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Demy-Stardust


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PostPosted: Fri Nov 26, 2010 5:18 pm


This wasn't something he had wanted to talk about at the dorms, so Captain Scheelite had requested the presence of his fellow captain (a co-captain, almost, as their teams were aligned) for a talk. He had noted the unease in Zee's eyes at the mention of a talk, and the blonde had to take a moment to assure him it wasn't anything about their relationship but still something that needed to be talked about. Then he hadn't spoken about it again until the night said talk was supposed to occur.

So he waited, under a tree somewhat off the beaten path at the park. Snow was on the ground, and a small smile had managed to wind it's way onto his face as he sat there and looked around for his partner. It really -was- a nice night. Cold but tolerable (to Scheelite at least, he liked the snow), and for the moment the sky above was clear.

He had come in uniform, coming straight from 'work' so to speak. For now he was back in his civilian clothes, a nice warm scarf (in all colors of the rainbow, of course) wrapped around his neck to help fend off the cold.
PostPosted: Fri Nov 26, 2010 5:26 pm


He was still apprehensive when he arrived, bundled up in a simple black down coat with a grey and black striped scarf he looked like a trundling piece of charcoal more than someone even remotely in holiday spirit.

His hands were wedged deep into his pockets and his chin tucked tight to his chest though he squinted at his target though the sharp cold wind, it wasn't truly -awful- he was just apprehensive and that just made the chill of the evening that much worse than it was.
He figured he had enough of a hard time dealing with his own emotions without actually talking about them, contrary as that thought process might be so at least the promise it wasn't 'relationship' issues was somewhat comforting but the number of potential things Demy might say was not comforting at ALL.

"Alright...It's cold...I'm here... what's the deal?"

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PostPosted: Fri Nov 26, 2010 5:31 pm


"Come sit with me?"
He was still smiling at least, and patted at the snow beside him.
"Cmon, you might be warmer sitting next to me. I won't lay all over you in public I promise!"

Demy waited a moment, staring up at the sky above and trying to find the right words. He worried this was going to upset Zac, maybe even make him angry. Really, the last thing Demy wanted was Zac to be angry at him. But...he had to be honest. This was something he had been hiding way too long.

"Zac...what do you think about school?"
No Zee, huh? He was actually being -serious-.
PostPosted: Fri Nov 26, 2010 5:39 pm


"What do I think about it?" He repeated with a careful if suspicious look. "The student part, or the rest of it..." He asked with a small frown, generally speaking most of the teachers didn't drive him crazy enough to think one way or another about them, the students though had always been a whole separate issue.
"And why... are you planning on transferring?"
He did though take a somewhat reluctant seat beside the taller young man and turned his suspicious gaze to follow as though he were trying to find a book of secrets in the acidic green eyes.

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PostPosted: Fri Nov 26, 2010 5:47 pm


"The..idea of being in school in general. Especially considering what we are, what we are part of. This entire...school idea just....I don't know."

The blonde sighed, hanging his head as he shook it a bit. This was so difficult.
"Not...transferring. Dropping in general. The only reason I haven't -already- is because I didn't want to leave you..ya know?"
He was trying so hard to smile and write it off as no big deal. But it was. Leaving Hillworth, as much of a blessing as it would be, meant leaving behind the opportunity to live with Zac. Sure, they didn't see each other as much as they used to now between the homework and the added weight of being captains now. But Zac was still -there-. He was his roommate, his boyfriend, and on some days the only thing allowing him to get a good night's sleep simply by being there. How would he function without Zee? And how would the shorter boy fare without the blonde's assistance with the school's multitude of bullies?

This sucked.
"I just...I..I don't know man. I'm not doing good, I'm probably going to get held back..."
Hands moved to wipe tears before they could make too much of an appearance. They were still there though.
"W-why even bother? I'm not going to need this s**t, and every hour I'm there is an hour wasted that I could be spending on working for the Negaverse. I just...don't know."

