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 Posted: Tue Sep 07, 2010 7:36 pm
Relationships
 - Get the <********> out of my <********> sight, ******** Bernadetto – Don't remember who the ******** he is, but I don't ******** like him.
Walter Dolones – Do I need a ******** reason? I don't ******** like him.
Lucas Grey – NO, I don't ******** know him and NO I don't ******** like him. ******** Lucy.
Bela James-Rameri – <******** b***h. Wouldn't ******** the dried up whore ever.
Leila Jeane - Keep the ******** away from her. ******** insane-a** - would fu-.. ergh.. maybe.. no, ********, NO.
Yoakim LeBlanc – <******** him. ******** jumped me for no ******** reason, probably wants to take Keith away, and he's.. just a ******** ******** Rothenburger - <******** HIM. He's a ******** ugly, mouthy a*****e that should ******** be torched to the grave. ..Hate him. LEFT
Dante R. Tepes – <******** pansy a** trannie. ******** him – but I'd never touch that. Probably catch something.
Vladimir D. Tepes – <******** hick. I'd ******** him, kill him, ******** him again, burn him, then ******** whatever is left to ******** before burying him. ..********.
 - ..Who the ******** is that?
Yuri Allen
Eva Baumgarten
Julia Beaumont
Miah Bernadetto
Azure Biset
Jessebelle Biset
Gwen Bloom
Finnian Buckley
Rory Cameron
Kenneth Cole
Ilya de la Cruz
Noelle Delacruz
Morgan Dellacroce
Teralynn Dellacroce
Cassidy Flynn
Alastair Harris
Talna Hipp
Turner Hipp
Mariemaia Ivanova
Nakita Ivanova
June King
Ray King
Arwen Koyama
Haruka Koyama
Nanami Koyama
Yuuto Koyama
Phileo Le`De-vuer
Avikna Lupita
Morgan Marlowe
Arlette Mayfair
Sierra Mikain
Neil Murrow
Catrina Murrow
Raiden Niami
Zelynity Niami
Tate O'Ballivan
Erika Page
Reed Page
Elliot Park
Jonathan Parker
Julian Parker
Natalia Piper
Beatrice Rameri
Lyra Rameri
Mitsuke Rameri
Ryder Rameri
Xeiro Rameri
Ferris Randall
Schtolteheim Reinbach III
Gemma Rhodes
Hayden Rusacanth
Kaleb Roman
Mae Romane
Ai Sayuri
Amaya Sayuri
Crimson Skizo
Rhapsody Skysong
Dimitri Mikhail Solomon
Angelina Sonata
Eclair Sonata
Gaston Sonata
Lucy Sonata
Lilia Sonata
Muse/Michael Sonata
Fleurette Starke
Dawson Stonewater
Kotone Tamaki
Peter Tamaki
Shinju Tamaki
Kay Tinoor-Randall
Benedek Traiylor
Benedictus Traiylor
Benedetta Traiylor
Emery Traiylor
Ed Triggs
Kip Triggs
Vi Triggs
Aniela Vanni
Tatum Jan Varone
Freja von der Bach
Xochiquetzal von der Bach-Xiqui
Aleksey Fedya Vyacheslav
Jacob Waldroup
Yoakim Jr. Waldroup
Hansel Weber
Mayli White
Zori White
Charlotte Wilson
Zongxiàn Wilson
Integral Fairbrooke Wingates
Lucia Woods
Emiko Yoshiko
Usagi Yoshiko
Mitsukai Yoshiko
 - What the ******** do you want?
Eet Alvey-LeBlanc – What? ..You mean John's toy? Think it's in the cupboard or.. somewhere..
Romane Bissette – Cop ******** b***h. With nice tits. Would ******** her.
Alekzander Dukhanov – Came to the inn for a room.. would ******** him.
Rachel Fate – Cop chick - would ********. Definitely.
Camelia Grey – Lucy's older sister.. I think. MIGHT ******** it.
Ada Harte – ..Fell in a fountain or some s**t – I don't know. Wouldn't ******** Ivanova – Uh.. some kid? I don't ******** know; she was hanging around the inn once.. wouldn't ******** Ladd – Keith's.. old boss? I don't know, got an eyepatch or some s**t. Would ******** it.
Eleanor LeBlanc – <******** crap lay according to Yoakim, but I don't give a ******** what he says. I'd ******** her. Multiple times.
