"Alright," a pause as he watched her, frowning slightly, "If you don't feel up for it, I'm pretty sure I can run all of the errands except the dress by myself. I could always come pick you up later if you... don't want to go back to the house," he was pretty sure she would turn down the offer, but... offer he did nonetheless. Pushing himself off the sofa, he walked over to her and took the keys she offered, watching as the black cat wove his body around Khalla's legs restlessly; even the animal had noticed how strangely off-put the girl had been these last few days she'd slept over. Granted, he had no idea what was wrong, but it didn't keep him from offering what comfort he could muster, in the shape of cuddles and heart felt 'meows'.
"I'll drive, then," he told her, mostly because at this point, he didn't really think she wanted to bother with such a task. That said, he grabbed a jacket, his wallet, keys and then opened the front door, waiting for her to come out.
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Posted: Wed Dec 08, 2010 3:59 pm
Khalla managed the tiniest smile as she realized Uno had been waiting for her. Animals were so much different than humans - they didn't judge, they just loved. There was no pity in Uno, just a need to comfort something he didn't understand. She stooped down as he began winding in and out of her legs, reaching to gently stroke her hands over his sleek black fur.
"No," she shook her head, even while she was scratching behind Uno's ear, "I need to be the one to do that. I'm the only one that knows where everything is, what needs to be done." The thought of going back to the house was unsettling, but she didn't trust anyone else with her Gran's thing, not even Rohan. It was probably just because her loss had made Khalla that much more possessive of the little reminders she had left. She pushed herself to a stand after giving Uno one last little pat, drawing a deep breath as if she were readying herself for some unseen battle.
"Besides, I need to get out of the house and do things. Even if those things are just errands. I'm dying for a little normalcy." She reached out and grabbed her gloves as she saw them laying on the table by the door, and was pulling them on as she left through the open door. Then she paused to wait for Rohan to lock up, crossing her arms behind her back as she often did when she was anxious.
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Posted: Thu Dec 09, 2010 4:52 pm
He turned to glance briefly over his shoulder; he'd had time enough to completely assimilate the situation, and as strange as it sounded, he'd slowly fallen into a sort of... routine when it came to Khalla. He made a mental check list which included not hovering, not pitying (at least not openly), and not judging amongst other things. After his brief statement, the first day he'd found her where he'd told her that what had happened was entirely out of her hands, he had made no other remarks, and if he had thoughts about the situation in question, he was keeping them, and his feelings, to himself, apparently.
For a moment, he seemed to hesitate, but then he nodded, as if understanding what she was getting at. As he moved to close the door, he paused when the cat padded over, having followed Khalla much like a dog might have, "Not this way," he murmured, "The balcony, Uno, the balcony," the cat in question tilted his head lazily to one side, looking up at both humans through it's good eye, and then slowly turned around, padding off and into the house. Rohan always wondered if the creature could actually understand him or if it simply had a knack for... coincidental behavior that pointed towards that conclusion.
He then locked up the house and turned, pressing a hand to the hollow of Khalla's back only briefly, almost an unconscious movement to guide her, or perhaps to show her that he was, in fact, still there beside her before moving down the complex stairs that lead to the building's garage, "You know," he said as he descended the stairs, only pausing briefly to look over his shoulder and into her eyes before proceeding, "You don't have to be strong around me. I know that you seem keen on... putting up a front where everyone is concerned," they reached the garage, and he lightly walked towards Khalla's now familiar car, "But I'm not about to question you, your motives or how you feel, Khalla. I'm not going to judge you, and I most certain will not ask you if you are 'fine'," in fact, he was sure that he hadn't really asked her as much since she'd arrived at his home. It might've slipped when he found her at her home, on that first day, but... he'd made sure it wouldn't slip out again, mostly because he knew she wasn't fine. What was the point in asking? Every time someone asked her that, he felt a rather pulling need to grab a book and hit whatever idiot had uttered that question over the head.
"What I'm trying to get at is... that you don't have to do anything you don't want to do," he opened thee car as he spoke, but waited for her to get in before slipping in after her, "And I am not talking about the errands, but rather, in general."