And thus, why he needed to talk. He just couldn't figure all these conflicting emotions out for himself.
PostPosted: Fri Nov 26, 2010 5:52 pm


"We'll get you tutors..." He said declining to answer how he felt about school, high school in particular.
"I'll help as well... but you won't be held back." He scowled deeply. Was he really talking about what he thought he was?
"You want to make it go General don't you? That's more than just focusing on 'what the negaverse wants' that's time management... even the Queen balances a civilian life with Being our queen..."
It was in Zee's own way intended as a 'pep talk' if an rather distinctly critical one. He didn't intend it to be he just didn't understand.

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PostPosted: Fri Nov 26, 2010 6:02 pm


"I don't think tutors can save you from nearly straight F's man. Kicking a** in gym though."
Well s**t, it was that bad. He gave a distinctly bitter laugh at the statement.
"I don't think even -you- can work that kind of miracle, though I do appreciate the help man. A ton I just... I don't know..."

He bit his lip at the general part. Hell -yes- he wanted to be a general. He wanted that more than just about anything in the world (Zee and him getting closer outranked it by a LOT, anything else though...).
"General and beyond, however far I can make it I want that. I just don't understand how cramming my head full of ******** math formulas and the history of the entire damn world and this and that and everything else is doing any good. I'm lost man...I hate being lost."

The blonde paused and sighed before giving a further statement quietly.
"I want to go home but I don't even have a home anymore. Mom is gone and..out of desperation I wrote to dad saying maybe we should break off ties, I thought -maybe- that'd give him a clue and we could figure something out. You know what happened? He never even replied... I know you're not close to your family, but I miss mine...."
Or at least what he had made them out to be in his mind.
PostPosted: Fri Nov 26, 2010 6:10 pm


"Don't under..." he sputtered.
"Dem... history at the least... if we don't learn from the past, look at the tactics, look at the people look at the change in ideals, we can change the world they way they did, it's important to know that... and what about calculating Star seeds per lieutenant and the mass output of said energy!? Someday we're going to need that! This is important! I know the perspective is hard now but don't you think its the same for the civilians? Do you think they understand that their sacrificing for the greater interest of a whole planet?
How the hell did you get down to D's! I was helping you! What about the papers I helped you write?! He sputtered between appalled and baffled.
He didn't even understand how you could miss someone who never replied, why didn't Demy just -hate- him and have done with, he had no problem Hating Sailor Lyra...


He pinched his nose and tried to calm down. "********..." He said low and shaking his head.

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Demy-Stardust


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PostPosted: Fri Nov 26, 2010 6:17 pm


"...I guess some of it can be useful. But <********> math, seriously man I don't -get- math and I never will."
Well...it was a start.
"...Sometimes history can be kind of interesting. Disasters are kinda cool. Man the BOATS that have sunk and s**t that's blown up and..."
Okay, that was even more of a start. He had -some- interest in things at least. Tonight he was just frustrated.

"You can't take my -tests- for me man. We write awesome papers together! And you're so good at correcting my spelling mistakes and I'm glad for that I really am please don't think I'm ungrateful for the help...I just don't know if I can do this. And I don't want to fail, I can't handle failing."

Demy fidgeted uncomfortably. Zac was judging him, he could feel it.
"..I don't want to fail -you- either..."
Then he put his head in his hands and offered yet another loud sigh.
"I'm s-sorry...m-maybe I've been patrolling a bit -too- much lately.."
He really did it nonstop, from as soon as he could get out of class til he was about dropping with exhaustion. But he had shown such great improvement in his prowess as an officer of the Negaverse! ...At the expense of his grades, apparently.
PostPosted: Fri Nov 26, 2010 6:23 pm


"Think... think of memorizing your equations as memorizing facts about senshi, VITAL facts that you will need to share with your team, with the queen even... each time you manage to memorize and use that information your honing a skill that will make the queen proud.... History... don't just stop at what the book says, we'll dig up the really good bits on the library computers, we'll find battle plans and maps and talk about who did what, what sank where...
Chemistry... Biology...both are so useful. Chemistry... what if you found yourself in a lab, you could mix something to take down a senshi with... biology ... you know better where to hit, what's vital what's not.. better it gives you at least a basic understanding to help your team... learning is ALL about perspective. Being held back isn't a curse even... being behind someone isn't SHAMEFUL, because you learn at your own pace, you get there at your OWN pace AND you can learn from those who went before... you can DO this Dem... you can make -everyone- proud and it'll be because your not just thinking with your fists. It'll take time... you won't turn overnight into a tactician but you'll be better for it no matter what.