Judith LeBlanc – Oh, ******** her. Only good thing is she don't try to get inbetween us, but, she's still a ******** b***h.
Rune LeBlanc – Ellie's kid. She's.. uh, cute-ish. She reminds me of Blaire..
Wilhelm LeBlanc – John hangs around him.. Some ******** times. Looks more like Ellie, which is GOOD 'cause ******** Yoakim.
Mei Hwa Li – Uh.. Nurse.. thing at clinic? Dunno. Would ******** it.
Emily Parker – Uh.. Doctor? At the clinic? Or some s**t. Don't know. Wouldn't ******** it.
Milinda Romane – ..Nurse? Or doctor? I don't ******** know. Would ******** it.
Gabriela Rossi – Some ******** freak sideshow – saw her at the fountain. Pink ******** hair.
Benedikt Traiylor – Saw him with some ******** – would ******** him.
Celeste Trelawny – Some redhead who stays at the inn. Would ******** her.
Lotte von der Bach – ..b***h kicked me.. once out of LUCK.
Zhi Xiqui – <******** whore who.. got lucky. ONCE. I'd ******** it.
 - Yeah? Who the ******** are you again?
Alanis LeBlanc – Next door neighbor.. Keith's ******** sister. I'd ******** her.. maybe.
Gladice LeBlanc – Keith's grandma.. She's a ******** b***h – she doesn't ACT like it, but I KNOW she's a ******** b***h.
Alex Park – Owns the restaurant – he's.. eh. Would ******** him.
River Park – Goddamned b***h that Keith likes too much. ...I'd ******** her. Keith better not, though.
Ash St. Jean – One of my maids – she's a pink slut who does ******** nothing.
Kevin McMahon – Friends with Yoakim? Yeah, don't ******** like him. Plus, he's a ******** lawyer for the twins. ..Would still ******** him.
Riley van Kwil – My new ******** maid who's ******** great! I'd ******** him!
Tatyana van Kwil – Stays at the inn with my ******** good maid – she's hot and dumb. I'd ******** her.
Todd van Kwil – Came in with my good maid – I'd ******** him.
Kade Waldroup – Yoakim's ********? Guess he got ******** smart.. for once. I'd ******** it, with a gag.
Keith Wolfe – He's NOT. ********. KEITH. He's.. He's Duke. Stays at the inn. ..I'd ******** him.
Knox Wolfe – Uh.. Kleenex? Yeah. ******** weird name, but he's better than Duke. I'd ******** him.
Mao Xiqui – Weird-a** doctor. I'd ******** it.
 - ...Hey - can you hurry the ******** up? Got s**t to do.
Quentin Alvey-LeBlanc – Keith's.. kid.. uh. Yeah. He's.. eh. He's Keith's - what the ******** do I say?
 - Dude! We gotta ******** hang sometime, yeah?
John Alvey-LeBlanc – Best ******** kid EVER – you gonna say otherwise? Huh? Yeah, thought ******** so.
 - Hey, I'd ******** you twice - maybe more if you got some money.
Blaire Vatonage – She.. was.. uh.. I-I don't know, ******** – she ******** hates me, alright?
 - If you ever look at anyone else, I'll ******** burn them ALIVE.
None.
 - Mine. Do I need to say any ******** more?
Keith LeBlanc – We've been through a ******** ton of s**t and I'd be damned it's gonna ******** happen again. ******** up anyone who TRIES to start anything. ..Yeah, I love him - a ******** lot.
 - ..Seriously?
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Posted: Fri Sep 17, 2010 5:40 pm
 Even if his love of cowboys has been rooted into him ever since the age of five, Conor was still found with a pirate-themed journal in his youth. Blame his third foster home for not paying attention to the difference between a pirate and a cowboy.. He was just happy they didn't buy him something shittier, like a ninja one. God, he hated ninjas.. Anyway, Conor had his journal with him until the age of fifteen, where he promptly ditched it at the school with the intentions of never seeing it or the academy again. It should have been worth way ******** more, in his opinion, or he may have kept it!
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Posted: Thu Oct 21, 2010 2:31 am
Summer 17th // Year -9 // Entry 1 Mr. Barton came to pick me up today. He sad the next famly is nice, but I think he's liing. He says that about evryon. I poot my stuf in my bag and left. I left my cowboy watch in the drier before Renita came in with the lundry. I think she'll lik it. She allways likd it better. Mr. Barton says the nest famly is biggur. There's gunna be 2 boys and 1 gurl that's as old as me. The ma is named 'Rees', witch is a funnee name. I wish thay wuld spell my name rite. Renita allways spelld it 'CONNER' even tho I allways told her it wasent spelld lik that. Mr. Barton keeps sayang I shuldnt be sad, but I'm not. I dident lik them any way.