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Posted: Thu Dec 09, 2010 6:12 pm
Khalla looked up at Rohan as she felt his hand on the small of her back, slowly stepping away from the stair railing where she had been staring off. She turned away from it and started to follow him down, watching her feet on the steps as she did so, though listening despite her silence.
Once they reached the car, she let him catch her eyes over the top, then she slowly climbed into the passenger seat. She quickly pulled the seat belt on and then folded her hands in her lap, watching as she wound and unwound her fingers.
"I'm not being strong for anyone else," she said carefully, chewing at her bottom lip as she paused to collect her thoughts, "I'm being strong for myself. If I let myself break down now, I'll never find the strength to face tomorrow." She glanced up at him with a tiny, sad smile, but her words were truthful. She had only made it so far because she was building up a wall around the avalanche of emotions. That, and through his support. She wasn't sure how she would have handled anything that she'd had to deal with in the last few days if he hadn't been there to hold her hand through every step.
"I can do this, okay?" She reached out with one hand and placed it against his cheek, trying to reassure both him and herself at the same time. "Just stay with me, and I can do it." She stared at him for one long moment, then let her hand fall away. She offered one last, sad little smile and then turned to look out the passenger window while she waited for him to start up the car and pull out.
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Posted: Fri Dec 10, 2010 3:00 pm
Rohan had noticed her silence, but seeing as how he hadn't really been expecting an answer from her, instead just wanting her to hear him out, he didn't look particularly put off. He caught her eyes over the top of the car before slipping inside, where he pulled the seatbelt on and then worked the keys into the ignition.
He prepared the car, and then turned to place a hand behind her seat, ready to look behind them so he could drive them out of the apartment complex's parking lot. Her words, however, caused him to pause, and his gaze slid over to her, mostly because he hadn't really expected her to address the issue... at least not yet. After all, the girl barely talked about the whole ordeal; not to him, not to anyone, which was in fact, perfectly fine in Rohan's book, seeing as how he had no real experience and thus, no way to offer her more comfort than what he was already offering her.
He remain silent as she spoke, giving her time to convey whatever feelings she was having so much trouble pushing forth. When he thought she finished, he nodded silently, apparently understanding what she was getting at. Perhaps... he did; after all, what she was saying hit really close home, to the point Rohan had chosen to remain quiet, not quite trusting his voice to work properly. He'd been just about ready to begin drive back and out of the parking space when her voice drifted over to him again, this time accompanied by the warmth of her hand on cheek, which caught him, for whatever reason, entirely unprepared. It was true she'd been sleeping in his room for the past few days now, but that was hardly the same. He hadn't really had time to think about her in that way since the park and shortly there after. Those few times where he had (he was only human, and male after all), he'd felt horribly guilty, to the point he'd squashed the notions that had reared their ugly heads without a second's thought.
This time, however, the thought was there, and he did nothing to brush it away. Instead, he merely closed his eyes and let out a soft sigh, allowing himself to nuzzle the hand just briefly before pulling away, "So long as that is what you want, then it is perfectly alright, Khalla," what was more interesting to note was that he actually... meant it, "I am not going anywhere," he would had told her that she had him tightly wound up around her little finger, but he figured that if she didn't know that... well, she'd find that out on her own later. That done, he finally pulled the car out of the parking space and drove out into traffic, knowing exactly how to get to her house, thus not needing her directions.
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Posted: Fri Dec 10, 2010 3:47 pm
Khalla nodded as he spoke, knowing that he meant, feeling it deep in her soul. It was nice to know she had someone to count on, she never thought she could depend so heavily on anyone other than her Gran. She dropped her hand slowly from his at that thought, then turned to look back out the window without further comment. He knew his way to her home by now and she certainly wasn't in the mood to be a back seat driver.
She stayed like that, silent and contemplating, all the way to her once-upon-a-time home. She seemed to be lost in thought because, as the car turned and rolled to a stop in the driveway, she blinked rapidly and had a look on her face like she was rousing from a very intense day dream. She sat there a moment, drawing in a deep breath, as Rohan turned off the ignition and unlocked the doors. She unhooked her own seatbelt and stepped out of the car, but for a moment she simply stood there staring up at the house.