Hell... he knew at his core that not everyone WAS a tactician, not everyone was suited for what they thought they wanted... he was coming slowly to grips with that himself having heard a tape of his own violin playing... it wasn't awful... but it wasn't nearly what he thought. But it wasn't what Dem needed to hear right now.

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Demy-Stardust


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PostPosted: Fri Nov 26, 2010 6:44 pm


"...Sharing with the queen?"
Well there was a bit more motivation. He had to admit that was a good way to look at it. And if Zac would help him find the interesting bits hidden amidst the boring s**t than maybe that would help motivate him to actually trudge through this stuff.
"We...could look up battles and disasters and all that cool stuff? Really? That'd be cool, I'd like that..."
Maybe if he was allowed so much 'interesting' information if he could remember enough of the 'boring' stuff? Maybe...

"I...d-don't want to be held back. It's not being embarrassed because I don't give a s**t what our fellow students think, I just...if I'm held back I'll be there a year longer than you. I'll be in our room a year..without you. I feared dropping out because I didn't want to leave -you- alone, but I'm really scared of being held back because then I'd be the one alone..."
He fidgeted more, lifting his head back up.
"I want people to be proud. I want to learn, I want to be -useful-, and awesome and all that stuff. But I'm scared Zee. I'm s-sorry..."
PostPosted: Fri Nov 26, 2010 6:50 pm


"Well... then we'll just have to get you turned around enough not to be held back... you'll balance your night schedule better, you'll make sure you get SOME sleep and patrolling will be a -reward- for getting your homework done... weekends can help you make up projects AND quotas and your team will help you!" He said ticking off each point on his gloved fingers.
"You have something here to work for Dem... It's going to take a lot of effort.... call it practice for the skills you'll need as a General... and we will make it to General... you mark my words..." he nodded sharply
"AND..." he snapped "Do -not- give me this 'as far as you can go' line...you focus on each goal as it comes, or you'll just end up more frustrated your not at the finish line yet!" He scolded.

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Demy-Stardust


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PostPosted: Fri Nov 26, 2010 7:04 pm


Well damnit -that- sucked. He pouted a bit at patrolling only being a reward. He was going to have to earn the -right- to go out and fill his quota for the Negaverse. And if he didn't...well Zee would probably kick his a**. Or maybe not let him into the bed for snuggle time.

This would suck. A lot.

"Alright Zee.."
He was smiling again, that was good!
"I'll focus on becoming a -general- first...and not failing school. Then after -that- I will...make new goals."
He didn't say "go further", namely so Zac didn't smack him or something.
PostPosted: Fri Nov 26, 2010 7:11 pm


"School AND General...at LEAST equally balanced" he said with a fold of his arms. "Otherwise... you might use getting to general as an -excuse- and be held back... On par... alright? So that you will be a GOOD general not just 'A' general..."

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Demy-Stardust


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PostPosted: Fri Nov 26, 2010 7:55 pm


"I meant first as in before thinking of anything further not first as in before school...but you're right."
Here he stood up, offering a hand down to the other to help him up as well.

"School first. ...I should go back right now and work on schoolwork. Heh. And when that's cleared up a bit -then- General...hopefully Para and Hel can help me out a bit with my quota, at least this week?..."
He hoped so, god did he hope. The last thing he needed was to fall behind in starseeds as well as his schoolwork.

"Thanks for the talk man...I'm gonna head back now."
At least he seemed to be in good spirits again. It was much better than sobbing and freaking out about having to drop out.
"You coming with me? We could walk back together..."
He took a few steps, glancing back to see whether or not Zac wanted to walk with him before continuing on home.
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