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Posted: Thu Oct 21, 2010 2:32 am
Winter 14th // Year -7 // Entry 2 Ms. Haden took me to a festival today. I didn't want to go, I hate festivals, but I gotta because I'm in trouble. The thing is called 'White Day' and it's a stupid thing about couples where everyone gets together and does nothing but talk and stuff. At least Valentine's Day had candy.. I got to go outside, though I didn't see Lucy or Blaire 'cause their folks aren't dumb enough to bring them to some stupid date. Ms. Haden went to go talk with Joshua when we got there, who's her boyfriend or something gross like that. All I know is that he buys the worst balloons ever and doesn't even know how to fish. He tried taking me out once, but only his dad knew what he was doing. I don't like him. I went to go throw a rock at someone, I think it was Blaire's big sister, Nelly or something. But, this STUPID kid was running and Ms. Haden always calls kids who run like that dumb because they'll fall, so I was gonna teach him not to do that, but then he HIT ME. ME. He hit me! Right in the eye and it still hurts, but I got him in the nose and I kicked his ribs, then held him down like Ms. Haden's dad showed me, and he rolled and I had to let go 'cause my arms hurt when he did that, then I stomped his stomach and he twisted my arm and.. and then some brat came in and stopped us! I was fighting for my honor and she was all being a dumb goody-two-shoes and went to get Ms. Haden, who was so mad, but then his ma came over and.. they started to fight for some dumb reason. I dunno, but I ran off with him. His name's Keith and he's got a really good punch. We're gonna get tattoos and scars tomorrow.
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Posted: Thu Oct 21, 2010 2:33 am
Fall 3rd // Year -6 // Entry 3 Ms. Haden is my teacher and called me her nephew. I'm not and I always explain it to the kids at school, but they believe her over me. I don't like any of the kids here and I've started to call them by three different names. There's Werner boys, who are friends with everyone but me, Alf boys, who are losers and I hate, then Kaylie, who are girls and dumb. I hate them all and it's not fair that I get stuck with the stupid hicks. Cliona tried to get me outside today, but I don't know anyone that I like. Keith only comes once a year and Blaire's a Kaylie. She'd rather jump rope, but I don't care. She's stupid anyway. And so is Lucas. He's so dumb, playing with a girl. Blaire and Lucas eat lunch with me, but they're probably the worst kids ever. No one hangs out with them, so they gotta hang out with each other and me. But, Blaire sometimes plays with the Kaylie, so I'm stuck with dumb old Lucas. I call him Lucy sometimes because he shouldn't even be a boy – he's that stupid. I can push him to the ground and throw rocks and do all kinds of stuff and he only cries. He tried to hit me back once, but he's so weak it didn't do nothing. Cliona was mad when she saw my cheek, though, even if it didn't hurt. I've got a book report to turn in tomorrow, but I didn't do it 'cause the book was dumb.
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Posted: Thu Oct 21, 2010 2:34 am
 A simple black journal that Conor picked up from a store sometime after he left school with Keith. He never actually used it much since, well, he was a bit too busy living to care about chronicling the amazing that was Conor. Plus, if coming across a journal was considered tough, try finding a writing utensil that didn't scream STD and worked. Sure, he could have lifted some from a store, but, eh, he was too busy gawking at the food and candles to care about them. It was only late at night that he even bothered to remember he had the little journal on him.
Location: He keeps it behind the milk carton in the fridge.