To her it seemed like one of those old, haunted houses in the movies. Everything outside seemed perfectly normal but one step through the door and it would show the most unfortunate tragedies and horrors the world had ever seen. She knew that was nonsense though, or at least she told herself that, and she fished the keys out of her pocket and walked up to the steps to the door. Mentally, she noted that the paper she'd left for her neighbor had been removed - well, of course she knew that, the woman had called afterward. Then she simply put the keys in the log and pushed the door open.
As she stepped over the threshold, she tried to tell her that the empty darkness that she felt swelling out as soon as she opened the front door was just her imagination. She tried to tell herself that a house couldn't feel, that it didn't know when it had lost something. Regardless, she had that morbid feeling in the air all around her - like it was a living being and Gran had been it's heart.
"Uhh," she coughed, then turned to look at Rohan - or where she expected him to be following her. "I need you to come upstairs and help me bring down sheets and boxes from the attic, okay?"
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Posted: Wed Dec 15, 2010 12:41 pm
The silence didn't really bother him; Rohan was comfortable enough around Khalla to know when she was drowning in thoughts. He was more than happy to let her contemplate in peace and quiet, for the time being, specially since he knew his way to her house. His gaze did slide over to her every now and again, when the driving permitted it, and each glance only seemed to reaffirm the earlier notion that she was lost in thought, obviously not meaning to ignore him, but simply too overwhelmed by... well, everything, really, to pay him much mind.
When he drove up the familiar driveway and finally stopped, he noticed the fact the girl almost seemed to snap out of her reverie, going as far as having to shake her head. Alas, he was polite enough not to ask where it was she'd been during the whole trip. After all, he more or less knew where she'd been and what she'd been thinking about; he thought it cruel to ask, and rip open fresh wounds by inquiring about it, "We're here," he said unnecessarily as he parked the car and stopped the engine. Unlike her, Rohan didn't bother to linger in the car, and easily stepped out, closing his door and then turning to glance up at the house over the top of the car.
The place, while seemingly mostly unchanged, seemed somewhat different from what he was used to. Idly, he wondered if it had to do with a loss of warmth, or if it was just his imagination acting up. He watched with interest as the girl worked up her courage and finally opened the door, after which he followed her in, turning his head to look around the vacant house; maybe his imagination was overreacting to the situation, but he could have sworn there was a distinct lack of warmth. Perhaps it came from the fact no one was living there now, or perhaps... it was the fact it'd been mostly closed for a few days now. Either way, Rohan couldn't be sure, and seeing as how such thoughts were hardly practical, he did his best to push them to the back of his mind.
"Let's get this over with, then," he said, and then moved past her, reaching out to switch the lights on, "This place seems to be horribly uninviting," that, and he was well aware that she wanted to spend the least time possible within those four walls, "What's on our to-do list after this, by the way?" he'd taken her invitation and was already moving up the stairs.
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Posted: Wed Dec 15, 2010 1:24 pm
As Rohan began to ascend the stairs, Khalla followed him. There was comfort in being close to him and having someone to lean on. It was like a weapon to battle the darkness around her, a hand to hold when things got scary.
"Well, we have to cover the furniture with sheets and then pack away all the food so it doesn't go to spoil here." She paused at the top landing, rubbing her hands together a little as she tried to find the courage to open the attic door - that place was unsettling before this whole ordeal started. "Mrs. Robinson said she'd drop it off at the shelter for us, so we don't have to drive all the way out there. We just have to take it to her house."
Finding no reason to put off the inevitable any longer, she walked a little ways down the hallway and reached up to grab the short, hanging cord of the attic door above them. It came down with little effort, and she unfolded the tuck-away ladder. With a few creaks and squeaks of barely-used hinges, it came down and planted on the floor steadily.
