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 Posted: Sun Jan 22, 2006 4:00 pm
Im having alot of stress and confussion and depression lately. I've been very sensitive lately because my job has really been stressing me out. I am a quiet person, and very timid, shy, anti-social type of person irl. But I work in a customer service type job because it was the only job that would hire me (my step dad got me in) and I needed to save up to see Arie (whom I'll now be seeing this April).
I still have a ways to go to save up, especially because now my mom is going with me to visit her, and Im paying for my mom's ticket. Since my mom is going with me, we'll need to get a hotel which costs more money.
My step dad has been pressuring me to go back to school. Im not quite sure what I want to do yet. All I know is that I want it to be art related. My boss says I should take night classes (while I work days) so I can see what I want do get a degree in. I dont like that idea because Im already stressing out. Mean while, my step dad is being a major a**. We cant even get together (all 3 of us) and go to Walmart without going for each other's throats. So that's not helping either because that makes me what to get the hell out of here.
Ping. My brother calls today. Btw, I've been wanting to go live with him for sometime now but he lives near my real dad (long story) but my bro is moving with the company that he works for, so he'll be far away from my dad. I told him about what's going on and I asked him if I could live there. He agreed to let me stay. I dont have to help pay bills but if there is anything I want, I'll have to pay for it. Which isn't bad. He says he'll be living next to a college university too.
I want to go to college, and then after a year I want to transfer to Illinois so I can live closer to Arie. But everyone has been warning me that something might happen between us, and then Im stranded. I dont want to end up being there alone if that happens. I also dont want to keep distance between us and let our relationship just disapear. My brother said there would be sacrifices.. but I dont want Arie to be one of those and I dont want to get up there and have something go wrong.
Can anyone please give me some advice on anything? Whether it be about how to keep my stress and depression down, to thoughts on what I should do.. I just really need some help right now.. -_-
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Posted: Mon Jan 23, 2006 6:41 am
You only live once and if you spend your whole life worrying about what might happen, nothing ever will. I think you should live your life how you want to, and if things go to hell, they do. There are gonna be ups and downs and you might as well enjoy them. Just stay smart about it and make sure to have somehting or someone that your sure you can rely on in the end our of any tough situations. If you really wanna live near your brother, it sounds like an awesome solution. mrgreen I guess thats really all the advice i have, but it seesm to me that you already know what you want to do, your jsut unsure wether or not you should do it, and i think that in the end, eveythign in you life is gonna be up to you and your feeelings on it so you might as well listen toyourself as well.
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Posted: Mon Jan 23, 2006 2:10 pm
Yah.. I have made up my mind, I was just wanting to see what other's thought. It's always good to get a second oppinion. I know what Im going to do, and based on your advice, I feel alot better about my choice. My girlfriend always did say take one step at a time..
Thanks alot Seralunarin! (hugs) I appreciate it.
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Posted: Mon Jan 23, 2006 2:12 pm
AkureiKnight Yah.. I have made up my mind, I was just wanting to see what other's thought. It's always good to get a second oppinion. I know what Im going to do, and based on your advice, I feel alot better about my choice. My girlfriend always did say take one step at a time.. Thanks alot Seralunarin! (hugs) I appreciate it. No problem. ^^
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