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Posted: Thu Oct 21, 2010 2:35 am
Spring 14th // Year One // Entry 1 ******** town, ******** glass, ******** store, ********.. Keith an' me moved back to Nirvani.. they ******** changed the name to some 'Sonata' s**t. Doesn't matter, always ******** hated the town.. ******** hate the people more this time 'round. ..Nah, hate them just as much. Pricks. Almost out of s**t, only got weed down here, can't even find some ******** liquid X. Who the ******** doesn't have that ******** s**t? You know what we have to ******** do now? ********. Seduce. Charm. We have to talk the whores into our beds, because I ain't ******** paying for that s**t. Should feel blessed or some s**t I'd even ******** them (and I would ******** them all, except for the kid and old people, because I ain't ******** doing that.) ...Keith has one slut in mind – cowgirl? She's got a ******** huge a** horse. I ain't saying that because it's ******** insane, it's just a big horse. ******** huge. HORSES. ********, man. The hoof was as big as my ******** face – it.. ….. Yeah, so, he wants to ******** the cowgirl, do something else, probably gut the ******** horse. Set it on fire like one of those shitty cartoon things. Funny as ********. Then there's the ********.. twins? Whatever. Brothers. ******** grabbed me for ******** no s**t reason, just 'cause he was pissed? ********, anger management or some s**t, b*****d.. Someone screwed them? Big ******** deal, go whine to their b***h mother – wait.. ********, their orphans, ain't got no mommy! Ha! ******** whiners.. Gonna burn down the store. Move them here. ******** them (not in the ******** good way) and kick them out of my ******** town. Place is shitty enough on it's own, doesn't need pricks ruining it.
WON THE ******** COOKING FESTIVAL. BEST ******** COOKS, AM I RIGHT, MAN?!
PS: ******** you, we can get ******** free milk. Don't matter.
PSS: HA, ******** YEAH. Chunky milk at cowbitch. Think she ******** her horse?
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Posted: Thu Jan 06, 2011 11:03 pm
Winter 25th // Year One // Entry 2 ********. Goddamned ******** BITCHES. ******** bitches. Just ******** them. I can't stand their ******** TAUNTS and ******** guys too – yeah, ******** them. Only TWO people I need and that's ******** KEITH, yeah, YOU, man, and Bl ME. YOU and ME, man, ******** TIGHT. ...If you're reading this to find out what the ******** happened, then, ******** you, dude. b***h didn't show up. That's it.
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Posted: Wed Apr 27, 2011 10:35 pm
Spring 6th // Year Two // Entry 3 So, uh, been a ******** while since I wrote in here.. But, been busy, yeah. Lots of s**t happening and s**t. I don't have any ******** obligation to you anyway, why the ******** SHOULD I write in here regularly? Yeah, the ******** – what did I do to get any ******** expectations, huh? It's not like I made any ******** promises to anyone or some s**t like that. It's my ******** life, I'm allowed to do whatever the ******** I please, when I want to, how I want to - I don't need to be some kind of p***y, listening to ******** up rules and being a ********.. ******** robot or some s**t. ********, I need a joint. But, yeah. ******** you, journal, I don't have to do s**t for you. Or.. or ******** anyone. Yeah..
Blaire and me, we've been getting kind of tight lately, you know? It's.. ********> Snow White or, uh, ********, Cinderella? What is it Keith calls her..? Uh, yeah, ******** her, because she's one of those bitches who sit there and tempt try to.. control me and s**t. She doesn't say anything, it's uh.. I know she wants me to, though, I KNOW she doesn't like what I am I should stay away from that b***h but I don't want to, it's, uh.. ********, why am I wasting space on her anyway?! This is MY ******** journal, I should be writing whatever the ******** has to do with me and s**t. That s**t's more interesting than any ******** girlSLUT. You know she dated ******** Lucy? LUCY. What the ******** did she see in him?! He's a ******** pansy - he's got this ******** turtle that he loves SO MUCH, probably wants to marry the ******** reptile. Or.. or whatever the ******** it is, I don't care, I don't know, I ******** don't care. ******** Lucas, he probably is gonna ******** rape her, if he had a ******** d**k. Not that I don't think that NOW. ******** this bullshit, I'm gonna go ******** sleep. ...********>
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Posted: Wed Apr 27, 2011 10:37 pm
Spring 29th // Year Two // Entry 4 'Kay, this is gonna be a lot.
I don't know why I'm ******** writing in here. Don't get why I even have this thing anymore. If I took anything, it should have been the drugs. ..Keith got that.. I didn't stop him 'cause I'm a dumb ********, yeah? Yeah. Sounds right. See, I don't even know what to say. Lot of s**t happened, lots of ******** s**t that shouldn't have, should have, maybe, I dunno, I don't get any of it, don't want to. Keith left. Yeah, he did. Didn't think he would? Nah. I knew it would happen. We lasted a long time, though, yeah? Long ******** time. Too much, ya know, I should've been the one to leave. I should have been the one to walk out, but I didn't 'cause, yeah, Conor ******** Alvey is still st Don't get it, yeah? I don't get ******** s**t. Thought if I wrote it somewhere, tried to write it down, then I'd get something and it's not ******** working. Should just ******** throw this thing out.