"Then it's to find a dress for tomorrow and pick up a few others things, I guess." She sighed and started to climb the ladder at this point, trying to ignore the swelling darkness overhead. Who even designed these awful places? Once at the top, she fumbled around until she found the hanging light. With a little 'click' it fluttered to life, pouring a soft, dull light over the entire room.
"The sheets should be around here somewhere, probably piled up in boxes," she murmured, wading through an attic full of old trinkets, mirrors, mismatched furniture and any number of old dusty boxes and trunks.
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Posted: Wed Dec 15, 2010 2:59 pm
Had Rohan been able to take a peek into the girl´s mind, he would have probably been torn between feeling pleased she thought so high of him and... distinctively uncomfortable, unsure if he could live up to her expectations of him. He did know that he was doing a good job at offering her the support she needed though, which was enough for him (in all honesty, he wasn't aware what he was doing right though, seeing as how he was still more than slightly awkward when it came to... situations).
Filling the void the house offered with words seemed like the right thing to do, even if he wasn't particularly prone to conversation. The almost cold atmosphere affected him enough to make him slightly nervous, which meant that it was, no doubt, affecting the girl more than she was letting on; awkward conversation seemed like a better idea than gloomy silence, "That shouldn't take too long then, I don't think," he drawled out once he'd climbed up the stairs, "If we work together anyhow," a pause as he pondered something and narrowed his eyes, "I'll take the kitchen then, after we are done with the bigger furniture. You can put sheets over the smaller ones without me while I pack the foods," After all, Rohan was well aware she hadn't wanted to go into the kitchen some days ago. He doubted that the sentiment had changed any, if at all, even now.
When she pulled the stairs down from the ceiling, he hooded his eyes and looked up, seemingly unperturbed as he climbed up to join her. Attics didn't really phase him, specially seeing as how he spent most of his time at school in the deepest, darkest sections of the library, where few students dared to lurk, "This place reminds me of how my study, over at the crystal library... when I first found it," in other words, he actually liked this place, and had this been any other day, or an entirely different situation, he might have asked for permission to go through these old possessions, "This place seems to... have an undesirable effect on you, Khalla," he drawled out as he moved, checking some boxes in search for the blankets, "I find I rather like places like this. You can find treasures stashes away in these old places," his hand moved over the surface of a box just as he paused, "Hmmm..." he moved to his right, where he'd spotted a patch of white.
There, mostly hidden away from view, behind some trinkets, were the sheets they'd been searching for, "It's like a garage sale... only nothing really seems to be on sale here," flea markets and garage sales where things he also rather liked, but then again, he was a strange man, with even stranger tastes, "Right. So then; sheets, food and clothes."
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Posted: Wed Dec 15, 2010 3:58 pm
"It's just one of those.. ridiculous childhood paranoias," she shrugged a little as she spoke. She knew it was silly to be afraid or nervous in a place like this - nothing had ever happened here after all. She just always felt uncomfortable though, like she was looking at ghosts from the past, intruding on someone else's privacy. "It just makes me uncomfortable being up here." She reached out to pick up a small doll figurine, stroking her finger across the cheek. Then, with a sigh, she set it back down and turned just in time to see Rohan pointing out the sheets.
"Rights, grab them and the boxes they're in. We can put the sheets over the couch and other big things downstairs and then you can take the boxes and.. pack up the food." She was glad he'd simply offered to do that, she really didn't want to have to explain herself. Having someone that could just read her mind and know what she wanted, what was best, was really a relief. It was surprising how many people seemed to lack that ability.
She glanced around the room one last time, shrugging her shoulders again. "Gran.. was a hoarder. A lot of this stuff is from her past, from our family but a lot of it is just.. stuff she found." She smiled briefly as she recalled the way her Gran browsed flea markets, shopped in antique stores. She was always searching for important things. Not expensive ones, but.. ones that meant a lot to someone once upon a time.
Then she stopped herself, aware that those kinds of thoughts ultimately led to tears and pain. She rubbed a hand against the side of her cheek, then descended back down the folding ladder. She stopped at the bottom and looked back up. "Just toss them down, it won't hurt them at all."
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