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Uh, sorry, thought I'd try it again. That 'lot' thing wasn't really, uh, right to write, yeah.. It was pretty ******** short. But, that whole thing was short. You know how long that lasted? When he.. uh.. It was just an hour. ********, probably less than that. I got home. He was there. Said something I shouldn't have. He said stuff he.. should have. And then we just kept going and I don't know how it got to be like it is now, but I knew it was gonna happen. I didn't tell you, but you knew it too, yeah? Whoever the ******** YOU are. I know you could see it. We weren't gonna last anyway, it never does. I mean, it's ******** sweet while it happens, it's.. I don't know the ******** word for it, but it's like.. uh.. You know fire? How it sparks and s**t, then it just grows and grows for what feels like forever and I love fire, ******** love watching it do whatever the ******** it wants, just taking what it needs and biting at whatever tries to get it back. It's powerful s**t - kills and, ********, it's.. I don't want to sound like a ******** p***y when I say this, but it's.. uh.. beoatifool. Oh, ********, I didn't write that right, did I? I should ask Blaire. She knows how to spell this s**t better than me, it's just I don't - uh, no, shouldn't know that I'm doing this. She's asleep. Don't want to wake her. But, uh, no one's.. reading this now, yeah? Yeah.. Yeah, not anymore. Ha, it doesn't matter. Back on fire.
********, fire. It's cool as s**t, powerful, out of control, and no one can diss it - it can kill you and just keep going on for ******** ever, but it's not all cool. Because, ********, man, it doesn't. It goes out. Everyone forgets it was even there, everything it took doesn't come back.. But, you know the ********? How their place was burnt? How nothing was left but ******** ASH and RUBBLE, but you know.. you know it's ******** back now. It's better now - bigger, stronger - it's like nothing ******** happened. And that's what sucks about fire. When it's gone, which is gonna happen, no one even notices. Everyone goes on and, ********.. It's just how it goes. How it's always been and, ha, I've spent ******** HOURS, YEARS, trying to keep it going. Whole ******** nights in a kitchen, feeding and watching, trying so ******** hard, but does it work? Nooo. No, it doesn't. Heh. It's ******** stupid to try anymore, when you know it'll happen and you already see the next pit to move to - why the ******** should I stay when it's already gone? Yeah? Why the ******** SHOULD I have even tried? It's not like it would have changed anything and I'm HAPPIER now, 'cause I've got something better and I've forgotten all about it, I don't remember it and it doesn't MATTER anymore because I don't ******** CARE and I've got Blaire, who's better, she's better, I'm better, we're ALL ******** better and ******** Keith for acting like he's at all ******** BETTER because he isn't. ******** HIM. Because this is all his ******** fault - HE'S the one who ******** walked out, he's the one who didn't want to stay, I ******** stayed there - you know that?! I ******** stayed when I wanted to leave. I didn't have to, no, I didn't ******** have to. I could have left him when he killed that ******** - the blood was on HIS hands, not mine, I didn't have anything on it, but I ******** stuck there when I could have done something - I don't know WHAT, but I didn't have to, and he says that it was me. He said it was MY FAULT. My ******** fault - that I was the one who ******** DITCHED HIM. I didn't do ******** anything. I ******** knew we were ending, it was HIM who wanted to b***h, HIM who wanted to ******** around, because I KNOW he wanted to, I know he was ******** with someone else, I know that he - ********/> I didn't mean to. Blaire. I was gonna tell him. You know I was gonna. Right? But it happened too soon. I didn't.. I didn't think it was that big of a deal, but we were just ******** friends. We weren't anything special, we didn't make any ******** promises. I never said I wouldn't go with her, I never said I would BE THERE, I never said anything, just like he didn't say it TO ME, so how was I supposed to ******** know? But, that's how it is, huh? Isn't it? That's how it always ******** is. They never tell you s**t until it's already too late. They just assume. Always. Assuming. But, I was straight with her. She's straight with me. We're something more and she won't leave me. She won't leave me and I.. I.. I don't know. I just ******** don't know. Why ******** ask me? Why the ******** does anyone think I know this s**t? Why ******** trust that I know or think or want or ********/> ..Listen. You're the only one that will, 'kay? I know you're the only one who will because.. haha, You're a piece of paper. You have to listen to whatever I write down, you gotta, and you can't leave me before I can because, ********, you're a book. But, just ******** let me say it somewhere and maybe it'll make more sense - all of this - maybe it'll all be clearer if I can write it, then I can shorten it, then I can.. maybe, next time, because next time is gonna come, you know it, maybe next time I can say it faster and not do what I do. This happens. 'Kay? I'm not really.. I, ********, I don't.. I don't like this, but it's true, and I gotta say it somewhere so people get it for once and maybe they won't even when I do, but it's not like there's anything else I can try and I don't even see WHY I've gotta be the one to say it, because it's not ******** right that no one else can get it unless I do. I'm not.. anyone worth it. I don't get why anyone would think I am. I like to say it, you know? I like to think it sometimes, but it's not true and I know that. I'm not smart, I'm not someone that'll know what to do, when to do it, I'm not that type. I've done some stupid s**t, it should be ******** obvious, but everyone I.. Blaire, Keith, they both act like it ain't. They act like I should know this s**t. Like I should know what they think or want, what's happening when or where, but I don't. It's ******** plain and simple, hey, I ******** know it. If I know it, then it must be, yeah? Everyone else knows it too, it's just THEM that don't get it and I don't know WHY. Everyone else looks down on me and and I know I get angry, mad, I know I act like it hurts or something p***y-a** like that, but I already knew it so I'm used to this and.. ********, I just know it, alright? Don't ask why, but it's me and I should know me by now. Been eighteen years, ******** yeah I know me.
Maybe it's 'cause I don't say it right. But, I didn't think I HAD to say it at all. I didn't think they were gonna look at me like someone who's ******** like them. If I had known, I.. ********, I wouldn't have done anything. Because I never do anything. Why can't they know that? Why do they.. I don't.. I really don't understand and, ********, I know, this is gonna sound ******** shitty, but it's ********.. ******** - I feel like s**t when I'm near them. I feel like s**t when I ******** Blaire and hold her, I feel the same when I'm thinking about Keith, I felt it when we were still ******** what we WERE and I know I'm not ever gonna stop feeling like this because it's ******** true. I AM ******** s**t. I still am and.. I.. I don't like this, but what the hell do I do to change it? What the ******** do I do? They always make it seem so ******** easy. She does. She always acts like being her is simple s**t, something everyone can do and everyone DOES do it, but I CAN'T because I don't know HOW and.. I keep watching her, you know? I keep watching her and I wanna ask, but I won't.
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Posted: Wed Apr 27, 2011 10:39 pm
Fall 14th // Year Two // Entry 5 I still have this.. I didn't think I would, but some ******** are better at keeping this s**t than I am. I'm heading back. I didn't think I would, you know? When I got out, I thought I'd stay there or some s**t.. Because, ********, do you know what was there? I didn't. I still don't. She could be.. gone. Moved on. It's been a ******** long time, right? Why should she wait for me anyway? Since when did she wait for me? She was with ******** Lucy when I wasn't there and, ********, if we were kids or not, it didn't ******** matter. It's not like I can ******** blame her; I wouldn't ******** wait for me either. I didn't do anything for it, right? I didn't want to come back because maybe she did move on and maybe I wouldn't mind, because even if Lucy's a ******** pansy, he's still better Keith's gone too and, ********, if I had anyone else to go to. He'd probably ******** kill me and maybe I'd be okay with that too. I don't know ******** why I'm going back now.
Ha, no, I do. Cause there ain't anyone else. I'm ******** alone here too and I don't give a s**t if she's better without me or if he doesn't care any ******** more because I want need WANT it and she ******** promised, right? Lucas'd back off if he did move in and if he doesn't – .. He doesn't got it in him not to. Blaire would come back to me anyway. She did before, she'll do it again, yeah? Just wish he would too She should be happy to see me. She will be.
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Posted: Fri Aug 05, 2011 1:59 pm
Winter 5th // Year Five // Entry 6 So, ******** lot happened. Yeah, a lot. It's been ******** THREE years and.. Uh, well, I'm off the drugs. Yeah. Thought.. yeah, I won't ******** say what I thought. No ******** clue if - yeah. Hard as ******** s**t to get off of it though and ******** the bitches in that ******** clinic. I'd burn them alive if they weren't ******** elsewhere and.. I didn't care about ******** things up again. I'm with Keith again. 'Cause that's how it's supposed to be and does, so ******** off.
I ******** love Keith. Had to write it down somewhere. Hate ******** writing, so I'm done.
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High-functioning Marshmallow
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